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Fairlie McKenzie came next to be presented. I had the swift impression that I was being interviewed for a position as house-maid. Fairlie drew the eye like wildfire. Even in her late forties, it was nearly impossible to look away from her. I thought of what Lewis had said about the way she had looked as a young dancer just come to town, and I could see that girl in her as if in pentimento. Her heavy copper hair blew free in the wind and burned in the sun; she had sharp, foxes’ features and astonishing blue eyes and she moved like a beautiful snake, coiled and utterly unaware of her body.

“Anny,” she said, and Kentucky ran like rich sour mash through her voice. It was the Kentucky of thoroughbred farms, not coal mines. “We’ve all been waiting with bated breath to see what fabulous Mata Hari finally managed to get old Lewis to bring her onto sacred ground.”

“Not much of one, I don’t think,” I said, and she laughed, but did not say anything else. I did not like Fairlie McKenzie, not then. She was sharp and sarcastic, and her dancer’s body in her black racing suit fairly shouted “tacky” at mine in the Lilly.

Henry McKenzie came behind her. I loved Henry instantly. I thought most people would. Somehow, he radiated safety. He was the tall, fair-haired one I had noticed, and his brown body was as lanky and limber as a scarecrow’s. He had hazel eyes that seemed half asleep, and a smile that you could only call sweet. Every girl’s mother would have coveted him. It must have been a real loss to the Charleston gene pool when Henry picked the flamboyant Fairlie and moved her into Bedon’s Alley. Lewis had told me Henry was a cardiologist, and spent much of his time, when he could get away, working with native doctors in such agonizingly poor places as Haiti and the wild green heart of Puerto Rico, and even Africa. I thought, spitefully, that there was probably no chance that Fairlie accompanied him.

“Lewis has told me about your work at the agency,” he said. “It’s wonderful work. I’d like to talk to you about it one of these days. All of the countries I visit need something like that desperately. Maybe you’d like to come with us sometime and just see how we might go about it—”

“Henry, for pity’s sake,” Camilla said in exasperation and affection. “I’m sure Anny’s got a few other ideas about her life besides serving as an unpaid lackey for you in Hoo-Doo Hollow or wherever.”

“Well,” Henry said equably, “whatever she wants to do with her life, she sure is pretty.”

Fairlie snorted. The rest of the Scrubs laughed. Suddenly, it was all right. For that moment, everything was.

Simms and Lila Howard came last, together. If you were familiar with the city, you would have thought “Charleston” immediately upon sighting them anywhere in the world. Lila was small and neatly curved, and had chin-length honey-blond hair anchored away from her face with sunglasses on the top of her head. She was only lightly tanned, and had a heart-shaped face and large, far-apart brown eyes. She wore a boy-legged blue seersucker swimsuit faded almost to white, and there were little gold hoops in her ears. Her voice was honey and smoke, with Charleston’s peculiar broad
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embedded in it. Her smile was sunny. I could see her on some crepe myrtle–shaded veranda, asking if anyone would like their drink freshened up a tad. Simms was neither tall nor short, and slightly built, with brown hair going gray. He had the sleepy eyes and slow voice of every downtown-born man I had ever met, and I could imagine, over his baggy, knee-length madras plaid trunks, the downtown uniform of khaki pants, blue shirt, and bow tie. He had the white lines of a sailor incised into his forehead and around his eyes; Lewis had them, too. Lewis had told me that Simms was probably the best sailor in the Carolina Yacht Club, and was a fierce and focused competitor. That must, I thought, be the side of him that ran the second-largest medical supply company in the country. Here, in the dappled shade of the beach umbrella, the only side I saw was the easy, slightly lazy man who was boyhood friend and adult companion. I imagined that Simms made a great deal more money than any of the others, and could add to that Lila’s family’s two-hundred-year-old largesse. But here on this beach, under this sleepy sun, he was first and foremost a Scrub. I liked him for that, and liked Lila for her generous smile. Lewis had told me that Lila sold real estate, rather desultorily, in a small firm of downtown women who knew every house south of Broad and when it might come on the market weeks before it was listed. He said they made a lot of money.

“You are a breath of fresh air in this bunch,” Lila said, and hugged me. She smelled of lavender soap. Simms took my hands in his and smiled at me. “You are mighty welcome, Anny Butler,” he said. “We were fixing to throw this boy here out of the house for not pulling his own weight.”

“What he means,” Lila said, “is that we take turns bringing the food, and of course the women get stuck with that, and Lewis’s contribution, when he thinks of it, is to pick up some beer and boiled peanuts on the way out here. Prepare to help feed the multitudes, Anny.”

“Will takeout do?” I said, thinking of my schedule of late nights and early mornings.

“We’d be happy to get takeout,” Henry said. “We usually get tomato sandwiches and Kool-Aid because that’s what we all ate when we were kids over here. I for one would consider take-out exotic in the extreme.”

“You conveniently forget the gallons of she-crab soup and the tons of raw shrimp I lug over here,” Lewis said, grinning.

“Yeah, but your Sweetgrass housekeeper makes the soup and I happen to know you get the shrimp at Harris Teeter,” Simms said. “The rule is, we have to suffer for our feasts.”

“What’s this “we” stuff?” Fairlie said from under the huge straw hat she had put on.

“Since when have you learned to cook anything but tomato soup and toast?” Henry teased her.

“I clean up. I wash dishes,” she retorted. “While, of course, all you guys sit on the porch with cigars or go sailing.”

Gradually the conversation slowed and faded, and everyone seemed content to simply sit in the shade and gaze at the sea. I was glad of the quiet, glad the initial ordeal was past me, and tried to slump as casually on the towel as everyone else while keeping my skirt tugged down over my crotch.

Silence soon fell, and people lay back on towels and stretched in the green-tinted umbrella shade, and gradually breathing deepened. Somebody coughed, and somebody else cleared a throat; outside the little kingdom of our umbrellas the sounds of children and radios and waves and gulls swelled and faded as sounds do when you are sliding into sleep. For the first time that day, I felt my muscles slacken and my breath deepen. I can do this, I thought, just before my mind flowed away with the hush of the sea.

“ALLEY-OOP! OOP! OOP-OOOP-OOP!”

A squalling, near-demented howl jerked me out of sleep, heart hammering, and before I could blink, hands on either side of me jerked me up off the towel and across the beach at a stumbling run. Blinking and gasping, I saw that I was at the center of a line of Scrubs, being hauled relentlessly and ingloriously toward the sea.

“Stop!” I cried. “Stop! I haven’t been swimming in twenty years!”

But no one heard me, roaring and chanting as they were. Before I could get my breath, we were crashing through the surf and on out into rolling waist-deep water, and then a great swell took us and we all went under.

If you have not been into the ocean, really into it, in a very long time, you simply forget. You forget that to go deep, to let it take you completely, to bear you up on tides unseen in a green sun-shot stasis, is to roll and dive in weightlessness that is a sort of bliss. I think that it must be what those lovely, endless saline days swimming in the womb are like. That day, under the glittering surface of the sea off Sullivan’s Island, I drifted, spinning slowly in the water, shadowy and cool in its depths, brightening and warming as you looked toward the surface. My limbs became free and supple; my hair floated out like a mermaid’s; my ridiculous skirt flowed around me like silk gauze. I was lighter than air and more supple than a dolphin, and I did not want to come up. I could see why drowning might be seductive. When Lewis grabbed my wrist and jerked me to my feet in chest-deep water, I jerked back, frowning.

“Do you know how long you were down there?” he said tightly. “We thought we’d drowned you. Camilla has gone down the beach to the lifeguard station. What was the matter?”

“Nothing,” I said dreamily. “It was wonderful. I’d forgotten how it feels to really be all the way
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the ocean.”

“Well, you managed to scare the shit out of everybody,” Fairlie McKenzie said. “What do you do for an encore?”

“Shut up, Fairlie,” Henry said, and this time there was no softness in his drawl.

Lila ran down the beach to divert Camilla, and the rest of us gathered the towels and cooler and umbrellas and trudged back over the dunes to the house. The others bantered back and forth, but I followed along, head hung in mortification, feeling the suppleness leave my limbs and the grace seep out of my sopping skirt.

“I’m sorry,” I whispered to Lewis as we came up onto the porch.

“What for?”

“For scaring everybody like that.”

“Forget it,” he said. “Sometime I’ll tell you about the time Lila and Fairlie took the Whaler out on the creek and ran it aground in an oyster bed, and we had to get the Coast Guard to tow them in. You’re small potatoes to that.”

“It’s funny, then, isn’t it, that it was Fairlie who got so mad at me?” I said.

“That’s just Fairlie. She’s prickly and outspoken, and she’s jealous of anything or anybody who threatens to break up the group. But she’s the most loyal friend I know. Once she’s seen that you’re no threat to the group dynamic, she’ll take you in like a sister. Christ, you should have seen her with Sissy. She nearly flayed her alive with her tongue.”

“Did Sissy mind?”

“I don’t think she even noticed.”

“You’d think that someone from outside wouldn’t feel so strongly about the group,” I said.

“I think that’s precisely why she does,” Lewis said. “Go get dressed and we’ll start lunch. It’s the main event out here. Lasts for hours.”

I changed swiftly in the upstairs bathroom, the dim, underwater green of the old windows and mirror turning my puckered flesh fish white. I had locked the door, and when I came out, Fairlie and Camilla were walking around in the bedroom stark naked, towels wrapped around their hair, laughing and collecting dry clothes. Fairlie was smoking a cigarette. No one was hurrying.

“Hi, sweetie, are you okay?” Camilla said.

I nodded, vigorously, averting my eyes. I turned and went out the door and down the stairs in my dry shorts and shirt, hearing, behind me, the wasp buzz of Fairlie’s laugh.

Well, I thought, my boobs are bigger than hers. Next time I’ll show her. I can get as bare assed as anybody.

We had lunch at the scarred old trestle table on the screened-in porch. The wind had dropped at the turn of the tide, and the lazy overhead fan stirred the thick air just enough to dry the sweat that stood on our faces. Cheeks and shoulders were flushed with new pink, and wet hair dried uncombed. Fairlie and Lila and Camilla had opened boxes and bags and brought out wonderful things: caviar on ice and little toasts, piles of fresh fruit, bread and cheese and cold shrimp and crab legs, thin slices of smoked salmon. Many bottles of wine sat sweating on a side table. Tomato sandwiches and Kool-Aid, indeed.

“I’m really sorry,” I said. “I didn’t know about the food. I’ll bring double next time.”

Fairlie’s eyebrows rose: next time?

“Don’t worry about it, love,” Camilla said. “Lewis paid for the wine. Next time you can bring the entrée. Chinese takeout would be just fine.”

“I can do a little better than that,” I mumbled. I determined then to make something so incredibly elegant and difficult that it would be greeted with applause and cries of ecstasy, and bring it the next time we came.

We ate and drank wine and talked and laughed for three hours. Music from a cracked white plastic radio curled around us: the Tams, the Shirelles, the Zodiacs. Beach music. The talk was mainly of their childhoods, or their first years together as a group: this beach and this house were not, I saw, about times and events outside it. All of them had Charleston lives full to overflowing: work, other friends, families, charities, boards, vacations, bad times as well as good. But out here, among themselves, they could live for a bit in a time-stopped parallel universe. I did not mind the stories of people I would never know, jokes I would never understand, references that I could never connect until someone patiently did it for me. I knew that over time Lewis would bring me into the web of the Scrubs. For now I was content to sit, full of shrimp and wine, and listen to the intricate verbal tapestry of this group of friends. I had never heard its like before.

At last the red heat went out of the sun and the beach and the sea grayed, and the sky over the inland waterway opposite the house began to flush and then flame with sunset. Over the ocean, now dull pewter, a young moon rode high. And still they talked, and they talked, and they talked. I did not ever want them to stop. This was the new language that might define my life.

Nobody was in a hurry, or hungry. We sat until the thick, sudden darkness of the Low Country fell down over us, until the young moon whitened, until the swarms of stars came out. We sipped the last of the wine, and still they talked. When someone finally turned to me and said, “Tell us about you, Anny. Don’t leave anything out,” I found that I had almost no voice.

“I think I’ve forgotten how to talk,” I said, and they laughed, even Fairlie.

“A not-uncommon syndrome out here,” Lewis said. “I’ll tell y’all about Anny Butler, because she’ll leave the best stuff out.”

And he did. He told them about my childhood and my mother and sisters and brother, and about the agency and what it was and what I did there, and about our meeting the bobcat on the dock at Sweetgrass. I held my breath, but he did not tell them about the rest of that night. I thought, though, that it might be implicit, for everyone smiled indulgently.