And I thought it was just as well, too. Yasuo would probably sit with Josh, and after running into him and Lilac, I wasn't exactly in the mood to chitchat over cafeteria lasagna.
“You're missing lunch to work on that computer thing? You are such a dweeb, Drew. Didn't anyone tell you that blondes were supposed to be, I don't know, perkier or something?”
“Do
not
start on the blond thing, or I won't help you with tonight's proof.”
“Oh!” His hands clutched his breast like he'd been stabbed. “Whatever, Geek Girl. Just hurry up, okay?”
He headed for the door, but I stopped him. I knew I probably wouldn't make lunch, but there was no way I'd miss my favorite dessert. “Hey, if they have that shortbread stuffâ”
“Yeah, yeah. I'll save you some.” Yasuo shot me one of those careless-boy nods as he loped out.
Tracer Judge stood by the doorway, looking eager to shoo people through. Spotting me, he asked, “Did you need something?” He sounded agitated, which was completely unlike him.
Maybe today wasn't the best day to stay after. Or maybe he just forgot. My heart fell, thinking I might have to dine with Josh and his pals after all. I slowly shouldered into my coat, not sure how to play it.
He sighed, scrubbing his hand over his face. “Ohh, right. I was going to . . .”
“Teach me how to do that Linux hack.” I gave him a hopeful smile.
“I'm so sorry. I completely forgot. We'll need toâ”
Footsteps called our attention to the hallway. My Proctor, Amanda, stood there, frozen. Her eyes went from me to Judge and back again. Despite her pinched brow, she was as stunning as ever, statuesque in a fitted wool coat, her skin shining like a dark, burnished stone.
“Cheers.” She gave me a tight smile. “Lunchtime, then. Isn't it, dolly?” Her tone was light, but she seemed as preoccupied as Tracer Judge.
I didn't know what, if anything, was going on between these two, but I could take a hint. And the hint was
No Drews allowed
.
“You know”âI swung my bag over my shoulderâ“I need to take a rain check on the programming thing. I totally forgot . . . I promised . . . I'm meeting someone for lunch. I heard it's pasta day in the dining hall.”
A lame excuse lamely delivered, but from the relieved looks on their faces, it worked. I jogged to find Yasuo, then bounded down the stairs, keeping one eye glued warily on the path. I was still getting used to this cold-weather stuff, and didn't want to wipe out on any black ice. “Hey! Yas!”
He stopped, greeting me with a quizzical look. “What happened?”
“Well . . .” I hedged.
“He forgot, didn't he?”
“Something like that.” I actually sensed it was something like that and
more
, but in my short time on the isle, Amanda and Judge had both shown me moments of kindness, and I wouldn't speculate about things that weren't my business.
“Sorry, Nerd Bird. You'll get your moment. Wouldn't want to look too much like teacher's pet in the first semester, anyhow.” Yasuo's smile made the nickname affectionate, not an insult. He gave my shoulder a squeeze, and we strolled on toward the cafeteria in an easy, companionable way. “How'd a blondie like you get so dweeby, anyway?”
“Me? How about you? What's
your
deal, Yas? I mean, you seem pretty nice. How'd you end up
here
?”
“You mean, how'd a nice guy like me end up in a coven of ancient, bloodthirsty vampires like this?”
I chuckled. “Precisely like that.”
“Let's see. Here are the headlines: Mother Kidnaps Infant Son, Flees Yakuza Lover for America.”
I halted, stunned. It was the last thing I'd expected to hear. “
Jeez.
The Yakuza? That's like the Japanese mafia, right?”
He nodded. “Yeah, that's them. And the concept of
son
can be kind of a big deal. My biological father flipped when my mom left.”
“What happened?”
“We hid. I grew up. He eventually found us.” He forced a half hearted laugh. “I blame the Internet.”
There was obviously much more to the story. My voice was subdued as I pressed for more details. “And?”
Shutting his eyes, he took a shuddering inhale. “He killed my mother. And then I killed him.”
In that instant, I saw the great darkness that flowed beneath Yasuo's smiling demeanor. He cleared his voice, and with it, the shadows cleared from his brow. “Next thing I knew, I was in a town car headed to an L.A. airstrip.”
“The vampires?”
“Yeah, a Tracer named Gunnar found me.” He shrugged. “I was curious. I had nothing left. It was either stay and face my uncle and his minions, or
this
.” We'd reached the dining hall and he gestured toward it. “This seemed the lesser of two evils, believe me.”
“Oh, crap,” I whispered. Ronan, standing on the stairs ahead of us.
“What is it?” Yas asked, immediately on guard.
I studied Ronan. We were supposed to meet at the pool later, but there he stood, holding a big box, looking very stern. “Ask not for whom the bell tolls. . . .”
“Uhh . . .
what
?”
“It tolls for me.”
“Are you, like, speaking in tongues or something?”
“No.” I sighed. “Nothing. Go on in, Yas. I'll see you in there.”
I approached Ronan, alarms shrieking in the back of my mind. I looked skeptically at the parcel in his hands. “What's that?”
“It's for you.” He handed it to me. It was heavy and awkward, and my muscles flexed when I took it from him. “It's your wet suit.”
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
I
hunkered down in my seat, slamming the door to the old Range Rover harder than necessary.
Eating lunch had been impossible.
Fitness class unending.
Today's slew of Lilac barbs particularly excruciating.
All day, two images replayed on an obsessive loop in my mind: the canvas-wrapped body of the girl who'd died in the pool, and the thick black wet suit that hung in my locker like a skinned marine mammal. Did the wet suit mean I was going to have to go underwater? Hold my breath till bloody foam came out of my mouth? Was I to face something that would claw me enough to bring bits of gore floating to the water's surface?
“Why can't we do like normal people and swim in the pool?” I asked Ronan for the umpteenth time. “I like the shallow end. Our lessons have been going great.” Amazing how the threat of a nighttime swim in the frigid North Sea could make a pool seem infinitely less detestable.
I stared out the car window. Though the March sun set later than when we'd arrived in January, come late afternoon it always faded and the sky dimmed to a dull gray. “It'll be dark soon. Isn't it dangerous? Shouldn't we do this during broad daylight?”
“It won't be pitch-dark for hours yet.” Ignoring my tone, Ronan buckled his seat belt with that calm detachment he'd perfected and put the car in drive. “And even if it were dark, it's a good exercise. You won't face ideal conditions in the real world. Best not get used to them now.”
“Doesn't this send me from, like, zero to sixty? What happened to the noodle and my little blue kickboard?”
Abruptly, he pulled the car to the side of the gravel road. “The fighting will begin soon, Annelise. And then these girls will be your competitors in more than just the classroom. Do you truly want them to see you thrashing about in the shallow end?”
Fighting.
Girls had died already, and yet Ronan was telling me the challenges hadn't even begun yet? I tried to work some moisture back into my dry mouth. “Um, I'd rather they see my wet suit and think I'm a badass. . . .”
“That's the way.” He popped back into gear, turning onto a road I hadn't seen before. We bounced over a rocky trail rough and rutted enough to knock me back against the headrest.
Despite the madly jouncing SUV, Ronan elaborated in his typically cool Ronan fashion. “It's impossible to re-create natural conditions in a pool. Variables like temperature, wind velocity, currents, riptides . . . Visibility issues like murk, flora, black waterâ”
“Okay, stop.” I put up my hand. “You're freaking me out. Let's just start by mastering my float; then we can work our way up to murk. Which, by the way, I don't believe is a word.”
I think he actually smiled. Too bad I was too panicked to savor it. It seemed we really were driving to a cove, with me really wearing a wet suit. There was no stopping any of it.
He hit a huge pothole, and I grabbed the looped leather handhold on the door. “How come
I
have to do this as a special study? Am I the only person who can't swim?”
“No, you aren't the only one who can't swim.”
I waited for him to elaborate. Which, of course, he did not. “Well, why don't these other mysterious nonswimmers have to wear wet suits and go to Crispy Cove, too?”
“It's
Crispin's
Cove, and the other Tracers tutor as they see fit.”
The wet suit was riding up my backside in the most unpleasant way, but there was no chance I'd be working out any wedgies in front of Ronan. I did have some pride.
Putting it on had been a humiliating and demoralizing chore. It was heavy, it was daunting, and it had the most maddening up-the-back zipper, which had taken me ten minutes to master. At first I'd fantasized about asking Ronanâperhaps in my best sultry-starlet purrâif he'd zip me, but reality had found me hopping and grunting with one arm behind my back instead.
I plucked at the thighs, using the bounce of the tires to scooch back in my seat in an effort to free myself from my impromptu neoprene G-string. No luck, and it made me churlish. “Well, why doesn't
Lilac
have to swim in subzero water?”
“Your wet suit will keep you warm. And Lilac has her own special study.”
I sat upright, my mood brightening at once. “What's
Lilac's
weakness?”
Ronan turned onto a road even bumpier than the last. “Everyone is assigned a special study. None of them is your business.”
This was. If I was ever going to best von Slutling, I had to find her Achilles' heel. I remembered the elementary German workbook I'd spied on her desk. “It's some language thing, isn't it?”
Ronan stared ahead, refusing to answer.
“Hmph.” There went that conversation.
I stared out the window into the growing dusk, surlier than when we'd set out. I was trapped on this island, trapped in a too-tight wet suit, about to be trapped in freezing, black water. It put me in a complaining mood. “It's so dark here.”
“Enjoy it. You won't realize you miss the darkness until it's gone.”
“I doubt that.” I chafed my arms. We were in the middle of nowhere, and the prospect of vampires running amok in the steely half-light turned my skin to gooseflesh.
“We're close to the pole. Just as there are months of mostly darkness, there will come a time of near-constant twilight. They call it the Dimming.”
The word sent a shiver across my skin, even as a lightbulb went on in my head. We were near the Arctic Circle. Summer would be here before I knew it. Come June, there would be a sun that never set in a sky that was rarely bright. “The land of the midnight sun,” I muttered. “And that's why vampires like it?”
“Aye, that's why. It enables vampires to move about, imagining the sun on their skin, but without risk of discomfort.” His voice was laden with some heavy emotion that told me he spoke of more than just the loss of suntans and his daily dose of vitamin D. “So appreciate the darkness now, Annelise, because you'll miss it come the Dimming.”
“Fine. I'll start missing it tomorrow. How about that?” My heart rate spiked as a gently lapping cove came into view. The gunmetal sky was darkening rapidly now, pressing down on water the color of night. He pulled to a stop beside a jagged boulder, casting the car into cold shadow. I clung tight to my buckled seat belt. “But for now, it's too dark for my taste.”
“Annelise.” He turned to face me. Dramatic shadows accentuated his stubble, the cleft in his chin, the shock of hair on his brow, like he'd become a charcoal drawing. “There is no putting this off. You must learn. And you must open your mind to the night. It, too, has lessons to teach. There's a Chinese proverb. âBetter to light a candle than curse the darkness.' ”
“Thanks, Obi-Wan. I'll remember that as I drown.”
He raised his arm, and I bristled, wondering if he dared try one of
those
touches again. I held my breath, but the moment passed.