Jewels and Ashes (17 page)

Through provincial stations westwards, from the Bialowieza forest via Bielsk, before turning north, the train conveys me back towards Bialystok. Although it is barely a month since I entered Poland, Bialystok has become a home of sorts, a focal point around which the journey revolves.
Yet
1 continue to approach it with wariness. Faint traces of forgotten dreams are reawakened by the hypnotic pulse of trains moving across Polish landscapes; and no matter how evocative the scenery, I invariably turn to a more compelling inner world, churning with fragments that for a moment seem accessible, alight with magic and promise, before they fade into a disturbing sense of suffocation and dread.

One dream in particular, which had threaded through my childhood, resurfaces as a conscious memory. I am on a picnic with mother and father. Holding my elder brother's hand, I begin to stray into a nearby forest. Our parents' faces fade behind us; their comforting presence vanishes. We are alone, lost, wandering. Trees and bushes seem like shadowy creatures. In the distance a light appears. It draws us to the edge of a clearing where a massive fire is blazing. We remain hidden among bushes, and gaze upon figures darting with bodies which they hurl into the flames. As I turn to look at my brother, I realise he is clearly visible in the firelight. We are both fully exposed. There is no hope of escape. The figures are advancing towards us. I force myself to awake and, as always, I come out of the dream choking.

Friday, September 15, 1939. The second day of Rosh Hashonah. Midmorning. In crowded synagogues and houses of prayer, the New
Year
is being ushered in when townsfolk dash by, waving their arms in alarm, their voices straining with terror as they shout: ‘The Nazis are on the outskirts of Bialystok.
Loift! Untloift! Farbalt zich!
' — the age-old cry which precedes a pogrom. ‘Run! Flee! Hide yourselves!'

At noon the first Wehrmacht divisions appear on the deserted streets, firing flame-throwers through windows into homes and stores. Hundreds are wounded or killed in the assault. Raids, robberies, and arbitrary beatings become the order of the day. Women are shot for not giving up the rings on their fingers. The populace cowers indoors, sustained by one desperate hope fuelled by broadcasts on Moscow radio: Red Army troops have crossed the eastern borders and are heading in the direction of Bialystok.

On Thursday, September 21, three planes swoop in low to release pamphlets proclaiming the imminent arrival of Soviet forces. On Friday, Yom Kippur eve, German soldiers can be seen packing and taking to roads bound for Warsaw and the East Prussian border. The last retreating divisions are pelted with rocks hurled by embittered youths.

Towards evening the Red Army marches into a city decorated with red flags. Communal delegations greet them with flowers and speeches of welcome. Thousands of elated Bialystoker throng the streets. Jewish youths embrace Russian soldiers with great enthusiasm. On this, the holiest of nights, the culmination of the Days of Awe, orthodox Jews pack the synagogues and pray with renewed fervour. It is as if a miracle has taken place. Bialystok had been granted a reprieve.

On the Day of Atonement the town clock is reset to Moscow time. My grandfather, Bishke Zabludowski, stands again on the streets below, now selling the Soviet-backed Yiddish newspaper, the
Bialystoker Shtern
. The Nazi-Soviet pact, signed before the outbreak of war, has enabled the two empires to repartition Poland after a mere twenty-one years of independence. History has again turned full circle before Bishke's eyes, while he seems to have remained the one constant, the observer of yet another spin in Bialystok's fluctuating fortunes.

To this day, when Bialystoker refer to the winter of 1939-40, they shake their heads and exclaim: ‘You have no idea! Such frosts! So relentlessly cold! We were buried in snow. Water froze in the pipes. Field rats abandoned the countryside and sought shelter in the city. They scurried about our houses in hordes and fought over crumbs. Long queues would form soon after midnight as we vied for a meagre ration of bread. By the time the shops were within reach, the shelves were often already empty.'

But a haven it was, nevertheless, for refugees who stole across the nearby border, in flight from Nazi-occupied Poland. Within months the population had doubled to over two hundred thousand. The community responded with an open heart. Public kitchens were opened. Accommodation was provided in houses of study and private homes. And in Melbourne a decade later, a newly arrived immigrant, Pinchas Albert, told my father that he had been one of the many Warsaw Jews who had found temporary refuge in Bialystok, and that Bishke Zabludowski would regularly send him a loaf of bread, fresh from his daughter Etel's bakery. That bread became the key to Pinchas' survival. He had retained an image of it in the ensuing years — for there came a time when even the memory of a slice of bread was like manna from heaven.

Thereafter, whenever Pinchas saw father, he would remind him of Bishke's deed; while for father, this occasional reminder became one of the last treasured fragments of information about his own father.

In the ‘Red Paradise' as the town wags called it, there evolved an active and frantic night life. Yiddish and Russian drama ensembles, bolstered by actors and writers who had fled Hitler's pogroms, played to packed audiences in the Palace theatre. Eddie Rosner's renowned Warsaw jazz band had also shifted base to Bialystok. Guest singers, musicians, and the Yiddish vaudeville company of Zhigan and Schumacher toured the provinces. Cinemas were refurbished and their seating capacity increased in response to enthusiastic demand. The black market thrived, and illicit gambling houses found eager patrons in a city moving towards a degree of prosperity. Soviet occupation had opened up markets to the east. The textile industry was rejuvenated, and grandfather Reb Aron Yankev could again make his way to a factory job, soon after dawn, as the familiar wail of sirens signalled the start of another working day in Bialystok.

Reb Aron Yankev never allowed himself to be photographed. Not a single portrait exists. He regarded the camera as an ‘evil eye', an instrument of the devil. It could rob a man of his soul, erode him of the divine presence. So I picture him trudging to work, as my mother has described him, a small Yidl, averting his eyes from worldly distractions, locked tightly in a private dream of God and his Tzaddik, the Slonimer Rabbi. Reb Aron lived for his brother Hasidim, and for the lean wooden shtibl, the Slonimer prayer-house, where they would gather on Shabbes and holy days. It always seemed, says mother, that he was never quite in the world of the living, except when he was with his beloved Hasidim.

As a child, mother would sometimes deliver Reb Aron Yankev's lunch, and she had noticed that he often stood apart from the other workers. He ate alone, since they were unbelievers. He wrapped himself in a cocoon which thickened as he became older. By then his own children had become unbelievers, or as good as such in his eyes, since they flirted with modernity, shunned arranged marriages, joined leftist political groups, or had left Bialystok altogether to move thousands of miles to the ends of the earth, where they lived, surely, among pagans and apostates.

We can merely speculate about Reb Aron Yankev's thoughts in the factories of the Red Paradise, for he never wrote to his three daughters in the New World; besides, we have reached that point where mother cuts her stories short. Her eyes are lowered, her head slowly nodding. It is as if, so many years later, long after the Event, she still cannot understand how it could have taken place.

Despite the renewed prosperity, the night life, and the large Soviet department stores, all was not well in the Red Paradise. In the shadows there glided the keepers of the city. It was a time for compiling files — intelligence records about suspect ideas and the individuals who held them. The New Order thrived on denunciations, stool pigeons, and informers. Many an old score was settled by a discreet visit to the offices of the secret police.

There are Bialystoker, survivors, who still recall precise details of the first raid, the sound of banging on doors at 3.30 a.m. in mid-April 1940, and the order: ‘You have half-an-hour to be ready!' Factory owners and merchants, rabbis and priests, refugees and Polish officers, an assortment of souls labelled as ‘untrustworthy elements' were led to the Bialystok station and crammed into freight wagons. ‘On the sides of the wagon was written “capacity eight horses”. Or was it twelve?' Memory is slippery at such a distance in the living rooms of suburban Melbourne. But there is agreement that about sixty people were conveyed in each wagon and that, many days later, after a suffocating journey across mountain ranges and through vast tracts of forest, they arrived in ‘The Land of the White Bears': Siberia.

After subsequent raids many more men were jailed in Bialystok prisons, and their wives and children banished to the Soviet interior. Yet, for all this, Bialystok remained a place of refuge, and the populace was fully aware of it. Despite the news censorship, the refugee grapevine had kept them informed of the terror raging on the other side of the border. The Jews of Bialystok clung to their reprieve.

The air is pungent, the streets dancing with afternoon light. It rebounds from pavements and reflects a golden glow on the windows of ageing tenements. I make my way from the station towards Witold's flat, my Bialystok address. From Kosciuszki Square, the cobblestoned heart of the city, past the clock-tower, I skirt the city gardens before turning, like a homing pigeon, into the narrow streets of the Chanaykes.

Weekend delirium permeates alleys and lanes. Children clamber over an abandoned car and stomp on the roof in a frenzy. Dogs leap excitedly at their feet, yelping and howling. Factories are at rest. The week's work is over. Shabbes is approaching. And in the fading light I can imagine them, as they stream from the Great Synagogue and smaller houses of worship.

Among them walks Reb Aron Yankev, from the Slonimer shtibl towards the Chanaykes. Even though mother had strayed from the ways of her elders, she refers to Shabbes in Bialystok as the most magic of times, and she has always maintained the ritual of blessing the Shabbes-licht. Every Friday evening, throughout my childhood, she would place two candlesticks upon a newly washed white cloth over the kitchen table, and light the candles as it grew dark.

The candles have burnt low. Wax pours down the sides and swells in a heap at the base. Reb Aron sits by the table after the meal, overcome by fatigue. His entire body is enveloped in warmth. He surrenders to dreams, his face resting upon his arms. The Queen of Shabbes now reigns supreme.

He awakens several hours later, stretches, runs cold water over his face, wraps himself in a white satin coat, and descends into Ulitza Kievska. He makes his way to the Slonimer shtibl, which stands in a lane not so far from the shadows of the clock-tower. As he enters he is greeted with enthusiasm. ‘Reb Aron, give us a tune!', they exclaim.

Flasks of brandy stoke the fire. Arms linked, shoulder to shoulder, they dance in short measured steps that move slowly at first, and then quicken to the pace of the melody. Eyes are closed, faces tilted upwards. Heads sway from side to side. The circle closes, and an ancient fear evaporates. They are the heirs of the Baal Shem Tov, Master of the Good Name, who had appeared not so many years ago, in a village not so many miles away, after the people had emerged from a great calamity. And he had proclaimed that to sink into gloom is to invite the presence of the Evil One. Counter him with ecstatic prayer, he had counselled. Oppose fear with dance, he had advised. Find your way back to the Creator, he had urged.

Another sip of brandy and Reb Aron is spinning. All faces have dissolved into one face, ascending between earth and heaven, beyond conflict and struggle, beyond a scarcity of bread and tedious hours of work; beyond drunken peasants on a rampage; beyond rival armies and contending empires; beyond history's abrupt twists and shifts; and beyond an incessant undertow of fear and suspicion, until merged, within each other, in a whirling circle of light.

In the pre-dawn darkness Reb Aron wanders the silent streets of the Chanaykes, his feet pounding the cobblestones, his head soaring above the roofs, somewhere in the higher heavens. And, as she tells the story, mother's eyes shift upwards, as if fixed upon a waning mirage called Bialystok.

Yet again the fate of Bialystok is heralded from the skies. Before dawn an unsuspecting populace is suddenly awoken by the sound of shattering glass and the shrill scream of Luftwaffe fighters engaged in aerial battles with Soviet planes. Columns of smoke billow towards the heavens as bombs fall upon a military base and civilian suburbs; and one of them explodes upon the home of Reuben Zak, his wife Feigele, and his daughter Liebele.

Feigele, father's youngest sister, was the very same Feigele who had gone missing on the day the Zabludowski household was hit by bomb fragments at the outset of the first War. She had been one of the first and youngest of the wounded. This time she was one of the first to be killed. Reuben, his wife, and child were wiped out in that very first raid, in the early hours of Sunday, June 22, 1941.

An aunt, uncle, and cousin accounted for. A fragment falls into place. The mosaic is taking shape. This is a tale of fragments. There is no other way to tell it. This is my inheritance: shreds of family fate seeking recognition. It can only be pieced together.

Those with transmitters heard the news on Berlin radio: at four a.m. the Nazis had crossed the western borders and had launched an invasion of the Red Empire. The Soviet-Nazi pact was in tatters. The Jews of Bialystok were overcome by a chilling fear. They ran to each other's homes seeking reassurance. They clung to the hope that the Reds would repel the attack. At noon they heard the Soviet foreign minister, speaking on Moscow Radio, remark that Hitler had invaded in the same month as had Napoleon. An even darker fate awaited Hitler, he predicted.

His words were of little comfort to a Bialystok under siege. It was soon evident the Red Army was in complete disarray. Officers and commissars were seen loading their wives and children into military vehicles. Grabbing their most precious possessions, they fled east. The panic spread quickly. Trains were choked with passengers. The highway to Minsk overflowed with thousands on the run, clutching packs and sacks, driven by one thought: to escape as fast as possible from the plague about to infest Bialystok. Everything was reduced to a cold sweat, or so I imagine it, from a childhood experience, when a neighbourhood bully gone berserk took after me with a knife — houses seemed to sway and recede out of focus; the ground beneath my feet appeared unsteady.