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20 - Carnelian Secrets

Krishani flinched at the sound of Tiki’s voice and snapped to attention. He fell asleep in the cabin hours ago and got lost in another dream about Kaliel. He felt the familiar stab of pain as the essence of her faded. He met with the startling realizing he was on Terra. Nothing magical would ever happen on Terra. It was so unlike Avristar it made the ache in his chest even worse.

“Your love for her was deep,” Tiki said.

Krishani swung his legs over the bed. He hadn’t bothered to remove his boots or his garments and armor; they were still soiled from the battle with the man and the Vultures. He stared at the glowing orb in the lantern, the only light in the cabin since the sun had set again. He had slept the day away. He heaved in a deep breath, feeling nostalgia and melancholy.

“She was …”

“Everything.”

“And I’ll never be with her again.” The stabbing pain hit his heart as he recalled Elwen’s words.
Ten thousand years.
The truth reverberated in his ears as he moved to the window. He pulled back the cloth and looked down. The horse was still there, whinnying and hungry.

“She was so brave,” Tiki continued.

“I was too late.” He stumbled onto the bed and held his head in his hands. It was no different than a Vulture coming to steal a soul. He had been too late to do anything for Kaliel and the guilt washed over him like poison.

“She was brilliant,” Tiki said. She shone a faint tinge of orange. Krishani mustered a smile he thought felt more like a frown. Being with Tiki felt almost like home.

“I worry about what happened to her,” he said.

“Is that why you found me?” Tiki asked.

Krishani shook his head. “No.” He stopped. There was noise outside the cabin. He gave Tiki a cautioning look and opened the door. He descended the wooden stairs and went to the horse. Sunset was ending behind the mountains and the wind picked up. To the east clouds were rolling in. They looked ominous. He untied the reins and pulled the impatient horse to the lake. He stood there awhile, staring at the water, avoiding the body stretched out on the beach. It was hardly what it used to be earlier; birds and forest animals had picked at it, making it unrecognizable. Krishani thought about what he said to Tiki. He was too late. Elwen warned him what would happen if he was too late and a person died without his protection. Maybe it was better he never laid eyes on the foe. He would never know what was worse than a Vulture, and he never wanted to. If Crestaos was twice as frightening, Krishani was unsure what he would do. He knew the horse was starved so he pulled it towards the hills. He stole a careful glance in the direction of the path he’d traveled—it was deserted. Mallorn and Pux hadn’t come looking for him. He sighed. He never wanted either of them to be hurt by him, and yet they refused to let him go alone. Istar had taught him how to listen to the land, how to survive, and those skills aided him well. He idly looked at the clouds and thought about how unfortunate it would be if it began to rain. They would be stuck inside all night. Krishani had to ask Tiki the question she feared the most. He didn’t know if he could bring himself to do it.

The horse lifted its head and Krishani patted it on the neck. “They didn’t tell me your name, so I will call you Tyr.” He pulled the horse back to the cabin and tied it up. It made him think of home. Umber and Rhina had always had their own personalities. Tyr eyed him; the horse had nothing but instincts within it. Krishani couldn’t feel its voice or its spirit. He checked the knapsacks to take stock of his supplies, and caught a flash of Kaliel’s leather-bound journal. He hadn’t read it yet. Reaching for it he took it and went back into the cabin.

“Why did you come?” Tiki asked as Krishani appeared in the doorway. He crossed the floor and sat on the bed, resting the journal on it. He wanted to tell Tiki the truth, he meant to find the Flames and kill them before Crestaos had a chance to take them for himself, but he stopped. Tiki seemed impossibly immortal, and without a physical form, she was an anomaly.

“Kaliel.” He choked on her name. It was the first time he had said it in a long time. “She would have wanted me to protect her kind.”

Tiki glowed brighter than usual. “Thank you.”

“What were you doing with the man?”

The glow slightly faded. “He took me long ago. I never had a home, just fuzzy memories of a life I used to live. He was surprised when I glowed. He had no idea I could speak.”

Krishani frowned and touched his forehead.

“No, he was a human. There was nothing special about Osvanir. He collected me and put me in a bag, and later into a lantern. I was his prisoner, but he wanted nothing more than for me to light his way in the dark.”

“That actually doesn’t sound so bad.” He peered into the lantern and noticed Tiki wasn’t just in a lantern; she was also contained within a small orb resting where the candle would normally rest.

“No, not compared to what the others have faced.”

“Do you know how I found you?”

“The Amethyst Flame told you.”

“Aye.”

“And you don’t know what to do with me. You killed Osvanir so you could own me.”

Krishani looked away as her light dimmed and the cabin grew darker. Winds whipped the rocks and the little wooden domicile shook. “It was an accident. He attacked me.” He paused and then got up and went to the windows. Clouds covered the night sky, making it unnaturally dark. He turned back to her. “And I saved him from the Vultures.”

“What are Vultures?”

“Nevermind.”

“Do you believe I owe you?” Tiki asked.

“For what?”

“For slaying my captor and freeing me
.
”

Krishani frowned. “Not if you believe I’m another captor.”

Tiki glowed. “No, I don’t feel that way. I enjoy your company.”

“Because I can hear you?”

“Because you don’t act like it is unnatural to hear me.”

He smiled. “Her eyes used to turn amethyst when the Flame was awake in her. And her aura glowed.”

“I have my secrets, too.”

Krishani stretched out on the bed. His limbs felt heavy even though he had spent the day sleeping. He shifted, pulling the chainmail over his head and dropping it beside the bed. The garments Elwen provided them were scratchy; the gray tunic wasn’t his idea and the black cloak, even though it was the one from Avristar, felt grungy. “What if I had to ask you something?”

“I will answer what I can.”

He closed his eyes and thought for a moment. He wanted to ask two questions, but they were almost the same thing. “Where is she?”

“I don’t know.”

Krishani grabbed the lantern off the end table. He held it in front of his face, his eyes wide at the gesture. “She could sense all of the Flames.”

“And so can I, but I can’t see her anymore.”

Krishani felt like the land was toppling over again. He set the lantern down and pushed himself back into the bed. He wanted to be sure Kaliel was in the Great Hall, that Crestaos hadn’t taken her, but he didn’t know how to explain the golden stairways and the lavishly decorated courtyards to Tiki. He had never seen them himself, but he heard the stories of the Great Hall in Amersil all the time. The stories were usually coupled with stories about great wars and valiant warriors falling to honorable deaths. He didn’t know what was honorable about his life, his duty. He just needed to be sure this wasn’t for nothing; it would be worse if she were his pawn.

“I can’t see much. I see lights and no lights. There are seven lights right now, and me. Kaliel was the eighth light, but it went out.”

Krishani stayed quiet for a long time. Kaliel had seen the lights, too. If she wanted to she could reach out and touch them. Her light went out. It meant she was dead and not with Crestaos, but it also meant she was in the place he couldn’t go to for ten thousand years. The Great Hall was a place for souls—human, elven, feorn, centaur, shee. It wasn’t a place for Ferrymen. He blinked and tried to pull his thoughts together. “Will you tell me where the other Flames are?”

“Why?”

“I need to find them.”

Tiki’s light went almost completely dark. She retreated within herself and cast the cabin in shadow. Krishani sat on the floor beside her. He knew it came out wrong. He meant to say he wanted to protect them and to do that he needed to find them.

“Please, they can’t face the Valtanyana,” he said.

“I can’t …” Her light glowed faintly.

“I won’t harm them.”

“That’s not the problem.”

“I want to help.”

“Then stop asking questions.”

The light dimmed to nothingness and Krishani shoved himself backwards. He sat there in the dark for hours, waiting for Tiki to show herself again. After a long time he pawed through the dark, picked up the lantern and put it on the end table. He made a fire, and sat by it, pouring over the journal, all the things Kaliel never said to him. He hummed a folk tune from Avristar, went outside and checked on the horse twice, letting it drink twice and letting it eat once. He scavenged the cabin for Osvanir’s effects. He found a few more weapons, daggers and an axe. He rummaged in his knapsacks for the last of the bread. When he saw dawn creeping over the horizon he worried he would have to go without any idea
where
he was going. When morning fully showed itself Krishani took the lantern in his hands.

“We can’t stay here, Tiki.”

She didn’t glow.

Regret washed over him as he left the cabin and packed her into the knapsack. As he closed the top and went to secure it he saw a faint glow emanating through the fabric. He curiously lifted the top and peered into the orangeness.

“Too many Flames in one place is dangerous,” she squeaked.

Krishani glowered at her. “What do you want me to do then?” Tiki went dark again and he growled. “I can’t wait until the Valtanyana has them!”

“You can’t open vortexes to retrieve them either.”

Krishani hadn’t thought of that. It wasn’t something they talked about a lot in Amersil, but the art of leaving Avristar on the boat was like opening a vortex. There were ways to get to all the lands scattered across the stars, but he needed to know coordinates, incantations, permissions. He slumped against the wooden steps. His strength was back, but his will was defeated. Without his quest for the Flames he had little to live for, biting frost of Vultures and hundreds of people fleeing from unbeatable Horsemen. He hated the idea of letting himself become a Ferryman, and though the idea of becoming a Vulture seemed quick and painless, it was useless. He wanted neither end.

“I will stay with you,” Tiki said.

“And what good will it do?”

“I will tell you one of my secrets.”

Krishani gritted his teeth. “What is it then?”

“Take me out of the lantern.”

He opened the chamber and carefully lifted the orb out of it. A current ran up his arm as he touched her. It was subtle, and uncomfortable. The pain the Vultures caused was worse, and so he cupped her between his palms.

Tiki shone brighter than she had before, and the light was so intense that he had to close his eyes. Calm, soothing feelings pressed into him, the constant throbbing attacking his heart subsided incrementally. It was as though Tiki built an imaginary dam and his emotions were building up on the other side of it, barricaded. When he opened his eyes Tiki was a pale, sickly orange. He shook his head in disbelief and put her back into the lantern.

“What did you do?” he asked.

“I will bear some of the burden sitting on you, if you promise not to harm the Flames.”

“I promise.”

“Then we need to get to the shore. I fear something is wrong. The Citrine Flame is nearby.”

Krishani mounted Tyr and galloped towards the lake.

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