Kay Springsteen (35 page)

Making an impatient sound, Seabrook guided her to the carriage door and all but shoved her inside with one hand to her backside.

She
’
d apparently committed a major blunder. And from the grim set to his features as he followed her into the
coach
and took the seat opposite her again, he wasn
’
t any too happy about it.
“
To Webber and Thatcher,
”
he ordered the driver through the sliding panel and then shut it with a solid thump.

The carriage lurched forward.

Seabrook
settled
back, pursing his lips as he sometimes did when he was considering a problem.

I
’
m the problem
he seeks to solve
,
she acknowledged sadly.

With deliberate movements, he removed his wide-brimmed hat and placed it on the seat next to him. He sat staring at her through hooded eyes, tapping his fingers on one leg.

But he never uttered a word.

At last, unable to suffer his silent scrutiny any longer, Annabella cried out,
“
I
’
m sorry. I
’
m so terribly sorry.
”

Seabrook sighed.
“
What are you sorry for, Annabella? The list of possibilities seems rather lengthy at the moment.
”

Annabella inhaled deeply and released it slowly, feeling herself deflate by inches.
“
Everything,
”
she mumb
led, meeting his level gaze.
“
I
’
m sorry for everything. But just now… it — that street was appalling. The people were… impoverished.
Those
in the clinic… they were so
ill
…
”

Seabrook
’
s lips twitched.
“
Coventry is but one city in a vast world. And by far this is neither the best nor the worst in terms of poverty.
”

In other words, she hadn
’
t seen the worst of the world. But did he have to address her in that indulgent tone as though she were a child? She
’
d rather have him snappish.

The carriage jolted and Annabella braced a hand on the seat to keep from tumbling sideways. Seabrook rather maddeningly maintained his balance without resorting to such maneuvers.

He glanced out the window then turned back to her with a long sigh.
“
I wish to offer my own apology, Annie. The clinic was no place to take you. I should have spared you the…
”
He shook his head as though lost for words.
“
I suppose you could call it the ugliness of being poor and in ill health.
”

He doesn
’
t have to go to the clinic either. Surely
Blackmoor
has a solicitor
to
handle
such
business.
“
But you go there. Do you visit often?
”

Seabrook shrugged then directed his attention back out the window.
“
I offer what assistance I can.
”

Generous
. The nurse in the clinic had called him generous. The coughs and crie
s from the people moving about had made it difficult to understand much of what
she and
Seabrook
had said
. But Annabella had caught snippets. The nurse had thanked him for
a
donation.
His
donation. Not the dowager, then. And she couldn
’
t quite recall, but
it seemed Seabrook had mentioned seeing that the clinic had the funds to hire more staff. Oh, why hadn
’
t she paid more attention? She might have learned more about the man she had married.

Because you
’
re a chicken brain and you ran like a coward,
her consc
ience
reminded her.

The carriage stopped and the door soon opened. This time when Seabrook exited and turned to help her out, he offered only a confident grip and a word of caution.

“
I
’
ve just got some
brief
estate business to conduct at my solicitor
’
s office
.
”
He gestured at a small park across the street.
“
In the meantime, perhaps you would enjoy a stroll. Coventry isn
’
t London, but it has its attractions. Thomas will accompany you.
”
He motioned to the footman.

Taken aback, Annabella simply stared. He was
politely telling her he didn
’
t want her to accompany him.
Do you blame him after your behavior at the clinic? No wonder Mother is always telling you to act like a lady.

“
I shouldn
’
t be long.
”
He released her hand and departed without a backward glance.

****

After a moment of congratulations, Alfred Webber droned on about the legalities and the necessity for legal proof
— he
’
d need Annabella
’
s marriage lines for that
.
Hopefully she hadn
’
t burned them.
Webber’s thin white hair stuck out at angles from his head. His white linen shirt had been stained by flecks of dark ink.
Despite his unkempt appearance, the man had a brilliant mind that missed no detail.

And he was insisting on going over those tiresome details of Grandfather’s will — the ones Jon had studied for the past several years.

Jon
turned away, his mind only half on what Webber was saying
. Through the tiny window over the solicitor
’
s shoulder, he caught sight of Annabella standing at the canal basin and looking along the waterway. She had her back turned, so he couldn
’
t see her expression, but she stood straight and tall as she stared along the canal. Was she wondering where it led? If it would carry her away?

Everything was wrong. A man
’
s wife shouldn
’
t want only to leave him.
Abruptly,
Jon pushed to his feet.
“
If you will excuse me, Mr. Webber, I have another engagement.
”

The solicitor blinked in surprise.
“
Certainly, Lord Seabrook.
”
Webber shuffled some papers and stood.
“
I shall prepare the papers we discussed and make all the necessary arrangements so you may receive your inheritance. Will you be returning to my office or should I come out to Blackmoor?
”

“
Please come to Blackmoor, Mr. Webber.
”
Jon winced at his sharp tone but made no apology as he left the solicitor
’
s office.

He crossed the square with his eyes locked on his wife, his long stride quickly consuming the distance between them. But when he got within several yards of her, his determination faltered and so did his steps. He motioned Thomas back to the carriage a
nd the man left without a word.

Annabella stood stock still
; if she knew he was there she didn't show it
. A wooden narrowboat bobbed at the dock, riding high in the water. Empty then. No one else was about. A whinny filtered from the stables behind the dock. One of the towing horses anxious to get to work
,
perhaps
?

The wind lifted several strands of her hair that had fallen free. The urge to take off her hat and loosen the rest so it could blow in the breeze nearly overwhelmed him.

How many times had Jon stood in
that
very place and imagined taking a journey along the canal to… anywhere?

“
It
’
s quicker to take the post to London,
”
he said softly.
“
But if you
’
re wondering, the canals will get you there eventually — and without the jolting and jarring.
”

“
A boat just left,
”
she said without looking at him.
“
It looked like a long, long log floating in the water. The pilot climbed aboard, and then the man leading the horses just started walking. How odd to think of horses pulling a boat through the water.
”

“
They can pull a much heavier loa
d on the water than over land.
”
Jon rolled his eyes at his inanity. She didn
’
t need a lesson in shipping by canal boat.
You know what she needs…

He stepped closer so they stood side by side, staring over the water. He had so much to say to her but the words wouldn
’
t form.

“
There is, you know,
”
she said quietly.

“
Beg pardon?
”
Had he voiced a thought aloud without realizing it? When he turned, she was regarding him openly, without guile.

“
You asked if I might find something about you to tolerate.
”

The breeze whipped up again, sending her flowery scent to tease him. She touched her tongue to her lips and then slowly rolled the bottom one inward.

“
I…
”
How could he answer that? He
had
asked the question, after all.

“
I find quite a few things about you tolerable… more than tolerable, actually.
”
Her face colored up but she didn
’
t look away.
“
You
’
re kind but you don
’
t like others to know.
”

He stiffened at the near direct hit.

“
I like how you think quickly. Nothing affects you that you can
’
t overcome.
”

He wasn
’
t so certain of that.

“
Nothing seems to surprise you.
”

Now there, she was wrong.
She
surprised him every day.

Annabella shifted her gaze back to the water.
“
Did you ever wonder what it would be like to get on one of those boats and just be carried away on the water?
”

“
Every day since I was a boy,
”
he said, smiling at childhood memories that suddenly flashed through his mind.
“
My father brought me down here often when I was young, and we
’
d spend hours watching them loading and unloading the boats. Silk, satin ribbon, iron… I
’
ve always felt trapped on land ever since my first day here.
So much so that
I developed the notion of starting a shipping company.
”
He wanted to drape his arm around her shoulders or at least take her hand.

He did neither.

Silence fell between them, enhanced by the gentle slap of water against the dock and the distant hum of conversation along the street behind them.

Why had he told her his dream? She couldn
’
t possibly be interested.

“
My father — 
my
real
father — 
was in shipping,
”
she said, her
voice tinged with sadness. She angled her gaze in his direction and the same sentiment reflected in her eyes.
“
Price Company. Business took him away a lot and I missed him
dreadfully
. Mother and I hardly got on at all. But oh, how I loved Papa. He always s
eemed to be leaving…
”
She returned her gaze to the canal but her voice was so dreamy and faraway, Jon knew it wasn
’
t the water she was seeing.
“
When he came back, he brought me presents and sugar-stick candy — lemon and peppermint. And I felt like I was th
e only person in the world who mattered to him.
”
She held up her fan.
“
This was the gift he brought me from the last trip he took. He finally stayed home, but he—
”
Her sharp intake of breath might have been a sob but after a moment she continued with a qua
ver in her voice.
“
He died less than two years later.
”

The slash to Jon
’
s heart was sudden and unexpected, the emotional pain so exquisite he nearly staggered with it. But if he felt such anguish, what must she be feeling?
To have
carried the torment all those years since her father
’
s death — it was unbearable to think about.

“
I
’
m sorry.
”
The words were woefully inadequate
,
of course, but he
’
d had to say something.

“
I think of him often,
”
she admitted with a sad smile.
“
But something about being
here
makes
me feel closer to him.
”

“
Maybe he
’
s nearer than you think.
”
Jon slipped his hand around hers and gave her a gentle
squeeze
.

Silence cocooned them again, more comfortable than the previous quiet had been. After a moment, she returned his squeeze. The heaviness in Jon
’
s heart abruptly lifted and a peculiar sensation of floating above the ground jolted his awareness. Maybe the conversation he
’
d intended to have with her could wait after all.

“
Annie?
”

She sighed and raised an eyebrow but didn
’
t correct h
im
.
“
Yes?
”

“
There
’
s something I like about you as well.
”

A nervous laugh slipped from her lips.
“
Really… I can
’
t imagine what.
”

“
Your spark… your inner fire.
”

A lovely smile bloomed on her face.

Jon only wished he
’
d told her sooner. He couldn
’
t do anything about that. But there was one thing he could do.
“
Come along then.
”

She giggled and he embraced the tinkling sound of her unequivocal happiness.

“
Where are we going?
”

“
Market Street, Horne
’
s Sweet Shoppe.
”
He smiled down at her, pleased to see the shadows were leaving her eyes.
“
I
’
ve a taste for some lemon stick candy.
”

At his words, she turned and flung herself into his
embrace
, twining her arms around his neck and pressing herself against him in a tight hug. A most unseemly hug.

He hugged her back. Then he gestured toward the
coach
, and they began walking. As they passed the printer
’
s shop, though
,
Annabella halted and peered at a notice in the window.

“
Seabrook, do you know what the Mercian Bowmen Archery Society is?
”

Her question brought him up short. He hadn
’
t thought of the Society in several years.
“
Yes, Gran is a member… as… am I.
”
He bent forward to read the notice she pointed at, announcing the next tournament.
“
They hold several of these contests throughout the year.
”

A wistful sigh escaped her as she reached out and trailed a finger across the glass.
“
I should like to see a tournament one day.
”
She glanced over her shoulder and met his stare, her face alive with excitement.
“
Do you compete, Seabrook?
”

“
You know what I should like, Annie?
”
murmured Jon, unable to hold back. He captured her hand and held it between both of his.
“
I should very much like it if you called me by my given name.
”
At her sharp gasp, he held his breath, waiting.

“
Jonathan?
”
came her tentative whisper.

Warmth spread over him, followed quickly by chills when she offered a shy smile.
“
Thank you, Annie.
”

Her smile widened.
“
Or perhaps I should call you… Jonnie?
”

He winced.
“
Not if you expect an answer.
”
That jab almost hurt, but he supposed he deserved her teasing.
“
Most people I
’
m close to call me Jon.
”