Authors: Nora Roberts
“Yes. I've got some pride and some shame along with the rest of it. I'm entitled to what I feel, Bradley. Do you think I wanted to take you along, in your Armani suit, to that broken-down trailer?”
“That's not fair, Zoe.”
“No, it's not fair, but it's the truth. My mama already thinks I've got airs or something. If I'd gone in there with you . . . Well, just
look
at you.”
She waved a hand and nearly laughed at the exasperation on his face. “You got rich boy all over you, Bradley, in or out of that Italian jacket.”
“For Christ's sake,” was all he could think to say.
“You can't help it, and why should you? Besides, it suits you. It wouldn't have suited her, and I needed to see her, to talk to her. There were things I needed to say that I couldn't have said with you there. Or with Malory or Dana either. I needed to go back there for myself, and for the key. It was for me to do.”
“What if you hadn't gotten out again?”
“I did. I'm not going to say I wasn't scared when it all started to happen. I've never been so scared.” Instinctively, she rubbed her arms as if chilled. “It was like an ambush, the way everything changed, the way he came at me. It was almost like a storybook, and that's what made it so frightening.”
She looked past him now, back to where she'd been. “Lost in the woods, and being hunted by something . . . not human. But I fought back. That's what I was supposed to do. In the end, I hurt him more than he hurt me.”
“You beat him with a stick.”
“It was bigger than a stick.” Her mouth curved a little as she saw the temper was easing on his face. “It was a good, sturdy branch about this thick.” She demonstrated by holding her hands apart. “And between being scared and spitting mad, I whaled the hell out of him. Of course I don't know how it would've turned out if the buck hadn't waded in. But I don't have to, because he was there, and Kane was there. That tells me I did something right by being there.”
“Don't go back alone, Zoe. I'm asking you. I walked in here tonight fully intending to tell you. But I'm asking.”
She picked up a cookie, broke it in two, then offered him half. “I was thinking I'd drive into Morgantown tomorrow, go by the place where I lived, where I worked, where Simon was born. Just see if that's the next turn. If I could get going first thing in the morning, I could get back by around two, three at the latest, then squeak out a little time at the salon. Maybe you could go with me.”
He simply pulled out his cell phone, punched in a number. “Dina, it's Brad. Sorry to call you at home. I need you to clear my schedule for tomorrow.” He waited a beat. “Yeah, I know. Reschedule it, will you? I have some personal business to take care of, and it's going to take most of the day. I should be able to swing in after three. Good. Thanks. 'Bye.”
He clicked the phone off, tucked it away. “What time do you want to leave?”
Oh, you are a very special man. “About quarter to eight? As soon as Simon goes to school.”
“All right.” He bit into the cookie. “I guess you need to go back up, finish the sewing.”
“Not just yet. I thought I'd take a break. Do you want to sit on the couch and neck while we pretend to watch TV?”
He caressed her cheek. “I definitely do.”
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ZOE
walked into Indulgence the next afternoon carting an enormous box. She dumped it inside the door and looked around.
Malory and Dana had been busy in her absence. There were paintings on the walls, and what she recognized as a batik. The table she'd refinished stood along the short wall on the left of the door and held one of her candles, a tall teardrop-shaped paperweight of icy blown glass, and a trio of books tucked between bookends in the shape of more books.
Someone had installed the new ceiling light and laid a pretty rug, dancing with poppies.
Delight and guilt tangled inside her. She pushed up her sleeves, preparing to dive into work as she searched out her friends.
She didn't find them in Malory's section, but her jaw dropped as she wandered through. It had been two days since she'd taken a look at the main level, but it didn't
seem possible so much could have been done in that time.
Paintings, pencil sketches, sculptures, and framed prints decorated the walls. A tall, narrow case held a collection of glass art, a low, long one displayed colorful pottery. Rather than a counter for transactions, Malory had chosen an antique desk for the first showroom. She'd kept the counter in the second, where she would offer gift-wrapping services.
There were shipping cartons yet to be opened, but it was clear that Malory's vision was focused. Zoe smiled when she saw there was already a slim Christmas tree, with handcrafted ornaments hanging on the boughs.
She circled around, moving through the kitchen and into Dana's store.
Books lined more than half the shelves. An old breakfront held teacups, coffee mugs, tins.
All this, and she hadn't been there to share in the fun or help with the work.
Hearing the floor creak overhead, she dashed for the stairs and up them.
“Where
is
everybody? I can't believe what y'all got done while I . . .”
She trailed off, stunned speechless when she saw her salon.
“We couldn't wait.” Dana swiped a hand over her cheek, then patted the chair she and Malory had just assembled. “We thought we'd have them all done before you got back. Just about made it.”
Slowly, Zoe crossed the room, ran a hand over the cushy leather of one of her four styling chairs.
“And they work. Look.” As Malory pumped her foot on the circle of chrome at the base of the chair, it rose. “It's fun.”
“Hey.” Dana dropped into the chair, spun it. “
This
is fun.”
“They came,” was all Zoe could say.
“Not only that, but look over there.” Malory pointed to the three glossy shampoo sinks. “They installed them this
morning.” She dragged a dazed Zoe over, and turned on the water. “See? They work, too. It's a beauty parlor.”
“I can't believe it.” Zoe sat on the floor, covered her face with her hands, and burst into tears.
“Oh, honey.” Instantly, Malory untied the kerchief from her head and offered it as a hankie.
“I have shampoo sinks. And chairs,” Zoe sobbed into the colorful square of cotton. “Andâand you have paintings and statues and carved wooden boxes. Dana has books. Three months ago I had a lousy job working for a woman who didn't even like me. Now I have chairs. You put them together for me.”
“You refinished the table,” Malory countered.
“And found the baker's rack for the kitchen. Worked out all the track lighting, regrouted the bathrooms.” Dana bent down to pat Zoe's head. “We're in this together, Zoe.”
“I know, I know, that's just it.” She mopped her face. “It's beautiful. All of it. I love it. I love you. I'm okay.”
She sniffled, then let out a long breath. “God, I want to shampoo somebody.” Laughing now, she sprang up. “Who wants to go first?” At the shout from downstairs, she shook her head. “Shit. Forgot. That's the boy from the flea market with my sofa. I paid him twenty dollars to haul it over here. I have to help him bring it up.”
When she ran out, Malory turned to Dana. “She's got a lot building inside there.”
“Yeah, she does. I wonder if any of us considered the pressure there'd be on the one who went last. Then you add in how close we are to finishing this.” She held out her arms to encompass the salon. “She's got to be ready to pop.”
“Let's make sure we're there when she does.”
They went down to lend a hand with the sofa. When it was in place, Malory stepped back, cocked her head.
“Well . . . it's nice and long. And . . .” She searched for
something else positive to say about the dull brown object. “It has a nice high back.”
“Â âUgly as homemade sin' is the term you're after,” Zoe supplied. “But just you wait.” She started to open the box she'd brought up with her, then stopped. “Go on downstairs till I'm done.”
“Done what?” Dana kicked the couch lightly. “Burning it?”
“Go on. Give me ten minutes.”
“I think it's going to take longer,” Malory warned.
The minute she was alone Zoe set to work. If there was one thing she knew, she told herself, it was how to go about making silk purses out of sows' ears.
When the transformation was complete, she stepped back, hands on hips.
And by God, she'd done it again. She went to the top of the stairs to call down.
“Come on up. Tell me what you think and be honest.”
“The burning idea wasn't honest enough for you?” Dana asked. “Mal and I can do it for you if you're running short of time. Don't you have to get home for Simon?”
“No. I'll tell you about that after.” She grabbed Dana's hand, then Malory's, and pulled them back into the salon.
“My God, Zoe. My God, it's beautiful.” Astonished, Malory walked over to study the sofa. The dull brown lump was now a charming seat blooming with deep pink hydrangeas on a soft blue background. The cushions were plumped, and cheerful bows encircled the arms.
“It's more of a miracle,” was Dana's take.
“I want to make a couple of footstools, use the same fabric, or maybe one of the accent colors. Then I'm going to get some padded folding chairs and make covers for themâjust a drape thing, like you see at weddings, with a bow on the back.”
“Maybe you could knit me a new car while you're at it,” Dana suggested.
“It looks great, Zoe. Now are you going to sit down on it and tell us what happened today?”
“I can't sit yet. You sit. I want to see how somebody looks on it.”
She wandered, studying the sofa from different angles. “It's just the way I wanted it to look. Sometimes I get a little spooked, because everything's going so right for me. And I start worrying that because it is, I'll mess up with the key. I know how stupid that sounds.”
“Not really,” Dana told her as she snuggled into the couch. “I tend to worry about what's going to mess up when things are at their best.”
“I thoughtâI hopedâthat I might
feel
something by going back to Morgantown. I, well, we went by my old apartment, and the salon where I worked. The tattoo parlor. Even went into HomeMakers. But it wasn't like yesterday. There wasn't this sense of urgency or understanding.”
She walked back to sit on the floor in front of the sofa. “It was good to see some of it again, to remember. But it didn't grab at me. I lived there nearly six years, but it wasâI realized it was like a transition. I never meant to stay. I worked there and I lived there, but my mind was always looking ahead.
“To here, I guess,” she said quietly. “Where we were going to go, as soon as I could make it happen. Simon was born there, and that was the biggest thing in my life. But nothing else I did there, nothing else that happened to me there, was all that important. It was just . . . a gathering place.”
“Then that's what you found out,” Malory said. “The key isn't there for you. If you hadn't gone, spent the time looking, you wouldn't know that.”
“But I still don't know where it is.” Frustrated, she
tapped a fist on her knee. “There's this sense inside me that I should be able to see, that I've got my head turned, just a little, in the wrong direction, and I'm worried that I'll be going along, doing what I have to do just every day, and miss it because I don't just turn my head and look in the right place.”
“We all got discouraged, Zoe,” Dana reminded her. “We all looked in the wrong direction.”
“You're right. It's just that so much is happening on this side, it makes what's happening on the other seem so little. This place, and how I feel about itâhow I feel about you. It's so big. Then I think how am I supposed to pull this key out of the airâthen the next minute I know I can. I
know
I can if I only look the right way.”
“You've been back to where you started,” Malory reminded her. “And you've looked at where you waited, isn't that a way to describe your time before coming here?”
“I guess it is.”
“Maybe you should look where you ended up. Where you are now.”
“Here, you mean? Do you think it could be here, in this house?”
“Maybe, or somewhere else important to you. Someplace you had, or will have, that moment of truth. That decision.”
“All right.” Thoughtfully, Zoe nodded. “I'll try to focus on that for a while. I'll work here while Simon's with Brad.”
“Brad has Simon?” Dana echoed.
“That's the other thing.” She shot Dana a baffled look. “We're coming back and I said something about picking him up from school, bringing him back here with meâtrying to work out how I was going to manage this and that, and Brad says he'll pick him up. Saying no, that's all right, doesn't make a damn bit of difference. He'll pick him up at
school, take him to HomeMakers for a bit, then over to his place, as it appears they've made some arrangement to play video baseball anyway. And why don't I just do whatever I have to do, and he'll drop Simon home about eight. Oh, and don't worry about dinner,” she added with an airy wave of her hand. “They'll order pizza.”
“Is that a problem?” Malory asked.
“Not a problem so much. It sure won't be for Simon, and I could use the time. But I just don't want to start depending on somebody. It's just another way to get into trouble. I don't want to start depending on him. I don't want to be in love with him. I don't want that, and I can't seem to help it.”
With a sigh, she rested her head on Malory's knee. “What am I going to do?”