Leap of Faith (18 page)

“And Louise? Was she a lunatic too? And what about Charles? He was a four-year-old child when you killed him.” Marie-Ange was sobbing by then, as she stood in the freezing night and one of the firemen put a blanket over her shoulders. They had nearly stopped the fire by then, but the destruction inside the house was almost total.

“Monsieur le Comte,” the constable said clearly to him then, “if you do not come with us willingly, sir, which I hope you will, we will be obliged to put you in handcuffs.”

“I’ll see that you’re fired for this. It’s an outrage!” he objected, but went with them. Their friends had long since departed, and Marie-Ange was left with the caretaker, the men who had come up from the farm, the firemen, and her babies.

They had given oxygen to Robert, and he was shivering, but calm by then, and Heloise was fast asleep in the arms of a fireman, as though nothing had happened. Alain offered to let them stay with him that night, and as she watched the last of the fire burn, Marie-Ange realized that once again she was starting from nothing. But she was alive, and she had her children. That was all she cared about now.

She stood outside for a long time, as the firemen continued to put out the last of the fire, and they stayed all night to watch the embers. She took the children into the caretaker’s cottage with Alain, and in the morning two policemen came to the door and wanted to see her. Alain’s mother had come up from the farm shortly before that, to help her with her children.

“May we speak to you, Comtesse?” they asked discreetly, and she stepped outside with them. She didn’t want Alain to hear what she had to say about her husband. They questioned her extensively, and told her that the firemen had found traces of kerosene in the second-floor hall, and on the stairs leading to her children. There would be a full investigation made, and as things stood now, they were prepared to bring charges against Bernard. She told them then about Louise de Beauchamp, and they thanked her.

She took a room for herself in a hotel in town that night, and they set up two cribs for her children, and Madame Fournier came with her. She was there for a week, to answer questions for the police and firemen, and after the fire cooled, she went back into the house to see what could be saved. Some silverware, some statues, some tools. Everything else had been destroyed or ruined, but the insurance people had already been there to see it. There was some question as to how much or if they would pay her anything, if it could be proven that Bernard had set the fire himself.

And she called Louise de Beauchamp after the first few days. It took Marie-Ange that long to calm down. The aftermath of the shock was worse than what she had felt the night it happened. She had lost not only her home, and nearly her children, but her hopes, her dreams, her husband, and her faith in him. He was being held in the local jail for further questioning, and Marie-Ange hadn’t been to see him. All she wanted was to ask him why he had done it, how he could have hated her so much, and wanted to destroy their babies. It was something she knew she would never understand, but his motives were clear. He had done it for money.

And when they spoke on the phone, Marie-Ange thanked Louise for her warning. Had she not known, perhaps she would have been foolish enough to believe he was coming back for her, and never tried to find her way out through the bathroom window. And certainly, she would have believed his histrionics. But she would never forget seeing him that night, and the look of hatred in his eyes, as he watched her poised on the windowsill, praying she wouldn’t dare leap to safety.

“I thought I heard your voice that night, telling me to jump,” Marie-Ange said sadly. “I was so afraid to, I almost didn’t. But I kept thinking of what he would do to them if I died … and then I heard your voice in my head, saying ‘jump,’ and I did.”

“I’m glad,” Louise said quietly, and reminded Marie-Ange that she would gladly testify to what had happened to her, and Marie-Ange told her the police were going to call her. “You’ll be all right now,” Louise reassured her, “better than I. Poor Charles was sacrificed to that bastard’s greed. What a terrible thing to die for.”

“I’m so sorry,” Marie-Ange said again, and they talked for a long time, comforting each other. And in a way, Marie-Ange knew, Louise’s warning had saved her, as much as the firemen and the net they had held, and the leap of faith she had taken.

They spent Christmas in the hotel, and the day after, Marie-Ange drove the children to Paris. She had already decided to sell the house on the rue de Varenne, and everything in it. She hated to stay in the apartment, but all their things were there, all that they had left, and Bernard could no longer hurt her. He had tried to call her once at the hotel, and she had refused his call. She never wanted to see him again, except in court, and she hoped he would go to prison forever for what he had done to Charles, and tried to do to her children. But the real tragedy for Marie-Ange was that she had not only trusted and believed in him, she had loved him.

It was New Year’s Eve when she finally called Billy. She was at home with her babies, and thinking about him. She had so much to think of, values and ideals, and dreams that had been destroyed, integrity that had never existed. Like Louise, she realized now that she had been nothing more than a target for him from the first, a source of funds that he would have bled till it ran dry. She was just thankful that her trustees had been more cautious than she was. But at least the sale of the house in Paris would restore some of her financial balance.

“What are you doing at home tonight?” Billy asked when she called. “Why aren’t you out celebrating? It must be midnight in Paris.”

“Pretty close.” It was shortly after, and it was five in the afternoon for him. He had been planning to spend a quiet night at home, with his family and his fiancée.

“Aren’t you supposed to be at a grand party somewhere, Countess?” he teased her, but she didn’t smile. She hadn’t smiled in almost two weeks.

She told him about the fire, and what Bernard had done, or tried to do. She told him about Louise, and Charles, and the money Bernard had bilked from her. But more than anything, she told him what it had felt like, in the bathroom during the fire, and throwing her children out the window, and as he listened to her, she could hear him crying.

“My God, Marie-Ange, I hope they send the son of a bitch to prison forever.” He had never trusted him. It had all happened so quickly. Too quickly. And Marie-Ange had always insisted that everything was so perfect, and for a while she thought it was. But now that she looked back, she realized it never had been. She even wondered if the children he wanted so desperately had only been a way to distract her and tie her to him. She was just grateful now that she hadn’t gotten pregnant a third time, but since the fire, she had been reassured that she hadn’t. “What are you going to do now?” Billy asked her, sounding more worried about her than ever.

“I don’t know. The hearing is in a month, and Louise and I are both going to be there.” She had described her face to him, and the tragedy she’d been through. Marie-Ange had been a great deal luckier in being able to save her children. “I’ll be in Paris until I figure out what to do. There’s nothing left at Marmouton. I suppose I should sell it,” she said sadly.

“You can rebuild if you want to.” He encouraged her, still trying to absorb the horror she had told him, and wishing he could put his arms around her. His mother had seen him crying on the phone, and had shooed everyone out of the kitchen, including his fiancée.

“I’m not even sure I do want to,” Marie-Ange said honestly about the home she had loved as a child, but so many tragedies had happened there that she was no longer sure she wanted to keep it. “So many awful things happened there, Billy.”

“Good things too. Maybe you need to take some time to think about it. What about coming here to kind of catch your breath for a while?” The idea appealed to her immensely, although she didn’t want to stay at a hotel, and she couldn’t impose two small children on his mother. Everyone on their farm was busy and had their hands full.

“Maybe. And I can’t come in June for your wedding. I have to be here for the lawyers, and they said he might go to trial then. I’ll know later.”

“So will I,” he said, smiling, and looking more boyish than ever, although she couldn’t see him. Marie-Ange was twenty-three, and he was twenty-four now.

“What does that mean?” Marie-Ange questioned his cryptic comment.

“I don’t know. We’ve been talking about putting the wedding off for another year. We like each other a lot, but sometimes I wonder. Forever is a hell of a long time. My mom says not to rush it. And I think Debbi’s kind of nervous. She keeps saying she wants to live in Chicago. You know what it’s like here. You’re not talking big-city excitement.”

“You should bring her to Paris,” Marie-Ange said, still hopeful it would work out for them. He deserved happiness. She had had her turn, and it had literally turned to ashes. Now all she wanted was peace and some quiet times with her children. It was hard to imagine ever trusting anyone again, after Bernard. But at least she knew Billy, and loved him as her brother. She needed a friend now. And then she had an idea, and proposed it to him. “Why don’t you come to Paris? You can stay at my apartment. I’d love to see you,” she said, sounding homesick. He was the only person in the world she could trust now.

“I’d love to see your kids,” he said, thinking about it.

“How’s your French these days?”

“I’m losing it. I have no one to talk to.”

“I should call more often.” She didn’t want to ask him if he could afford the trip, or insult him by offering to pay for it, but she would have loved to see him.

“Things are pretty quiet here right now. I’ll talk to my dad. He could probably get by without me for a week or two. We’ll see. I’ll think about it, and see what I can work out.”

“Thank you for being there for me,” Marie-Ange said with the smile he remembered so well from their childhood.

“That’s what friends are for, Marie-Ange. I’m always here for you, I hope you know that. I wish you hadn’t lied to me about him. Sometimes I thought something was wrong, and other times you convinced me you were happy.”

“I was, most of the time, a lot of the time, really. And my kids are so sweet. But he scared the hell out of me the way he spent money.”

“You’ll be okay now,” he reassured her, “the main thing is that you and the kids are fine.”

“I know. What if I lend you the money for a ticket?” she asked, worried he didn’t have the money and afraid to embarrass him, but she was dying to see him. She suddenly felt so scared and so alone, and so lonely, and it felt like a hundred years since she’d seen him. It had been just over two, but it felt like decades. And so much had happened. She’d gotten married, had two kids, and nearly been destroyed by the man she’d married.

“If I let you lend me the money for the ticket, how would you be able to tell me from your husband?” He was serious. He didn’t want to do the same thing to her as Bernard, but he couldn’t even conceive of the scale on which he’d done it.

“Easy,” she laughed in answer to his question, “just don’t buy an oil well with the money.”

“Now there’s an idea,” he said, laughing at her. He thought she was kidding. “I’ll figure out what I’m going to do, and I’ll call you.”

“I’ll be here,” she said with a smile, and then remembered. “And by the way, Happy New Year.”

“Same to you, and do me a favor, will you, kid?”

“What’s that?” It felt like their old school days just talking to him.

“Try to stay out of trouble till I get there.”

“Does that mean you’re coming?”

“That means I’ll see. Just take care of yourself and the kids in the meantime. And if they let him out of jail, I want you to fly out here.”

“I don’t think that’s going to happen. Not for a long time,” but it was a sensible suggestion, and she was grateful for his concern.

After they hung up, Marie-Ange got into bed. Heloise was sleeping next to her in her bed, and Robert was in his crib in the next room. And she smiled to herself as she thought of Billy.

At that exact moment, he was talking to his father. Tom Parker had been more than a little startled by the question, but he said that he figured maybe he could spare it, as long as Billy eventually repaid it, and Billy promised to do that. He had been saving for their honeymoon and already had four hundred dollars put aside.

But when he walked back into the living room, his sisters thought he looked distracted. One of them spoke to him and at first he didn’t even hear.

“What’s with you?” his oldest sister said, as she handed her baby to her husband.

“Nothing much.” And then he told them all what had happened to Marie-Ange, and they were horrified. His fiancée, Debbi, was listening with interest, but said nothing. “I’m going to Paris,” he said finally, “she’s had a hell of a time, and it’s the least I can do, for old times’ sake.” It was impossible for any of them to forget that she had given him his Porsche.

“I’m moving to Chicago,” Debbi spoke up suddenly and silenced the room as they all stared at her.

“Where did that come from?” Billy asked her, and she looked embarrassed.

“I’ve been waiting all week to tell you. I found a job, and I’m moving.”

“And then what?” he asked, feeling a strange flutter in his stomach. He wasn’t sure yet if he was glad or sorry, mostly confused, but he had been for a while, when he thought about their wedding.

“I don’t know yet,” Debbi answered honestly, as his entire family listened. “I don’t think we should get married,” and then she added in a whisper, “I don’t want to live on a farm for the rest of my life. I hate it.”

“That’s what I do,” he said quietly, “it’s who I am.”

“You could do something else if you wanted,” she whined at him, and he looked unhappy.

“Let’s talk about this outside,” he said calmly, and handed her her coat, and they walked out onto the porch, as the rest of the family began to chatter. They still couldn’t believe what he’d told them about Marie-Ange, and his mother was worried about her.