Let It Be Me (Let It Be Me #1) (18 page)

He must have known what she wanted. He lay back down over her without crushing her. He kissed her, keeping one hand holding her head through her hair and the other moving to her left arm. He traced his hand down until it reached her hand, making her release that side of his waist. He intertwined his fingers with hers and raised their joined hands until her arm was at a right angle next to her head. The gesture was beautiful.  

He moved to kiss her hand and trailed open-mouthed kisses on her arm, following the angle it was at. He reached her shoulder and bit her gently, making her cry out from the surprise and desire that was seeping through her skin. 

He then kissed her along her collarbone until he reached her neck. Kayla used her other hand to hold on to his head as he sucked on the pulse at the side of her neck just as what she did to him earlier. She closed her eyes and savored the feeling.   

Releasing her hand, Alex moved his hands to the sides of her torso, following the curve from the waist up to the sides of her breasts. Kayla whimpered as he moved his hands back down to her waist. Probably understanding her plea, he inched his hands back up until his hands were covering her breasts. 

He started kneading them. Her breasts felt heavy and sensitive. His ministrations on her breasts were felt down to her heated core. And when he pinched her nipples through the layers of fabric, Kayla cried out in pleasure.

Kayla moved her hands down his back until they were on his butt, which proved to be firm. She squeezed them, causing him to grind against her.

“Oh fuck,” he moaned, raising his pelvis to break contact. “I don’t want this to end too soon, baby. I’ve waited too long for this.” If Kayla was thinking clearly she would have asked him what he meant. On the night they met in the company party, was it really sex he was after?

The thoughts were ignored though as soon as Kayla felt her tank top being raised to expose her navel. Alex leaned down, and placed feather-light kisses upwards, following the direction where her shirt was going. Kayla raised her arms so he could discard her shirt completely, exposing her strapless bra. Stretched out, Alex kissed the tops of her breasts, as his thumbs were rubbing the sides of her bra. Kayla’s nipples almost hurt as it strained against the satin material.

“More,” Kayla cried, raising her body.

Understanding, he reached behind her and deftly unhooked her bra. Slowly, he took them off. 

“You’re gorgeous, Kayla,” he admired, erasing the insecure thoughts that crossed her mind since she knew she wasn’t so blessed with curves.

He covered both of her breasts with his hands, using his fingers to play with her nipples. The nerve endings from her breasts seemed to zoom down to her heat. Then when he bent down and encased one of her nipples into his mouth, Kayla almost came undone.

“Alex!” she screamed. 

He took it as an invitation to continue with what he was doing. He adored one breast then the other with his tongue, taking Kayla higher and higher. As much as she was enjoying how he was playing with her breasts, she knew she wanted more.

Kayla reached down to pull on his shirt, and Alex raised his arms to release it. Kayla traced the contours of his torso just like how he did with her.

Alex continued kissing her breasts, resting his hands on the waistband of her jogging pants. This time, he made his way down to trail his lips to her navel. 

Leaning back, he hooked his fingers into her jogging pants, pulling them down along with her underwear, completely exposing her to him.

“You’re perfect,” he said, admiring her.

Kayla rested one of her hands on her side, the other on her belly, and she surprisingly felt confident as she saw the desire painted on his face.

“Come here,” she called, suddenly feeling bold. There were still some traces of the effects of the wine in her brain, but it was mainly passion that was fuelling her actions.

Alex quickly obliged, crawling up until they were face to face. He leaned slightly higher to kiss her on her forehead, surprising Kayla.

He kissed her nose, then her lips again. He playfully used his tongue to pry her lips apart, until he found her tongue. Their tongues played until they were both out of breath.

“Are you sure you want to continue?” Alex asked, his voice jagged, as he slightly leaned back. “I’ve reached my breaking point. Once we cross this, I don’t think I’ll be able to stop.”

Kayla nodded, seeming sure of herself. “I want this.”

Just this once
.

Alex reached to open the drawer of his bedside table to unearth a pack of condoms. As he was opening the foil packet, Kayla quickly pulled on the strings of his pants to loosen it, before pulling them down. She was surprised to see he didn’t have any underwear on. But the surprise was quickly overpowered by the desire she felt seeing his impressive cock.

Her throat suddenly felt dry.

She watched as he sheathed himself with the condom and he knelt over her. He bent down until their faces were an inch apart. She noticed the beads of sweat on his forehead. She had this urge to lick them away.

She felt him nudge at her entrance, and she felt like she was about to combust any second.

He was looking directly into her eyes, and Kayla saw a hint of what must have been yearning.

“Kayla, I ---“ 

Kayla cut him off, leaning up to kiss him. She brought her hands back to his buttocks to urge him to move.

He ran the tip of his cock through his folds before he entered her like it was the most natural thing in the world. Kayla moaned in ecstasy. He fit her perfectly. He started moving and she responded to ever stroke. The pace started slow but immediately picked up, as they brought each other closer to the brink.

“I’m close,” Kayla said, starting to tremble. She leaned up and bit into Alex’s shoulder as she found her release. Her vision saw what seemed like a disco ball exploding into small shards of light in front of her.

Alex continued pumping, and she continued to move with him. He quickened their pace further, until he reached his own climax.

He groaned when this happened, collapsing on top of Kayla. She felt his heart pounding against hers. Her breathing was still erratic, as she felt like she ran a marathon. And boy was it one hell of a run.

Kayla immediately felt the absence of his weight as he quickly moved to her side. He left his leg over hers, and his arm draped over her breasts. He had his hand tracing the side of her face, and Kayla found it soothing. He leaned in to kiss her cheek before they both dozed off shortly.

Chapter 21

Kayla was woken by the sunlight streaming in, as she was facing the windows. She looked at the left to see the other side of the bed empty. She must have been wiped out from the events from yesterday to not notice that she’s been left alone. 

She and Alex woke up two more times to go at it again. The memory warmed the insides of Kayla. She might as well relish on those memories as they won’t happen again.

She got up and searched for her clothes. She found them folded and laid on the armchair. Alex must have picked them up for her.

Always so thoughtful. 

She took them and quickly put them on.

She was about to walk towards the door to go to her room when the door opened.

“Hey you’re up,” he smilingly said, carrying a tray of croissants, fruits and coffee. He had his drawstring pants on with no shirt. The memory that he had no underwear made her blush.

He laid the tray on the small coffee table he had at one corner of the room. She watched as he walked up to her. He looked relaxed despite the lack of sleep. He looked so gorgeous and for a second Kayla was awestruck. 

Oblivious to her thoughts, Alex enfolded her in an embrace.

“Good morning,” he said softly, kissing her head over her hair. 

Kayla instinctively held on to his waist, but she knew she was actually letting go. She was just enjoying it while he was there with her. She knew it wasn’t meant to last.

He led her to sit at one of the chairs as he buttered a croissant for her.

She watched him for a second before she decided to speak. “I think we have to talk about last night,” Kayla started.

She saw Alex tense up, like he was expecting that from her. He’s always teased her about her overthinking.

She didn’t wait for him to respond.

“This weekend was wonderful. You were wonderful,” Kayla said, as she gathered her thoughts. “I value how kind you have been to me. I consider you as a friend. I hope we can still be that way.”

Kayla looked at Alex and was surprised to see his jaw clench, like he was angry. “What was this, just a fling for you?”

Kayla couldn’t answer. Wasn’t that what he wanted?

“Are you seeing someone?” he asked gruffly.

Despite all the jumbled thoughts, Kayla remembered Chad. “No one serious,” she answered truthfully.

Alex looked like she just punched him in the gut. 

Kayla was slightly confused why he seemed so bothered. The possibility of them being together seemed unfathomable for her. How could he think it would work between them? 

“Did you think we would be able to continue with this? Alex, for one, you forget that you are my
client
,” she reminded, standing up and she started pacing the room. “I’ve broken so many rules this weekend.”

“Fuck the rules,” Alex said furiously, slamming his hand on the table that the saucers rattled, startling her. “Don’t use that reason. I thought that I’ve proved myself to you already, Kayla, but I guess it wasn’t enough. You think I was going to look for a way out after this weekend? I didn’t think this was a fling, Kayla. Or the start of an affair. I thought we had something here.”

Kayla couldn’t respond because that was what she was thinking. And she was stunned by his admission. She looked away out of guilt.

“How could we work out, Alex?” she asked meekly, clutching at her jogging pants as she continued moving around. “We’re from different worlds. You’re still the jock from high school. I’m the boring geek.”

“Kayla, we’ve already discussed about this,” Alex debated, and he sounded like he was holding on to the last of his patience. “You told me you weren’t an insecure person before. I’ve reminded you repeatedly how much you fascinate me.”

“Dammit, if I had known how much Barry hurt your self-esteem I should have broken his nose yesterday,” Alex continued heatedly. She saw him hold on tightly to the butter knife he was holding. She walked over to take the knife away from his grip. She placed it on one of the saucers. She stood in front of him.

But she thought about what he said. She didn’t know if it was really because of Barry. She was okay when she was still in school in her own little world. But that was because she never really tried or expected to date the popular jock. 

“Maybe I was wrong,” she admitted, as the realization sunk in.  “Maybe I’ve been insecure all along.”

“We all have our insecurities, Kayla, we just have to learn to deal,” Alex said. He reached out and held on to her arms, looking up with his patience back in place.

“And what are your fears?” he asked. “Do you think that I will go back to my past life partying with fashion models? I’m not proud of that stage of my life. But I’ve been trying to show you that I’m not that guy anymore. I want to be there for you. Trust me, Kayla.”

That broke her heart. She wanted to trust him, really. Or maybe it wasn’t herself she couldn’t trust. She looked away. Tears were starting to well up in her eyes.

He stood up while still hold on to her, forcing Kayla to take a step back. 

“That first time we bumped into each other and then when we met in your office party, I wanted you,” he said in a more somber tone. “But I was my old self then. I didn’t treat you well, I admit. But things changed when I watched you in the first presentation. I knew you were different. That’s when I think I started to fall. You saved me from what I was before.” His voice cracked.

Kayla remembered his remark before about her saving him. He really meant it.

Kayla still didn’t have the courage to look at him and see what he was going through. She was already having a hard time keeping her tears from falling.

Alex put his finger under her chin to raise her head up. Her eyes rimmed with tears, she looked up at his eyes that screamed out his hurt and longing.

“I love you, Kayla,” he declared. 

She gasped.

Overcome by his words, she broke away from his touch and walked to the edge of his bed and sat down. She bent down to cover her face with her hands and started crying. 

She cared for Alex. 

Loved? She honestly didn’t know. 

She’s never really loved anyone outside her family. Barry, she didn’t really think she loved since she never really opened herself to him. He was just someone she got used to. If she continued seeing Chad, it would just be the same case.

And it was Alex Stone! Was he for real?

She suddenly heard him approach her and felt him as he knelt down in front of her, resting one of his hands on her knee and the other stroking her hair back. “Is it more time you need?” he asked now with a gentler tone. “I can wait for you.” 

“I can’t ask you to do that,” Kayla said remorsefully. 

She saw Alex bend to rest his forehead on her knees. She wanted to reach out to him, but she decided not to.

They stayed that way for a few minutes. Part of her wanted to reach out and comfort him. She wished she could offer him what he wanted but she was unable to.

“We better go home then,” Alex said roughly after a while, standing up.

Knowing it was for the best, Kayla slowly stood up to head to her room. 

Back in the car half an hour later, they were both quiet. The ride back was torturous. Kayla hoped she could just fall asleep through it, but she wouldn’t stop thinking how she hurt Alex and how he didn’t deserve it. 

She tried to stop the tears, but she couldn’t help it. Her nose was running and she was starting to get a headache. She was searching through her purse for some tissue when a handkerchief was placed on her lap.