Authors: Elizabeth Moon
The silence acquired an edge, as the listeners thought about that.
Arvid, thinking of the things he'd read in the archives, knew she'd shaded the truth there. Some Marshal-Generals in the past had come to that position by plotting.
“What if I don't think you're really Girdish? You defend magery.” A voice from the crowd; Arvid could not see who had spoken.
“You tell me so, and we argue about it,” the Marshal-General said. “I would suggest you read the entire Code of Gird and its history, including the new material in the Scrolls of Luap beforehand, though, because I will refer to them in my responses.”
“That ⦠that would take years! I have work to do!”
“It took me years,” the Marshal-General said, a hint of humor in her voice. “Much of it spent as a Marshal running a grange. But you're welcome to argue with me, whenever you feel prepared.” Silence followed that.
Arvid felt the tension leach out of the crowd. Most of these would be people who knew the Marshal-General, who lived or worked in the palace complex. They had reacted to an alarm. They would nowâwith no immediate danger in sightâaccept her words. A few still held to another purpose; he could sense their tension. Could the Marshal-General? He glanced at her. She looked as calm as usual, standing poised but not tense, confident.
“People of Gird,” she said, “remember what Gird stood for. Fairness, justice, protection of the defenseless. We are not a people of fear, but a people of courage. It is time to go about our business. We have deaths to mourn, and other deaths to prevent.”
A low mutter, but no real resistance. A few turned to walk away toward one or another of the entrances to the forecourt. A clatter of hooves coming up the hill and the tramp of marching feet brought them to a halt; all turned toward the gate.
Light bloomed suddenly, clear and white, a dome that covered the forecourt and the gateway. Riding through the gates, tall on her tall red horse, came someone Arvid had not expected to see againâcertainly not there, that night. His last memory of her, immediately after he'd rescued her from torment, made him shudder. It seemed she looked straight at him for a moment, and then her gaze shifted.
“Paksenarrion!” The Marshal-General's call carried no hint of tension or relief. “Welcome back.”
“Marshal-General. My thanks. I met Marshal Cedlin on the way, and he has brought his grange; he had heard of some trouble here.”
“I will speak with him.” The Marshal-General walked toward the gates, trailed by the Knights of Gird. Arvid lagged behind, hoping Paks would ignore him.
Instead, she rode on into the forecourt, toward Arvid, and the red horse stopped in front of him, its head a scant armslength away. Arvid found himself pinned by its gaze while Paks dismounted. He had the distinct feeling that if he tried to turn and run, the horse would grab his cloak and hold him captive.
“Arvid,” she said. He had to look at her. She was smiling as if he were her dearest friend, that open grin he had mocked for its naivete.
He bowed, with none of the grace he had once owned, and hated himself for noticing that. “Lady Paksenarrion.”
“You saved my life,” she said. “There is no lord or lady between us.” She tilted her head, looking him up and down. “And now, I see, you are a yeoman of Gird. Will you tell me that tale someday?”
His heart skipped a beat, then raced. “I ⦠cannot tell it easily.”
Her expression changed. “No. Such tales are not lightly told. I will not ask ⦠but I will ask what has gone forth this night. Blood on your cloak, your blade, your handsâ”
“And none of it mine,” Arvid said. His pulse had steadied. “Nor the Marshal-General's, which is Gird's mercy. LadyâPaksenarrion, pardonâI must ask: do you hear Gird's voice plain?”
Her eyes widened, then her expression changed again: understanding and compassion. “Yes,” she said. “And that is not an easy thing to hear, is it?”
“No,” he said. His throat closed for a moment. “It is not. I don't know ⦠I don't know how to ⦠what to⦔
“Peace,” she said.
Whatever that was, it spread through his mind, a serenity he had never felt. A glamour? A spell? Perhaps, but one he could not resist.
“You will know,” she said, “when you need to know.” Then she grinned again. “Or that is how it is with me, and with the other paladins I know. You, Arvid, may be given a different path.”
“Paks!” Across the forecourt, another paladin, Camwynya, hurried toward them. Arvid looked around and noticed that the forecourt was almost empty now. “Where have you been?”
“I am not sure I can explain,” Paks said to Camwynya. “A long way from here, in mountains I never knew about.”
Camwynya laughed. “Don't tell meâyou found the valley of the paladins' mounts?”
“Among other things,” Paks said. “Do you know Arvid?”
Camwynya nodded to Arvid. “Indeedâhe is the new scribe, making a name for himself by arguing, I've heard.” She looked more closely at him. “And, I see, by fighting.”
Arvid winced dramatically. “Indeed ⦠for I found the Marshal-General beset. Ifâif I may be excused, I must go now and find my son. He will be worried.”
“Your son?” Paks said. “I didn't knowâ”
“No. Nor I, the last time we met. Heâhis mother is dead.”
At the gate, Arvid met Marshal Cedlin, who sent him back down to his lodgings. “You've fought well this night, Arvid, but enough: we will need you tomorrow, I'm sure, and beyond that.” He turned to the yeomen. “Jori ⦠Tam ⦠go with Arvid back to the Loaf, see him safe home. He's had more than one fight tonight.”
The others asked no questions on the way to the Loaf, for which Arvid was grateful. Once there, they said farewell and trudged back up the street. Arvid went in; the common room was empty but for Pia, wiping down tables. She stared at his bloody cloak. “You'll need to clean that before it's all dry,” she said. “And before you show yourself to the lad. I've buckets of cold water in the kitchen. Come through.”
He had never been in the kitchen. Like the rest of the Loaf, it was clean and workmanlike, and smelled now of soap and metal polish, with a hint of rising dough ⦠a row of lumps under a cloth was on the worktable.
“Take off that and anything else with blood,” Pia said, in the tone of a commander. Soon Arvid was sitting shirtless on a bench, the contents of his cloak pockets arrayed on the table. She had not seemed surprised or alarmed by any of them, but handed him cloths, a bowl of water, and a greasy lump of wool to clean them with. While he worked on the blades, she rinsed the blood out of his shirt and sponged his cloak. “I'll dry this before the fire,” she said. “It'll have stains, but nothing so obvious.”
Upstairs, he found young Arvid in bed, a candle burning in its stand on the table. The boy woke at the movement of the door, staring at Arvid's bare chest. “My shirt is dirty,” Arvid said. “Pia's washing it for me.”
“I heard yelling,” the boy said. “And marching, and more yellingâ”
“A disturbance,” Arvid said. He put on another shirt, sat down, and pulled off his boots. He wanted his bed more than anything.
“Were you hurt?”
“No. But I ⦠I had to hurt others.” The floor was cold under his feet as he walked over to the boy's bed. “It's all right, lad.” He ruffled the boy's dark hair. “I'm here now.”
The boy smiled at him, a smile that broke his heart. “Daâyou won't die, will you?”
“Not if I can help it,” Arvid said. He blew out the candle. “And so far, you know, I've been good at that.”
Young Arvid chuckled.
Arvid lay in bed, remembering how Paksenarrion had looked at him. How she had seenâas he believed she had seenâright down inside him and had not flinched at what lay there.
Nor
do
I. You are not so bad as you think.
Arvid stared into the darkness, wide awake again.
Nor
as
good
as
you
will
be.
Now that was a terrifying thought. Did he really want to be ⦠however good that was? A chuckle was his only answer. He fell into sleep without realizing it.
T
he next day the city felt quieter, but up on the hill, Arvid found that the Marshal-General was in no way complacent about the situation. She sent word that he was to attend a meeting with her, and he found himself with Paks, Camwynya, three High Marshals, the Marshal-Judicar of Gird, and the Knight-Commander of Gird. He told what he knew, including the incident in the alley.
“We cannot hope to get through this without conflict,” High Marshal Darton said. “It's too late for that, when whole granges are declaring that you are not really Girdish.”
“Do you know who started it?” the Marshal-General asked.
“To be blunt, Marshal-General,” the Marshal-Judicar said, “
you
did. Not the appearance of mageryâI know that, though it's one of their accusations. But you told them something so different from what they believed that they could not take it in.”
“But they killed a
child,
” she said. “Gird would not do that.”
“No, I agree. And we know from the records that he did not demand death for all mages. Those provisions were added to the Code later, after Luap took the remaining mages away. But we have not taught that history for generations, so people did not know.”
“And they aren't listening now,” Darton said. “The ones who opposed you, anywayâwho questioned that first expedition west, for instanceâsee this as a way to get rid of you. I'm afraid we face armed rebellion.”
“And Tsaia?”
“Tsaia is different. I've always thought they were ridiculous to hold on to that notion of nobles and kings, but right now, their structure is working better than ours. The king and their Marshal-Judicar told them what to do, and they're doing it.”
“Well, then.” The Marshal-General looked around the table. “If we cannot avoid conflict, how can we cause the least harm while still coming out on top?”
No one said anything for a moment.
“Find the ringleaders andâ” Arvid stopped as they all stared at him. Then he went on. “You know in any mob there are ringleaders. If you kill themâ”
“Others will arise to avenge them,” High Marshal Feder said.
“Not necessarily,” Arvid said. “They claim to be more Girdish than the Marshal-General. What about challenging them one by oneâany Marshal who incites his people to rebel?”
“That will take ⦠a long time,” the Marshal-Judicar said. “But it might work if the others don't take their granges to war at once.”
“The Marshal-General can't do it all alone,” the Knight-Commander said. “We can't risk herâ”
“You can,” the Marshal-General said. “And we mustâ”
“No,” Paks said. “You met one challenger already and defeated him. Now it's the duty of others. Besides, if you tried to challenge and fight them all yourself, it would take too long.”
“Arvid, what do you think?” the Marshal-General asked.
“Not you,” he said. “Or, only for those who come here one by one, according to the rules for trial by combat. The othersâI do not know enough. How many, who, where to send them: that is up to you.” Then, feeling Gird's push, he added, “I might help. Though I'll be known here as one of your supporters, I would not in other places, and I have experience in gaining information.”
“It is nearly winter,” the Knight-Commander said. “That will slow them down, perhaps enough, if we act quickly.”
As they talked, Arvid found himself watching Paks. She was the same ⦠and yet not the same. Were those strands of gray in her yellow hair? She was so young ⦠had it been the ordeal? But he had seen her afterward; he had seen no gray then. How did paladins age? How long did they live? Then she turned, caught his gaze, and grinned at him; those thoughts vanished.
That afternoon, she came down the hill with him, ostensibly to visit several granges. The meeting had ended after midday; young Arvid was waiting in the Loaf's entrance. The boy ran toward them, then hesitated, looking at Paks.
“This is my son,” Arvid said. He beckoned; the boy came nearer, shy until Paks squatted down and held out her hand.
“I'm Paks,” she said. “Your name is Arvid also, I'm told.”
“Yes⦔ Now he flushed. “And you'reâyou're aâa paladin!”
“Yes,” Paks said. “And a friend of your father's. Did you know he saved my life years ago?”
“Da! You never told me!”
Paks stood up and gave Arvid a look he could not interpret. “He will tell you when it's time,” she said to the boy. “I must go talk to your Marshal now; we will meet again.” That had the ring of prophecy. Arvid watched her cross the street to the grange, then led his son inside the inn.