Lost and Found (26 page)

"You're my angel, Liv! I want to cherish you the way you
deserve to be cherished."

It was in that moment that I lost myself and he kissed
me softly again on my lips, beckoning for me to open my
mouth wider with his tongue, and I did. I opened my mouth
in search of his, as he pulled me on top of him and
embraced me, while our kiss continued deeper and deeper
with each thrust of our tongues.

As the kiss intensifies, we start groping at each other. He is
running his hands up and down my back and under my shirt, as I slide my hands underneath the front of his shirt, moving
my hands up and down his hard ridged stomach.

I sit up to tug his off. He stops me and pushes me out of the
way and stands up, as I look at him confused and wondering
what I did wrong.

"Liv, I'm sorry, but this isn't right. You deserve so much
better than down here on this dirty old couch."

He reaches for my hand and pulls me up, leans down,
pulls my head towards him, and kisses me again. Here I
was thinking that he had changed his mind about what we
were about to do, but instead, he was putting my needs first
in regards to where we were.

He leans down and grabs my ass and picks me up to where my legs are around both of his hips, and starts carrying me
towards the elevator, while passionately kissing me. I put
my arms around his neck and kiss him back, while tugging
at his hair and his shirt. By the time we reach
the elevator,
I've already managed to pull his shirt over his head and I
had to pull away for a second to see what he looked like
without his shirt again.

I immediately went to his neck, grazing my teeth up and
down his neck, while running my hands up and down his
chest to his belly, which has him moaning, as he is nuzzling
my neck, unbuttoning my shirt.

“God, you smell amazing, Liv! I'm going to buy you a
lifetime supply of whatever it is you're wearing."

My only reply was to kiss him again. I feel like I'm on fire and only he can diffuse the fire. I want this. More than I've
ever wanted anything in a long time, and I'm not scared of
him anymore.

The elevator doors open and he is still carrying me, as he walks across the hallway and I realize that we are heading
to his bedroom. He lowers me down his body slowly, so that
he can kiss me all the way up my belly. He slowly licks me
between my breasts and grazes my collarbone with his
teeth, as he starts to slowly graze his teeth along the side of
my neck and behind my ear, which causes me to moan with
pleasure.

"This is your chance to say no, Liv. Do you want me to
stop? It's your decision." While he's asking me this he's
running his hands up and down my bare back, sending shots
of electricity up and down my body.

"Yes." It was all I could manage to say. "I mean no,
don't stop. I want this. Now."

I immediately went to the waist of his pants and started
unbuttoning his jeans, as he did the same to me. We are just
standing there at the end of his bed looking at each other.
He turns me around and unhooks my bra and embraces me
from behind, pulls my hair to the side, and kisses the
nape of my neck, as he's caressing my breasts, causing
me to moan even louder.

"Cash. Please." He turns me around, grabs each side of my face, pulls me to him, kisses me rough and
hard, pulls back, gets down on his knees, and
slowly pulls my panties down, while kicking his off.

"Oh My God! I've wondered if you were a natural blonde.
I could get lost in you for days." He grabs my ass and leans
forward and kisses me at the top of my hair line, which causes me to lose my breath and then he stands up and
guides me into the bed.

I look down at the size of him and immediately get scared
and excited at the same time. He must have noticed my
hesitation, because he leaned in closer to my ear and
whispered.

"Don't worry, baby. I'll have you ready for me, just relax."
This eases my mind and I get even wetter at just the
thought of him entering me.

He gets on top of me and starts kissing me slowly, while
caressing me everywhere with his hands. He starts

kneading my breasts and he leans down and covers one of my nipples with his lips, and slowly sucks. Then he starts lightly biting it and reaches down between my thighs with
his hand, rubbing my sweet spot.

He does the same to my other nipple and by now he's
entered me with his middle finger, while rubbing me with
his thumb that has me bucking and squirming all over the
bed against him.

"Oh, Liv. You're so tight!" I can't even think because I'm
so lost in what he is doing to me and how he has my body
feeling. I start moving my hips up and down with each pump of his finger inside me and almost explode, as he
enters a second finger inside of me.

"That's it Baby, come for me." He kisses me, as I explode
over and over, while moaning into his mouth and screaming
his name.

"Honey, that was nothing. I can't wait to watch you feel
the next one I give you."

He leans over and pulls a condom out of his night stand and
puts it on, and all I can think is "next one?" The first one
was the biggest orgasm I had ever had.

When he enters me, I feel like I am having an out of body
experience. The size of him that I was so scared of, fills me
completely and I have never felt as full in my life, nor felt
anything that caused such pleasure and pain at the same
time, as he starts speeding up.

"Oh Cash! Oh my God! Cash!"

I wrap my legs around his hips, pulling him even closer, so
that we are skin to skin, while running my fingernails up his
back and scratching him on the way down his back, which
immediately had me coming and had him moaning just as
loud as me. He continues on and on while I revel in my
orgasm and then he finds his release, and I come again at
the same time that he does, which is even more intense. Oh my God. Two orgasms this time.
He leans towards my face and kisses me all over, while we
are both trying to catch our breath.

"Liv! I don't know what to say. Oh my God, but that was
absolutely amazing." He kisses me with everything he's got
and I already want more of him.

"I don't know about you, but I'm starving. Let’s go cook us
up something to eat to replenish our bodies, because we are
definitely not through."

What? Go eat? After that? He gets up out of the bed
and puts his boxers back on and reaches for one of his big
T-shirt's from his dresser and throws it at me for me to put on. I'm almost offended, until my stomach growls very
loudly, followed by his stomach growling.

"Don't think that what we just did didn't mean anything, Liv,
but we haven't eaten since noon and after what our
stomachs just did, we need nourishment before we continue
and both of us pass out from starvation and exhaustion. Not
to say that wouldn't be a good way to go, because I'm not through with you yet!"

He winks at me and leans me over to where my head is
almost on the floor, kisses me harder than he ever had,
pulls me back up, chuckles, and walks out of the
room.

It made me feel better, especially watching him walk out of
the room with nothing but his boxers on. My stomach
growled again and that was when I agreed with him,
because after we eat, I'm taking him up on his offer.

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

"Vanessa! Come back to me! Please! You have to come
back!"

I wake up to Cash yelling in his sleep, which let me know
that he was dreaming, so I gently shake him awake.

"Cash, wake up... It's just a dream, wake up."

He opens his eyes and rises up in bed, looks around,
realizes where he is, and lies back down and pulls me
closer to him. We are chest to chest and I look up at him, as I put my arm across his waist and up onto the back of his
neck, lightly caressing his neck.

"Are you okay? Are you regretting what we did?" He
shushes me.

"Shhh. Absolutely not. You have nightmares, I have
nightmares. They don't mean anything and don't ever think
that I regret what we did! I don't know about you, but it was
amazing!" He leans down and kisses me on the forehead.

"Yeah, I hate to admit it, but that was the best sex that I've
ever had and are you sure you're okay?"

After we ate dinner, we came back up here and spent many
hours making love in very different ways. In positions that
I wasn't even aware you could do. Derek and I had enjoyed
sex when we found the time for it, but after being with Cash, I realized that Derek lacked passion where Cash has an excessive amount.

"How many years were you married Liv, and yes, I'm
okay." He lowered his head again and kissed me on my
temple this time.

"Thirteen years, we married after I graduated from high
school."

"And the best sex that you've ever had was today? With
me? I'm sorry, but I stand by what I said downstairs." He
reaches under me and pulls me on top of him and brushes
my hair out of my face. "You should be worshiped every
day." He softly kisses me on the lips, but I feel that I need
to defend Derek.

"Derek had his own way of taking care of me, Cash. I'll
never fault him of that. He was raised to be a provider for
his family and he did provide for us. His parents weren't
really affectionate people, and I really think he did the best that he could do."

"Is that why you said you were scared of me? Because of
the way I made you feel when we were close to each other?" He's drawing little circles on my back, which has my body tingling all over.

"In a way, yes. But I also felt that I was betraying Derek by
how I was starting to feel towards you... Sexually." Just
saying that had me blushing, which had him chuckling.

"You're blushing. Why? Did you and Derek not talk about
what you wanted in the bedroom?"

Oh God no. I'll never forget me asking him once how he
felt about oral sex and he said it was disgusting and to
never ask him that again, so I never did.

"By the look on your face, I'm determining that to be a no."
This is too weird of a conversation for me.

"So, I'm assuming that you and Vanessa did?" This caught
him off guard, because the look on his face went from
playful to melancholy. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have asked
that. This is kind of a weird conversation, ya know?"

"No, that's okay. Yes, we talked about sex all of the time.
What we wanted or what we were going to do to the other.
I've always been a giver and trust me, Vanessa never had to
beg for anything in the bedroom, nor did I for that matter." Ok, weird conversation and right now I'm feeling
completely uneducated about sex. He must have sensed
how uncomfortable I was feeling.

"Ok, you're right. Maybe this has turned into a weird
conversation, but I'm just trying to get to know your wants better and yes the sex was amazing, but I sensed a few times
to where you seemed embarrassed.
Especially when I went down on you. Please tell me that
wasn't the first time anyone has done that to you."

"Actually, it was. I asked him what he thought about oral sex once and he thought it was disgusting." I looked up at him, because I didn't realize I had lowered
my head and it seems as if he's looking at me with pity.
Great! Now he's feeling sorry for me. I suddenly feel like a
16 year old girl just learning about sex.