Lost and Found (53 page)

"Cash. Honey. Can I ask you a question?" I rain him
with kisses all over his face and start giggling.

"Yes, you can ask me anything, but why are you laughing?"
Now I've got him giggling like crazy.

"I'm just so happy. And um, really ready to get our
honeymoon started so that I can SHOW you how happy I am
. If you catch my meaning. Can we start in the bathtub?
It looks like it could be a lot of fun."

He picks me up and starts carrying me to the bathtub, while
unbuttoning his shirt. I didn't realize how well he could
multitask, so I started helping him while laughing my head
off.

"OH MY GOD, Mrs. Kingston! I love it when you talk
dirty to me. This is going to be the best night of your life, I can assure you."

He put me down when we reached the tub and in less than a
minute we are both naked and standing in front of each other. I walk up next to him and we are chest to chest. I
graze his nipple with my teeth and run my fingers up his
abs.

"What are you going to do to me, Mr. Kingston?"

"Oh, there will be screaming, I promise you. By the time
I'm done with you, you're not going to remember your name. Get in the tub before I throw you in there."

I step into the tub and slowly walk to the center of it,
turn around and curl my finger at him to join me, and he
growled at me as he got into the tub. Oh, the wondrous
feeling I get at having power over him with that one simple
gesture.

When he reached me he kissed me so passionately and held me so tight, I thought my bones were going to break. Yes.
This is definitely going to be the best night of my life!

CHAPTER TWENTY FOUR

*5 months later

Walking back to my bed after going to the bathroom for the
100th time, which caused me to not get any sleep, has me jealous of my gorgeous husband as he peacefully slumbers in our bed. He must have sensed my jealousy as soon as I reached the bed, because he rose up rather quickly.

"Oh, God. I'm sorry. I fell asleep, didn't I? I told you to
wake me up when you have to go to the bathroom, so that I can help you."

"Honey, I know I'm waddling like a duck right now and
slow at that, but I can still manage to go to the bathroom by
myself. Plus you needed to get some sleep, because I know
how wore out you are."

"Oh I'll be okay, but Sweetheart, you are on bed rest and I
would rather carry you to the bathroom, so that you don't
have to be on your feet for very long." The doctor never said that I couldn't walk myself to the
bathroom. Yes, she did put me on bed rest, but told me that
going to the bathroom was fine as long as that was all I did,
but he insists on carrying me every time.

"Cash, if I get any bigger, you're not going to be able to
pick me up! I'm surprised you haven't pulled your back out
as big as I've gotten! Look at me! I think my ass is the
size of a barn door!" He scooted closer to me and pulled
me into his arms.

"There is absolutely nothing wrong with your ass! And as
far as my back goes, I don't care how big you get; I'll carry
you around everywhere, if I have to! I don't want you
putting any added stress on your body and have the babies come
before they should. Just wake me up next time, okay?"

There's no point in arguing with him because he will kill himself I know to make sure that the babies and I are okay.
I never knew that anyone could love me as much as he does
which causes me to start crying.

"I know you're just trying to protect me and I appreciate it,
but I just worry about you doing too much for us and
hurting yourself. I don't deserve you!"

"Honey? Why are you crying? Come here and let me rub your back. Are you hurting anywhere? I don't know how
many times I have to tell you, but I truly don't deserve you! Please don't cry, Sweetheart. I can't handle it when you cry,
because it makes me feel so helpless when you do."

"I'm sorry. I think it's just hormones and I feel so huge and
these babies are constantly kicking me. And I'm so tired,
because I'm constantly going to the bathroom. I can't even
leave this room and I think I've read every book that's in
your library these past couple of months! I'm so depressed that the highlight
of my day is screaming at the TV, while Maury Povich is on when those crazy women get on there swearing that he's the
father, when 99.9% of the time he's not!"
For some reason this had him laughing at me, which caused
me to cry harder and hide my face in his chest.

"Honey, the doctor said you could have the babies any
day now and to try not to stress out. You've been such a
trouper during this pregnancy, so you can't fall apart now, okay? Do you want me to stay home with you today? Will
that make you feel better? I can change my meetings
around until tomorrow."

Oh, I want to say yes so bad, but he's missed so much work
by waiting on me hand and foot and I know that he's the
boss and can have someone else do what's needed, but I feel
bad every time, because he still gets tons of calls with questions from his employees.

"No, I'll be okay. I'm just having a moment. I think I've
just been so stressed out from being cooped up in this room
and none of you will let me do anything! I need to pack
my bag and the babies bags. There's so much to do to get
ready before they get here."

"Liv, all of that's done. Your mom and Carmen have
everything ready already. What else can I do for you? Why
don't you lay back and let me massage your feet. Will that
help you calm down? Honey, I feel so helpless; please let
me help you out. Do you want me to run downstairs and get
you something to eat? I know Carmen has started breakfast
by now."

"I know what you could do for me, but you refuse to give it
to me! It might even cause me to go into labor, which would
be a blessing!"
Ever since the Doctor told us no intimacy, because it would
probably cause me to go into labor, he has definitely
not taken any chances.

"Not this again, Liv! You heard what the doctor said. It
could cause you to go into labor and they need to stay in as
long as possible. I can give you anything but that!"

"You're just not attracted to me anymore, are you? Admit
it! You don't desire me like you used to! I can't blame you
really, because I doubt that I'll ever have my body back.
Look how far my stomach goes out past my feet when I
stand up! You'd think there were four or five babies in
here!"

I look over at him and he's looking at me like I'm crazy. I
must have really made him mad, because he's breathing in
and out loudly and continuously, while gritting his teeth and
trying to calm down.

"Honey...." Deep breath “I'm going to just chalk that up to
hormones..." Deep breath “because I don't think that you've
ever hurt my feelings more than you just did..." Deep
breath "I don't know how many times I have to tell you..."
Calmer breathing "but you have never been sexier to me
than right now."

I lean over, kiss him hard on the lips, reach between
his legs to feel his arousal, and look into his eyes, as I
pull away from the kiss. What I saw was definitely attraction and want and desire.

"Then prove it, Mr. Kingston. Show me that you still want
me, because I want you so bad right now and the doctor said
that the babies are ready to come out, they're just biding their time. Help me out, Cash! I'm miserable and I don't
want to wait any longer, before I can have you again! It's already been two months!"
I hear him growl and moan into my ear and then a defeated
sigh.

"Oh my God, Liv! You don't fight fair at all! Are you sure
the babies will be alright? You just don't understand. Vanessa had Eden a month early, and you’re only a week
further along than she was and if I lost any of you, I'd never
forgive myself. Please don't put me in this position! Please
be patient, Baby, and let them be born when they're ready. I
might be able to help you find some release, if that would
make you feel better, but I'm NOT having sex with you."

Now I feel bad, because he's right, I don't want my
impatience to cause something bad to happen, even though I

feel like I could have them at any time. I pull him as close
to me as I can, which isn't close enough as far as I'm concerned, but with my stomach as huge as it is, I just have
to make do.

"I'm sorry. You're right. It's pretty selfish of me to even
ask and I know you're attracted to me still. Why? I'll never
know, but I love you, Baby. Thank you for not giving up on
me during my crazy spells! I know I'm probably driving
you crazy. Will you just hold me? That'll make me feel
better."

"Oh, Honey. Of course I'll hold you, and you're not driving
me crazy, Sweetheart. You know I'll do anything for you, except for that. Turn around with your back facing me, because I think it'll be easier that way to hold you better."
I turn around and he pulls me closer to him and rests his
hands around my belly, which causes the babies to start
kicking and I have to admit that it's such an incredible
feeling.

"I think they love their daddy already as much as I do. Cash? Every time you touch my belly, they start going
crazy!"

"I know, I can already tell that they took after you, though,
with their kicking. Have you decided on what you want to
name our son yet? I already know that Cassidy Rose is a
done deal, but we have to name him too. What about
Caleb? After my brother?"

"I thought about that, but what about when he and Claudia
have babies? Don't you think they would want to name
their first son after him?"

"Oh, so they're having a baby now? When did that
happen? Did I miss something?"

He's laughing his head off. They have been one of our
biggest discussions the last few months, as much time as
they spend together. He has pretty much moved in with her
and supposedly sleeps in my old room, but Claudia swears
that it's completely platonic and she still hasn't told him that
she's more than available.

"Well, no. Just wishful thinking, I guess. Has he said
anything to you? Because she swears they're just friends
and plans on keeping it that way."

"All that he's said is that the more time he spends with her,
he's falling deeper and deeper in love with her and that
she's got a wall over her emotions that he can't seem to get
through. What's her deal anyway? I think someone has
really done a number on her. Do you have any idea what happened to her to make her avoid having a relationship?"

"Honestly? I have no idea. Whatever happened to her,
happened when she moved out here for college. I suspect
that someone broke her heart so bad that that's why she
avoids getting into relationships. I thought that maybe you
would have known or Vanessa maybe, but we can't ask her
unfortunately."

"Ya know, there were a few months there to where
Vanessa protected her like a little baby cub. She wouldn't
let me be mean to her or joke with her and she seemed
really withdrawn, but come on, we were talking about
Claudia, who would get upset if she was having a bad hair
day! When she finally started coming around, though, she did seem meaner and even ruder, if you can imagine and after a while she started acting like her usual less hateful
self."