Love Only Once (22 page)
“Regina!” Eleanor gasped.
Reggie crossed her arms over her chest, stubbornly refusing to look at Nicholas’ aunt. She had become very close to Eleanor in the last months, had even come to love her. But no one, not her relatives or his, was going to make Reggie accept a man who had been forcibly brought back. The humiliation of that was almost as bad as the desertion.
Nicholas studied Regina covertly, pretending he was looking at his aunt. He felt like smashing his fist into something, anything. He also felt like weeping. Look at her! She evi
dently knew about his parentage, knew and despised him for it. He saw it in the hard set of her lips; the stiff, unyielding line of her posture.
So, Miriam had told her. Well and good. If she hated the thought of being married to a bastard, it was what she deserved for forcing him into the marriage.
Nicholas’ being brought home in the hands of her uncle had made him forget that he’d made up his mind to return and had wanted to make amends. He had, in fact, forgotten everything except his fury.
“Not welcome here, madame?” Nicholas said softly. “Am I mistaken, or does this house belong to me?”
Her eyes met his for the first time. Good Lord, she’d forgotten how devastating were those sherry-gold eyes. And he looked wonderful, his skin deeply tanned, his hair brightly sun-streaked. But she couldn’t allow him to cast his spell over her.
“You forget, sir, that you refused to share a house with me. To be specific, you
gave
me your home.”
“Silverley, not my townhouse. And what the bloody hell have you done to this house?” he demanded, looking around at all the new furniture and floral wallpaper.
Reggie smiled innocently, her voice sweet. “Why, Nicholas, don’t you like it? Of course, you weren’t here to help me decorate, but I was very frugal with your money. It only cost you four thousand pounds.”
James quickly turned around to hide his mirth. Conrad suddenly found the ceiling fascinating. Only Eleanor frowned. The two young people were now glaring at each other.
“Nicholas, is this any way to greet your wife after seven months?”
“What are you doing here, Aunt Ellie?”
“And is that any way to greet me?” His expression did not soften. She sighed. “If you must know, this house is so big I thought Regina could use my company. It wasn’t right, your wife living here alone.”
“I left her at Silverley!” he thundered.
“Don’t you dare shout at Ellie!” Reggie shouted at him. “And
you
go live at Silverley with Miriam. I like it fine right here.”
“I think we will both return to Silverley,” he said in a cold voice, “now that I have no reason to avoid my
mother
anymore.”
“Unacceptable.”
“I wasn’t asking your permission. A husband doesn’t need his wife’s permission—for anything,” he said harshly.
She gasped at the meaning. “You have relinquished all rights,” she said fiercely.
He smiled. “Not relinquished. Just refrained from using…until now. After all, your family has gone to
so
much trouble to bring us together again,
I
certainly don’t want to disappoint them,” he said cruelly.
“Lady Reggie,” an older woman servant interrupted from the doorway. “It’s time.”
“Thank you, Tess.” Reggie dismissed the
nurse with a nod, then turned to James and Conrad and said, “I know you meant well, but you will understand if I don’t thank you for your trouble.”
“You did say you could manage very well, Regan,” James reminded her.
She smiled for the first time since their arrival. It was her old impish grin, and she gave both men a hug and kiss. “So I did. And so I will. Now if you gentlemen will excuse me, I must see to my son.”
James and Conrad burst into great gales of laughter as Reggie left the room. Her husband stood stock-still, rooted to the floor, his mouth open, a look of complete stupefaction on his face.
“What did I tell you, Connie?” James roared. “Is the look on his face worth all the trouble he put us through or is it not?”
N
ICHOLAS downed his third brandy in twenty minutes and poured another. James Malory and Conrad Sharpe, his shadows for so long, had just left his house, and he was still stinging from the amusement they had derived at his expense. Even so, he told himself, he had more important matters to simmer over.
He sat in what had so recently been his study, now a small music room. A music room! If that wasn’t a piece of malicious spite, he didn’t know what was. A man’s study was sacred. And she hadn’t just changed the study, she’d eliminated it entirely.
Had she expected him never to return? Or had she hoped he would? Damnation take her. His sweet, beautiful wife had turned into a vengeful, hot-tempered woman in the same mold as her two younger uncles. Damnation take them too.
Eleanor paced the room, casting disapproving looks at Nicholas every time he raised the brandy glass to his lips. He was stewing in his resentment.
“What the bloody hell did she do with my papers, my desk, my books?”
Eleanor steeled herself to be calm. “You just learned that you have a son. Is this is all you can ask about?”
“Are you saying you don’t know where she put my things?”
Eleanor sighed. “In the attic, Nicky. All of it is in the attic.”
“You were here when she turned my house upside down?” he accused.
“I was here, yes.”
“And you didn’t try to stop her?” he asked incredulously.
“For heaven’s sake, Nicky, you took a wife. You couldn’t expect to keep a bachelor residence after getting married.”
“I didn’t ask for a wife,” he said bitterly. “And I expected her to remain where I put her, not trespass here. If she wanted to redecorate, why the bloody hell couldn’t she satisfy herself with remodeling Silverley?”
“Actually, I believe she liked Silverley the way it was.”
“Then why didn’t she stay there?” he raged.
“Do you really have to ask?”
“What was the problem?” he sneered. “Wouldn’t my dear mother turn over the reins?”
“Regina took her rightful place there, if that is what you mean.”
“Then they got along famously? Well, why
not?” he laughed derisively. “They have so much in common, both despising me as they do.”
“That is unfair, Nicky.”
“Don’t tell me you’re going to defend your sister at this late date?”
“No,” Eleanor replied sadly.
“I see. You’re taking sides with Regina. Well, you wanted me to marry her. Are you pleased with the way it’s turned out?”
Eleanor shook her head. “I swear I just don’t know you anymore. Why did you do it, Nicky? She’s a wonderful girl. She could have made you so happy.”
Sudden pain welled up in his chest, choking him. Happiness with Regina could never be his, no matter how much he wanted it. But Eleanor couldn’t understand why because Miriam had never told her the truth. The sisters had been estranged for as long as he could remember. And if Miriam or Regina hadn’t told her, he certainly wasn’t going to. Sweet Ellie would pity him and he wanted none of that. Better she think him the detestable character everyone else thought him.
He stared down at the glass in his hand and mumbled, “I don’t like being forced.”
“But the deed was done,” Eleanor pointed out. “You did marry her. Couldn’t you have given her a chance?”
“No.”
“All right. I understand. You were bitter. But now, Nicky, can’t you try now?”
“And have her laugh in my face? No thank you.”
“She was hurt, that’s all. What did you expect when you deserted your bride on her wedding day?”
The hand on the glass tightened. “Is that what she told you? She was hurt?”
Eleanor looked away. “Actually…”
“So I thought.”
“Don’t interrupt, Nicky.” She frowned sternly. “I was going to say she won’t talk about you to me at all. But give me some credit for understanding the girl after living with her for four months.”
“She’s wise not to tell you what she thinks of me. She knows you have a soft spot for me.”
“You’re just not going to unbend, are you?” she cried. He refused to answer and she lost her patience. “What about your
son?
Is he to grow up in a household of strife—as you did? Is that what you want for him?”
Nicholas shot out of the chair and hurled his glass against the wall.
Eleanor was too shocked to speak, and after a moment he explained himself by saying in a hoarse voice, “I am no fool, madame. She may have told everyone the child is mine, but what else can she say? Let her try and tell me the baby is mine!”
“Are you saying you and she…that you never…”
“Once, Aunt Ellie, only once. And that was four months before I married her!”
Eleanor’s expression softened. “She gave birth five months after the wedding, Nicky.”
He stopped cold, then stated flatly, “The birth was premature.”
“It was not!” Eleanor snapped. “How would you know?”
“Because,” he said reasonably, “she would have told me about the baby in order to keep me here if she’d been pregnant when I left. You cannot tell me she wouldn’t have known if she’d been four months along. Also, she would have shown some sign of it, which she didn’t. She could only have been one or two months pregnant when I left and obviously unaware of her condition.
“Nicholas Eden, until you can stop being so perverse, I shall have nothing to say to you!” With that, Eleanor swept angrily from the room.
Nicholas grabbed the brandy decanter, about to send it the way of the glass. He tilted it to his lips instead. Why not?
Yes, she’d have told him if she’d been pregnant when they married. He recalled the times she let other men take her home. He recalled George Fowler in particular and the red-hot rage he had felt over that. Had it been intuition? Had he known the young bastard wouldn’t take her straight home?
Nicholas was so furious he could barely think straight. He had tried not to think about the child from the moment he’d learned of his birth. His son, was he? Just let her try and convince him of that.
R
EGGIE smiled absently as the little fist kneaded her breast. Feeding her son had always been such a lovely, satisfying time for her, but tonight her thoughts were downstairs. She didn’t even notice when the small mouth stopped sucking.
“He’s off to sleep again, Reggie,” Tess whispered.
“Oh, so he is. But not for long, eh?”
Reggie gently lifted the infant to her shoulder and patted his back. His head snuggled there, his mouth sucking air for a moment before it went slack. She smiled up at her old nurse, now her son’s nurse.
“Perhaps this time he will stay asleep,” Reggie whispered to Tess as she put him back to bed. But the moment she laid him down on his belly, his head popped up jerkily, his feet started to wiggle, and those inquisitive eyes opened.
“It’s to be expected.” Tess grinned. “He just doesn’t need as much sleep now. He’s getting older.”
“I’ll have to start thinking about getting you some help then.”
“Bother that,” Tess scoffed. “When he’s six months old and starting to crawl, then I’ll welcome the help.”
“If you say so.” Reggie laughed. “But you go on and have your dinner now. I’ll stay with him until you’re through.”
“No you won’t, my girl. You have company below.”
“Yes,” Reggie sighed, “my husband. But as I have nothing to say to him, I am not going down. Now go on, Tess. And please have a tray sent up here to me, will you?”
“But—”
“No.” Reggie picked up the wide-awake baby again. “This gentleman right here is the only company I want tonight.”
Tess gone, Reggie dropped all pretense of ladylike behavior and got down on the floor to play with her son, imitating his sounds and gestures, coaxing him to smile. He wasn’t quite up to laughter yet, but that wouldn’t be long in coming, for he heard enough laughter around him. His many visitors, from the servants to her uncles, all tried to make him smile with crazy antics that were quite as ridiculous as his mother’s.
How she loved this little person. Right before he was born she had fallen into a terrible depression. But after the birth, which had amazed the doctor by being such an easy labor for a first child, Reggie was filled with euphoria. Plainly
and simply, her child brightened her life. In fact, in the last two months she had been so busy learning about and enjoying her new motherhood, that she rarely thought of Nicholas, at least not more than a dozen times a day.
“But now he’s back, love. What are we going to do?” Reggie sighed.
“You don’t expect him to answer that, do you?”
“Oh, Meg, you startled me!”
“D’you want this down there on the floor?” Meg was holding a tray of food. “I caught the maid on the way up here with it.”
“Over there on the table, please,” Reggie directed. “And now tell me all about your outing with Harris.”
Nicholas had left Harris behind, to the valet’s endless misery. The poor man had been bereft all these months and especially unhappy after Reggie moved into the townhouse. He was downright hostile, and he and Meg had had a few heated exchanges, defending their territory.
Abruptly, after the baby arrived, all of that changed. Harris warmed to Reggie or, more exactly, to Meg. Meg and Harris astonished themselves by discovering a liking for each other. They had even been going out together lately and got along famously just so long as Meg said nothing derogatory about the Viscount.
Meg put the tray down with a bang. “Never mind about that hardheaded gent I’ve been passin’ time with. I don’t think I’ll be doin’ that
anymore. What does he do the moment he hears the Viscount is here? He doesn’t give me a by-your-leave, but rushes upstairs to find his lordship! And I could’ve save him the trouble. Tess informed me another bottle of brandy was just delivered to the music room.”
“The music room? Ah, yes,” Reggie giggled suddenly. “The music room. I’d forgotten what I did to his study.”
“Tess said he and Lady Ellie were shouting in there,” Meg informed her.
“Were they? I’m afraid that doesn’t interest me.”