Love's unending legacy (Love Comes Softly #5) (17 page)

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partition. For a moment neither of them spoke.

"He's really growin', ain't he?" Clark said at last.

"Sure is," responded Ellie.

"Seems like a nice dog. He learnin' well?"

"He's really quick," said Ellie.

"You've always thought 'im kinda special, ain't ya?"

Ellie agreed that she had. Clark knelt down and stroked the dog with his large work-roughened hand. The dog squirmed with the pleasure of it but did not leave Ellie.

"Seems to me thet's more'n a dog yer holdin'," Clark observed. Ellie's head came up quickly, but she did not ask her father what he meant.

Clark continued to stroke the dog.

"Seems like it's a dream thet yer holdin', as well," went on Clark, and Ellie's head bowed over the dog again. "A dream ... an' maybe a love."

Tears came to Ellie's eyes and started to slide down her cheeks. Clark reached out and gently brushed one of them away.

"What is it, little girl?" he asked softly. "Do ya love a man who doesn't return yer love?"

"Oh no. He does," Ellie said quickly. "He ... he wanted me to have a locket fer Christmas. He would have come courtin'. I know thet, Pa, iffen I would have given 'im any hope at all."

"An' why didn't ya?" asked Clark simply.

"Why?"

"Yeah, why? Didn't ya feel like he's the kinda man ya could love?"

"Oh, I do love 'im, I do," sobbed Ellie.

Clark reached out and drew his daughter into his arms. He let her cry against him, saying nothing, only holding her close and stroking her long golden curls.

When Ellie's sobs appeared to be lessening, he spoke again. "I'm afraid ya lost me," he said against her hair. "Ya say thet he would have come courtin'--an' ya say thet ya love 'im. Then why

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are the two of ya so miserable an' there's no courtin' being' done?" Ellie pulled back and looked at her father, eyes wide in astonishment.

"I can't," she sobbed again. "Ya know thet. I can't." When Clark did not respond, she said, "Mama needs me."

The words soaked slowly into Clark's consciousness, and he pushed the girl away from him and looked into her eyes. "Whoa, now," he said. "What is this yer tellin' me?"

"Mama needs me," Ellie repeated.

"Sure, Mama needs ya, but she sure ain't expectin' ya to go on being' her housemaid fer all the years to come."

"But the baby--"

"Mama has had babies afore--an' she's made out just fine, too. Oh, I will admit I was some worried, too--at first--but she's doin' just fine now. Why, yer mama is no softie. She can handle most anythin' thet needs handlin', an' one little baby, more or less, sure ain't gonna bother her none."

"But it's not just thet," said Ellie.

"It's not?"

"What else, then?" said Clark, fearing that a fresh torrent of tears was on the way.

"Lane is going back west as soon as the LaHayes get back to care fer the farm."

"So?"

"Every time one of us goes far away, it pains Mama. You know how it hurt her when Missie went, and then Clae, and now Luke. It would nigh kill her iffen I went, too."

"I see," said Clark. "Yer thinkin' thet yer mama just wouldn't be able to let ya go, huh?"

Ellie nodded with her head up against him.

"Well, I'm admittin' thet yer mama sure does prefer her young'uns close by. I also happen to know the thing thet Mama wants more'n anythin' in the world is fer her children to be happy.

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Now, iffen ya think thet yer happiness lies with a certain young man by the name of Lane, then thet's what Mama wants fer ya, even iffen it takes ya many miles away."

Ellie's eyes still showed doubt. "Oh, Pa," she said, "do ya really think so?"

"I know so," answered Clark. "Fact is, I just came from talkin' with yer mama. She is worried 'bout ya. Has been fer days. We didn't either one of us guess what was wrong, or we woulda straightened ya out long ago. It was Kate thet got suspectin'. Guess we had just thought of Lane as family fer so long thet we never even thought he might not seem like family to you."

Ellie's eyes began to glow again. "Oh, Pa," she said, "I love both you an' Mama so. I'd never want to hurt Mama. Never!"

"And yer mama would never want to stand in the way of yer happiness, either. Now wipe away those tears, and let's go see yer mama."

Ellie did so, the best she could, then bent to stroke the patient Rex once more before hurrying to the barn door. Clark lifted the lantern from its hook and followed her.

Suddenly Ellie stopped. "But, Pa," she said in deep concern, "I already told Lane no."

"I don't think Lane will be givin' up thet easy like," he assured her. "Iffen he does, he's not the man I thought 'im to be."

Some of the fear left Ellie's eyes, and she quickened her steps. Clark had all he could do to keep up with her. As he hung up his coat on the peg in the kitchen, he heard her say, "Oh, Mama," and then what sounded like both laughing and crying.

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NINETEEN
Dark Shadows

Someone was knocking on the door, making far more noise than should be necessary. Marty fought for consciousness, at the same time wishing she could remain asleep. Something told her it was not time to get up yet, even though she could not see the clock in the darkness.

Clark had roused and was hurriedly dressing. Marty's mind flashed her a message of "Ben."
This is what happened when Ben ...
But no, it couldn't be that again. Then why would someone come pounding on their door now? Fear gripped Marty's heart. It must be more bad news.

Clark left the room hurriedly without a word, and Marty heard his footstep on the wooden stairsteps. He had not stopped for boot or crutch and hopped down on one bare foot.

With an effort, Marty threw back the covers and stepped out onto the cold floor. She was glad for the rug nearby that offered some protection from the winter chill. She felt around with one foot for her bed socks and crossed to the closet hook to grab her robe. Voices drifted up to her. Excited voices. It sounded like Clare. Who had awakened Clare, and what might the trouble be?

Marty tried not to hurry down the steps. A fall in the dark certainly would be no aid to whatever the problem was. She held firmly to the rail and felt her way down carefully. Yes, it was Clare's voice. Clare's voice mingled with Clark's, Clare's muffled by horrible sobs. Marty hastened her steps.

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When Marty entered the kitchen, she was more bewildered than ever. Clark had lit the kitchen lamp, and in its soft glow, she could see the outline of two men. Her men. Clark was supporting Clare, and Clare was weeping against him uncontrollably. Marty tried to voice a question, but it wouldn't form on her lips.

"It's Kate," said Clark over Clare's head. "She's in terrible pain."

"What's happened?" Marty was able to gasp out the question.

"He doesn't know. It just came on sudden like in the night. I'm gonna go git Doc. Ya think thet ya can--?"

But Clark didn't finish his question before Marty moved to her grown son and turned him toward her.

Clare seemed to get hold of himself. "Oh, Ma," he groaned, "I'm so scared. I've never seen anyone in such pain. We gotta git back there, Ma. We gotta--"

"We will," said Marty. "I'll just pull on some boots an' grab a shawl."

Clare took Marty's hand, and they hurried toward the little log house. He had taken command again now. The rough sobbing had ceased, and he was thinking rationally.

"Maybe the baby is on the way." Marty said as a means of assurance.

"It's too early yet."

"Some of 'em come early."

"Not this early."

"Maybe Kate figured wrong."

Clare made no response, and Marty thought he strongly doubted it.

"Some women do have a great deal of pain when--"

But Clare didn't want to listen. "We don't want the baby comin' now." he said. "It's still too early. It would be dang'rous fer 'im to come now."

Marty turned at the sound of someone hurrying to the barn. Clark was on his way for the doctor. She prayed him Godspeed and continued along the icy path.

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"Pa's on his way." she said to Clare. "Won't be long an' the doc'll be here."

They had not yet reached the house when Marty could hear Kate. She felt Clare stiffen beside her. Poor Kate she had never been a crybaby about discomfort. Truly Clare was right. Something was terribly wrong with her. They hastened into the little house, and Marty kicked her boots into a corner by the door and shed her shawl as she passed by a chair. Already Clare had half run through to the bedroom. A lamp had not even been lit, and Marty fumbled around in the semidarkness to find it and the matches. Kate continued to toss and moan on the bed, and Clare dropped on his knees beside her and tried to soothe her with his words and hands.

"Pa's gone for Doc, sweetheart. It won't be long now. Just hang on. Hang on."

Clare turned back to Marty and his eyes were pleading.
Do somethin', Ma,
they seemed to say.
Do somethin' fer my Kate.

Marty moved to the bed and gently reached out to the girl, smoothing her matted hair back from her face. "Kate," she said, raising her voice to be heard above Kate's groans, "Kate, can ya hear me, dear?"

Kate responded with a nod of her head and another moan. "When did this start?"

Kate managed to indicate that it had started about bedtime--a little--and then increased in intensity during the night.

"An' where is the pain?" continued Marty.

Kate laid her hand on her lower abdomen.

Marty placed her hand there, too. She could feel the tightening of Kate's muscles as another groan passed Kate's lips.

As the contraction passed, Marty spoke to Kate, trying to keep her voice light to ease some of the tension in the room.

"Kate," she said, "I do believe thet yer gonna be a mama."

"No!" Kate gasped out. "No! It's too early--too soon. I don't want 'im to come now. He's too little."

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"Listen," Marty said sharply. "Listen, Kate. Don't fight
it,
Kate. Don't struggle against it. Try to relax. Maybe--maybe it will pass--but ya gotta calm yerself. Fer yer sake an' the baby's."

Marty could see Kate's big violet eyes in the dim light given off by the lamp on the dresser. Marty knew she was thinking of her baby. She wanted her baby. She would do anything that she could for his safety.

"I'll try." she whispered. "I'll try."

"Good girl," Marty said, then knelt down beside Clare and began to stroke the girl's cold hand. "Now, Clare, I know thet you've been prayin', but let's pray together."

Clare led them in prayer. "Our God," he said, a catch in his voice, "ya know our concern here. We don't want to see Kate in such pain, an' we don't think it's time fer the little one yet. Help us all to be calm with yer help, Lord. Help Kate at this time to feel yer love--an' our love. God, ya know our desire. We want our son safely delivered. I want my Kate--" Clare's voice truly broke here, and Marty wondered if he would be able to continue, but he quickly recovered. "But, God, in spite of our wants, we gotta say as we been told to say, `Thy will be done.` An' we mean it, Lord, 'cause we know thet ya love us and ya want our good. Amen."

Kate had lain quietly the entire time Clare was praying. Clare leaned over and kissed her cheek as soon as he had said his "Amen." Kate stirred again, and Marty knew she was fighting to try to relax in spite of her intense pain.

"Clare," Marty said, "make us a good fire in the cook stove, will ya? And put on a couple kettles of water to heat."

Clare went to comply, and Marty moved closer to minister to the girl on the bed. She smoothed back her hair, straightened the crumpled blankets, stroked her flushed cheeks. And all the time she fussed and comforted, she talked quietly to Kate, trying to distract her mind from the pain.

Kate heroically tried--with all her being she tried. Marty could see her brace herself against the pain and then fight with all of her

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might to relax in spite of it. Clare started a brisk fire and filled the kettles as Marty had told him. He even brought a pan of water so Marty might sponge Kate's face. The hours dragged by. Marty felt the doctor was long overdue and feared lest he had already been called out on some other emergency. Just as she was about to give up, she heard hoofbeats in the yard. She turned to the window and breathed a prayer of thanks as she saw two riders dismount.

Clark was leading both horses toward the barn, and Doc was hurrying toward the little house with his black bag grasped firmly in his hand. Never had any man looked more welcome to Marty than did Doc.

Clare was already at the door, taking Doc's coat and giving him a report. Marty remained in Kate's room until the doctor appeared, and then she left him with the girl and went to the kitchen to wait for Clark.

She busied herself with the coffeepot. She didn't know if there would be anyone who would be wanting coffee, but it gave her something to do. With Kate now in the doctor's hands, Marty had time to think.

What if Kate's baby
was
on the way? Would it be developed enough to be able to survive? What would happen to Clare and Kate if they lost their baby? What would happen to their faith?

Marty reached down and laid a hand on her own stomach. Her baby responded with a strong kick. Marty's eyes filled with tears. "Please, God," she prayed, "don't let anythin' happen to the baby. They could never stand it, Lord. They've been workin' an' dreamin' an' prayin' fer thet little'un fer so long. It would break their hearts to lose it now. Iffen ... iffen ..." and Marty placed her hand over her unborn. "Iffen it has to be one of 'em, Lord, then ... then take mine. I think I could bear it better'n Kate." Even as Marty spoke the words silently, her mind was filled with the knowledge of the great pain that losing her baby--the little unseen someone she had learned to love--would bring her. If only there was some way she could protect Clare and Kate from the