Magnolia (31 page)

I nodded, hoping he was right. I wanted to fit in. To
blend
in.

Dr. Blackwell steepled his hands beneath his chin, silently watching me for a moment. “I'm very sorry about your father's death, Miss McKenna,” he said, startling me.

My stomach rolled over in my gut. Was that information there in the papers on his desk? It had happened two years ago, but it still felt like yesterday. I couldn't stand to think about it, even now. Especially now.
What doesn't break us only makes us stronger,
Gran liked to say, but it never did make me feel any better.

“Quite tragic,” the headmaster added. “Not something one can easily forget, is it?”

“No,” I muttered, dropping my gaze to my lap. It wasn't easy to forget, especially when people kept bringing it up.

“I imagine that tomorrow will be a day of discovery for you. You might find yourself somewhat . . . surprised by what you find here at Winterhaven. If you have any questions or simply need to talk to someone, my door is always open. Figuratively speaking, of course.”

I only nodded in reply.

“Well, then.” He tipped his head toward the door. “Shall I ring the bell for Mrs. Girard?”

“That'd be great,” I said, standing on shaky legs.

“I hope your first night at Winterhaven is a pleasant one, Miss McKenna.” He extended one hand toward me as Mrs. Girard bustled back in.

“Thank you, sir.” As I took his hand, a shudder ran up my arm. His hand was cold—like ice—despite the fire crackling away in the fireplace behind him.

“Come now, Miss McKenna,” Mrs. Girard said. “If we go quickly, we might catch Miss Bradford before she heads down to dinner.”

With a nod, I picked up my bag and stuffed my class schedule inside, then followed her out. We seemed to walk forever, one corridor leading to the next, up one staircase and down
another. How in the world was I ever going to find my way around this place?

Finally we entered what looked like an oversize, paneled study with a stone fireplace on one side, a wall-mounted television in the corner, and bookshelves taking up the opposite wall. Brown leather couches and chairs were scattered about.

“This is the East Hall lounge,” Mrs. Girard explained, “where you'll have study hour after dinner each night. Other than that, it's to use as you please. Vending machines are just over there, beside the mailboxes. Girls' rooms are this way.” She motioned to the right, and I followed her into yet another hall, this one lined with group photos of girls, all wearing blue velvet gowns. About halfway down the hall we stopped in front of a door with the number 217 on it, and she knocked sharply. When no one answered, she produced a key from her pocket and turned it in the lock.

“Here we are,” she said.

Stepping inside, I quickly surveyed the place. The room was surprisingly big, with two white wooden beds on either side of a window. The required desk and dresser were there beside each bed, and an open doorway on one side of the room led to what looked like a little sitting area, complete with love seat, chair, and coffee table.
Not bad,
I thought. It was actually pretty nice.

Mrs. Girard cocked her head toward the bare side of the
room. “I'll send the housekeeper right up with some clean linens for your bed.”

“Thank you,” I said, setting my bag on the empty desk.

“I see your trunks made it up here already, and your course books are there on the shelves.” With a nod, she rubbed her hands together. “Now, then. House rules. No boys on the girls' floor, and vice versa. No smoking, no alcoholic beverages. You will find snacks and beverages in the lounge and the café. The housekeepers come on Tuesdays and Fridays, so I ask that you have your clutter cleared away on those mornings. No cell phones in the lounge, or anywhere else on campus, for that matter. They must remain here in your room at all times. No music so loud as to disturb your neighbors. Lights out by eleven on school nights, midnight curfew on weekends. I suppose that's it for now. The rest can wait.”

There was more? I wasn't what you'd call a party animal—not at all—but lights out at eleven seemed a little harsh, and so did the cell phone thing. I wasn't used to going anywhere without my cell.

“Oh, and the restrooms and showers are just next door, on your right.” Just then the door was flung open, and a girl about my height wearing a pink robe and bunny slippers burst in, her hair wrapped in a towel.

“Oh!” She stepped back in surprise when she saw us standing there. “You're here!”

“Good evening, Miss Bradford,” Mrs. Girard said. “I've brought you your new roommate.”

“You must be Violet,” she said brightly.

“And you must be Cecilia.” Deep brown skin, dark eyes, curly hair peeking out of her towel. She was beautiful, and I felt like a pale plain Jane in comparison.

She waved one hand in dismissal. “Oh, everyone calls me Cece. You have
no
idea how glad I am you're here.”

Mrs. Girard moved toward the door. “Well then, I think we're done going over the rules, Miss McKenna. Here's your key”—she laid it on my desk—“and I'll leave you two to get acquainted. You have your class schedule?”

I nodded. “Yes, ma'am.”

“Very good. You'll find a campus map on the back. Have a wonderful evening, then. And don't forget, Dr. Blackwell and myself are available to answer any questions that might arise over the course of the day tomorrow.”

After she left, I turned my attention to Cece. She was standing by her bed, watching me curiously. “I cleaned out the closet and made sure your half was empty,” she offered.

“Thanks. The room is much nicer than I expected. Big.”

“Yeah, it's not too bad, except for the shared bath. But you get used to it. And hey, at least it's right next door.”

I cleared my throat, trying to think of something to say. “You've been here since freshman year?” I asked at last, knowing it sounded lame.

“Yup. Home sweet home.” She removed the towel from her head, revealing dark curls that fell just past her shoulders. “So you're from Atlanta?”

“Lived there my whole life,” I said with a shrug. Same neighborhood, same house—just down the block from Gran, who'd live there
her
whole life. God, we were a boring bunch.

Still, it had been comfortable. If only Patsy had left well enough alone, hadn't forced me to choose between her—the closest thing I had to a parent—and the only place I'd ever called home.

But she
had
made me choose, and I'd chosen Winterhaven. I tried to think of this as a new beginning, a fresh start. I'd reinvent myself—the new-and-improved Violet McKenna. No one here would know the names I'd been called—freak, weirdo. Half-jokingly, of course, but my friends had no idea how close to the truth they'd been, and how much that scared me. I
was
a freak, and I'd do just about anything to make sure no one here noticed it.

“Well, I've lived
here
my whole life,” Cece said. “The city, I mean. My mom's family is from New Orleans, though, so we spend a lot of time down there. I think I've got some voodoo queen in my blood!”

“Now
that
sounds interesting.” I sat down on my bed, watching as Cece walked over to the sitting area and started picking up magazines that were scattered about.

“Just don't let my mother hear you say that,” she called back over one shoulder. “So, what is it that you do?”

“You mean, like, fencing?”

“You're a fencer?” she asked, carrying the magazines over to her desk and leaving them in a pile that looked in serious danger of toppling over. “You mean swords and all that stuff?”

“Yeah. I hear the program here is pretty good.”

“Oh. Yeah, sure. But I meant . . . you know . . .” Cece trailed off, shaking her head when I said nothing. “Never mind,” she said with a shrug, glancing up at the clock above her desk. “Crap, when did it get so late? I've got a student council meeting tonight.”

She hurried over to her dresser, pulling open drawers and haphazardly pulling things out. Minutes later she was dressed in jeans and a pink T-shirt, a touch of gloss on her lips. Very low maintenance—I liked that.

“So, you're on student council?” I asked, just trying to make conversation.

“Yep, you're looking at the newly elected junior class president,” she said with a grin, grabbing her keys off her desk and stuffing them into a pocket.

“Cool,” I said.

She shrugged. “I don't know. Is it cool? I swear, sometimes I think I'm headed toward total dorkdom.”

“No, it really
is
cool.” Actually, everything about Cece seemed cool, which made me feel like an even bigger loser.

She paused by the door. “I feel terrible just leaving you here,
fifteen minutes after you walk through the door. Want me to call some of my friends, ask them to come over and show you around?”

I shook my head. “No, I swear I'll be fine. By the time you get back, I'll have everything all unpacked and organized.”

She bit her lower lip, then nodded. “Okay. I guess I'll go, then.”

“Go,” I answered with a laugh, shooing her out.

As soon as the door closed behind her, I looked around with a sigh, surveying the blank side of the room—my new digs, such as they were. I'd never shared a room with anyone before, much less a bathroom. It was definitely going to take some getting used to, but I had a really good feeling about Cece.

I couldn't resist the urge to go over to her desk and straighten the magazines, though.
Vogue, Entertainment Weekly, Rolling Stone
. Yeah, we were going to get along just fine.

Across the room, my cell phone made a chirping sound. Hurrying back to my own desk, I dug around in my bag till I found it. I expected a message from Patsy, checking to make sure that I'd arrived safely and all that. Instead I found a text from Whitney, my best friend since the very first day of kindergarten, when we'd trooped into our classroom and found our cubbies, conveniently alphabetized by first name, right next to each other. We'd sort of started to drift apart lately, mostly because she'd left Windsor for a performing arts
school freshman year. She had new friends, new interests, and I had gotten increasingly busy with fencing. Still, she'd always been a phone call away.
She still is,
I reminded myself.

I scanned her message—asking how it was going so far—and smiled. At least
someone
cared. I sent her a quick text back, promising to e-mail her as soon as I got my laptop set up.

If I could find my laptop, that is. I glanced down at the trunks that held nearly all my earthly possessions, and sighed. Time to start unpacking.

*  *  *

Morning came far too quickly. Still in my pajamas, I winced at the sight of my bloodshot eyes staring back at me in the mirror.

“You're going to miss breakfast if you don't hurry and get dressed,” Cece said, eyeing me from across the room as she pulled on her shoes.

“I know. I just . . . I didn't get much sleep last night. New bed and all.” I'd actually lain awake most of the night, only drifting off somewhere near dawn.

“I'll wait for you,” she offered.

I weighed my options. I could go down now and face the crowd—get it over with. Or I could enjoy some quiet time alone and pull myself together. Ultimately I took the coward's way out. “It's okay, you go on ahead. I just need some coffee.”

“There's a coffee machine in the lounge. At least, they call it coffee. Personally, I think they're using the term a little too loosely.”

I had to laugh at that. “The way I feel right now, just about anything will do. What time's first period?”

“Eight forty-five. What's your first class?”

I hadn't even glanced at my schedule yet. “Let me see.” I grabbed my bag and rummaged through it till I found the sheet Dr. Blackwell had given me. “First period, Hackley Hall, Corridor A, Room 312. Culture and Society in Nineteenth-Century Britain.” Wow, that
was
a sophisticated-sounding course for high school.

“That's an advanced-level class,” Cece said, wrinkling her nose. “You must be a brainiac or something.”

I just shrugged. I'd been called worse.

“Anyway,” she continued, “Hackley Hall is where all the junior- and senior-level classes are held, and it's the building just behind us. Here, give me your schedule and I'll show you on the map.”

I handed it over along with a pen and watched as she scanned my class list, turned it over and circled a big rectangle on the map, then drew a line from what must be the dorms to the circled building. “There you go,” she said, handing it back to me. “After that, you're on your own. Your classes are all more advanced than mine. But I'll save you a seat in the dining hall at lunch, okay?”

“That'd be great. Will I get lost trying to find my way there?”

“Nope. Just follow the hungry crowd.”

“Gotcha.”

Grinning, she stuffed some notebooks into a pale pink backpack. “I just know you're going to love it here,” she said, pausing by the doorway.

God, I hoped she was right.