Maybe Yes (14 page)

“You are eager.”
 

“No,” I say, shaking off the chills. “Just ready for it to be over.”
 

“Tomorrow then.”
 

I nod although I have no idea why I agreed to go out with him. All he wants is another chance to fuck me. I don’t plan on giving him that pleasure, but as his eyes travel over my body, stopping at my chest, I don’t know if I’ll be able to resist his temptation.

Killian is late, thirty minutes late. He hasn’t called. He hasn’t texted. Nothing.
 

I pace back and forth in the living room of my new room that feels more like an apartment than a hotel room. It’s the presidential room. It’s the room Dad and I would stay in when we stayed at the hotel.
 

I just had most of my stuff moved into the hotel this morning. I couldn’t live in the family house any longer. I like living by myself. And I like that hotel rooms feel more like home than my own house ever will. It will also help to be closer to the offices below. If I’m still committed to figuring out how to convince my grandfather that I can do this job, then I need to learn from everyone in the casino—from the maids to the card dealers to the managers. I need all the help I can get to learn this business.
 

And if I’m being honest with myself, I didn’t want Killian picking me up from my parents’ house. I wanted a place of my own, however temporary.
 

I pace again. I should have had Scarlett stay. She would have known what to do when he didn’t show up. I should call her and tell her to come back, that we should just have a girls’ night instead.
 

I hear a knock on the door. I open the door, and my jaw drops. Killian is standing there. That, I expected. What I didn’t expect to see was him dressed so casually. He’s in dark jeans and a T-shirt. His hair isn’t gelled like usual. Actually, it looks a little unkempt. And a five o’clock shadow completes his look.
 

He grins at me when he sees my expression. I look down at how I’m dressed.
Shit!
I’m in a dress, a nice dress. I was expecting formal Killian. All I’ve ever seen him in is suits. I thought that’s what he would wear since he came straight from work to pick me up. He’s not.
 

“What’s wrong, princess?” he asks smugly.
 

“I need to change,” I say. I turn to run back into my bedroom to change.
 

He grabs my arm. “No time.”

He pulls me into the hallway, and I hear the hotel door shut behind me before I can protest. We enter the elevator, and he presses the button for the ground floor. I can’t look at him. I’m too embarrassed.
 

Scarlett helped me decide what to wear. She told me to wear this black lace dress that is slightly see-through, so I did. I shouldn’t have.
 

“I like your hair like this.” His thumb caresses my exposed neck due to my hair being styled on top of my head.
 

I quickly forget why I’m supposed to be embarrassed when he is looking at me like this. I lick my bottom lip, preparing for the kiss that always follows that look.
 

“I like that it gives me better access to your neck.” He softly kisses me on my neck but doesn’t do anything further.
 

Instead, he grabs my hand, and when the doors open, we walk out of the elevator and onto the casino floor. I let go of his hand as we walk through the casino. Several employees nod their heads at us in recognition—except they don’t recognize me. They are acknowledging Killian. I’m surprised to see a smile on most of their faces when they see him. They seem to like him. He’s probably a good boss, firm yet fair. I might be making a huge mistake, trying to take that away from the company, but I’m not trying to take it away. I’m just trying to improve upon that—whether that’s with me or someone else.
 

We exit the casino into the warm Vegas air. Killian comes to an abrupt stop. I expect him to have changed his mind. I expect him to decide we should spend the whole date back in my hotel room or go to his place, wherever that is.
 

“I should have let you change. Can you walk in those?” He points to my black high heels.
 

“Yes, I can walk just fine in these.” I’m surprised that he didn’t order a car.
 

He raises his eyebrow. “You couldn’t walk in them the other night.”

“I had too much to drink that night. Trust me, I’ll be fine. I’ve walked enough catwalks with heels twice as high and tighter dresses than this, all while being blasted with flashing lights. I’ll be fine.” The first part isn’t true. I didn’t have too much to drink that night. My body was just reacting to Killian’s stare as he walked me to his hotel room that night.
 

It’s the same stare he has on his face again as his eyes travel over my body before landing on my black bra that is visible beneath my dress.
 

“What are you doing?”
 

“Trying to imagine you with less clothes or tighter clothes. I can’t imagine it. I’m going to need a show later.”
 

“This was a mistake.”
 

I turn to go back to my room, but he stops me.
 

“I’m kidding. Relax, princess.” He breathes slowly in and out, trying to get me to imitate him.
 

I roll my eyes at him.
 

“I’m just trying to make you smile, and apparently, I’m doing a terrible job. I’m a bit out of practice.” His eyes stay transfixed on mine.
 

I laugh.
This guy is unbelievable.
 

His lips curl up slightly at the sight of me laughing. He looks around to find the cause of my laughter. “What’s so funny?”
 

“You are. You don’t expect me to believe that you haven’t taken a different girl out every night. I bet you have had a different model or actress or showgirl in your bed every night this week.” I raise my eyebrows at him, waiting for an answer.
 

“I don’t date. At least, I haven’t in a long time. Yes, I occasionally take a woman home to my bed, but even that happens rarely.”
 

“Define
rarely
.”
 

He shrugs. “Once a month. Lately, less than that.”
 

My eyes widen at his response, but I’m not sure I believe him.
 

“You are telling me, you only sleep with a woman once a month or less?”

“Yes, I only fuck once a month or sometimes less.”
 

I wince again when he says fuck although it’s less apparent this time. That was not what I had expected.
 

“Why? You could have any woman you want on any night you want. You’re good-looking and intelligent. You make more money than ninety-nine percent of the population. Sure, you act like a cocky ass most of the time, but your looks more than make up for it.” I stop talking when I realize I’m rambling about all of Killian’s qualities. This is the opposite of flirting. I should just shut my mouth.
 

He smugly takes my hand back in his. “Come on, we have a long walk ahead if you are wearing those shoes. And I want to get to dinner on time.”
 

I sigh and go with him. “Why?” I ask again.
 

He pulls me around a group of people dressed up like the band Kiss. They are followed by a woman who’s dressed up as Dolly Parton.
 

Really?
 

I relax a little though because I’m sure, wherever we are going, I’ll be dressed appropriately. Vegas isn’t known for its tame looks. People wear whatever they want to wear here, no matter where they are going.
 

“Just not interested in more than that, and women always want more after I fuck them. At night, they promise they don’t want anything more than one night, but the next morning, they are begging to go out again. I hate having to fend them off. Once a month is the max I can handle.”
 

“Why haven’t you found the one yet? I’m sure you want to settle down and get married. Most people your age have been married for years with several kids, old man.”
 

He glares at me. “Just how old do you think I am?”
 

I shrug. “I don’t know.”
 

“I’m thirty. Thirty isn’t old.”
 

I smile. “It is to me.”
 

He sighs. “God, you are such a child.”
 

I feel his grasp on my hand loosen. I frown. I want him to hold my hand tighter. I want him to want me. I don’t like him thinking about me as a child…except I shouldn’t want him to want me. I shouldn’t even be on this date.
 

“So, when is the last time you went on a date before tonight?”
 

Killian doesn’t look at me when he answers, “Three years.”
 

My jaw drops. “Three years? That’s a long time.” It’s also the same time that my father told him that he wanted Killian to marry me.
Coincidence?
I don’t know, but I’m too afraid to ask.
 

“When is the last time you went on a date?”

Eli, my high school boyfriend, was the last person I went on a date with. We dated for one year in college before he broke it off.
 

“It was…three years ago,” I say as I realize it.
 

I stare up at him, and we stop walking.
 

He’s looking at me like he wants to ask me the same question I want to ask him.
 

Did I stop dating because of him?
I didn’t—well, not exactly. I didn’t know he existed yet. I didn’t know my father had already chosen. I just knew it would eventually happen.
 

When I don’t answer and when I don’t ask, he turns us to the building we have stopped in front of.
 

“We are here.”
 

Now, I really wish I had changed.
 

***

“What can I get you to drink?” the waitress says.
 

She looks tired, but when she looks down at my attire, I swear, she smirks at me.
 

I stare back down at the menu, hoping to God that some drink will pop out at me so that I will know what to order, but there are no drinks listed on the menu. I glance around the diner. From the looks of this place, I doubt they have the wine he’s bought me before. Actually, I doubt they have any wine. I should order a beer, but I don’t even know where to start. So, instead of answering the woman, I just stare intently at my menu.

“What do you want to drink, Kinsley?”
 

I look up to see Killian staring at me with a small smile tugging at the corner of his lips. It’s weird to hear my name fall from his lips. I can’t recall him using it before, but I realize what he’s doing. He’s giving me exactly what I said I wanted. He’s not going to help me, not unless I beg. And I’m not above begging right now if he will help me.
 

I plead with my eyes for him to just order a drink for us. I pucker my lip, like Scarlett taught me.
 

He rolls his eyes at my look and sits up straighter, turning his attention to the waitress.
 

“I’ll have a Miller Lite. Bring her a Blue Moon. We will have your mountain onion ring appetizer with extra sauce. And we both want your special burger, hold the onions.”

Killian takes the menu from me and hands it to the lady, who rushes off, glad to finally be done with us.
 

“You really can’t make a quick decision.”
 

“I can.” I take a deep breath, ready to reveal something embarrassing. “I just haven’t had a lot of experience with drinking. I’ve only drunk a handful of times in my life.”
 

“Well, that explains a lot.”
 

“You didn’t have to order my dinner for me though.”
 

“I was afraid, if you took any longer, the waitress would end up spitting in our food. She’s obviously swamped tonight, and you were taking half an hour just to order your drink. What did you want? I’ll make sure she changes the order.”
 

I sigh. “I was going to order exactly what you ordered me.” My cheeks flush at the admission that he was right—again.
 

Killian just smiles and shakes his head.
 

“So, what made you choose this place? I’m guessing you don’t come here often. Doesn’t seem like it has the healthiest of menus.”
 

“Just wanted to get you the best burger in Vegas after I denied you one the other day.”
 

You denied me more than just a burger
, I think as I bite my lip.
 

The beers and appetizer are thrust onto the table. I take a sip of the beer. It’s definitely not the Chateau Margaux wine that Killian ordered me before, but it’s drinkable. I take an onion ring off the tower before me.

“Tell me something about yourself. You might be my future husband one day, if we don’t figure a way out of this mess. I might as well know more about you.”
 

He shakes his head. “I’ve already figured a way out of this. You just have yet to agree to it. But, okay, I’ll play. What do you want to know?”
 

I take a bite as I contemplate what I want to know most. I really want to know what it would be like to be fucked by him. But I can’t go there. I fidget with the wrapper on the silverware, trying to think of a tame question.
 

“Where did you go to college?”
 

“Yale.”
 

“Really?”
 

“No,” he says, laughing. “I went to Harvard. I majored in business and then started law school there, but I didn’t finish. Instead, Felton Corporation snatched me up, and I’ve been working here ever since.”
 

“Did you grow up in Vegas?”
 

“Yes.”