Meet Me In The Dark: (A Dark Suspense) (5 page)

Eight Years Ago

“That feeling? When your mind is blank and your heart is empty. And then you have to pick up that gun and do your job. You mean that feeling? Yeah, I know it. It’s called giving up.”

- Sydney

“S
ydney?”

I lie there on the ground, listening to the retreating
womp-womp-womp
of the helicopter, willing this not to be my reality.

A boot to the ribs tells me that’s pointless.

I turn my head towards Garrett, pain radiating up through my chest, and find his face. He’s got his leg back, ready to deliver his foot to my body again, when he stops.

I swallow and close my eyes.

“Tell me he was lying.”

“He—” My throat is dry and my words falter.

Garrett kneels down and grabs me by my jacket, pulling me up and shaking me hard at the same time. “Tell me. He was lying.”

“He was lying,” I whisper. And he was. “I never did anything. I have no idea who he is!”

“You were leaving,” Garrett says. Usually Garrett is a raging asshole when I piss him off. But he’s so calm now. He’s so calm this scares me even more and my whole body starts shaking. “You were running away, weren’t you?”

I swallow again and then before I know what’s happening, I piss myself. The heat leaks between my legs and I start to cry. I just close my eyes and start to cry.

I don’t know how long I stay like that, but the next thing that happens scares me even more than the threat of his boot.

Garrett picks me up and holds me in his arms. I never open my eyes, not even when he places me in the truck and drags the seatbelt across my chest, clicking it into the lock. He shuts the door and walks over to the driver’s side and gets in. Starts the truck. And we drive off.

We drive for hours. The sun comes up behind us and we’re still driving. Going west.

Hours later we pull off the main highway and take a dirt road. That’s when I speak. “You’re going to kill me.” It’s not a question.

“I was,” Garrett says. “Before last night.”

I can’t even muster up a sob.

“But—” He stops. Just stops. Never starts up again. And I don’t push it. I just sit quietly, listening to the song he’s playing on the stereo, letting it calm me, until we finally come to a rest outside a cabin.

I reek of piss, but my pants have long since dried and my bladder is full again, even though I haven’t had anything to drink in the six hours we’ve been on the road together.

Garrett turns the truck off and we sit in silence for a few seconds. A ticking noise from the engine is the only sound.

“We live here now.” And then he gets out and walks around to the passenger door. He opens it for me and then unbuckles my seat belt. “Can you walk?”

I look up at his face and try to find the anger. The hateful, evil, and sadistic man I have come to know. But all that is missing right now.

Garrett reads my silence as a yes and tugs on me until I swing my legs out and stand up. My back hurts. My ribs hurt from where he kicked me. My face hurts from where that assassin punched me.

“Just kill me,” I say, looking up at Garrett. “Just kill me and let me die. I don’t want to do this anymore.”

“I don’t blame you,” he says. “If I was you right now, I’d feel the same way. Even if I didn’t know what was gonna happen next.”

And then he turns around and walks away, leaving me standing there. He climbs the front porch steps to the small hunting cabin, opens the door without using a key, and walks inside, closing the door behind him.

The wind picks up and reminds me it’s winter.

I wrap my arms around myself and shiver.

I do the only thing I can. I follow him in.

“He always told me that the secret to staying alive was stillness. I’ve seen it in action too many times to disagree.”

- Sydney

I
wake up and immediately wish I hadn’t. I’m blind.

No, it’s just dark. It’s the definition of pitch black.

I squirm and realize I’m tied up. My hands are secured to whatever it is I’m lying on. My legs are spread apart, also secured, and the ass of my jeans is wet.

I smell the piss and realize that’s where the memory came from. I’m living in a time loop.

No. This is the present. I was in my truck, running away from my wedding to Brett. But there are too many similarities between now and then, so my mind is revisiting them.

Shrink talk. That’s what that is. But it’s true, I can feel it.

I’m a prisoner again.

Has there ever been a day in my life when I was not someone’s prisoner?

Don’t get on your high horse now, Syd. You signed up for this
.

I did, I remind myself. I did. But if your last name is Channing, even if it’s a secret, then what choice do you have?

Excuses.

I try to swallow, but my throat is so dry, I can’t make it work. So I do nothing. I don’t move, or struggle, or scream.

It’s no use. I know this.

So I do the only thing I can do. I slip back into my old habits. I go inside myself, looking for the darkness that is even blacker than my reality.

And it comes easily.

It’s a summer day. The dry wind is hot as it blows across my face, but the humidity from the river flowing nearby counteracts it. Makes everything perfect.

“You ready to learn to fish?” Garrett asks me. “I can’t always take care of you, Syd.”

I smile at him. He’s so fucking handsome standing there in the water up to his knees. He’s wearing a pair of jeans and nothing else. His chest is muscular and tanned to just the right level of bronze. The river splashes up against his legs and some of it reaches his lower torso. I follow the drips as they make their way into his waistband, the weight of the water tugging it down a little, revealing that little happy trail of hair that I love so much.

“Hey, Syd?” he says with a grin. “Eyes on my eyes.”

I do find his eyes. They are a dark green from where I stand. But they are bright in all the ways that count. “I’m ready,” I say.

He grins at me and casts out his fly, talking me through all his motions. I can’t even begin to understand what he’s trying to teach me. Or, I mean, I could. Probably. But he’s so handsome, I lose all thoughts of fishing and concentrate on how his muscles move as he weaves the line back and forth into the air.

A fish takes his bait almost immediately—this place is a fly-fisherman’s wet dream—and then he’s laughing. “That was too easy. Now you try.” He reels in and unhooks the fish and tosses it onto the bank, and then extends his hand, asking me to join him.

I take it and let him guide me out onto the rocky shoreline of the Yellowstone River. The water isn’t too deep, but it runs fast up here.

I slip on a rock, but Garrett catches me before I fall. “Easy,” he says, as I gather myself. “The water’s too cold for a swim today, Syd.”

“Sorry,” I say, straightening out my lifejacket.

“You OK?” he asks me in that gentle voice he uses when he knows I’m out of my comfort zone. “Ready for this?”

I nod. “I am.” And then I laugh. “I’m tired of watching. Well…” I blush and correct myself. “Not really tired of watching you fish. But it really does look fun.”

“It is,” he says, kissing me on the cheek.

The blackness is back and my throat is drier than ever after the memory of the cool river. I reach up and touch my throbbing face and realize I’m no longer tethered down.

Someone was in here with me. Who? I rack my brain. How many enemies do I have?

My laugh bursts out into the darkness and then resonates in my head like an echo as the stillness settles back in. The blackness is overwhelming and my breathing spikes as the familiar panic starts to take over.

No. Not now, Syd.
“Hush,” I tell myself. “Hush.”

I take long draws of air into my lungs, willing the fear away like a pro. I don’t know how long it takes for my own heavy breathing to allow the small sound to creep into my consciousness, but one second it’s not there, and the next it is.

Dripping water. My throat tightens up as I imagine what it would be like to drink again.

I sit up and stave off the wave of dizziness, but my head spins for minutes before I can swing my legs over the side of the hard wooden platform. I lean over and close my eyes tightly, not sure why this helps, since I can’t see anything anyway. But it does help.

The dripping is coming from the right. I reach down with a foot and find the floor, then drop to my knees and crawl in that direction. I reach out in front of me, but the room is empty save for a drain in the middle of it. Why would there be a drain here?

I let it go. I have no clue. Maybe I’m in a slaughterhouse and they hose the room down? So I just crawl. Nothing to bump into until I get to a wall. The dripping is to my left now, and I let the wall guide me until I reach out and feel the unmistakable cold of a porcelain sink.

I use the lip of the sink to stand myself up and feel around for the source of water. There are no knobs, just a single spigot with a steady drip.

When you have nothing, you take what you can get. So I lean my head into the basin and open my mouth. It takes whole minutes to let enough water pool inside my mouth to swallow it. But it’s the best feeling in the world when my constricted throat opens up. I repeat this again and again, and then my legs are shaking from standing so long. I slump to the floor and take it in.

Concrete. Not the smooth concrete you find in a home. Rough, unfinished concrete like a sidewalk. Or a slaughterhouse. And very cold.

The wind whips outside. I listen for any other sounds but all that comes is a chorus of howling in the distance. Not the high-pitched yipping of coyotes, but the low, deep, mournful howl of wolves.

I swallow down the fear. But there’s no denying it. I’m somewhere no one will find me.

The wall is behind me. Every room has four walls. So I get on my hands and knees and begin to crawl along it. My fingertips find a few dried leaves as I make my way forward. Webs too. And when I stop crawling for a moment, I hear a scuttling sound. Bugs, probably. I crawl a few more paces and then scare the shit out of myself when my hand hits a metal dish and it clangs loudly, breaking the silence. I sit back on my butt and close my eyes, my heart once again beating fast.

And then I bend over and reach around until I find the dish. There is nothing in there, but when I bring it to my face I can smell it.

You don’t grow up in Wyoming and never smell the stench of house mice. There are far more house mice in my home state than there are homes. I toss the dish aside. If there was food in there, it’s gone now. Eaten by the rodents.

The dish, the water dripping, and the discovery that I am untethered is my signal to call out in the dark.
Who’s there
? That’s a good one.
What do you want?
is another.

But I’m not the kind of girl who cries out pointless questions.

A shuffling noise off to my left stops me dead.

Someone is in here with me.

Whoever it is made that noise on purpose, trying to make me react. But I’m not the kind of girl who reacts, either.