Memory of Bones (5 page)

Taking a press cutting out of his inside pocket, Shaw stared at the photograph of Leon Golding: a handsome if delicate-looking man. Carefully he studied the face. He wanted to make certain he would recognise Golding, a man he was certain he could bully. Or buy off … Suddenly dizzy, Shaw crammed the photograph back into his pocket and moved over to a nearby water fountain. Leaning on the button, he bent down and felt the tepid liquid fill his mouth. In front of him his shadow fell, huge and bloated, as he wiped his lips and headed for the back entrance of the Prado. His plan was blindingly simple – he would seek out Leon Golding and offer to buy the skull. If he refused, he would increase the offer. If Golding still refused, Shaw would steal the skull.

His hand throbbing, the fat man looked at the stinking bandage and swallowed. Time was in short supply – both to find the skull and to get back to London. Shaw could feel himself getting weaker by the minute, his blood thickening with infection, every breath pumping bacteria through his heart and organs. Fighting panic, he tried to steady himself. He had been to the hospital in Madrid, but although treated and reassured by the A & E doctor on duty, Shaw didn’t believe that the poison had been controlled, let alone dissipated. Instinct told him that his time was limited. Very limited. He
had
to get the skull. He
had
to get the antidote. Whatever it took.

Leon Golding didn’t stand a chance.

‘Abigail?’

As her voice came down the line, Ben could tell she was smiling. Could imagine the upturn of her mouth, the incline of her head when she was listening. She would be sitting at the table by the window, within sight of the overgrown garden that Ben had promised – every week in summer – to bring to heel. In the end Abigail had hired someone and Ben had come home to a memory, to a reconstruction of the garden he first remembered when he had bought the house seven years earlier. And she had teased him about it. Said it was her only little miracle of surgery.

‘What are you doing?’

‘Thinking about going back to work full time.’

He was surprised that her confidence allowed her to articulate the thought. How long it would take for the thought it be turned into action he didn’t know.

‘At the advertising agency?’

She paused before answering, but the pause told Ben everything he needed to know. She wasn’t ready. And somehow, to his shame, he was glad.

‘I was thinking it was time,’ Abigail went on, feeling her way around the words and then changing the subject. ‘Anyway, I was expecting you to call later tonight. Why are you ringing now?’

‘Just to say I miss you.’

He could hear her smiling again.

‘I miss you too. When are you coming home?’

‘Tomorrow. I’m catching the last flight. I’ve got to do something for Leon first …’ Ben paused, found himself waiting for some kind of response. But Leon’s animosity towards Abigail was never reciprocated. ‘You know something?’

‘I know loads.’

‘Smart-arse.’ He dropped his tone. ‘You’re making a fool of me.’

‘Don’t give me all the credit – you did that yourself.’

He laughed, then became gentle. ‘Every time I leave you I leave a part of myself behind …’

She rested her head against the phone, closing her eyes as she listened. For an attractive man, who could have manipulated women easily, his honesty was tender. And seductive.

‘… you know how much I love you, don’t you? Or
do
you?’ He hesitated momentarily. ‘I keep thinking that I know, but then I go away from you and realise that it increases, that what I felt before was nothing in comparison … How d’you do that?’ he asked gently. ‘How do you keep refilling my heart?’

How? she wondered. How could she not? After the
accident Abigail had seen herself destroyed, her confidence as bloodied as her face. In the first weeks the shock had obliterated all feeling, but then, finally, she realised that the beauty she had taken for granted was no longer hers. Reassurance did nothing to help her, and when Ben Golding had taken over her case Abigail didn’t believe his encouragement either. He said he would remake her face. She doubted it. He said he would give her back her looks. She didn’t believe him.

Throughout the painful months which followed, throughout operations, swellings and pain, Abigail kept mistrusting him. When the first procedure succeeded in recreating her left cheekbone, she did – for an instant – catch a vague glimpse of the self she had once been. But it faded fast. The operations went on. More injections. More stitches. More bandages were used, became bloodied, were changed. Drains were inserted into her face, then removed. Every time the procedures varied. Every time Ben told her she was making progress. She was sick with the anaesthetics; she cried in the side ward at night, on her own, because she had no family, only a father in France, too weak to travel. In the grim Whitechapel Hospital Abigail Harrop lost herself and turned to the nurses for support. Only gradually, slowly, did she begin to believe. Some little triumph of healing had restored her eye socket almost to its original. And for the first time in over a year, Abigail saw herself and began to climb back.

She had had only one moment of doubt after that. Overhearing two nurses talking, Abigail had heard one
refer to her as Ben Golding’s personal masterpiece. His creation. Jealousy had sparked the remark, but instead of being unnerved Abigail had felt unexpectedly pleased. Whatever his motives, what Ben Golding had promised her, he would deliver. This man – and
only
this man – would give her back what she had lost.

But she never counted on loving him. Grateful, in his debt, yes. But to love him? That had never entered her mind, even though it would have been an obvious response. What people didn’t realise was that Abigail didn’t expect anyone – least of all Ben Golding – to find her attractive. So when, long after she had ceased to be under his care, Ben told her how he felt, Abigail’s shock was genuine. She withdrew, confusing him. She rejected him, making him all the more certain of his feelings. And in the end she accused him of wanting her only because she was his guinea pig.

And he’d burst out laughing.

Her thoughts came back to the present. ‘Get back home, will you? As soon as you can, hey?’

He felt the pull over the line, the jerk of sensuality. ‘Tomorrow—’

‘Can’t come soon enough.’

An hour later, as Ben left the hotel, the sky suddenly darkened to indigo, lightning following within minutes as a hot wind blew across Madrid. Looking out of the window of his hired car, he fought the temptation to return to London immediately. Having once been passionate about Spain, he now found the country oppressive. But he had
promised he would visit Leon, and so, reluctantly, he turned in the direction of his childhood home.

A moment later he was crossing the familiar river, freckled with birds and drowning reeds, a heat haze making the road shimmer before him. It had been urbanised when they were children, but now the area was even more built up, unremarkable, almost down at heel. His childhood tap-dancing before his eyes, Ben neared his old home, the site of the Quinta del Sordo close by. Parking in the driveway, he stared at the weather-beaten whitewashed rectangular house.

Maintained intermittently for over two hundred years, the place was mottled with patches of repair, like a face freckled with sun damage. The gable where summer birds had once roosted was now closed off with netting, the bay window on the first floor barred with ornate ironwork. Ben’s gaze moved upwards to his childhood bedroom, separated from his brother’s by a shared bathroom. Without even trying, he could remember the sound of faulty pipework banging at night, and the paper kites Leon and he had exchanged through the open bedroom doors, many landing in the chipped bathtub between. But more than anything Ben remembered the underlying disquiet of the house. The muted but ever-present melancholia.

‘You came,’ Leon said warmly, walking over to him.

Smiling, Ben got out of the car to find his brother accompanied by an athletic, deeply tanned woman in a white linen dress. Shielding her eyes from the sun, she smiled as Ben approached.

‘I’m Gina. And I’m so glad to meet you.’ Smoothly, she then moved between the two brothers as the three of them walked into the cool interior of the house. It smelt to Ben of memory, poignant and unexpectedly hostile. ‘You’ll stay for lunch with us?’

‘I’d like that.’

‘Nothing fancy, but your brother likes my cooking. Still, what would Leon know about food? He’s an academic,’ Gina replied, changing the subject deftly, her American accent barely perceptible. ‘Apparently you don’t think much of our other house guest. Leon said you thought it was unlikely to be Goya’s skull.’

‘Well, it’s a long shot,’ Ben admitted. ‘Turning up like that, out of blue, when people have been looking for it for decades.’

She tilted her head to one side. ‘But it could be
proved
for certain one way or another?’

‘There are tests which would authenticate it,’ Ben agreed, ‘or not.’

‘Leon knows everyone in the art world, and he’s so well thought of in Madrid that the authorities have let him have free rein. Anyway,’ Gina went on lightly, ‘I’m going to get lunch ready and leave you two to have a talk. But no longer than half an hour, OK?’

Watching her walk away, Ben felt a sudden sharp tug on his arm, Leon hustling him towards the staircase. He was nervous, edgy, his unease obvious in the erratic movements of his hands.

‘Before I show you the skull, there are some other things
I thought you might want to see,’ he explained, hurrying his brother up the stairs to the shady narrow landing which led to the servants’ quarters.

Fiddling with his shirt collar, Leon walked on quickly, finally opening the door which led to Detita’s apartment. As though still children, both men hesitated for an instant before walking in, Leon immediately moving over to the window, his back turned to the room.

‘I was going to sort out her things, but I couldn’t get round to it. Gina said she would, but I thought you might like to have a look first. You know – see if there’s anything of Detita’s you want to take. To remember her by.’

Slowly, Ben looked around the room. A heavy wrought iron chandelier suspended from the high ceiling, wooden shutters open to let in some air, a carved bed draped with white muslin and a quilt the colour of water reeds. Pulling open the wardrobe door, he found himself face to face with the print dresses and jackets he remembered so well, a row of shoes lined up like piano keys. And the scent of something, somebody, well known.

‘She had papers too,’ Leon said, and Ben turned and walked over to a side table where his brother had laid out several notebooks.

Apparently Detita had left behind
parts
of missives,
parts
of photographs,
parts
of cards. Nothing whole – just portions, incomplete and unreadable. And in among the meticulous chaos were images of Goya, his self-portraits and a fragment of the painting of the lunatic asylum. Beside those was a drawing of the Quinta del Sordo and one
other: a disturbing image of a skeleton, half alive, half dead, writing the one word on black earth:
Nada
. Nothing.

‘Look at this,’ Leon said, picking up a hairbrush from Detita’s dressing table. Her scent bottles were still sitting in the shade, lying beside a copy of
The Manuscript Found in Saragossa
and a
History of the Occult
.

‘She had strange tastes.’

‘Never tried to convert us, did she?’

Ben looked up. ‘To what?’

‘Catholicism.’

‘She tried damn near everything else,’ Ben replied. ‘All those bloody stories she used to tell us! When I was little I was always waiting for those horses coming over the bridge to get me.’

To his relief, Leon laughed. ‘Remember when you came back from school when you were fifteen and you went out at midnight and clicked your fingers over and over again just to prove that nothing would happen? Detita went crazy, said you would bring the Devil.’ He shrugged. ‘I admired you for that. I’d never have dared.’

‘It was just a story.’

‘Maybe …’ Leon said finally. ‘So, what d’you want to take?’

Ben glanced round the room and shrugged. ‘Nothing.’

Together they walked back downstairs into Leon’s study. It was conspicuously tidy but overheated, the windows bolted shut, flies buzzing against the glass. Frowning, Leon opened the nearest window as Ben stared at a small cardboard box on the desk. Carefully he opened it. Inside was
an old skull, lying among some shredded newspaper. It was discoloured, with several holes in the cranium.

‘So …’ Leon paused, trying to hide his excitement as his brother picked up the skull. ‘What d’you think?’

‘He’s dead, I can tell you that,’ Ben said, trying to lighten the atmosphere. ‘Can I take it back to London with me? I’d like Francis Asturias to have a look at it.’

‘I thought he was dead.’

‘His wife lives in hope. No, Francis is still working. Still the best facial reconstructor there is.’ Ben studied the skull, turning it in his hands. ‘Are you sure you don’t mind me taking it? I might need to keep it for a while.’

‘No, it’s OK,’ Leon said, adding hurriedly, ‘to be honest, I don’t like it around … Don’t tell Gina though. She doesn’t have to know you’ve got it. Keep that between us, will you?’

Nodding, Ben put the skull back in the box as Leon moved over to the window. ‘So, what d’you think of her?’

‘She seems nice.’

‘
Nice
,’ Leon repeated dully.

‘And very proud of you,’ Ben added, trying to avoid a semantical skirmish. ‘It doesn’t matter what I think, Leon, if she makes you happy—’

A flutter of malice entered his brother’s voice. ‘How’s Abigail?’

‘She’s fine.’

Leon had always found Abigail difficult. Not as a person, but as someone faulted. Her facial scars, although faint, seemed to evoke some peculiar resentment on his part.
Almost as though his mental instability should have been as obvious to an onlooker – and provoke as much sympathy.