Michael Lister - Soldier 02 - The Big Beyond
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Authors: Michael Lister
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| Michael Lister | |
| Pulpwood Press (2013) | |
| Tags: | Mystery: Thriller - Noir - P.I. - 1940s NW Florida Mystery: Thriller - Noir - P.I. - 1940s NW Floridattt |
Someone's trying to kill PI Jimmy "Soldier" Riley. And he's inclined to let them. But before sleeping the big sleep and journeying to the undiscovered country to discover what dreams may come, there's blood work to be done.
Picking up right at the thrilling conclusion of The Big Goodbye, Soldier is near death with one hell of a big score to settle and more than a few injustices to square along the way—all while searching wartime Panama City for a dangerous serial killer who combines art and murder.
Books by Michael Lister
(Love Stories)
Carrie’s Gift
(John Jordan Novels)
Power in the Blood
Blood of the Lamb
Flesh and Blood
The Body and the Blood
Blood Sacrifice
Rivers to Blood
(Short Story Collections)
North Florida Noir
Florida Heat Wave
Delta Blues
Another Quiet Night in Desperation
(Remington James Novels)
Double Exposure
(Merrick McKnight Novels)
Thunder Beach
(Jimmy “Soldier” Riley Novels)
The Big Goodbye
The Big Beyond
The Big Bang Bang
(Sam Michaels and Daniel Davis Series)
Burnt Offerings
Separation Anxiety
(The Meaning Series)
The Meaning of Jesus
Meaning Every Moment
The Meaning of Life in Movies
The Big Beyond
Michael Lister
a novel
Copyright © 2013 by Michael Lister
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system, without permission in writing from the publisher.
This is a work of fiction. Any similarities to people or places, living or dead, is purely coincidental.
Inquiries should be addressed to:
Pulpwood Press
P.O. Box 35038
Panama City, FL 32412
Lister, Michael.
The Big Beyond / Michael
Lister.
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ISBN: 978-1-888146-33-2 (hardback)
ISBN: 978-1-888146-34-9 (trade paperback)
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For Dawn
with love and gratitude and all of me
“I saw the angel in the marble and carved until I set her free.” -Michelangelo
You rarely win, but sometimes you do.” -Atticus Finch
“O gentle vision in the dawn:
My spirit over faint cool water glides,
Child of the day,
To thee;
And thou art drawn
By kindred impulse over silver tides
The dreamy way
To me.” -Harold Monro
“When I am with you, we stay up all night.
When you’re not here, I can’t go to sleep.
Praise God for those two insomnias!
And the difference between them.” -Rumi
Author’s Note
This book is a sequel to “The Big Goodbye.”
Please read “The Big Goodbye” before reading “The Big Beyond.”
You’ll be glad you did.
Very Special Thanks to:
Dawn Peterson, Marlene Womack,
Jason Hedden, Jill Mueller, Adam Ake, and Jennifer Jones.
Table of Contents
Chapter 1
W
hen they came to kill me, I was in no condition to defend myself.
This would’ve presented more of a dilemma had I not wanted to die.
For days doctors and nurses had done everything they could to keep me alive—everything but the one thing that would’ve made me want to live.
They hadn’t kept her from dying.
No, that was no good. That’s the story I kept trying to sell myself, but I wasn’t buying.
The unimaginably ugly truth—the one I had no defenses for—was this: They didn’t let her die. I did.
No, that’s no good either.
I didn’t just let her die. I killed her.
Days in a drug-addled delirium had done little to diminish that devastating fact.
I
n my morphine-induced disintegration, I was drowning in a dark ocean, breaking the surface of the swells only occasionally to recall a random rivulet of conversation or glimpse the distorted reflection of her in an oblique object.
I remembered I had told her I could save her.
“All right, soldier,” she had said. “See what you can do. I don’t mind.”
I had believed I could, thought I might somehow undo the damage I had already done.
Memories little more than mist. Fragile evanescent fragments.
Passion and obsession bordering on madness. When we were together, nothing else in the world seemed to matter—there didn’t seem to
be
anything else in the world.
Whiling away the time like lovers do, like it could never be exhausted.
Lying in between sand dunes looking up at the stars, listening to the unseen waves of the Gulf caress the shore. Beneath us, the sand soft and cool, above us, the sky dark and clear and dotted with stars, and around us, the beach empty for miles.
“Listen, soldier. This is the big love for me. I’ll never love another man. Not ever. This won’t end for me—even if you end it. I’ll still love you the way I’ve never loved anyone in my whole entire life.”
D
OA.
I didn’t know that I hadn’t saved her until days after I had failed to do so.
I had no memory of crashing my car into the main entrance of Johnston’s Sanatorium or the doctor’s pronouncement that she was dead on arrival.
While she was sleeping the big sleep, I was trapped in a deep well between daylight and darkness, between death and the half life I would have without her if I was able to claw my way out of it and not wake up only to eat my revolver.
But coming out of the coma hadn’t ended the purgatorial plane of my empty existence. I was just awake for it now.
Adrift.
Untethered.
Weightless.
One moment I was floating through the zero gravity black void of an empty, silent hell, the next I was bobbing like a buoy in the bay between consciousness and unconsciousness, between the bad dreams of sleep and the waking nightmare that was now my existence entire.
I had just surfaced when they showed up.
I had no idea who sent them, but whoever hired the menacing muscle here to break the spring of my mortal coil had spared no expense. Even if I wasn’t weak and wounded from being gut shot, even if I cared anything at all about living a life without Lauren in it, even if I wasn’t a right-handed man with only his left, I wasn’t sure I could’ve prevented them from putting the big pinch on me––but as it was there was nothing I could do but lie there and watch my fate unfold.
Both guys were big and broad and hard, but the bigger of the two stood watch at the door while the other, dressed in an ill-fitting white coat, came inside.
“Hey, Doc,” I said, “your coat don’t fit so good.”
“Yeah? Well, there’s a war on, or haven’t you heard?”
“Yeah I heard.”
The too small lab coat covered a darby drape and foreign kicks that looked to have cost plenty of lettuce.
“So what’s my prognosis?” I asked. “Worse now I bet.”
He smiled. “A wise guy, huh?”
“Not wise enough. Not by a mile.”
“What are you going on about, mister?”
“Just saying I know you.”
“I don’t think so.”
“Well, I know your kind. Know why you’re here.”
“Then you know how this is gotta go, soldier.”
“I do. And I don’t mind so much.”
“On account of the dame?”
“Just tell me who’s punchin’ my ticket.”
“Can’t do that.”
“Nothing to lose, mister. Why not spill? No one’ll ever know.”
“Sorry, soldier. It’s just not in the cards.”
“Don’t seem so much to ask. Be a pal and grant a dying man his last wish.”
He pulled a syringe out of his coat pocket.
“You’re not fading so fast partner,” he said, plunging the needle into the side of my neck. “We were told to hurt you some first.”
Chapter 2
I
woke up in a dim dungeon-like room, strapped spread-eagle to a metal barrack-style bunk, a bright bare bulb hanging above me.
I was naked, hungry, and in excruciating pain.
The carnage that was my upper torso looked even more dramatic beneath the direct light—the short stump of right arm, the old scatter of shotgun wounds that had cost me the limb the year before, the fresh bloody mess of gut shot wound in my abdomen and the seeping bandages partially covering it, the various bruises, cuts, and scrapes dotting the pale, overexposed battleground that was my body––but nothing made me feel more helpless, more exposed, more embarrassed than my flaccid phallus lying limply on the dark patch of pubic hair.
I couldn’t see much beyond the circle of light I was in the center of, but I was pretty sure the medical-looking machines were torture devices.
A pungent chemical smell permeated the air, but I couldn’t place it. From an unseen sink somewhere close by, a leaking tap dripped an irritating, incessant wet
thumph
.
Thumph.
Thumph.
Thumph.
A tall, thin blonde woman in a lab coat came into the room, her heels, at least one of them in need of repair, clicking on the bare cement floor beneath her. Her fine hair was short, her bangs jagged, her ice blue eyes bits of frozen pond water beneath razor-thin, severely arching eyebrows.
“And how are ve today?” she asked as she reached the side of my bed.
“Well, I can’t speak for you ’cause we just met, but
I’m
dandy as hell.”
“Zis means … you are vhat?”
Her accent was vaguely European, but I couldn’t say much beyond that––and I got the impression that she was maybe even faking it or at least exaggerating it a bit for my benefit. “Pardon?”
“Vhat means
dandy
?”
“Good. Jake. A-okay. Dillinger. Fine. Spiffy. Darby. Great. Wonderful. Never been better.”
“Really? Is zis attempt at humor?”
“Sister, when I attempt humor you’ll know it.”
“I zank you are not being completely honest with Christa. I zank you are veak and can use some zing.”
“Somezing like what?” I asked.
“No. Not somezing. Some
zing
. Some boost. Energy. Jolt. A pick-up you.”
“A pick-up me?”
“Yes.”
As she said this she turned away for a moment and grabbed something I couldn’t see. When she turned back around, she was holding clamps attached to electrical cords––as if a smaller version of automotive starter cables.
“Why don’t you hook yourself up to those things and see if you can jump-start your heart?” I asked.
“Zese are for you.”
“I feel bad,” I said. “I didn’t get you anything.”
“Let’s see … vere should ve attach zese?”
She trailed the cold metal clamp across my chest, grazing my nipples, then down the length of my body to my flaccid penis.
“Yes. Here vill do just fine. Zis could use some pick-up, no?”
“No.”
“Yeah sure.”
“No offense, lady, but there’s nothing you have that can get a rise out of me.”
She attached one clamp to the tip of my penis and the other to the base of the shaft.
“Ve shall see. Zis should do it, no?”
“Haven’t seen anyzing else in ze room zat could.”
“You mock me, no?”
“I mock you, yes.”
“I like zat. I am getting very vet.”
Unlike her words, her face showed no reaction to either the insult or the mockery. It was as if it was a mask, a facade incapable of expression. Without saying anything else, she turned and flipped a switch somewhere behind her, which was followed by a whir and high-pitched whine of a motor coming to life and warming up.
“Are you hungry?” she asked, her voice softer, lighter.
I didn’t respond.
“You look hungry.”
I wasn’t hungry. I was famished. Starving. Desperate for some kind of sustenance. Crazed with the wanting of it.
I was cold too, shivering in my nakedness.
“Did you know zat ze Japanese eat zeir prisoners of var?” she asked. “Zey say it is because of Allied attacks on zeir supply lines, zat zey are dying from starvation, but zat is not it.”
I had heard reports of Japanese beheading Allied pilots and cutting off flesh from their arms, legs, hips, and buttocks to fry up and eat. You never knew how much of that kind of thing was propaganda––or from which side it came––but I knew there was something to it. A buddy of mine who’d escaped a POW camp told me he’d witnessed it for himself.
“Zey do it, like everyone else, for power and terror.”
She waited, but I didn’t respond.
“Eating one’s enemy is ze ultimate in taking his power, no? And him knowing you are going to do it puts within him ze ultimate terror.”
She paused expectantly again, but I remained implacable.
“You doubt ze truth of my claim,” she said. “Okay. Let’s put it to ze test. Know zis, Mr. Riley. Vhen ve finish torturing you, my comrades and I are going to eat you.”
There was a seismic shift in my shivering that had absolutely nothing to do with the cold.
“We are going to remove choice cuts of ze flesh from your body while you are still alive and cook zem and eat zem. And you will be so starving, I will watch as you eat your own flesh. You will know ze true terror from zis moment and I will have all your power, no?”