Miracle's Boys

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I called him Newcharlie because Rahway hadn't sent the guy I remembered home. This guy standing at the mirror moving his hair around his head was someone—some
thing
—different.

Right after he came home from Rahway, I got up in the middle of the night to look at him. He'd been away for more than two years, and the guy sleeping across from me was a stranger. Some days he'd just sit on that bed with his hands hanging down between his knees, just staring out the window and looking evil. But when he was asleep, his face spread out—all the frowns and scowls just kind of faded and he looked like Charlie again, ready to care about something, to be happy, or to cry about stray animals.

Newcharlie checked himself out for a moment without saying anything. He's light brown with thick black eyebrows and Mama's nose. He winked at himself, then caught me watching him in the mirror and gave me the finger. I looked away from him without giving him the finger back.

What changed you, Cha?
I wanted to ask him.
What made you cold?

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First published in the United States of America by G. P. Putnam's Sons,
a division of Penguin Putnam Books for Young Readers, 2000
Published by Puffin Books, a division of
Penguin Putnam Books for Young Readers, 2001
Reissued by Speak, an imprint of Penguin Group (USA) Inc., 2006

Copyright © Jacqueline Woodson, 2000

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THE LIBRARY OF CONGRESS HAS CATALOGED THE G. P. PUTNAM'S SONS EDITION AS FOLLOWS:
Woodson, Jacqueline. Miracle's boys / Jacqueline Woodson.
p. cm.
Summary: Twelve-year-old Lafayette's close relationship with his older brother
Charlie changes after Charlie is released from a detention home
and blames Lafayette for the death of their mother.

eISBN : 978-1-101-07706-1

[ 1. Brothers—Fiction. 2. Family problems—Fiction. 3. Orphans—Fiction.
4. Racially mixed people—Fiction. 5. Schools—Fiction.] I. Title.
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“BROTHERS IS THE BADDEST. THEN COMES Dominicans. Dominicans don't mess around. I'm cool with Dominicans though. They don't mess with me, I don't mess with them.”

I lay back on my bed and listened to my brother Newcharlie talking. We had shared this room since the day I was born. And I swear since the day I was born, he'd been going on about who was the baddest. Used to be Puerto Ricans were the second baddest, but somewhere along the road their status dropped. Brothers were always at the top or the next ones down.

Newcharlie wasn't talking to me. Since he'd gotten home from Rahway Home for Boys a few months ago, he never talked to me. He was combing his hair and talking to Aaron. They'd known each other forever to say “W's up” and stuff, but they didn't start hanging till Newcharlie came home from Rahway. Seems once Newcharlie saw the inside of Rahway, most of the guys around here who cut school, hung out real late, and got into all kinds of stuff thought he was some kind of wonderful. Aaron acted like he wanted to kiss the heels of Newcharlie's shoes, hanging on to Newcharlie's words like they were something special. And Newcharlie was just as stupid over Aaron. Hanging out with him like Aaron was his brother. Like Aaron was me.

Newcharlie and Aaron were the same height and walked the same way, and now they had the same meanness. Aaron's meanness had always been around him. Even when we were small, we'd walk past him and he'd say something negative. Like when Mama used to make us go to church on Sundays. We'd be all dressed up walking to the bus stop, and Aaron'd say something like “Mama's church boys going to meet their maker.” Or the time our big brother, Ty‘ree, stopped him from snatching this little kid's Halloween bag. Aaron didn't take the bag, but he kept glaring over his shoulder as me and Ty'ree and the kid walked away, saying, “That's all right, church boy. That's all right.” Like he had something waiting for us later on. Newcharlie's meanness was as new as his name. He'd come back from Rahway with it, and the way he and Aaron hung so tight, you'd think he didn't remember those days when we crossed to the other side of the street when we saw Aaron and his boys hanging out.

I watched Newcharlie part his hair on the side and comb it one way, then shake his head, part it on the other, and pull the comb through it again. His hair's curly, like our mama's was—jet-black curls that girls go crazy for. He's three years older than me but only a little bit taller, and at the rate he was going school-wise, come this time next year, I'd be almost caught up with him. I'd just started seventh grade and Newcharlie was repeating ninth, but he didn't seem to care one way or the other.

The
old Charlie
would have cared about me catching up to him. He would have sat down at the dining-room table and crammed, because he would have been embarrassed about me being in almost the same grade as him. See, the old Charlie had feelings. If Charlie saw a stray cat or dog, he'd start crying. Not out-and-out bawling, but he'd just see it and start tearing up. Sometimes, when we were out walking, he'd turn away real fast and I'd know it was because he saw the shadow of some stray animal and was wishing it wasn't out in the cold. Once he told me that some nights he lay in bed just praying for all the stray animals out there.
There's a lot of them, you know,
Charlie said.
And probably not a whole lot of people praying for them.
He told me about St. Francis of Assisi, how he was the guy who looked out for all the animals. He said him and St. Francis were the only two asking God to help those animals walking the cold streets not to freeze to death. I promised Charlie I'd pray too.

And sometimes, late at night, Charlie would just start talking, telling me stories about how things were before I was born—memories of him and our older brother, Ty'ree, and my mama and daddy together. Wasn't ever anything mean in it—like that he wished I hadn't been born or something—just stories, quiet stories that would make me smile and help me fall asleep.

Now I called him Newcharlie because Rahway hadn't sent the guy I was just talking about home. This guy standing at the mirror moving his hair around his head was someone—some
thing
—different. Not the guy who used to laugh and tell jokes and put his arm around my shoulder. This guy never did any of those things. Ever.

Right after he came home from Rahway, I got up in the middle of the night to look at him. He'd been away for more than two years, and the guy sleeping across from me was a stranger. Some days he'd just sit on that bed with his hands hanging down between his knees. Just staring out the window and looking evil. But when he was asleep, his face spread out—all the frowns and scowls just kind of faded and he looked like Charlie again, ready to care about something, to be happy, or to cry about stray animals.

Newcharlie checked himself out for a moment without saying anything. He's light brown with thick black eyebrows and Mama's nose. He winked at himself, then caught me watching him in the mirror and gave me the finger. I looked away from him without giving him the finger back.

What changed you, Cha?
I wanted to ask him.
What made you cold?

“Ya'll don't go to church no more?” Aaron nosed.

I swallowed and caught Newcharlie's eye. He looked back at me for a second, then frowned.

“Church is for little boys,” he said. “Little mama's boys. I look like a little mama's boy to you?”

Aaron shrugged.

The last time any of us was in a church was for Mama's funeral. I didn't want to see the inside of one again. Least not for a long time. Least till the thought of even
passing
by one isn't enough to make me choke up and start bawling about Mama.

“Stupid little mama's boys like Lala,” Newcharlie said.

“My name ain't Lala,” I said.

In the summer I go down south to my great-aunt Cecile's house. If the watermelons are ripe, she'll buy one. When we get home, she always takes it out back and breaks it open against a rock, then scoops out the heart of it—the sweetest, reddest part—and hands it to me. I stared out the window. Somebody had done that to Charlie: scooped out his heart and sent the empty bitter rind of him on home.

Aaron was sitting on the bed directly across from mine, Newcharlie's bed, and he was rolling one of his pants legs up real slowly. Sometimes when he looked at me, I felt the coldness, like somebody was dripping ice water down my back.

“Anyway, Puerto Ricans,” Newcharlie said. “If they're in a gang, then you got a problem. But if they're on their own, then it's cool. Most of the ones in Rahway had gangs behind them.”

“I don't know no Puerto Ricans that ain't in a gang, Cha,” Aaron said.

“What're you talking ‘bout?” I said. “We're half Puerto Rican and we ain't in no gang, and you're all Puerto Rican and you ain't either.”

“How you know what I'm in with your little self?” Aaron said. “You don't know nothing about me, little boy.”

Aaron looked me up and down like he was looking at something that didn't even have a right to be in the world. He was wearing a Yankees baseball cap with the front of it pulled down over his eyes so that he had to lift his whole face to look at me. I thought that was a stupid way to wear a hat but didn't say anything about it.

“I don't know what my size got to do with anything, but I know you ain't in no—”

“Mind your business, Lala.” Newcharlie glared at me through the mirror. “Nobody in this room talking to you. You hear anybody call your name? When somebody calls your name, then somebody's talking to you, and nobody in this room is ever gonna be calling your name.”