Misdemeanor Trials (3 page)

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Raptor 1, this is Raptor 2, 3 minutes from target domed decree.”

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Raptor 2, Roger, release on target.”

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Ghost 1, this is Raptor 2, we will follow you to target.”

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Raptor 2, this is Ghost 1, Roger.”

“Moments before I stepped onto this platform, I signed executive orders that I am confirming at this moment.  I have directed that the nuclear and economic base of Iran be removed as a basis of threat to the region and to this country.  At this moment I have directed that JDAM delivery weapons, known as the B-2 with stealth capabilities, to use guided Massive Ordnance Penetrators, GBU-31, which we call bunker busters, and fuel-air detonations, and high-power microwave attacks to effectively destroy laboratories, hobble gasoline refineries, unhardened heretofore hardened targets, and to hobble Iran's electrical grid.  Targets include the refineries at Abadan, Arak, Tehran, Isfahan, Tabrez, Shiraz, Lavan, and Bandar Abbas.  The main focus of the attacks will be the Fordow underground nuclear facility near the holy city of Qom.  There will be no limits on the areas of vulnerability.  We cannot end the conflict by disabling Iran’s capabilities.  We must destroy them.

“Iran has been at war with America since 1979, but we have not been at war with them.  Of the 4000 American troops killed in Iraq, many were killed by an Improvised Explosive Device, or IED, a word new to the culture of conflict.  Almost all of the IED devices and the IED deaths have been planned by, designed by, constructed by, and detonated by Iran.  It will stop.  After today’s Inauguration Day bombings, if any serviceman is killed and the death is traced to Iran, another Iranian asset will be vaporized, whether it is an oil platform, or the general headquarters of the Army, or a financial center in downtown Tehran.  And we will do it, because we can.  If Iran launches a terrorist attack aimed at America, they will lose all of their military assets, and they will be naked to their enemies for one hundred years.  There will be no more sternly worded messages from the United Nations.”

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Raptor 1, this is Ghost 1.  Bombs away”.

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Raptor 1, this is Ghost 2.  Bombs away”.

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Raptor 1, this is Ghost 3.  Bombs away”.

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Raptor 1, this is Ghost 4.  Bombs away”.

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Raptor 1, this is Ghost 5.  Bombs away”.

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Raptor 1, this is Ghost 6.  Bombs away”.

“These decisions and orders have not come lightly.  Since the day I was elected I have consulted with military and political leaders who have earned their way into the top levels of government.  As you know I will ask former President James Ryan to head the Department of Defense.  I have asked Michael Ronson to head the Central Intelligence Agency.”

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Raptor 1, this is Raptor 2, turning northeast to secondary target Temple of Doom.”

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Raptor 2, Roger, we have a GO on secondary target Temple of Doom.  Resume your own navigation, release on target.”

"As President of this great country I will immediately know of any threat to this country, and I will be in the national command center in five minutes.  The President is never in the shower.  The President is never away for the afternoon.  The President is always on duty, fully appraised.  We have fourteen carrier battle groups.  F-18’s can be scrambled in fifteen minutes.  No threat to our safety is outside of the reach of this nations justified retribution.”

CHAPTER THREE

JOHN

“Morning is a new beginning.  Every day has a morning.”  ----Anonymous

John Trader walked towards his car in the early morning January sun.  He was leaving the Berkeley apartment of a fellow student in his law class.  She was beautiful, smart, and a decade younger than he was.  He felt particularly frisky as he headed for an interview for his first job as a government lawyer.  The rising sun sparkled off the windows of the buildings across the Bay in San Francisco, and his breath made a small cloud as he breathed the brisk morning air.  His appointment with the District Attorney's Office wasn't until 10:00, but he first had to stop off at Doctor..., what was the name? He could not remember.  It would be their first session.  He pulled out his iPhone, looked at his calendar, and recalled the name and address.  He had a gnawing dissatisfaction that caused him a low level of non-specific anxiety.  He figured that if he consulted with a Psychologist or Psychiatrist he would be able to deal with it, and it would go away.  At least he hoped so.  He was wearing his blue suit, black shoes and dark blue socks, white shirt and a muted tie.  He reached the BART station, parked his car, and waited only a few minutes before a train to the City arrived.  When he got on the commuter train, he blended with the quiet crowd on their way to work, probably some office job in the City.  Passengers were staring at their phones, reading a paper, dozing, or watching to see if their station was coming up soon.  The earth moved people around the sun, the spinning earth moved people around in space, the BART train moved people from the East Bay to the West Bay, their legs would carry them to the places where they worked, and it was all done so silently in the morning.

CHAPTER FOUR

THE DOCTOR WILL BE RIGHT WITH YOU

“At his second bidding darkness fled, light shown, and order from disorder sprung.”

--John Milton

He found the address, the Burgeon Building, and rode the crowded elevator with arriving office workers.  He got off on the Fourth Floor, which was empty and quiet, and found a door with Dr.  P.  Simpson, Psychologist.  He entered and heard a small bell ring as he opened the door.  The room was empty and there were only five chairs.  This was not a volume business.  A few moments later, the sliding glass window opened and a young woman looked out and said, “Are you Mr. Trader?”

John said, “Yes.”

The girl responded with the expected, “Could I have you fill out this questionnaire for the Doctor? Then the doctor will be right with you.”

“Sure,” said John.  He looked at the questionnaire.  It asked for the usual, Name, Address, Date of Birth, do you take medications, do you take illegal drugs, do you consume alcohol and if so, how much? He always had a problem with the last question.  He had lived such a focused life for three years of law school that he quit drinking.  Now that school was over, he was headed to some form of law that would require him to learn much more than he did in law school, and faster.  His mind would have to stay clear and focused.  He answered, “Yes, but not enough.”

When he was through with the questionnaire, he put it by the sliding window and knocked once.  The window quietly opened, and the questionnaire disappeared behind the window.

Moments later the young girl opened a door leading to a place behind the sliding glass window and said, “Come with me, please.” John dutifully followed her into another small office.  The office had very comfortable looking furniture, the kind one would expect in such an office.  There was a chair where the Doctor would sit.  The window behind the chair looked out over other office buildings in the city.  The chair he was guided to was set up opposite to the doctor's chair and ten feet away.  When he looked at the doctor's chair, it was a shadow against the light of the window.  “Nice setup,” he thought.  “I will not be able to see the Doctor very well, but I will be lit up by the light from the window.” He did not mind.  He was there to discuss some things which he needed to put into perspective.  He did not have the time to read the self-help books and he was going into an environment where he would have to deal with an entire new set of business and social factors.  When he graduated from college he knew everything.  Fifteen years later, with a new law degree, he was petrified by how much he did not know.

Lost in the reverie of his own thoughts, he did not hear the Doctor enter the room.

The Doctor was seated and said, “Mr. Trader?” There was a pause.  “Uh, Mr. Trader, I am Doctor Simpson.”

John snapped out and said, “Hi, Sorry.  I was just thinking.  I have an interview this morning with the District Attorney's Office for a job.  I just passed the bar, and this new world is kind of mind boggling.”

“I am sure it is.  Mr. Trader, how can I help you today?”

“I hope you can, but I don't know how.  If I did, I would help myself,” said John.

“Well, I know I can help you with the mind boggling events, and any feelings of anxiety you might have.”

“I don't think that's it.  I am going to have to deal with a lot of new people in an environment that I, frankly, am completely unfamiliar with, but I can do it.  I’ve done it before,” said John.

“That’s anxiety, Mr. Trader,” said the Doctor.  “It appears, to some degree, to be something I see all the time.  It is generalized, certainly, and I can't pinpoint it yet, but maybe that is why you are here,” said the Doctor.

“I don't think so.  I haven't necessarily got a lot of anxiety, but more like an emptiness feeling that I try to fill, but don't know how.  It is strange.  I've known some women, but my association with them just stops.  One woman I still think about from a long time ago, still haunts my memory, but I knew her well, and it just stopped.” said John.

“Well, maybe you should tell me about yourself and the things in your life that you think have brought you here today,” said the Doctor.

“Okay,” said John.  “Let me tell you some things about me, and maybe you can piece it together.  Then, maybe, you can help me.  One year, when I was fresh out of College, I took a week skiing in Sun Valley.  I was alone, but in those days I did a lot of things by myself.  I still do.  I remember it was very cold when I landed at Ketchum.  I got a cab to my motel, checked in, put my skis in the room, got a map of the city, and set out to find a diner.  I was walking towards the village center down a back street.  It was very dark that evening, and quiet, and there was no one around.  I was warm, layered with lots of clothes and woolen gloves.  As I was walking I heard a faint sound of music, but paid no attention.  As I walked down the street the music became a little less faint, and I saw light from the edges of partially opened door.  It was music that sounded like what we used to sing at church.  When I came closer, I heard the sound of a single voice singing a long forgotten hymn from when I was a child.  I stopped and waited by the door.  I opened the door a bit and looked inside.  There were twenty-five or thirty people, sitting, listening.  It was some kind of church service.  She sang the song confidently with grace, and presence, and purity and I felt like my heart skipped a beat.  I gasped a little air.  Her voice was clear and strong, penetrating my layers of warm clothing and caused a chill up my spine.  She owned the music and every note moved to the next in a silky, melancholy voice.  Her hands moved slowly in front of her, and her eyes closed.  When she opened them he saw a sparkle of innocence in her eye.  I was enslaved, I admit.  If there were a way the heart could persuade the voice to sing, her heart did that for her.  Her voice grasped and captured my heart, and squeezed it gently, leaving only a desire for me to be virtuous.  When she sang, even the night demons stopped their work, and listened, and they were bewitched, and it took them some time to remember what they were doing.  The best of the demons had no stomach for their own evil for a long time after that.  At that moment I could not tell you what she looked like, but she was beautiful.  The beauty of her voice never wavered when she sang another song.  I could have listened forever.  Then, when she finished, she sat down and a church service began.  I closed the crack in the door I had opened, and went to find my diner.  And I felt differently, a little excited.  I guess it was something spiritual.  The diner was good, and on my way back I decided to walk by the same door.  It was still partially opened and I looked inside.  I saw her.  She was alone, straightening up folding chairs.  I said, ‘Hello’. She turned around, smiled and she radiated a glow or aura that was almost beyond description.  She was beautiful to me, although her face and body were not the kind you would whistle at on the street.  She said, ‘Hello, come inside and get out of the cold.’ I did.  I told her that I was passing by earlier and heard her singing and that I thought her voice made me feel like my heart was for something else than pumping blood.  I told her there was magic in her voice that carried the listener to another place, that it was lovely, and that her voice had the power to make dance the dullest of beanbag hearts.  She walked towards me, put her hand on mine, and said in a quiet voice, 'I heard you.  I think I am going to come into your life and change it.  Will that be okay?' My legs buckled imperceptibly.  She said she would be through in a few minutes and then we could chat while I walked her home.  I walked her home, and yes, we made love that night.  It was the softest, slow and closest physical relationship I have had with a woman.  The next morning I was still at her home.  I quietly gathered my clothes.  She sat in the bed, a sheet in both hands, covering her breasts.  I said I had to go.  She looked at me and said, 'John, I love you.' I smiled, turned and left.  I went skiing.”

The Doctor asked, “Did you see her again?”

John thought silently for a moment.  He felt a little uncomfortable in his stomach.  He knew it would have been so much of a better ending in that sunlit morning in Idaho if he had persuaded her, with a bright smile and sunny eyes, to go with him to the slopes of Mount Baldy.  In the better ending they could have danced down the slopes in the deep dry powder, sang silly songs as they took the chairlift back to the top, and stopped at the Lookout and ordered hot chocolate and laughed at the good time we were having.  That night they could have dressed in faded jeans and sweatshirts worn under the heavy parkas, and gone to the best restaurant, not the diner, and had Death by Chocolate to sweeten the breath for that soon to come embrace.  They could have returned then, exhausted, and made love, knowing each other so much more and so much better.  But that was not the ending.  Life doesn't have second acts.  That's the world we live in.

John said, “I never returned to her home.  I never walked by the door on the side street.  I never saw her again.  I don't remember her name.”

After a short pause, as he returned from a distant place in his memory, John said, “It just dawned on me now that I don't think I ever knew her name.”

“That is very telling, Mr. Trader,” said the Doctor.

“With the passage of time, now it is just an ancient evening with distant music,” John said.

“I think we should schedule next week, Mr. Trader.”

“Fine, but why did it happen the way it did?” asked John.

The doctor looked at John and said, “Sometimes, when you don't have anyone, anyone will do.”