Miss-Fortunate Reality (8 page)

It
was close to midnight and many of the guests started to leave. Pam had finally
finished talking Carlo’s ear off and I decided to join her. I was still mad at
her for what she’d said earlier but I blamed Rob for her behavior as well. I
grabbed a few more tequila shots and a couple of cosmos and went to join her.
As I was making my way, I saw Bill and his two girls heading to the Jacuzzi
behind the bar. It was well hidden away which made my stomach turn just the
thought of having the three of them having sex in there.
“Pam it’s time to party” I said as I sat down beside her.
“I’ve been trying to stay away from alcohol all night Alex, I’m breastfeeding
remember?”
“I thought you mentioned something about pumping ahead of time”
“Yes but”
“But nothing, shots now!” I ordered.
We had two shots in a row and followed them with cosmos.
“Oh how I’ve missed this” she began “I’m sorry I was such a bitch earlier”
“That’s ok, I can handle you, Marc however”
“Oh don’t start, you have no idea what it’s like between us”
“Educate me”
“I think he’s cheating on me” she said and my heart sank.
“What gives you that idea?”
“I don’t know, you just know, you know?”
“No, that makes no sense”
“Well he won’t fuck me for starters” she said.
“Well Pam you nag him way too much”
She sighed “I guess”
Just then I saw Bill and one of the girls coming out of the Jacuzzi, she was
pale and they were running into the house, she was about to toss her cookies, I
figured.
Bill and Marc were sitting down together talking just a few feet from us.
“Pam, one last drink, have this” I said passing her the last Cosmo. She was
already drunk so it was no trouble for her to down it quickly.
I got up and took her hand “C’mon” I said and began making my way to the
Jacuzzi. As we approached Rob and Marc I squeezed Rob’s shoulder “We’re heading
to the Jacuzzi, you boys want to join us?” winking at them and kept walking
with Pam in hand.
When we got there, Bill’s other girl was still in there, topless. Rob got in
and she pounced on him right away by sitting beside him.
I grabbed her by the back of her hair and pulled it “Scram” I said.
“Ouch, bitch that hurt” she yelled.
“Get your skanky ass out of here, or the only modelling job you’ll get next
year will be for Walmart” I warned. She grabbed her bikini top and left. Pam
was laughing.
Marc got in sat next to Rob followed by Pam sitting across from them. I removed
my wrap and sat next to Pam. We sat in silence for a while, then Rob started to
discuss something about football with Marc whom was also a fan. A waiter
brought some Champaign at that moment and we each grabbed a glass.
The song “Pony” by Ginuwine came on and that was my cue.
I got closer to Pam and started playing with her hair, staring at her ‘What are
you doing” she asked smiling, I got closer to her and moved her hair back “Do
you want your husband to fuck you tonight?” I whispered “Yes” she whispered
back “then follow my lead” I replied. This was wrong and I was fully aware of
it. This wasn’t for her it was for me, and I knew it would drive Rob and Marc
crazy.
“Dance with me” I said by pulling her hand and took her to the center of the
Jacuzzi, I moved in behind her moving her hips with mine to the rhythm of the
music, by this point we had our husbands attention. I
grabbed
 her
hands and moved them so they would touch my hips. I moved my
hands to her breasts and fondled her slowly, she moved her head back closing
her eyes, and she was so drunk she was enjoying it. I slowly glanced at the
boys, their faces where in shock but they were enjoying the show, so I turned
her around to face me and I licked her chest from in between her breasts up to
her collar bone, she tilted her head back again while letting out a moan. I
heard Marc clear his throat and I smiled. I looked at Rob and he had lust in
his eyes which meant he was more than ok with this. So I put one of my hands on
her face lifting it and kissing her jaw softly and she did the same to me, we
were still dancing and grinding on each other, rubbing and squeezing each other
breasts. I felt her hips thrust against mine and that’s when I kissed her on
the lips, when I saw she was ok with that, I stuck my tongue in her mouth and
she returned the gesture, we kissed until the song was over and then I let her
go sitting back grabbing my Champaign and I downed it, licking my lips, she
joined me and did the same.
Both men had their hands down on their laps, staring back at us awestruck.
“Well that was interesting” said Pam putting her glass down. I smiled at our
men wickedly.
Just then Victor showed up hand in hand with his boyfriend. “Alex darling,
great party as always but we’re leaving” he said looking at all of us, he gave
me a puzzled look and I got out of the Jacuzzi.
“Why don’t you two stay over? We can have breakfast together” I said as I
hugged him “Umm, are you sure?” he asked “Yeah, the night is young and I need
some more of your party favors” I replied walking away with them “What the fuck
is going on over there?” he whispered.
I smiled “Nothing darling, your mind is too precious and innocent” I said.
“Fuck you”
“Give me a couple of those, and take the first bedroom on the left, ok?” I
replied taking two joints out of his baggy. “Goodnight” I added and kissed him
on the cheek.
I went back to the Jacuzzi and the three of them were still sitting there
quietly.
I went back in and gave a joint to Marc, the other I kept and sat in between
Rob and Marc “Pam come sit by your husband” I ordered. I lit up my joint, took
a puff and passed it to Rob as she did was she was told.
“Are you turning lesbian on me Alex?” asked Pam. I laughed shaking my head.
“Does this mean I’m lesbian now?” she asked and I laughed harder so did Marc,
Rob was not.
I looked over at him and he was angry. “What?” I asked him still giggling “What
the fuck was that?” he asked.
“What do you mean?”
“What you just did with Pam and don’t act stupid” he yelled and
my smile faded into fear.
“We were having fun I thought Rob, didn’t seem to bother you at the time” I
retorted.
He got out of the Jacuzzi and turned to me “Is that what you want, you want to
fuck women now?”
“No Rob, it was just for fun” I said following him.
“Fun? Marc was that fun for you, knowing that your wife wants to fuck other
women?”
“Rob, I’ve known Pam and Alex a lot longer than you and this means nothing,
they were just goofing around.” said Marc getting out too.
“Rob seriously this means nothing” I said.
“The fuck it doesn’t” he yelled.
“You’re being ridiculous” I muttered.
“Come again?”
“You are being ridiculous and unnecessarily insecure” I yelled back and that’s
when he slapped me, hard, across the face making me fall on the ground.
Next thing I knew Marc and Rob were shoving each other around. Someone picked
me up off the floor and held on to me while I was watching them fight each
other. Marc took the first swing at him, hitting Rob on the side of the face,
but Rob being much bigger came back and sucker punched  him in the stomach
sending Marc to the ground, he couldn’t get up and I couldn’t do a goddam thing
about it. Pam ran to his side to help him and I had tears rolling down my face.
Rob looked at me with disgust and walked away.
“Are you ok baby girl?” asked Victor, he was holding me.
“No” and I ran in the house and went upstairs.
I found a duffel bag and packed whatever I could, I wasn’t sure what I was even
packing I just knew I wasn’t spending the night in the house with him. I
grabbed my cell phone and called a cab, I was drunk, high and I certainly
couldn’t drive. I looked out the window and saw the rest of the guests leaving,
so I went back downstairs and ran outside to wait for my cab. “Where are you
going baby girl?” said Victor walking behind me “Not sure Vic”
“Come stay with us, we’re leaving now” he said taking my bag and I followed
him.
Carlos opened the door for me and Victor slid in beside me. Carlos was driving
as he didn’t drink.
“You can stay with me as long as you want” said Victor holding my hand.
“How’s Marc?” I asked looking out the window.
“He’s fine, they left already”
“He told me he was coming over tomorrow” he added.
“Who’s coming over, Rob?”
“No baby girl, wife beaters are not welcome in my condo. Marc is coming over”.

CHAPTER
TEN

Victor’s condo was located at
the Toronto lake front and he had a spectacular view the Lake Ontario. He loved
all that was modern and his décor reflected that exactly. Still it was cozy and
welcoming. Lake front condos are expensive, but he got a two bedroom where he
had a pull out couch in his office and that’s where I stayed.
I was dreading turning on my phone but I had to since I knew Marc would be
coming over to see me at some point, and I knew that Rob would be try to
contact me.
There were several messages waiting, so I started going through the list:
Pam: “You ok?”
Pam: “He called us last night to see if you were here and he came over this
morning”
Pam: “Where are you?”
Me: “I’m fine and sorry but I’m not telling you were I’m staying.”
I was surprised she didn’t know, so I assumed that Vic and Marc had spoken
privately.
Rob: “I’m sorry Alexandra, I was drunk”
Rob: “Please come home”
Rob: “I miss you terribly Alexandra, please come home, I am so sorry baby”
Me: “I don’t know Rob, I need time”
Rob: “Ok, can we sit somewhere and talk about it? Somewhere public, your
choice.”
Me: “No, and I’m sending the driver to pick up some of my clothes, I’m heading
back to work tomorrow.”
Rob: “Whatever you need Alexandra”
Marc: “Are you ok?”
Me: “yes…u?”
Marc: “I’m fine, I’m coming over shortly, just waiting for Pam to come back
from the store”
Me: “Are you hurt?”
Marc: “The only thing that hurts is that he hurt you”
Me: “Don’t park near the condo, park somewhere else”
Marc: “I know, he’s looking for you”
Me: “I know, please be here soon”
I cleared my messages and got out of bed. I went to the kitchen where Victor
and Carlos were having breakfast.
“Baby girl, you have some bruising” said Victor moving my face to the side.
Carlos grabbed his phone and took pictures from different angles “Just in case
this goes to court Alex” he said.
I took his phone, looked at the pictures and started crying.
“No, no baby girl, don’t cry over this bullshit, he had no right to do this”
said Victor hugging me.
I exhaled and grabbed some coffee.
“He’s called here several times but I haven’t picked up the phone. However he
cannot get in the building without my authorization” began Victor.
“We’re leaving for the day, and I won’t be back until after 10 tonight, there’s
food in the fridge, coffee,
water
, whatever you need”
he continued.
“Any problems, call me or the police, understood?” he said.
I nodded “Thank you Victor, I love you”
“I love you too baby girl”
They left about ½ hour later, I jumped in the shower and put on some concealer
to hide the bruising over my cheek. I can’t believe it came down to this, I was
a battered woman and now I understood how it felt.
I put on a pair of denim shorts and a pink t-shirt, I tied my hair in a
ponytail as I had no desire to fiddle with it today.
Suddenly there was a soft knock on the door. I slowly walked towards the door
and listened through it “Alex it’s me Marc” I opened the door, he came in
quickly and closed the door behind him locking it and hugged me tightly.
I began to cry in his arms, he held me there rocking me back and forth until I
was calm again.
We sat on Victor’s oversize leather couch, he put his arm around me and we sat
there quietly for a while holding hands. “Are you hungry?” he asked me.
“No”
“We have all day together, I told Pam I was doing some extra work at the office
today”
“I’m sorry I pulled that stunt last night, I’m not sure what I was doing or why
I did it, I just thought you’d like it or not, I just don’t know anymore”
“Hey, don’t apologize for that” he said holding my chin up gently.
I lifted his t-shirt to see his stomach and he had a large purple bruise on his
left side, I ran my fingers on the outside and kissed it. “He has a good one on
the side of his face, at least I can hide mine” he laughed.
“I’d like to see him weasel his way out of that one with some lame excuse” he
added.
“What did Pam say?” I asked.
“Oh you know, she was pissed I got involved. Wondered what possessed you to do
that to her knowing what he was like, she was embarrassed and blah blah blah”
“I still can’t believe he went that far” I remarked.
“Well now you have an excuse to walk away”
“I never said I would, he feels bad about it and he was pretty drunk last
night” I said.
“Are you serious? You’re going back there? Back to him?”
“Yeah Marc, we’re married after all, I came here because I was scared last
night and too angry to be around him”
Mark took his hand and arm away, got up and paced around.
“Please don’t even think of yelling at me because I will kick you out” I warned.
He stopped and looked into my eyes.
“You can’t go back there, he slapped you last night who knows what he’ll do to
you next time”
“He won’t touch me Marc, he loses half his fortune for spousal abuse, I
contacted my lawyer to have a copy of the
prenup
delivered
to his office tomorrow with that section highlighted”
“What do you call this?”
“I don’t want his money Marc, I love him”
“You love him” he said despondent.
“Yes”
“and how do you feel about me?” he asked.
“I’m not sure Marc, I know I want to be with you, is it love? Perhaps. But it
doesn’t matter either way, my best friend is your wife”
He sat beside me again and held my hand.
“I don’t wanna talk all day Marc, please just be with me”
He kissed me deeply holding my face and I flinched. He examined my face
carefully and saw the bruising on the side of my face, the concealer had washed
away a bit with my tears earlier.
“Christ” he muttered shaking his head. He grabbed my hand and took me to the
bathroom. He took my t-shirt off and undid my shorts stripping me naked. He did
the same. Turned on the shower and put me in there with him. He held my face
gently and kissed me again, deeply and passionately. I stroked his penis as he
kissed me and he was very sensitive today, every slight touch he would flinch.
“How long has it been? I asked him “Since we were last together” he whispered.
It was clear now that things were over between him and Pam. He was mine and
only mine and as much as it pained me to see the outcome of the end of their
marriage, I was thrilled I had this effect on him in such a short period of
time.
We made love for hours, in the shower, the pull out bed, the floor, and in the
bathtub. He inflicted no pain in me, nothing was forceful, or demeaning. He
respected me and let me take control of his body and he loved every minute of
it. 
After we had dinner we sat in silence in the little kitchenette table. He was
holding my hand staring at me and I was staring vacantly at my cup of coffee.
Time was running out for us, it was already almost 9pm.
“I meant it when I said I’m falling in love with you” he began. “I don’t know
how that’s even possible and it’s not about the sex or your body, you just
understand me, you always have, since we were kids, and I think deep down
you’ve stayed friends with Pam all this time just to be around me because deep
down you and I have always had an unspoken attraction for each other” he
continued “I always fantasized about you, even after I married Pam. Every time
you came over, you would drive me crazy, your perfume, hearing your voice but I
could never do anything about it, not until I saw the look in your face last
Friday when I opened the car door for you. It was the exact same look you gave
me in that closet all those years ago just before you kissed me. And don’t get
me wrong I never meant to step out of my marriage, that’s not something I was
planning to do or even crossed my mind, I tried loving her and I was in love
with her for many years, but she became so angry and so degrading towards me
with every child she had. I just can’t take it anymore and now I just don’t
care” he said finishing his coffee.
I exhaled and looked at him “You know it’s funny, but every guy I kissed or
made out with before I married Rob, called me or at least tried to date me, and
I’m talking way back, even in high school. However the only one that got away
was you and now here we are. And yes you are completely right about Pam, I
stayed friends with her all these years to keep an eye on you, because I too
felt that attraction but I never realized that until now.” I began “I wish I
could describe how I feel about you, and why I don’t want to let you go and I
don’t think I can or have the strength to let you go. I tried all last week,
but I can’t enough of you.” I said.
He let go of my hand walked towards Victor’s music center. He looked through
his iPod and started playing “All I want is you” by U2. “Dance with me” he said
taking my hand and I did. I couldn’t stop sobbing through the entire song and
he kissed me as we danced and my heart raced, the butterflies in my stomach
fluttered wildly with every second that passed “I love you” he whispered
looking into my eyes, I took a deep breath “I love you too” I finally exhaled
and it felt so right saying it. We stared at each other as the song played till
the end. We made love again after that, he loved me and I loved him deeply,
there was no turning back now and my life as I knew it would change forever.

Marc
left shortly after Victor came home.
“Baby girl you’re glowing, did you have a nice time?” he asked giving me a
wicked grin.
“Victor I’m in deep trouble”
“Let me guess, you told him how you really feel?”
I smiled “I’m crazy about him, but I love Rob as well”
“Really, after last night you’re telling me you’re still in love with Rob?”
I sighed “I went overboard, I should have known better” I said.
Victor grabbed a mirror and showed me my face. I gasped when I saw the bruising
had turned darker and his fingers were clearly imprinted on my face, I pushed
the mirror away.
“Is that what you call love?” he asked reprimanding.
I sank into the couch and closed my eyes.
“I’m going to bed, you should do the same, and perhaps tomorrow you can make
sense of things” he said and left.

As
I laid down I looked at my phone, and I had messages again.
Pam: “He’s been gone all day, I know he’s cheating on me”
Pam: “He said he had to work but I called him there and he didn’t pick up, I
even called his brother and he couldn’t think of a reason for Marc being
there.”
Me: “He loves you Pam, he would never cheat on you”
Pam: “He just got home, I’ll talk to you tomorrow”

Rob:
“I miss you Alexandra”
Rob: “I want you, I need you here with me”
Me: “I need more time”
Rob: “Can we talk tomorrow?”
Me: “I don’t know, it will be a busy day”
Rob: “Please don’t leave me, I will do anything to keep you from leaving”
Me: “Good night Rob”

Marc:
“I love you so much”
Me: “I love you”
Marc: “I can still smell you in my clothes”
Me: “Meet me here during your lunch hour tomorrow, I’ll make sure to be here by
noon”
Marc: “Looking forward to it, good night beautiful”
I cleared all my messages and fell asleep.

CHAPTER
ELEVEN

“Victor,
I’ll get Phillip to drop you off at work this morning”
“Oh yay I get a driver, I’m loving this!” he said walking passed me in the
bathroom.
“Fuck, none of this shit is working, nothing is covering this Vic” I said. I
had been fiddling with foundation and concealer. The bruising had turned to a
deep purple with yellowing around it.
“I can’t go to work like this, what are my going to say?” I added.
“Honey, no one will believe a lame excuse, so you either go to work and face
the music, or you don’t but that shit won’t disappear for another few days”
“I’ll just put my hair to the side and see what happens” I was frustrated, it
was embarrassing and the last thing I wanted to do was explain it.
“Yeah that should work” Victor said sarcastically.
I put my Fendi’s on and got in the elevator with Victor. There were two women
in there looking right at me and looked at Victor in disgust. “Don’t look at me
bitches, I didn’t do that, I don’t fuck women but I don’t hit them either” said
Victor with attitude.
I was mortified and somehow couldn’t wait till lunch time.

I
walked into work still wearing my sunglasses, everyone was staring at me or
stopped to look as I rushed into my office. I closed the door behind me and my
assistant paged me.
“Just come in and talk to me” I said
“Good morning Alexandra” Jerry greeted me with a large grin
“Have a seat and let’s get to it, I have to leave for lunch today but I will be
back shortly after 1”
“Robert called this morning, wants you to call him back”
I took my sunglasses off and looked at Jerry, he gasped “I don’t care how many
times he calls, I’m in meetings all day” I said sternly putting my sunglasses
back on.
“Samples came in for N.M spring collection, they need an answer by the end of
the day so they can go into production”
“How does it look?”
“Fabulous” he said and I knew that was a good thing which put a smile on my
face.
“The Japanese investors are coming in on Wednesday 10 am, the prospectus is all
ready to go”
“You are wonderful Jerry” I began “I have several meetings this week, I need
you to find a really good makeup artist, please”
“Consider it done” he said “It’s not of my business Alex, but that ain’t right”
he said pointing to my face.
I smiled “Dismissed”
I spent the rest of the morning in the showroom with the designers and pattern
drafters going over the Neiman Marcus spring collection and just like Jerry had
said, it was fabulous.