Moonlight (10 page)

None of the shoes had ever been worn. She turned a couple of pairs over in her hands and studied each sole. They were in perfect condition. There wasn't one with a worn-down heel or scuffed toe in the whole collection. Winnie stood for a moment, hands on hips, and then turned back to the clothes. She pulled out different garments at random and searched their linings. To her amazement, all the clothing had the price tags still firmly fixed in place. Winnie found it a little curious but was also slightly relieved that none of the clothes had been worn. She hadn't relished the idea of wearing the clothes of a dead woman.

Shrugging to herself, she removed a sweater and a pair of jeans and pulled off the price tags. Dressed, she picked out a pair of trainers
and slipped them on her feet. They fit
ted
perfectly. Winnie closed the closet door and made her way downstairs. The kitchen clock read a quarter past nine as she filled the kettle and set about making herself some breakfast. The kettle bubbled away in the corner as she crossed to the window and peered out at the day before her. It was overcast again, but dry. She looked out across the patchwork of fields that spread away from the rear of the house and down to the sea. The house was so quiet, that if she listened really carefully, the faint sound of the waves crashing against the cliffs could be heard. Winnie had never known such silence before, and she thought back to the sounds she had heard in the wind as she had stood in the moonlight.

The kettle
clicked
off behind her, breaking the silence. She jumped at the sudden sound. Not wanting to dwell on what she thought she had seen and heard in the moonlight for fear of freaking herself out again, Winnie spied an iPod on the side and switched it on. Thumbing through the tracks, she noted that Thaddeus liked to listen to anything from Debussy to Maroon Five. Eventually, Winnie selected from the tracks,
Dance Again
by Jennifer Lopez. She kept the music low for fear of disturbing Thaddeus.

Swishing her butt from side to side to the music, Winnie fixed herself a steaming mug of coffee and a couple of slices of heavily buttered toast. When given the chance, she only ever toasted her bread on one side beneath a grill, because she loved the way the butter melted on its
warm, golden surface and dripped through, making the bread all soft and doughy.

She finished her breakfast, placed her plate and mug in the sink, plucked the iPod from its dock, and put on the hooded coat Thaddeus had told her to wear the night before. With the money that Thaddeus had left on the table for her, she went into the hall. Just as she reached up on tiptoe to release the bolt that fastened the wide front doors shut, she noticed that the door to the lounge was open. Stepping away from the front door, Winnie peered into the lounge. Perhaps Thaddeus had risen early or had yet to go to bed.

“Thaddeus?” she called out.

Silence.

Then, as she stood in the open doorway, Winnie noticed that one of the comfy-looking armchairs had been moved, so it sat side on before one of the giant bay windows. Hanging over the back of the chair was a pretty violet top and a long, black skirt. Winnie stepped into the room and approached the chair. As she drew nearer, she could see that a book had been left perched on the arm of the chair. Picking it up, she turned it over in her hands and read the title.

“
The Lion, The Witch &
The
Wardrobe
,” she read aloud.

Then, as she was about to place the book back on the arm of the chair, a folded piece of paper slipped from between the pages of the book and fluttered to the floor. Winnie picked it up, unfolded it, and read what was scrawled across it.

Winnie,

I hope you don’t think my choice of book is a little too young for you. I know you said that you aren’t the best reader in the world, and I appreciate that you are eighteen years old, but this book is enjoyed by young and old alike. It truly is a magical story.

If you could kindly read from the book at dusk, while sitting in this chair by the window and wearing the clothes that I have left out for you, I would be very grateful.

I know that this may seem like a rather odd request, but I did warn you I had some little eccentricities.

Thank You,

Thad

Winnie read the note twice over, just in case her reading abilities were worse than she first thought and had misread the note left by Thaddeus.

After the second read, she folded the piece of paper in half again, and slid it back between the pages of the book.

“He’s got to be kidding me,” she sighed aloud. “What a freaking weirdo!”  

She picked up the violet top and held it against her. Just like all the other clothing she had found, it looked like it would fit perfectly. Sighing, and not knowing what reason Thaddeus could have for wanting her to wear the clothes while sitting and reading the book, she laid the top over
the back of the chair and left the room. She released the bolt and swung open the heavy front door. A pile of newspapers, as Thaddeus had mentioned, sat on the front step. They had been bound together with a length of white string. She hoisted them up, leaning to one side due to their sheer weight, and placed them in the hall as Thaddeus had requested. She swung the door shut behind her and made her way down into town.

Although the sun hung high in the sky like a copper disc, the air was fresh and it pinched her face. Winnie thrust her hands into her coat pockets, and plumes of wispy breath escaped through her mouth. She teetered every now and then on the rough ground, and she wished silently to herself for a little bit of tarmac. She wasn’t used to the country life – not yet. Grey stone walls constructed crudely out of old rock and slate stood on either side of her. The land was broken up by these walls, and cut the fields up into uneven squares. The fields were a patchwork of different colours. Some green with rich, unkempt grass, others yellow-filled with wild gorse and several, a deep mauve with flowering heather. Winnie consumed all its rugged beauty and felt truly free at last.

Part of Winnie was glad that she had come to Cornwall with Thaddeus, but there was another part of her that told her she had made a mistake. It was like a little voice inside of her that just wouldn’t stop whispering. The note which Thaddeus had left for her inside the book hadn’t done anything to gag that voice. Why did he want her to sit in that particular chair, wearing those clothes, and
reading that book?
But the little voice was telling her it had something to do with
Frances
- Thaddeus’s dead wife. Winnie knew that Thaddeus didn’t want to speak about
Frances
, for every time she had raised the subject, he carefully steered her in another direction. She remembered Thaddeus telling her that she looked like his wife in some way.

That’s it!
Winnie thought to herself, as if tiny pieces of a puzzle had been slotted into place. Gooseflesh prickled her back. The clothes! His dead wife’s clothes!
Her coat, shoes, everything.
He had coaxed her up to his house because she resembled
Frances
in some way, and by making her wear her clothes, Thaddeus was pretending that she was still alive – still with him.

That was kind of sick, right? Winnie thou
ght.
If not sick - creepy.
S
he knew then why Thaddeus had left instructions for her to sit in that chair, wearing those clothes, and reading that book, because that’s where
Frances
probably would have sat and read. He wanted to relive that moment of coming down the stairs and seeing his beloved
Frances
sitting quietly in the lounge, reading.  But Winnie didn’t want to be
Frances
and the whole idea of playing the role of a dead woman so Thaddeus didn’t have to let go of his past, made her feel angry. She felt tricked by him. Housekeeper, my arse! She thought. The whole cooking thing, cleaning, washing and ironing his clothes - he didn’t want a housekeeper – Thaddeus wanted a wife! He wanted
Frances
back. What would he expect her to do next for him? Sleep with him? And the thought made Winnie feel scared. Not of him, but what he might be expecting from her next.

Winnie didn’t feel that Thaddeus was a bad man – she had been around plenty of those in the past to know
what they were all about. S
he was beginning to wonder if Thaddeus wasn’t a little crazy. Not dangerous crazy, but messed-up crazy, over the death of his wife.
S
houldn’t
Thaddeus be coming to terms
in some small way
with his loss?
After all,
Thaddeus had told Winnie she had died about a year ago.
Winnie understood loss, and she thought of her friend,
Ruby Little. S
he had dealt with her death by trying not to think about Ruby; she had run away from that. Thaddeus hadn’t, he seemed to be trapped, whereas Winnie had escaped. Either way, she guessed that neither Thaddeus nor she had dealt with their loss. So she couldn’t really blame him for what he was trying to do. Winnie decided that she would do as he had requested, just this once, and take the opportunity to talk to him about
Frances
.

She made her way slowly through the town, pausing to look through the windows of the tiny shops which laid huddled together down the narrow streets. She discovered poky jewellery shops where earrings and necklaces had been fashioned out of shells washed up by the sea. Winnie passed tea shops and a little bakery where the intoxicating smell of fresh bread wafted on the cold sea air. A few knickknack shops were open, selling postcards and sweet rock. There was also the tiniest music shop she had ever seen, and she browsed around the small CD collection. Leaving the music shop, Winnie walked down onto the harbour where she discovered arcades which had been boarded up until the summer. She passed fish and chip shops and restaurants. She came across a row of shop fronts that had been turned into galleries, and she wandered amongst them, watching the artists at work as they lovingly painted pictures of the sea, boats, and fishermen hauling in their nets. One of the artists asked if Winnie
wanted her portrait done in pastels while she waited.
W
ith a red flush o
n
her cheeks, she declined and left the artist to
his work.
Seagulls swooped around her, calling out as they made their way out to sea. Fishermen worked on their boats down on the harbour, fixing, rigging, or
preparing to set sail. She passed shops that sold fishing equipment, and she stopped for a while and watched live bait squirm and wriggle about in glass containers.
After a time, Winnie
came across the restaurant where she and Thaddeus had
eaten the night before. Next to it was a small bookshop. Thinking of Thaddeus, Winnie pushed open the door and stepped inside.

A bell jingled above her head, and an old woman with a curved spine appeared from the back of the shop and shuffled to the front counter. Winnie noticed that her white hair was thinning and her pink scalp shone through in places. Nets of wrinkles had etched themselves around her crisp blue eyes and her puckered mouth. The old woman held a shawl tightly about her frame, and Winnie noticed that her hands were liver-spotted, and her fingers were gnarled and pinched together like chicken’s feet. Gold-rimmed glasses hung about the woman’s sagging neck on a chain. As she reached the counter, the old woman smiled sweetly at Winnie and said, "Good morning
,
my dear, how can I help you?"

Winnie returned the old lady’s smile. "I just wondered if you sold any books of poetry."

The old woman nodded. "Yes, my dear, I do have a small selection.
Mostly classics, really."
She stepped from behind the counter and began
to make her way through the shop. "Come this way and I’ll show you what I have."

"Thank you,” Winnie smiled, and followed the old lady to the rear of the shop. They stopped before a row of shelves which adorned the wall before them. The old woman popped her spectacles onto the bridge of her nose and peered at the spines of the books. She ran a shaking hand along the row.

"Were you looking for any poet in
particular,
or perhaps a collection of love sonnets for such a beautiful young lady as yourself?"

Winnie blushed and said, "I'm looking for some poetry by a poet named Thaddeus Blake."

The old woman looked thoughtfully for a moment and then began to shake her head. "There’s William Blake, but I can't say I've ever heard of a poet called Thaddeus Blake, my sweet. You did say Thaddeus Blake, didn’t you?”

"Yes,” Winnie nodded.

The old woman continued to shake her head thoughtfully, "Now that's a new name to me. Does he write modern verse?"

Winnie began to get a little confused now. She knew she didn’t know enough about poetry to discuss the differing styles that seemed to exist. To her, a poem was a bunch of words that rhymed.

"I'm not sure," Winnie said.

The old woman smiled again, "Not to worry, my dear. I’ll check on the Internet for you.” She turned and made her way back to the front counter.