Authors: Margarita Engle
wandered away from
an apple orchard,
and now
it's nighttime,
and she's still lost.
Her little dog is gone too.
Maybe they went exploring
together.
If TÃo and Gabe can't
find her â¦
Well, I don't even want
to think about it.
So we drive to a farm
where volunteers gather
around a sheriff, listening
to instructions.
TÃo tells me to stay close,
then introduces me to a woman
around his age. She has a nice smile,
and I can tell that my uncle
really likes her.
But she turns out to be
loud Gracie's grandma,
the bear-behavior specialist
who has a reputation
for courage.
Gracie is right beside her, just as jumpy
and exuberant as Gabe. I don't want to stay
at the sheriff's command-post table,
even though Gracie calls it base camp,
as if we're getting ready to climb
the world's tallest mountain.
I need to get away.
I want to be out
there
, searching
with TÃo and his hero-dog, moving
through the whispery spring leaves,
where instead of ripe red fruit
on the trees there are just
moon white
apple flowers
glowing.
With a silvery bell on his collar
and Halloween light sticks
fitted into tabs on his bright
orange vest, Gabe sounds
like Christmas and looks
like a shooting star
as he streaks
through the darkness
of night
making light
   seem like something alive
and growing.â¦
There are horsemen, too,
and horsewomen, a mounted posse
like the ones in old cowboy movies,
and modern people driving ATVs,
all-terrain vehicles that resemble
slow golf carts but zip and dart
like speeding dirt bikes.
Teams of searchers head out
in every direction.
Ground pounders! a loud voice
proclaims. Gracie. Trumpeting.
Knowing it all. Explaining.
If I wasn't so eager to understand
absolutely everything about this urgent
search for a lost kid,
I'd ignore her noisy voice,
but Gracie flashes her press passâ
Great story! she booms.
Great headline!
Soon I've learned that ground pounders
are volunteers who search on foot
without dogs, horses, or vehicles,
just headlamps, flashlights,
and their voices, shouting
the little girl's name
as they go,
until they vanish
beyond streaks of moonlight.
I know I'm supposed to stay close
to Gracie's grandma, but Gabe
is out there, leading TÃo
under gnarled trees
with twisted branches
that look like natural statues
of beasts.
I'm not afraid to solve
this kind of eerie problem.
It's not math or meanness.
It's a mystery, and I need to help,
so when Gracie and B.B. are looking
the other way, I sneak
away
quietly
creeping
silently
wondering
how terrible
my punishment
will be, once my uncle
finally realizes
that I've disobeyed.
By the time TÃo notices
that I'm right beside him,
he's as focused as a laser beam,
following Gabe, who races ahead
sniffing
in a zigzag pattern
solving
the mystery
searching for invisible
scent clues.
Gabe leads us beyond apple trees
to huge oaks, where an owl hoots
in shivery air, and my drumbeat heart
pounds with hope!
Movement. A silhouette.
Growling sounds. Fox? Coyote?
Bobcat? No! It's a dog, tiny
and white, fuzzy but tough
as it lunges and yaps at Gabe.
The little girl's pup stands his ground,
defending, protecting. He's a brave,
rabbit-size guard dog,
and close behind him, the girl
is half-hidden by a droopy branch,
her round face radiant
in moonlight.
TÃo wakes her, talks to her,
checks her for injuries, then calls
the sheriff on his two-way radio,
to report the good news.
Somehow, at the exact same time,
he manages to throw a ball for Gabe
and reward him with praise
delivered in a high, squeaky voice
that sounds like pure excitement.
Hugging her dog, the girl looks
so calm that I wonder if she knew
she was lost.
I can imagine how she feels.
I used to wander all over the city,
following loyal puppies wherever
they roamed.
Back at base camp, the toddler's parents
cry and hug her, then they hug me,
and Gabe and TÃo, and especially
the fuzzy pup.
I love you, the mother tells me
in two languages.
Te quiero.
Spanish.
A sad-happy sound that I haven't heard
since I was little, when Mom wasn't
quite so completely
lost.
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GABE THE DOG
HIDE-AND-SEEK
The tiny girl's scent rhymes with home. Before the woods, back in the apple place, I could already follow her aroma of home rhyme. There is a skin smell, and baby sweat, soap, pillow, blanket, milk from her breath, and a baking-swirl of floating kitchen scents, fluffy cake made with stirred streaks of sugar, flour, salt, butter, and orchidsâwild orchidsâdry vanilla pods from some faraway forest.
There's the metal and fuel smell of the oven that baked the cake, and the fragrance of safety the girl felt while she was eating, before she followed her dog past the apple place to hide.
Her feet smell like orchard, but her hands are pure puppy, and she isn't afraid, not even when Leo, my wonderful Leo, changes his voice from ordinary to play-with-me!
It's that yipping, playful-workful, wild-pack-of-dogs-hunting voice that I love most of all, even more than chasing roundness, or sniffing old apple scraps on the orchard floor. It's the voice that makes me forget to keep wondering why my Leo couldn't find the girl's scent trail himself. I don't understand human noses.
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9
TONY THE BOY
FENCES
The quiet woods come alive
at midnight. On our way back
to the cabin, with the windows
of the truck wide open,
Gabe sniffs wild-animal smells
in the breeze. I catch a glimpse
of a deer, and there are cries
from owls
and coyotes,
and smaller noises, too,
a buzz of insects, the clang
of bullfrogs.
A black bear glides across the road,
framed by the glow of our headlights.
My uncle smiles and says he knows
this particular bear
because it's a friend
of Gracie's beautiful
grandma.
TÃo is a mystery. Will I ever
understand him? Does he want
to talk about B.B.? Is he in love?
The bear passes as swiftly
as one of Mom's worst moods.
Will everything always feel
so dangerous?
Later, in the cabin, my uncle
talks to me about sneaking out to join
the search. Volunteers have to be
eighteen and expertly trained,
tested and certified by county,
state, and federal agencies.
Risk. Insurance. Liability.
Responsibility.
TÃo's stern lecture sounds
like a spelling list.
All I want to think about
is Gabe's heroic triumph,
the little girl's safety,
and her tiny dog's
loyalty.
I could make up my own
spelling test, put all the words
in one sentence: Canine trail angels
are intelligent, courageous,
amazing, magical â¦
but tough pit bulls and rough moms
can be ominous, unpredictable,
perilous,
and painful.
I accept my uncle's scolding in silence,
because I know I broke a big rule,
and TÃo is still talking, explaining
that he needs to trust me.
When he's finished, he adds,
Do you have any questions,
mi'jo
,
anything at all?
Mi'jo. Mi hijo.
My son. My uncle
just called me son! Yes, I have lots
of questions, but the only one I suddenly
need to ask right away
is about the fighting dogs. Their safety
is my question. Those puppies were like
brothers to me. What happened to them
when Mom went to prison
and I came here?
Have they been adopted?
Do they have good homes
with patient foster parents
like TÃo?
My uncle looks troubled.
He admits that the toughest dogs
might never find homes, but he also
assures me that the others
are safe now.
Safe now.
Safe.
My echoing mind almost misses
the chance to ask one more
big question: Why does B.B. study
scary bears? How did she learn
to be so beautifully
brave?
The answer is a surprise.
TÃo explains that Gracie's grandma
was attacked a long time ago,
when she stepped in between
a mother bear and a cub.
The scars healed, so now she talks
to campers about bears, and she talks
to the bears about staying away
from campgrounds, trash cans,
and foolishly daring people.â¦
She isn't brave, TÃo explains,
just educated and wise.
I want to ask more about the way
he looks at her, but I'm too shy
to talk about feelings.
The next day, at school,
I'm exhausted. Since the kids
in my class are different ages,
I get to work at my own pace.
Slowing down really helps.
If only there was some way
to make my shadowy
fear of the future
slow down too.
Maybe I would feel brave
in this classroom of strangers
if I had a loud voice like Gracie
and could ask nosy questions,
but I don't. I'm quiet
and scared,
so finally, I dare myself
to try
something new.
I accept the teacher's offer
to help Gracie write online articles
about search-and-rescue dogs
like Gabeâtheir elaborate training,
their dedicated handlers,
all the human-canine
teamwork
and courage.
I've seen a few of Gracie's articles,
and I don't know how I'll ever manage
to write in that confident tone,
so I just decide to write the way I think,
with bursts of alternating
dread
and hope.
Online, I study Gracie's choice
of topics. There's a funny piece
about a local robbery. Peaches
were stolen from a cabin. The sheriff
found evidence: a smashed window,
an overturned table, and a trail
of peach juice smeared
on huge paw prints
that proved the burglar
was a bear.
The next article is sad. Old folks
at a retirement home told Gracie
that the one thing that's changed
the most since they were young
is fences. They can remember
crossing mountains in any direction,
limited only by rocky cliffs,
wild rivers,
and time.
Now, at night, my dreams
are filled with the spiky fences
around fighting-dog kennels
and the electrified ones
around prisons
and the wall between Mom's mind
and mine.
Will there ever be any way
to leap or climb over
that invisible height?
At school, language-arts hour
is a relief from worries
and dream-fears
and math.
The poetry assignment feels
easy and free. Maybe words
are my strength.
I could turn out to be
a superhero
with secret
syllable powers.
I want to keep my poem quiet,
but Gracie volunteers to read
her verse out loud. It's a funny
rhymed poem about visiting
her parents in India
and making huge, fruity Popsicles
for elephantsâeach one has a funny,
way of eating
a bucket-size ice ball.