Mountain Man (10 page)

She was so numb she could hardly feel. Her eyes traced him, saw the faint shudder of his long legs.

“Go to bed, sweetheart,” he said without looking at her.

“You aren’t angry?”

“No,” he said, his voice deep and slightly choked. “I’m not angry.”

She turned toward the door, only half understanding. She paused with her hand on the knob and glanced back. “Winthrop, are you all right?” she asked, her tone exquisitely gentle.

“Team sports and cold showers will save me,” he said on a husky laugh. “Go to bed.”

She flushed because that explained it all. “I’m sorry,” she said. “Really sorry.”

“For what?” He glanced at her finally, and she was shocked at how pale and drawn his face was.
“Nicky, you were in as deep as I was. I’m a little shell-shocked, that’s all. But we can’t stay here. Things are getting out of hand. I don’t want anything to happen that we might regret.”

She smiled at him. “I wouldn’t regret anything.”

“I can’t be sure of that. It’s easy to lose sight of things in the darkness. I want you very badly. I know you want me just as much. But let’s stop and think before we commit ourselves that completely. I can’t take you to bed one night and walk away from you the next morning. At my age, sex is a commitment, not a toy.”

Her face colored. “I guess it is, when you start talking about making people pregnant,” she murmured dryly.

“That, Miss White, I would enjoy,” he said lazily, and his dark eyes glittered playfully. “And so would you; I’d make sure of it. So suppose you go up to bed and give it some thought. And tomorrow we’ll discuss terms.”

“What kind of terms?”

He smiled slowly. “That would be telling.”

She turned back to the door. “If it means I get to live with you, I’ll agree to most anything,” she said and ran for it. Behind her, she heard rich, thunderous laughter, and by the time she got to the top of the staircase, she was laughing, too. Life was sweet and Winthrop had to feel the same way she did, because he was hinting at a lot more than a brief affair.

If he trusted her that much, it must mean that he
loved her. And God knew, she loved him with all her heart. She was so preoccupied dreaming about Winthrop’s arms holding her in the darkness, and little boys and never leaving this exquisite valley as long as she lived that it was hard to fall asleep.

For an instant, she had a twinge of guilt about not sharing her past with him. But there was still time, she told herself as she snuggled under the covers. Plenty of time, to explain why she’d kept it a secret, to show him that she loved him, that she’d never betray him. Yes, there was time.

When Nicole woke up the next morning, it was to an odd kind of silence. Although she was used to that particular stillness in winter, it was unfamiliar in autumn. But usually it meant snow.

She threw off the covers and ran to the window. Sure enough, the lacy white flakes were coming down like cotton out of the clouds, gently blanketing the trees and the grass. She sighed, vividly remembering last night and the newness of what she’d shared with Winthrop. Like a daydreaming child, she propped her elbows on the windowsill, put her face in her hands and mused about how it would be if she and Winthrop had been snowed in together, just the two of them.

Her daydreams were rudely shattered by the loud
noise of an approaching vehicle—a four-wheel-drive vehicle, at that.

A huge Cherokee wagon came into view with Winthrop at the wheel, and several passengers. They must be the hunting party, she guessed. The group didn’t look too bad. There was a willowy redhead dressed from head to toe in white fur, followed by two older men, one in a wool plaid coat, the other in leather. And there was one more passenger, a big, white-headed man with an imposing nose, wearing tweeds….

Nicky came away from the window feeling sick. She’d go back to Chicago alone, right now. She’d pack her things and get out while she could. The memories came back hauntingly. The loud arguments, the fights that never seemed to end. Her father apologizing halfheartedly for his latest infidelity, her mother’s mocking laughter. She put her hands against her eyes, feeling all over again like the little girl who used to run into the kitchen and hide her face against Lalla’s ample bosom and cry her eyes out until the argument ended.

“Nicky!” came Gerald’s voice outside the door. “Nicky, come down! Guess who one of our visitors is? It’s your father!”

Along with that horror came a new one. She hadn’t told Winthrop who her father was, or that she’d renounced her inheritance. What was he going to think?

“I’ll be right down,” Nicky called back.

She got dressed in a daze, pulling on her gray slacks and white sweater, the ones Mary had miraculously cleaned. She’d been wearing them the day she’d helped Winthrop deliver the colt. Perhaps that memory, if her clothing triggered it, would make the next hours easier.

She ran a brush through her hair and smoothed on some lipstick. She looked pale and haunted, but that couldn’t be helped. Why did it have to be her father? she wondered miserably. Of all the sportsmen in the world, why him? She’d suspected it, of course, when Winthrop had mentioned that he’d been to Kentucky and knew Rockhampton Farms. Since her father was a well-known sportsman, it wasn’t farfetched to imagine that he might enjoy hunting in Montana.

There were voices in the living room when she went downstairs, but the only face she saw immediately was Winthrop’s. The tender lover of last night might have been a dream. His expression was hard, ice-cold. He barely looked at her before he turned back to his guests, a cup of coffee in one lean hand.

“Here she is,” Gerald said with a grin, coming to meet her. His hand on her arm gave her the strength to walk into the room. “Look who’s here,” he added, pulling her toward the big white-haired man in tweed.

“Hello, Nicky,” her father said coldly. “Long time, no see.”

“Not long enough,” she replied, and the bitterness of the past was in her eyes.

Winthrop frowned. It wasn’t the reunion he’d expected to see at all.

Dominic White stood up, but he didn’t approach her. His careless green eyes swept over her wan face and dismissed it. “This is Carol Murdock,” he said, introducing the willowy, very young redhead in ski pants and a mohair sweater under all the fur. “She’s visiting with me for a while.”

“Hi,” Carol said breathily. She beamed up at Dominic, who was at least fifteen years her senior, probably more like twenty. “Your dad sure is a lot of fun. He’s going to show me how to shoot a moose.”

“Oh, you’ll enjoy that, I’m sure,” Nicky told her. “It’s easy. You just load the gun and point it and pull the trigger.”

“I taught Nicky to shoot when she was twelve,” Dominic told the group. “She could match any man on the place with a rifle. Even won trophies at it.”

Winthrop, quietly smoking a cigarette, studied her curiously. “A girl of unusual talents.”

“An unusual girl altogether,” her father replied. He laughed shortly. “We haven’t spoken in two years, have we, Nicky? I’m in disgrace, you see. I made the unforgivable error of falling out of love with her mother. Nicky holds me responsible for Brianna’s death. And for cutting her off without a dime after the funeral,” he added with killing precisión.
“She’s been living by her wits ever since, haven’t you, darling? Which one of these rich Christophers have you set your cap for?”

Just like old times, Nicky thought, feeling panicky. Her father was turning everything around, taking the blame off himself and throwing it at others. Winthrop’s expression told her that he believed her father, and it grew even harder.

“I’m Gerald’s secretary,” she said with what little pride she had left. “And I’m not chasing anyone.”

“You mean you’ve learned to love being without those Dior gowns you fancied and having to make do with the same fur several years running?” her father persisted. He looked like some middle-aged playboy even in his hunting clothes, and Nicky wanted to scream at him. All her life he’d made her feel inferior, and now he was destroying her one chance at happiness. He was convincing a once-betrayed man that he was being betrayed all over again. How would she ever make Winthrop listen to her?

Nicky’s fists clenched by her sides. Her father had always enjoyed creating scenes. He should have been an actor, she thought bitterly.

“Let me introduce you to the other guests,” Winthrop interrupted, wondering even as he did it why in hell he should bother to save her any discomfort after the way she’d deceived him. She’d pay for that, he promised himself. “Ben Harris—” he nodded toward the man in leather “—and Jack,
his brother.” He indicated the other, thinner man, in the plaid. “They come up every year looking for a good rack to go on their walls back in Kentucky. This year Dominic decided to come with them.”

“I don’t suppose you knew I was here, of course,” Nicky asked her father with some of his own flair of stealing the advantage.

“I haven’t known where you were in two years,” he replied shortly. His eyes, so like her own, searched her face. “I haven’t cared,” he added with a mocking smile. “There’s been a noticeable financial difference since you moved out, honey. I can balance the checkbook these days.”

“Stop it,” she whispered, near tears of enraged helplessness. “You know that’s not true.”

He simply turned away from her, refusing to take any notice of her embarrassment.

It wasn’t the way he’d insinuated. She hadn’t wanted his money—not even the trust her mother had left her. She’d refused all of it, but he was making sure both Christophers thought he’d done it himself, and that she was out for what she could get in the way of financial security. And it wasn’t true.

“I hope you find someone to support you, honey, but it won’t ever be me again,” Dominic laughed, bending to brush a kiss across Carol’s hair. “Your mother was enough.”

“Don’t you talk about my mother,” Nicky said huskily. Her green eyes spit fire at him. “Don’t you dare!”

Dominic laughed. “You always were dramatic.” As if he’d have noticed, with his eternal philandering. She almost said so, but Gerald was looking worried, and Winthrop’s eyes were promising a confrontation.

“Do you have TV?” Carol asked, searching around. “It’s so boring, just sitting around.”

The woman was bored already? Nicky thought with surprise. Boy, was Carol in for a shock. Neither Gerald nor Winthrop watched much television. But Nicky was taken aback herself when Winthrop abruptly got up, and led Carol off to show her the TV and VCR in the living room.

“Fast worker, isn’t he?” Dominic asked Gerald with a smile that wasn’t quite friendly. “He’d better remember that she’s my property.”

“Your good manners are exceeded only by your arrogance,” Nicky remarked coolly. “And if you try it on Winthrop, you’d better be wearing body armor. He doesn’t like jet-setters.”

Dominic glared at her. He stuck a diamond-ringed hand in his pocket and pulled out a cigarette case. “Something you’ve already discovered?” he asked with a pointed smile.

“Why did you do that to me?” she asked, searching the face that was so like her own. “Why did you make me out to be a cheap gold digger?”

“Tit for tat, darling,” he drawled, and his own eyes kindled angrily. “You didn’t think about the effect your defection would have on things at home,
did you? I was blamed for everything. I don’t like being humiliated. I don’t think you will, either. And just for the record,” he added coldly, “I didn’t kill your mother, although I felt like it a time or two. She was no saint, Nicky, for all that you’re trying to canonize her posthumously.”

“So you’ve always said,” she returned. “And who are you to judge anyone, you with your bought-and-paid-for playmates?”

“I’m not a plaster saint,” he shot at her. “Your mother turned me out on the town as soon as she knew you were on the way, in revenge for what I’d done to her. Making her pregnant was a cardinal sin, in case you didn’t know. She paid me back twenty times over. Are you shocked, Nicky? Didn’t you realize that people are human?”

Nicky listened, only half hearing him. Why should her mother have hated him for that? She was suddenly aware of Gerald, an unwilling eavesdropper to the argument. The Harris brothers were sitting in the corner, talking hunting, and hadn’t heard much. She shifted away from her father, and tried to smile.

“Do you have anything for me to do?” Nicky asked Gerald, her tone conciliatory and faintly hopeful. He caught on quickly.

“As a matter of fact, we’ve got about ten letters to get out this morning,” Gerald replied. He smiled vaguely at the three men. “If you’ll excuse us …”

“Is he your partner?” Dominic asked Nicky, frowning.

“He’s my boss,” she replied coolly. “I’m his secretary.”

Her father stiffened. “You’re joking, of course,” he said curtly. “No White has worked for a living for three generations—”

“Until now,” Nicky interrupted with a mocking smile. “Some of us like the real world better than the artificial life of upper-crust luxury. You ought to try it. It has a humbling effect on a haughty spirit.”

“You should know,” Dominic countered coldly. “You were a haughty enough child.”

“Living in a combat zone does have that effect on children.” She turned and left the room.

“So he’s your father,” Gerald murmured when they were in the study with the door closed. “He wasn’t originally supposed to be included in this group. He invited himself along with the Harris brothers at the last minute. Odd that Winthrop didn’t connect you with Dominic White, since you were from Kentucky, too.”

“He did,” she said reluctantly, averting her eyes. “But I lied to him. I told him that White is a common name. I imagine I’m about the most unpopular person in Winthrop’s acquaintance right now, especially after what my father just said about me. And it’s not true.”

“You don’t have to defend yourself to me,” he
replied gently. “Your father strikes me as a vindictive man.”

“You don’t know the half of it,” she replied. “He’s used to cutting people’s throats. That’s how he got so rich.”

“Well, he can’t be all bad,” he said after a minute. “He’s not,” she said pleasantly.

“He likes his horses, and once I saw him feed a hungry dog. He just doesn’t like me. He never wanted children.” That was true enough, but she’d always thought that her mother wanted her. She was still puzzling over what her father had said.

Gerald didn’t press further. Instead he chose a different tack. He pursed his lips, stared at her and asked, “Why didn’t you tell Winthrop the truth?”

“Because I was sure he’d get the wrong idea,” she sighed. “He’d think I was a bored heiress out for a good time. Ironically, that’s probably exactly what he thinks now, thanks to my father and his big mouth. I must sound like the world’s most experienced spendthrift and a gold digger as well.”

“You don’t like him, do you?”

“My father, you mean?” Her green eyes gleamed. “I do not. I’m sure he has some good points somewhere, but I’ve never found them.”

He searched her face quietly. But he didn’t say another word. He pulled up a chair and sat down behind the desk. After a minute, he began to dictate.

Nicky spent the rest of the day trying to avoid
the other guests, and the snow continued to fall. Mary never said a word about the extra people to look after. She just kept cooking, imperturbable even when Carol dashed into the kitchen and asked in all innocence if there was a boutique anywhere close by because she wanted to shop for a new fur.

Nicky had to bite her tongue to keep from asking if the girl knew that in these parts, a mink set consisted of a trap and a skinning knife.

But to Nicky’s irritation and her father’s frank anger, Winthrop seemed to enjoy Carol’s company.

“Maybe she forgot who she came with,” Nicky muttered to Mary late that day as she helped the older woman set the long dining table.