Read My Heart Laid Bare Online
Authors: Joyce Carol Oates
The race is half run, the race is three-quarters run, chestnut-red Xalapa in the lead, Glengarry a half length behind, then silky black Midnight Sun, long-legged deep-chested Midnight Sun, the white bandages on his legs flying . . . now past the starting post, now past the cheering spectators in the grandstand, Midnight Sun with a warhorse's powerful stride . . . and then, suddenly, is it possible? . . . suddenly it seems that Xalapa has stumbled . . . yet keeps running . . . momentum keeps him running though he is clearly injured . . . while Glengarry pounds past, Midnight Sun pounds past, Parmelee hunched low over his neck, whip and spurs in use, Parmelee making his move, looping wide on the outside to avoid the falling Xalapa; to pass Glengarry, to break in a wild burst of speed away from Glengarry, to cross the finish line in the first position by a length and a half.
Midnight Sun, Glengarry, Sweet Thing . . .
(STONE STREET, IN
the home stretch, weaves drunkenly into Meteor's path, the two horses collide, Shep Tatlockâdrugged, drunk, sick?âto be banned from the turf for the rest of his lifeâtumbles from the saddle onto the track and lies insensible.
And what of the chestnut-red beauty Xalapa?âthe crowd stands silent, stunned, as an announcement is made that he snapped his left foreleg above the ankle; as the horse ambulance picks him up from the track, to take him around to the dump behind the stables, where, in as brief a time as it takes to record the melancholy fact, he is destroyedâby a single bullet between the eyes.)
We have won! We have won! We have won!
Where so many thousands of persons are dazed with sorrow, it is unseemly to show rapturous delight; where sentiment runs so powerfully in one direction, only the ill-bred would gloat.
Being extremely well-bred, therefore, Edgar Warwick and his sister Seraphina keep their gleeful smiles to themselves; but cannot help tugging like children at Washburn Frelicht's arm, and whispering again and again, and yet againâ
Why, we have won!
Frelicht smiles his composed smile, Frelicht dabs lightly at his forehead with a fresh handkerchief, Frelicht says quietly:
Of course.
The talk for weeks, for months, will be of Midnight Sun and that wild, wild ride.
The talk will be of the beautiful Xalapa who (it was afterward reported) had had a hairline crack in his left forefoot, detected but not taken seriously by his owner.
The talk will be of the disgraced Shep Tatlock, thirty-two years old, banned from American racing for life: drunk on the track (it was charged against him), or drugged (as he himself claimed) against his knowledge.
And the talkâfor months, for yearsâwill be of the mysterious gambler “A. Washburn Frelicht” who won for himself and his clients a record
$400,000 on 11 May 1909; and then, on the very night of the Derby victory, while celebrating in a private dining room in the Chautauqua Arms . . .
The robber was a young black man.
The robber was a young black man wearing a black domino mask and carrying a long-barreled pistol.
The robber entered the room silently by way of a balcony and French doors opened to the night air.
A sudden leap and there he was, a few yards from the table where Frelicht and the Warwicks were seated . . . slightly bent at the knees, dark skin exuding moisture, eyes showing rims of white inside the black mask:
Gentlemen and lady, thank you please, you will remain where you are please, you, lady, and you, sirs, your money please, thank you for your kindness please:
a low soft mocking voice, an accent suggestive of the West Indies:
Only do not distress me, gentlemen and dear lady!
A slender young black man, pistol raised calmly aloft, aimed at Dr. Frelicht's chest. He knew precisely why he had come, knew what the sweet-scented rosewood box contained, betrayed no agitation, managed an insolent smile, a flash of gold in his left incisor,
Thank you gentlemen and lady for your cooperation!
Black domino mask, a wide-brimmed straw hat with a red polka-dot band, creamy white blazer and trousers, white starched shirt, red and white striped tie, was there ever such a
colored boy
in all of the Chautauqua Valley? A dapper little moustache riding his pert upper lip (as Edgar Warwick afterward recalled), a thin twisting scar in his right cheek, the mark of the Devil (as Seraphina Warwick Dove recalled), the terrible weapon held unwavering in his hand, pointed at Dr. Frelicht's heaving chest.
Now quiet! Now no alarm! Gentlemen and ladyâyou have my warning!
Not five minutes before Frelicht had led the others in a toast, victory champagne, glasses held high over Seraphina's rosewood
boxâ“âThou visible god!'” Frelicht intoned in a luxuriant baritoneâand now the black man in the dazzling creamy white clothes was aiming death at his heart,
his
poor pounding heart, and where were the words, where the breath, to protest?
You sir,
the robber said to Frelicht, hunching his slender shoulders in a sudden childish spasm of pleasureâ
you, sir, are not to arouse my ire!âbut will please obey!
Frelicht tried to speak but could not: his lips, drained of blood, were suddenly flaccid.
Edgar E. Warwick tried to speak but could not: a wave of sheer animal panic rose from his bowels, and he knew he was to die.
Poor Seraphina, more agitated than she'd been at the deathbed of Mr. Dove, tried to speak but could not: her words of angry protest broken into mere sounds, stammers, breathy sobs, for here was a young black man
not a servant,
not one who must obey her but one
whom she must obey.
To be robbed by a mere nigger of their prizeâ!
Yet it was to be, as if ordained by the Heavens: an outrageous black man in a domino mask and cocky straw hat, $400,000 in bills deftly transferred by chocolate-brown fingers into a smart crocodile-hide suitcase as the cowering victims stared . . . the victims and three other witnesses, belonging to the hotel staff: two waiters (black) and a wine steward (of French origin, but white), none of whom dared offer resistance.
The miraculous moneyâthe highest recorded winnings in Chautauqua's historyâin bundles of $100 primarily though there were also some $500 and $50 billsâstolen away by an outlaw's hand, 11 May 1909, 9:25
P.M.
in the Crystal Room of the grand old Chautauqua Arms, the victims surprised in the midst of a victory feast (oysters on the half shell, pheasant
au vin
, truffles, French champagne), Edgar E. Warwick, sixty, lifetime resident of Chautauqua Falls, Mrs. Seraphina Warwick Dove, fifty-eight, lifetime resident of Chautauqua Falls, A. Washburn Frelicht, Ph.D., age given as forty-eight, various addresses offered to police (most recently, Mrs. Dove's residence),
Thank you gentlemen and lady, you are indeed
wise to save your lives,
insolent dazzling-white smile, soft mocking melodious voice, bright dark gaze showing a rim of white inside the tight-fitting mask.
Now you will please to keep your places, not to stir for many minutes!ânot to summon aid!ânot to dare!ânot to arouse my ire!ânot to follow after!ânot to be the temptation, to make of me, who has never yet spilled a drop of blood, a murderer!
This speech so froze the company, all stared at the robber as if turned to stone, as he, agile as a dancer, assured as one who has had a long apprenticeship on the stage, turned, and with a final (taunting? playful?) sighting of his long-barreled pistol at Washburn Frelicht's chest,
leapt into the very night outside the window and disappeared.
SERAPHINA FAINTED, FELL
heavily forward into her melted crimson sorbet, Edgar E. tried to rise from his chair but lacked the strength, ashen-faced Dr. Frelicht, of whom more might have been expected, merely
sat
âlike a suddenly aged, broken manâhis “good” eye glassy in disbeliefâstaring after the unknown agent who had made off with his Zodiac prize, the culmination of his astrological speculations as, witnesses afterward surmised, it was perhaps the culmination of his lifeâstaring at the empty window, the flung-open French doors, as if, poor fool! poor coward! he hoped for Fate to reverse itself, and his hard-won money to be returned, by the very agent who had carried it off into the night.
Now it is all history, the improbable no less than the probable.
Little Shep Tatlock maintained to the day of his death (soon, in 1914) that he was “poisoned” on the morning of the Derby.
Xalapa's beautiful corpse was shipped to his grieving owner's farm in Aylesbury, Pennsylvania, where it was interred with great ceremony, including a five-gun salute.
Midnight Sun, to earn a fair amount of money for his controversial
owner, was never again to run quite so
spirited
a race; nor would his rider Parmelee enjoy so spectacular a victory.
The Warwicks, Edgar E. and Seraphina, publicly humiliated by their Lutheran God, as punishment (so Seraphina believed, stricken with repentance) for gambling, withdrew abruptly from social intercourse. And the “astrological sportsman” A. Washburn Frelicht, a broken man, a disappointment to all the ladies, disappeared from Chautauqua Falls within a day or two, after having given testimony to police, never to be glimpsed again in American racing circles.
What of the “Black Phantom”âas he was dubbed by excitable journalists, particularly execrated in Mr. William Randolph Hearst's papers as a “Negro Devil”? This amazing figure apparently disappeared as well, despite enormous publicity, police efforts ranging over five states, and the vigilance of all.
And the $400,000 was never returned to its rightful owners.
I
t was eight days after the shock of Mr. Stirling's death, when the house at Greenley Square was still steeped in grief, that the girl in the worn black velveteen cloak came to the front doorâknocking so faintly with her small gloved fist (did the poor child know nothing of doorbells, or of the use of the wrought-iron American eagle knocker?) that the downstairs maid
failed to hear her for several minutes. And what a wild gusty May morning it was, the air so agitated, the sunshine so chill, the season might well have been late winter, and not spring . . . .
Who was she? Yet another mourner, arriving belatedly? (For the elaborate wake, the yet more elaborate funeral services and burial, the several crowded days of visitors, were just past.) Or had she nothing to do with Mr. Stirling's passing at all? And why, being so young, surely no more than seventeen, was she alone, unaccompanied, in a city the size of Contracoeur? Strange, too, how long she hesitated before finally, and rather timorously, unlatching the front gate, to proceed up the brick walk to the front door; her face all but hidden by her loose-fitting hood, as if she feared someone might be watching her, and dreaded being known.
As it happened, by chance someone was watching her from an upstairs window: nineteen-year-old Warren Stirling, the deceased man's younger, romantically inclined son, who, exhausted and sluggish with grief, had fallen into the habit of staring down into the square for long minutes at a time; watching hackney cabs, motorcars and pedestrians pass by in a sporadic, monotonous stream, his thoughts, too, wayward, melancholy, tinged with the anger of loss, passing in a monotonous and ungovernable stream. Why could he not think of his father but only, obsessively, of Death? And why, trying to envision his father, whom he had respected and loved, could he recall only the shock of that ghastly wax-faced corpse, that mimicry of a living man in its false slumber amid white satin cushions and smothering banks of dead-white lilies? The wake; the funeral; the burial in the cemetery; so many mourners; so many tear-streaked faces; embraces, handshakes, faltering words of commiserationâ! And now, these days of mourning: each hour capricious in its emotions, each hour perilous, for sometimes Warren Stirling contained his grief like a mature young man, and sometimes he succumbed to it weak as a child. Why had God struck his father down? Why so suddenly, so cruelly? At only fifty-two years of age, seemingly in good health; happy in his family, in his work, and
in his religion. Mr. Stirling had been an uncommonly good man, loved and admired by many; yet, stricken by a heart attack, he'd died before Warren had arrived home from Williams College, summoned by his mother; this abruptness seemed to Warren God's most wanton cruelty.
“Before, even, I could say good-bye to Father!”âWarren spoke aloud, in an anguished young voice. “I cannot forgive Godâthough I know I must.”
Away at college in Williamstown, Massachusetts, Warren had fallen under the spell of certain freethinkers and Darwinists among his professors, and had been reading, of his own, such disruptive influences as Thomas Huxley, Walter Pater, Samuel Butler and the sickly versifier Algernon Charles Swinburne; he'd been morbidly excited by Thomas Hardy's
Tess of the D'Urbervilles
, and yet more by
Jude the Obscure
; instead of taking exercise in the open air, he spent days sequestered in his room, brooding at the window, contemplating the cobbled street and the little park beyond, where, in his childhood long ago, he'd run in innocent delight under the watchful eye of his nursemaid. “May God strike me dead,” Warren brashly declared, “if ever again I am so unthinkingly happy.”
Yet this morning, as if against his will, he felt his interest stirred by the mysterious presence of a young girl in the park. She was no one he recognized; not a governess or a nursemaid (for she had no children with her) or a servant girl (for no servant would be free at ten o'clock of a weekday morning), yet judging by her modest dress and her hesitant manner, and the fact of her being so conspicuously alone, clearly not a young lady of his own social class. For some ten or fifteen minutes she walked slowly along the paths, steeling herself against the chill wind and glancing, shyly it seemed, in the direction of the Stirlings' house. Did she intend to cross the street, to ring the door? Warren found himself pressed close against the windowpane, watching. Though he had but a glancing notion of women's fashions he suspected that the girl's long hooded cloak was no longer in style; moreover, it fitted her rather gracelessly, the hem trailing along the
ground. The hand-me-down costume of a country girl, perhaps, charming in its own way, but out of place in Greenley Square. As the girl's shy manner seemed out of place, quaint and old-fashioned. At last, she made up her mind to cross the street. Warren, excited, drew back from the window to avoid her glancing up and seeing him. His impression of her was that she was very young; very pretty; very frightened. Like one stepping to the edge of a precipice. In the ill-fitting velveteen cloak, the hood lifting in the wind, she reminded him painfully of one of his father's favorite paintings: an oil by an eighteenth-century Scots artist that hung in his grandparents' drawing room called “The Lass of Aviemore,” which depicted a tempestuous sky, a rocky wooded landscape, and in the foreground, in a voluminous ink-black cape, a slender young girl standing with eyes uplifted and hands clasped in passionate prayer. Exceedingly pale, even ethereal, the girl had an innocent, angelic beauty; the artist had given her eyes an unearthly glisten, and her cheeks a light feverish touch; the velvet hood had slipped from her head so that pale blond tresses streamed in the wind. In the near distance was a gray stone cross. What was the tale “The Lass of Aviemore” meant to tell?âan old legend, a ballad, a Highland tragedy?
No one among the family, even Mr. Stirling, an amateur collector of Scots artifacts, had seemed to know.
Mina Raumlicht?
âfrom the village of
Innisfail
?
She was clearly a country girl, intimidated by the elegance of the Stirlings' houseâso the downstairs parlor maid took her measure at once, reasoning that, with this visitor, she need hardly be courteous.
Asking for Mr. Stirling!
In that frightened child-voice!
Since Miss Raumlicht, as she called herself, knew nothing of the master's death, she could not be anyone of significance; no relative or acquaintance of the Stirlings'; no former employee; no one to be taken
seriously. So the maid informed her brusquely that it was not possible, no she could not see Mr. Stirling; nor could she see any other member of the household at the present time, for they were all “indisposed.” But she might leave a calling card for Mrs. Stirling, if she wished. Or, she might write and post a letter . . . .
The girl who called herself Mina Raumlicht shrank slightly backward at the unwelcoming tone of the maid's voice, yet placed herself, with childlike stubbornness, in front of the door. Her eyelids fluttered with daring, her lips trembled, yet she insisted she must see Mr. Stirling, Mr. Maynard Stirling, for it was a matter of the gravest urgency, and she had come a long distance.
A long distance?âfrom Innisfail? The parlor maid's voice was edged with scorn. For Innisfail, a tiny settlement in the foothills of the Chautauqua Mountain range, could not have been more than twelve miles west of Contracoeur.
The girl's eyes brimmed with tears. She had grown breathless; agitated; like one who has steeled herself for a grand, brash exertion requiring all her strength and courageâand cannot now retreat. She asked again if she might see Mr. Stirling and was told again, curtly, no she might not. Wringing her hands, she asked if “Maynard was at his place of work”âthe expression quaintly renderedâand was told, in a harsher tone, that, no, he was not. Was he then traveling?âfor she knew (she murmured faintly, with downcast eyes) that he traveled a good dealâbut was told, emphatically, noâ“Master is
not traveling.
”
Then might she leave him a message?âfor him alone?
By this time, the girl in the black velveteen cloak was nearly sobbing in desperation, and the parlor maid hesitated, worrying that she might have gone too farâbeen too bold; though “Mina Raumlicht” of “Innisfail” could be a creature of no importance, a shopgirl or a servant girl at best, and could not get her into trouble with the Stirlings. Yet, making up her mind, with the imperviousness of an older sister sweeping away the claims of a
younger, she moved forward as if to force the girl outside onto the stoop, saying, no she
might not
leave the master a message, for it was not allowed.
“Notâallowed?” Miss Raumlicht whispered. “But how can that be?”
“Not
allowed
, miss.”
But, so strangely, the girl surrendered not an inch; refused to budge from her position in front of the door; turned her delicate, childlike face at a defiant angle, and said in a whisper, words which so utterly shocked the other young woman she would recall them through her life: “You lie. You lie, and you know it;
and I shall tell Maynard how rudely you have treated me.
”
At this the haughty parlor maid suddenly lost her composure, recognizing that, perhaps, this girl was not a younger sister of hers, after all; but someone who might be important; one not to be trifled with, despite her youth; she relented, saying that Miss Raumlicht might come inside and take a seat in the drawing room, and she would, she said, see if the mistress of the house might speak with her.
“But it is the master with whom I wish to speak . . . .” the girl said in a softer voice.
Surely it was an error. A miscopying in a document. Attributable to a clerk, or a secretary, or one of the junior attorneys, that he, Maynard Stirling, shouldâ
die
?
Though the firm of Stirling, Stirling & Pedrick dealt daily in the anticipation of, the fact of, and the consequences of death among their clients, and though Maynard Stirling had years ago drawn up his will, as a responsible head of a household and a professional man of some accomplishment, it had never been very real to him except as a theoretical proposition:
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.
But was that not mere metaphor, a poet's turn of phrase?
And to “die” at such an ordinary, inauspicious, and inglorious moment: on a weekday morning, in the midst of the devising of a codicil of tedious complexity, in the eleventh month of contract negotiations in which
Stirling, Stirling & Pedrick (representing a Chautauqua manufacturer of enormous wealth, one of the founders of the National Association of Manufacturers) were locking horns with their old rivals Bagot, Bushy & Greene (representing downstate copper-mining interests); in the midst of uttering a single choked Latin termâwas it
pro tempore?
âit became the essence of his life to articulate, as if, in the midst of an attack of angina pectoris that threw him forward onto the conference table, and was to kill him within a few hours, he might yet save himself, save all of the universe, by successfully uttering
pro tempore.
But he failed. Ignobly, choking and writhing in agony, he failed. Exactly as if he, Maynard Stirling, were not one of the most prominent attorneys in upstate New York.
What was Mr. Stirling trying to say, so desperately?
A message to his family, I think.
No, surely it was a prayer. A prayer to God, to save his soul.
At the time of his sudden death Maynard Stirling presented a striking figure to the world: solidly built yet not portly; with a solid moon of a head about which his hair, faded to a silvery hue, seemed to float; close-set, hooded eyes both kindly and shrewd. He was one of those gentlemen in whom life throbbed quick and urgent in his breast, for he knew, and had always known, who he was; and the nature of his mission on earth, as a devout Christian (he was a deacon in the First Presbyterian Church of Contracoeur), and a member of the hallowed legal profession (like his father and grandfather before him). He was an ardent Republican who yet believed, with ex-president Teddy Roosevelt, that the alarming spread of Socialism at the present time was the result of the “purblind folly of the very rich”; though, in general, Mr. Stirling was obliged to represent the rich, and to profit from his association, he did not shrink from voicing certain moderate views . . . of course condemning Socialism as the enemy, if it came to outright war. Above all he was a devoted husband and father, a loyal friend, a man of impeccable good manners and probity and God
had always seemed to favor him and . . . surely it must be an error, that he should die? stricken in the midst of a mere codicil? and in the very prime of his life, in his fifty-third year?
A life of matchless integrity. Yet there was to be, kept secret by his family, something distressing . . . mysterious . . . a hint of . . . what, precisely? . . . which came, not exactly to light, then to a sort of miasmic glimmer on the very morning of Mr. Stirling's funeral, delivered by the postman amid a stack of condolence cards:
       Â
M
r
STIRLING
please do not be angry again with yr. Mina that she has disobeyed one of yr. comandsâbut I am so fearfull of late I am
SO FEARFUL
of a change in me I dare not reveal to my Aunt &
MUST SPEAK WITH YOU SOON.
O
PLEASE
do not be angry at my weakness for I am scarcely myself of late &
KNOW NOT WHO
I
AM SO
craven in fear.
Y
r
adoring Mina
This brief message was written in midnight-blue ink in a large looping childlike hand, on a plain sheet of white stationery, the envelope postmarked “Innisfail, N.Y.”âa country village on the Nautauga River a short distance west of Contracoeur. But who was “Mina,” let alone “Y
r
adoring MinaӉ?