Never Kiss an Outlaw: Deadly Pistols MC Romance (Outlaw Love) (44 page)

Skin's hand shot out, grabbed my chin, and twisted my face until I couldn't look away. “Look at me, babe. I'm telling you, I am not the fucking enemy. Believe it or not, I'd rather have you work with me to get you home sooner than drop this towel and feel your hot little mouth pulling my cock across your tongue.”

Instant tremors. His words melted me from the bottom up, and my thighs pinched together, trying to stem the torrid wet heat. The asshole knew my pussy ached for him – and he was getting off on it, teasing me like no tomorrow, acting like I was the one making this so damned difficult.

Bastard! I still hated him, but the truth was undeniable – I wanted him so much it brought me to my knees.

I twisted my head, jerking away from him. Then I stood up and pushed past him, heading for the other side of the room, before he could give me more crap.

“What the fuck?” he smiled knowingly when our eyes met again. “What's the deal, baby? We're just having a little heart-to-heart. I'm trying to lay it all out there, be straight with you.”

“You're a pig,” I snapped, shooting my eyes away so they wouldn't betray me for the thousandth time. “I don't understand what kind of sick game you're playing, Skin, but I want none of it. I just want to go home. Seriously. Give me another day. I'll have something for you, and then I'll be out of your hair forever.”

The thin smile on his lips faded. His huge arms shot up and he folded them across the skull with the smoking pistols tattooed on his superhuman chest, leaving me one last glimpse of those hills and valleys he called a torso, a rugged landscape carved by testosterone and violence.

“Yeah, you're damned right you will. You think I wanna put up with this shit for even another week, you're flat out wrong. I'll hit the floor tonight. Don't worry about me. I'm gonna give you all the space you need to think hard and get this shit done.”

He flipped the light out in the room on his way back into the bathroom, slamming the door shut. I slid into bed, cold and tired and so frustrated I could barely think.

I'd never known sexual frustration until now. Before Ricky, I'd gotten practically any boy I'd wanted, my pick, anytime. With the pimp, I hadn't had a choice who he forced on me.

Thank God for the icy raindrops spattering down on the roof over us. They gave me something outside this shoebox room to focus on, a chance to cool the fire in my body, and I let their soothing tempo carry me to sleep.

* * * *

I
woke up in the blackness shaking and crying. Skin's huge body was already pressed against mine, his chin on my bare shoulder, whispering in my ear.

“What? What the fuck is it? You'd better start talking to me, babe.”

He sounded so soft, so concerned. It took me a minute to realize he'd kept his word, and my body wasn't responding to the surprise of him crawling into bed.

The nightmare came rushing back. I'd been dreaming about Ricky, all the times the pimp stepped into my room, unbuckling his belt, cornering me with that hideous gleam in his eye.

I twisted in Skin's arms, loving his masculine heat, his scent, the strength he enveloped me in. His rough hands reached up and brushed away several tears staining the pillow underneath my head before I could speak.

“What is it? Don't say a stomach ache. If those motherfuckers gave you food poisoning, I swear to Christ I'll ride back there right now and knock their fucking teeth out.” I wanted to laugh at the rough, determined edge in his voice.

Jesus, no. If only it were that simple,
I thought, letting my mind see it all again in crystal clarity.

“It's just a nightmare,” I said softly. “Who the hell knows. I'm probably processing the trauma of all this. I can't forget about Ricky. It's not the way he slapped me around or the men he forced me to take...it's the times he used me.”

For a second, Skin's eyes lit up in the darkness. First horror, then nothing but stone cold rage.

“Bullshit. I thought he was saving you for a buyer?” The biker's hold around me tightened.

“Oh, he saved the most important part of me, sure. But he still took privileges.” I swallowed the painful lump in my throat, wondering if I could really tell him the rest without crying. “He'd come to me every week or two, usually at night. Whenever he wanted to, really. He'd hit me awake – sometimes with his hand, other times his belt. He'd force me to get on my knees, pull down his pants, and do everything I did to those truckers for money.”

I suppressed another sob, licked my lips, trying to see him in the darkness. His eyes said it all, even though his face remained the same killer, unchanging mask. I opened my mouth to tell him the rest, wondering if I was really helping myself or just worsening the pain, but his finger pushed down the center of my lips.

He held it there, hard and silent, squeezing me as I trembled in the darkness.

“Don't say anymore, Meg. I'm not a damned fool. You're brave to tell me, but I also know talk is cheap. It won't do shit to help you feel better.”

I blinked in surprise, feeling another tear streak down my cheek. That wasn't the response I expected – especially when he was so right it hurt.

“He's a dead man, babe. Leave it to me. I'll wipe that brutal little pissant off the face of this fucking earth. I promise.”

“Skin, no!” I pushed my head away so I could talk, shaking my head, spilling more tears. “You've already risked so much. Whatever else you've done to keep me safe, I recognize that. Don't put yourself in danger for me again.
Please.
”

I looked into his mad eyes while I begged him. It hurt to do it, but his gaze pulled me in the same way it always did.

Commanding. Unbreakable. Safe.

“I have to do this, and you're not stopping me. Neither will the club. I'll do it by myself. I'll catch him alone, babe, I've done this sorta shit more times than I want to tell you. He's not like the Deads. He's a weak, cowardly little shit. He'll fold the second he sees me coming.” He paused, baring his teeth in the shadows, more fearsome and perfect than any biker's feral grin should be. “And if he doesn't, well fuck, that's even more fun for me. I'll make him pay for every last thing he's done to you. You can't heal 'til you know he's been evicted from this goddamned planet.”

“Skin...” I wanted to plead with him, beg him not to dig our hole even deeper, but I knew it would be futile.

He proved it a second later when he jerked my head into his chest. I cried and shook and breathed his wonderful scent for what felt like hours. He held me close, rocking me like a scared child against his chest.

Why did I find such comfort when I had my face right up against the barbaric tattoos on his skin?

If the question had an answer, I wasn't going to find out tonight. By the time I knew what happened, I slipped into a deep, dark sleep.

Mercifully quiet, because this time I wasn't alone. When I opened my eyes the next morning, Skin was still there, awake and staring out through the tiny blinds covering his little slit of a window.

“Jesus,” I whispered, sitting up when I saw the fury in his eyes in the full morning light. “Don't tell me you've been awake all night thinking about everything I said. You don't need to do anything, Skin. I just cracked last night, said too much. Can't we forget it?”

“Come on, babe. You already know the answer.” A smirk twisted his dangerously kissable lips. “Let me get you some breakfast. Then I'll let you shower and get to work on the ransom plan, while I handle business.”

He slid out of bed and began to dress, throwing on a clean shirt and his cut. I watched him the entire time, feeling my heart slip into my stomach, pulsing black, guilty blood.

“Don't do this. Please don't. I know I've given you a hard time because I'm all screwed up, but Skin, if I lost you –“

A wave of his hand cut me off. “Unless the next words out of your mouth have to do with how you're gonna convince your folks to get us the money, I don't wanna hear it. Mind's made up, babe, and nobody changes it once I've decided.”

“Skin!” I jumped up and called out to him one more time before he adjusted the leather vest on his shoulders, and then marched out, locking the door behind him in one brutal twist.

He was gone. And unfortunately, the beautiful bastard was right again.

I had to accept whatever he was up to, even though it meant suffering alone all day worrying about him.

* * * *

B
y the time the sun set and I had to switch the lamp on, I couldn't take it. I'd done nothing since he dropped off coffee and a sandwich this morning, without so much as a goodbye.

The paper sat gloriously empty, except for several lines I'd scribbled about how to save him. How ironic that he'd gotten me to care more about pulling his stupid butt out of the fire than my own.

I couldn't shake the exhaustion. The last few days had absolutely fried my brain.

I'd been too open with Skin last night. I never should've let my guard down. Never should've tempted him to bring more trouble down by wiping out Ricky.

Once he had his target, he was like an angry pitbull. There wasn't any holding back. He'd left for his destiny, and there was nothing I could do.

Nothing besides cloister myself in the corner and wait, praying the pimp wouldn't get to him first.

Another hour slipped by. Then two more. Panic crept in.

What the hell is happening out there?
I wondered, biting my lip.

I wanted to do something. My hands and feet burned. They begged me to run to the door, pound on it and scream until somebody opened up, and tell them everything about what Skin was about to do.

But if his brothers weren't in on the scheme, then I'd only be giving him more grief, possibly putting him in greater danger.

I still didn't know anything about this MC. From what I could see, they barely tolerated me. The brothers gave Skin just enough space to watch over me as their personal cash cow.

Whatever, at least they hadn't demanded
other
favors. I shook my head sadly, wondering if I'd ever be able to think normally about any strange man again after what I'd been through.

Ricky fucked me up. Ricky, the Johns, and his nasty friends in the Deadhands, brutes who wouldn't think twice about using my mouth, or choking me until I complied with the next set of tricks they wanted me to turn.

I remembered Big Vic's vile cock in my mouth and cringed. He liked choking me, making me worry that he'd squeeze his fingers around my throat just a little bit tighter while he fucked me deep, filled my entire mouth with every evil inch of him.

He always laughed when I tore his floppy dick out of my mouth too, after he'd finished. I'd be on the ground, gasping for air, trying desperately not to panic. He'd roll off his condom slowly, making me worry he'd dump his waste all over me before he left.

You're a lucky bitch,
he always said.
Goddamned lucky we like working with this pimp. One of these days, we just might decide to haul you back to the Carolinas to work for us instead, baby girl. Then you can suck this shit down your throat 'til you fuckin' drown.

“No.” I covered my eyes, mumbling, pushing away the bitter memory.

They couldn't hurt me anymore, whatever happened to Skin. Oh, God, what if something really did happen to him out there!?

He was the only man who'd been remotely kind to me in ages. And I wasn't even sure that was accurate. My brain was too screwed up to think.

I wanted somebody to slap me across the face, shake me, sort the rights from the wrongs. My own judgment was shot, destroyed forever by the deranged madman who'd had me for six months, the bastard I still couldn't hide from in my dreams.

Clenching my fists, I tried to breathe deep, anything to slow my shaking heart. I was getting worked up to the verge of tears when I heard the lock jingle.

My heartbeat thudded ten times faster when Skin ripped the door open and slammed it shut behind him, another bag from the taco place in hand, and something else. His phone?

“Oh my God,” I whispered softly to him, standing up. “Are you okay? What happened?”

He didn't say anything at first. The biker with the savage scar on his beautiful face approached me like a lion, reserving his pride, stopping only to set the food on the table and lift up his phone.

“Skin? Skin?” I said his name a couple more times, studying him for telltale signs of blood, dirt, injuries – anything that might give me a clue what happened while he was out all day. “Talk to me!”

“Just shut your mouth and watch,” he growled, pushing the phone into my hands.

A video started to play. I saw Skin's unmistakably huge hand gripped around a handgun. A man was down on the ground in front of him, looking miserable and dejected. It only took me a second to recognize Ricky's long, greasy locks. The pimp crouched on his knees, shaking, dead silent except for some distant fluttering birds off in the forest surrounding them.

“Don't do this, don't do this, please don't fucking do this – for the love of God!” The pimp sounded terrified.

Adrenaline shot through my chest. I watched as Skin brought the hand with his gun violently across the back of his head, knocking him to the ground. The camera shook, lost its frame, and came back about ten seconds later.

“Stop begging and die like a man, asshole,” the biker snarled. “I'll bet she begged for mercy too. Of course she did, her and how many others? You reap what you sow, motherfucker, and now it's your turn to pay in blood, in pain, in your worthless life.”

The pimp's face was in front of the camera now. He had hot, angry tears in his eyes, bruises all over his face. I gasped, completely blown away by seeing my old tormentor so beaten.

“You're gonna regret this, Skin. The Deads know all about the guys you killed. They'll come looking for me too, and when they find out what you did, they'll fuck up every last cowardly little shit in your club. The Pistols won't even fucking exist in a month's time – just wait!” His lips trembled and he drew a long, agonizing breath. “Just wait, Skin. You know I'm talking sense. It's not too late to throttle back, save your own ass instead of putting it on the line for that mangy, stupid, miserable little cunt. Christ, I should've fucked her and buried her in the brush a long time ago.”