Never Look Away

Never Look Away (2010)

Barclay, Linwood

SUMMARY:
Linwood Barclay is back with more unexpected twists and superb characters in a spine-tingling, mesmerizing thriller about a husband whose wife disappears, along with everything he thought he knew about their life together. David Harwood, a reporter in Promise Falls, New York, is stressed out. The newspaper he works for is outsourcing jobs to India, he can't get a solid lead on the corrupt for-profit prison moving to town, and his wife, Jan, is struggling with a bout of depression. As a much-needed break, David and Jan decide to take their four-year-old son, Ethan, to a local amusement park for a day of ice cream, rollercoasters, and carefree fun. But revelry is quickly replaced by panic when, within an hour of arriving at the park, Ethan goes missing. Though he is soon found, panic escalates to full-blown terror when Jan suddenly disappears. Confused and worried, David finds himself desperately searching for any clue that could lead him to his wife even if it means unraveling a tangle of lies and deception that become more complicated at every turn.

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For Neetha

"He's really out of it."

"Look for a key."

"I told you, I've been through his pockets. There's no goddamn handcuff key."

"What about the combination? Maybe he wrote it down somewhere, put it in his wallet or something."

"What, you think he's a moron? He's going to write down the combination and keep it on him?"

"So cut the chain. We take the case, we figure out how to open it later."

"It looks way stronger than I thought. It'll take me an hour to cut through."

"You can't get the cuff over his hand?"

"How many times do I have to tell you? I'm gonna have to cut it off."

"I thought you said it would take forever to cut the cuff."

"I'm not talking about the cuff."

Prologue

"I'm scared," Ethan said.

"There's nothing to be scared about," I said, turning away from the steering wheel and reaching an arm back to free him from the kiddie seat. I reached under the pad where he'd been resting his arms and undid the buckle.

"I don't want to go on them," he said. The tops of the five roller coasters and a Ferris Wheel could be seen well beyond the park entrance, looming like tubular hills.

"We're not going on them," I reminded him for the umpteenth time. I was starting to wonder whether this excursion was such a good plan. The night before, after Jan and I had returned from our drive up to Lake George and I'd picked Ethan up at my parents' place, he'd had a hard time settling down. He'd been, by turns, excited about coming here, and worried the roller coaster would derail at the highest point. After I'd tucked him in, I slipped under the covers next to Jan and considered discussing whether Ethan was really ready for a day at Five Mountains.

But she was asleep, or at least pretending to be, so I let it go.

But in the morning, Ethan was only excited about the trip. No roller-coaster nightmares. At breakfast he was full of questions about how they worked, why they didn't have an engine at the front, like a train. How could it get up the hills without an engine?

It was only once we'd pulled into the nearly full parking lot shortly after eleven that his apprehensions resurfaced.

"We're just going on the smaller rides, the merry-go-rounds, the kind you like," I said to him. "They won't even let you go on the big ones. You're only four years old. You have to be eight or nine. You have to be this high." I held my hand a good four feet above the parking lot asphalt.

Ethan studied my hand warily, unconvinced. I don't think it was just the idea of being on one of the monstrous coasters that scared him. Even being near them, hearing their clattering roar, was frightening enough.

"It'll be okay," I said. "I'm not going to let anything happen to you."

Ethan looked me in the eye, decided I was deserving of his trust, and allowed me to lift the padded arm up and over his head. He worked his way out of the straps, which mussed up his fine blond hair as they squeezed past his head. I got my hands under his arms, getting ready to lift, but he squirmed free, said, "I can do it," then slithered down to the car floor and stepped out the open door.

Jan was around back, taking the stroller out of the trunk of the Accord, setting it up. Ethan attempted to get in before it had been locked into the open position.

"Whoa," Jan said.

Ethan hesitated, waited until he'd heard the definitive click, then plopped himself into the seat. Jan leaned over into the trunk again.

"Let me grab something," I said, reaching for a backpack.

Jan was opening a small canvas bag next to it that was actually a soft-sided cooler. Inside were a small ice pack and half a dozen juice boxes, cellophane-wrapped straws stuck to the sides. She handed me one of the juice boxes and said, "Give that to Ethan."

I took it from Jan as she finished up in the trunk and closed it. She zipped up the cooler bag and tucked it into the basket at the back of the stroller as I peeled the straw off of the sticky juice box. It, or one of the other juices in the cooler, must have sprung a tiny leak. I took the straw from its wrapper and stabbed it into the box.

Handing it to Ethan, I said, "Don't squeeze it. You'll have apple juice all over yourself."

"I know," he said.

Jan reached out and touched my bare arm. It was a warm August Saturday, and we were both in shorts, sleeveless tops, and, considering all the walking we had ahead of us, running shoes. Jan was wearing a long-visored ball cap over her black hair, which she had pulled back into a ponytail and fed through the back of the cap. Oversized shades kept the sun out of her eyes.

"Hey," she said.

"Hey," I said.

She pulled me toward her, behind the stroller, so Ethan couldn't see. "You okay?" she asked.

The question threw me off. I was about to ask her the same thing. "Yeah, sure, I'm good."

"I know things didn't work out the way you'd hoped yesterday."

"No big deal," I said. "Some leads don't pan out. It happens. What about you? You feel better today?"

She nodded so imperceptibly it was only the tipping of the visor that hinted at an answer.

"You sure?" I pressed. "What you said yesterday, that thing about the bridge--"

"Let's not--"

"I thought maybe you were feeling better, but when you told me that--"

She put her index finger on my lips. "I know I've been a lot to live with lately, and I'm sorry about that."

I forced a smile. "Hey, we all go through rough spots. Sometimes there's an obvious reason, sometimes there isn't. You just feel the way you do. It'll pass."

Something flashed in her eyes, like maybe she didn't share my certainty. "I want you to know I appreciate ... your patience," she said. A family looking for a spot drove by in a monster SUV, and Jan turned away from the noise.

"No big deal," I said.

She took a deep, cleansing breath. "We're going to have a good day," she said.

"That's all I want," I said, and allowed myself to be pulled closer. "I still don't think it would hurt, you know, to see someone on a regular basis to--"

Ethan twisted around in the stroller so he could see us. He stopped sucking on the juice box and said, "Let's go!"

"Hold your horses," I said.

He settled back into his seat, bouncing his legs up and down.

Jan leaned in and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek. "Let's show the kid a good time."

"Yeah," I said.

She gave my arm a final squeeze, then gripped the handles of the stroller. "Okay, buster," she said to Ethan. "We're on our way."

Ethan stuck his hands out to the sides, like he was flying. He'd already drained his juice box and handed it to me to toss in a wastebasket. Jan found a moistened towelette for him when he complained about sticky fingers.

We had several hundred yards to get to the main entrance, but we could already see people lined up to buy tickets. Jan, wisely, had bought them online and printed them out a couple of days earlier. I took over stroller duty while she rooted in her purse for them.

We were almost to the gates when Jan stopped dead. "Nuts."

"What?"

"The backpack," she said. "I left it in the car."

"Do we need it?" I asked. It was a long trek back to where we'd parked.

"It's got the peanut butter sandwiches, and the sunscreen." Jan was always careful to goop Ethan up so he didn't get a burn. "I'll run back. You go ahead, I'll catch up to you."

She handed me two slips of paper--one adult ticket and one child--and kept one for herself.

She said, "I think there's an ice-cream place, about a hundred yards in, on the left. We'll meet there?"

Jan was always one to do her research, and must have memorized the online map of Five Mountains in preparation.

"That sounds good," I said. Jan turned and started back for the car at a slow trot.

"Where's Mom going?" Ethan asked.

"Forgot the backpack," I said.

"The sandwiches?" he said.

"Yeah."

He nodded, relieved. We didn't want to be going anywhere without provisions, especially of the sandwich variety.

I handed in my ticket and his, bypassing the line to purchase them, and entered the park. We were greeted with several junk food kiosks and about a dozen stands hawking Five Mountains hats and T-shirts and bumper stickers and brochures. Ethan asked for a hat and I said no.

The two closest roller coasters, which had looked big from the parking lot, were positively Everest-like now. I stopped pushing the stroller and knelt down next to Ethan and pointed. He looked up, watched a string of cars slowly climb the first hill, then plummet at high speed, the passengers screaming and waving their hands in the air.

He stared, eyes wide with wonder and fear. He reached for my hand and squeezed. "I don't like that," he said. "I want to go home."

"I told you, sport, don't worry. The rides we're going on are on the other side of the park."

The place was packed. Hundreds, if not thousands, of people moving around us. Parents with little kids, big kids. Grandparents, some dragging their grandkids around, some being dragged by them.

"I think that must be the ice-cream place," I said, spotting the stand just up ahead.

I got behind the stroller and started pushing. "Think it's too early for ice cream?" I asked.

Ethan didn't respond.

"Sport? You saying no to an ice cream?"

When he still didn't say anything, I stopped to take a look at him. His head was back and to the side, his eyes closed.

The little guy had fallen asleep.

"I don't believe it," I said under my breath. Not even at the first merry-go-round and the kid was already comatose.

"Everything okay?"

I turned. Jan had returned, a bead of sweat trickling down her neck. The backpack was slung over her shoulder.

"He's nodded off," I said.

"You're kidding me," she said.

"I think he passed out from fear after getting a close look at that," I said, pointing to the coaster.

"I think I've got something in my shoe," Jan said. She navigated the stroller over to a concrete ledge surrounding a garden. She perched herself on the edge, nudging Ethan and the stroller to her left.

"Feel like splitting a cone?" she asked. "I'm parched."

I guessed what she was thinking. We could share a treat now, while Ethan dozed. He'd get plenty of junk before the day was out, but this would be something just for us.

"Dipped in chocolate?" I asked.

"Surprise me," she said, putting her left foot up on her knee. "Need money?"

"I got it," I said, patting my back pocket. I turned and strolled over to the ice-cream stand. It was the soft white stuff that comes out of a machine. Not my favorite in the world--I like the real thing--but the young girl who took my order did manage a skillful twirl at the top. I asked her to dip it in the vat of chocolate, which clung like skin to the ice cream as she presented it to me.