Authors: Cathy Kelly
face was eager, the green eyes crinkled up attractively at
the corners. Cara could see how he scored so high on so
many drunken lists from the Yoshi girls.
She considered what she’d be doing on Sunday. Under
normal circumstances, she and Phoebe would stagger off to
Flames restaurant at about one for a huge brunch of fat
chips, nuclear-missile-sized sausages or maybe a Flames
special burger, which they’d consume while squabbling
good-naturedly over the papers.
But since the advent of Ricky, the Sunday morning ritual
now consisted of Cara leaving the flat to get breakfast after
listening to much heaving and giggling from Phoebe’s
room. Going to Flames wasn’t so much fun on her own
either and finding funny bits in the papers was boring
when there was nobody to read them out to.
She looked at Ewan, smiled and said as casually as she
could: ‘I’d love to.’
‘A date? You’ve got a date with him!’ squeaked Phoebe in
delight when Cara got home to find her and Ricky
ensconced in the kitchen making toasted cheese sandwiches
with some Cheddar that looked dangerously gone
off.
‘It’s not a date.’ she protested. ‘It’s an … outing. He
knows I like football and going for a few drinks, that’s all.’
‘What, and that’s not a date?’ said Ricky, his mouth full
of toasted sandwich. ‘He’ll get you plastered at the piss up
and try to score!’ Laughing happily at his own lame joke,
Ricky spewed sandwich all over the counter.
“I thought you were going to a party,’ Cara said, ignoring
him. Ricky was good-looking hut, God, he was dense. Not
to mention annoying.
‘We did but the music was awful, there was no free
booze and they had nothing but about ten packets of salt
and vinegar crisps to eat. I only like cheese and onion and we were ravenous. Plus, we’re too broke to go out to the pub,’ Phoebe revealed with a bite to her voice.
‘I don’t understand you pair,’ Cara said, wriggling past to
get a Mars Bar ice cream out of the freezer box. ‘You both
work in the bank, you deal with money all day, you get
well paid - and you never have a bean. My bank account is
healthier than yours, Phoebe, and I’m hopeless with
money.’
Ricky finished his mouthful and licked his full lips clean
with the pink tongue Phoebe claimed left her weak with
excitement. ‘Yeah, er … talking of money, you couldn’t
lend us a tenner?’
Cara looked at his beautiful vacant face. ‘You’re right,
Ricky, I couldn’t. You still owe me a fiver after the night
we went to Brady’s.’
‘Did you borrow money off Cara?’ squealed Phoebe,
turning to her boyfriend.
‘Yeah,’ he muttered sheepishly. ‘I haven’t forgotten it,
Cara.’
Not like he’d conveniently forgotten the previous fifteen
quid she’d lent him, Cara reflected grimly. She’d learnt her
lesson with Ricky. Neither a borrower nor a lender be, etc,
etc.
Especially to Ricky. It was obvious that he was never
going to dazzle the banking world with his business
acumen and would always be stony broke unless he figured
out how to get into modelling. It was a complete mystery
to Cara how he’d managed to get a job in the bank in the
first place. After a few months of seeing him every second
day, she’d come to the conclusion that Phoebe’s joy in
going out with such a perfect physical specimen had
blunted every other sense in her. Like her common sense,
for example.
Ricky was glorious-looking, had a body to die for and
had enough sex appeal for four normal people but the
space between his two perfectly shaped ears was entirely
empty.
Ewan, she reminded herself smugly, was good-looking and clever. Not in Ricky’s cover-of-GQ league, but still damn good-looking. Ricky was too smooth, anyway. Too
perfect. Ewan had that tough edge to him, a sort of
don’t-mess-with-mc edge.
She wondered where he’d got it. She didn’t know that
much about him, really, or why he had the indefinable
air of danger about him. Maybe she’d find out more
tomorrow.
The next morning, Ricky had gone by the time Cara
arrived back from the shop with the Sunday papers, having abstained from her usual fry up in Flames in favour of a pot of Blue Javan and a croissant in a tiny
coffee shop that played mellow jazz music and served
every type of coffee imaginable. In the living room
Phoebe was aimlessly watching the box and eating cornflakes
at the same time.
When the Wonder Woman music blared after the ad
break, Cara’s immediate reaction was to dump the papers,
forget about her plan to tidy up her bedroom and sink into
seventies-induced catatonia on the couch. Wonder Woman had been her favourite TV programme as a child.
She’d dreamed of having heavy gold bangles that could
deflect bullets and a lasso that could knock a villain to his
knees with one expert flick of the wrist. But when she
threw the papers on to the coffee table and half an inch of dust and fluff shot up into the air like startled dandelion heads, she changed her mind.
‘This place is a pit, Phoebe,’ she said in disgust. Piles of
old magazines and papers were scattered around the floor
so that you could - mercifully - only see bits of the
puke-coloured carpet with its putrid green paisley design.
The previous night’s glasses and mugs still sat on the coffee
table and a few of an even earlier vintage littered the
mantelpiece alongside several used up boxes of matches, a
candle that had melted down completely and the detritus
of several bales of briquettes.
Even the fire burning merrily in the grate couldn’t inject
a bit of cosiness into the untidy and unloved squalor of the
room. It hadn’t had a good spring clean for months. Cara
leaned against the couch in despair and immediately found
her black combats decorated with marmalade fur.
‘And how come we have cat hairs on everything when
we don’t have a cat?’
‘Ricky has,’ mumbled Phoebe, not taking her eyes off the
telly.
Cara gave up. She tied her hair back from her face, rolled
up her sleeves and set to work. After half an hour of hauling papers off the floor and removing all the dust, dirt and ash from the fireplace, the room had started to
improve. Once she’d started, Cara couldn’t stop and she
scrubbed, polished and cleaned demonically while Phoebe
still sat slumped in front of the box.
When the drone of the Hoover didn’t move her, Cara
knew something was up.
‘What’s wrong, Phoebs?’ she asked. It wasn’t like her
flatmate to shirk her half of the cleaning up - once they
actually got round to it, that was.
Phoebe snuffled. ‘We had a fight.’
‘What about?’ asked Cara, still not relinquishing her
grasp on the handle of the Hoover.
‘Money.’
‘Oh.’ Cara let go of the Hoover and sat down beside her
friend.
‘He keeps borrowing money from me but I didn’t know
he’d been borrowing from you too. I said something and he
got cross and said I couldn’t love him if I felt like that.’
Cara kept her mouth shut. Saying the wrong thing at
this stage would be fatal.
‘I said I did love him but I didn’t want him taking your
money because he doesn’t pay it back.’ continued Phoebe
miserably. ‘He owes me over a hundred pounds now and
I’ve paid the last four times we went out. That’s really
why we didn’t stay at the party. I thought Ricky was
bringing a bottle and he didn’t. I was so embarrassed
when I realised.’
Beside her, Cara winced. In her opinion, there was
nothing worse than a relentless borrower, someone who
was perpetually broke and perpetually on the scrounge.
Even worse was the sort of bloke who never coughed up
for an evening out. It wasn’t that Cara was one of those
women who expected men to pay every time. Far from it.
Rut a fifty:fifty ratio was reasonable when it came to a
couple paying the bill. With Ricky, the ratio was obviously
twenty:eighty in his favour. And he had to borrow to pay
his twenty per cent.
‘Why is he always broke?’ she asked in a neutral voice.
Phoebe shrugged. ‘He buys loads of clothes.’
He does? goggled Cara, thinking of Ricky’s selection of
ultra-casual togs that looked as if they’d been bought from
an outdoor market during a downpour. ‘What’s he buy nothing
but Gucci underpants?’ she joked.
‘I don’t know,’ said Phoebe, her face crumpling miserably.
‘He says it’s over between us because he needs
affection and doesn’t think I love him properly.’ And she
started crying.
Hugging Phoebe, Cara did her best to provide comfort.
It took three cups of very sweet tea, a pack of Hob Nobs
and a lengthy discussion on why men were such shits to do
it. Once they’d gone through the ritual male bashing, Phoebe’s natural exuberance returned. She began to talk about how crazy she was about Ricky, how sweet he was to
her and how much she loved the way he scrunched his
face up adorably when he didn’t understand something.
Which was most of the time, Cara thought with a
grimace she managed to turn into a sympathetic smile.
‘You’re right, Cara,’ Phoebe said firmly, wiping away the
remains of her tears with a tissue. ‘I’ve got to talk to him
about money and say I love him, but I worry about him
when he never has a penny’
It wasn’t exactly the advice Cara had given. (‘Tell him
you can’t support him while he squanders his money - it’s
just not on.’
Cheered up. Phoebe got off the couch and headed for
the bathroom, while Cara, worn out by her role as chief
cleaner, comforter and tea-maker, lay back and yawned.
She glanced idly at her watch and froze with horror.
In a mere three-quarters of an hour she had to be
standing on the sidelines of Ewan’s soccer match cheering
him on. A soccer match that was at least an hour away by
bus. She’d have to order a taxi and that’d take half an hour
to get there which left … fifteen minutes to get ready.
Shit. Double shit.
Despite offhandedly telling Phoebe the night before that
she planned to go in her combats and big woolly sheepskin
coat ‘because it’ll be freezing and it’s hardly a date’, Cara
had still toyed with the idea of dressing up a bit. Just to
show Ewan that she could look like a girl as distinct from a
tough cookie with size eight boots and SAS gear.
Time constraints meant the glamour puss look would
have to wait, she realised, leaping to her feet.
‘Phoebe,’ she roared as she grabbed the phone to ring for
a taxi, ‘get out of the shower. It’s an emergency!’
The match had started by the time she belted up to the sidelines, no longer shivering in the cold because she’d ended up getting the taxi to drop her in the wrong place,
necessitating a five-minute jog through the grounds to the
soccer pitches.
A. big crowd of people were gathered watching the
match, stamping their feet to get warm and “huddled close
together as the biting wind whipped down the pitch far
faster than the ball. It was a bitterly cold February day,
even though a watery winter sun shone low in the sky.
Her eyes stinging in the breeze, Cara stood beside a
couple of heavily made-up women and tried to figure out
which one of the players was Ewan. She didn’t even know
which colour his team wore. They all looked the same in
their white shorts, twenty-two men in either red or black
jerseys, hairy legs purple with the cold.
The men in red appeared to be losing as their opponents
had possession of the ball most of the time and kept
almost scoring. The goalie for the black-clad team certainly
wasn’t cold: he was running around like a maniac as the
bail rattled around dangerously near his goal.
‘Come on, St Helen’s!’ shrieked one of the women
beside her, a tiny blonde huddled up in a giant blue anorak.
‘Get your finger out!’ yelled her companion, a red head
in a black puffa.
St Helen’s. That sounded a bit familiar, Cara thought.
She peered at the players in red more closely. The St
Helen’s forward on the far side of the pitch looked a bit
like Ewan. His hair was flopping all over the place and
he was wirily athletic. Fast, too, she thought approvingly,
as he whizzed up the pitch alongside a team mate,
waiting for the ball. The crowd perked up as St Helen’s
took possession of the ball and the shouting grew more
frenzied.
Shrieks of ‘Come on, St Helen’s, score, score!’ mingled
with enraged ‘Get it away, Dems!’ as the other team’s
supporters howled with rage.
Unfortunately, Ewan’s team mate’s shot at the goal went wide and the Anorak Girlies beside Cara slumped dejectedly.
‘Better
luck next time, Michael and Ewan,’ yelled the
red head, glossy crimson lips quivering with cold.
Ewan turned his head at her voice and noticed Cara for
the first time.
‘Hi,’ he yelled, and waved.
The nearby supporters turned to see who he was waving