New Mercies (2 page)

Emboldened by the thought of leaving momentarily, I took a step into the room, which was cluttered with black shapes—furniture.

“You git.”

The voice came from nowhere, and it was deep and soft and filled with loathing.

I put one hand on the door, touching the drapery, which was velvet. Thick and very expensive, it was worn and probably covered with dirt. I should have retreated then from that murderous place, with the smell of damp and decay that clung to it. The man inside might have been a tramp or an intruder set on robbery and rape. It was doubtful the cabdriver would hear my cries.

But I was more surprised than scared. Besides, the man did not seem to want anything except for me to leave.

The disembodied voice spoke again. “Git for home. You got no right to step by here, dishonoring the dead.”

Just then, there was movement, and an animal wandered into the center of the room. It was the size of a large dog, but it bleated softly; the animal was one of her goats. For an instant, it seemed that the voice had come from the goat. But I was not much for apparitions—no believer in haunts, except for those that I had brought along with me—so I looked into the depths of the room for the man.

He emerged slowly and went to the goat instead of to me, pushing the animal toward the French doors. The goat took a few steps and stopped to nuzzle me, then went outside, its hooves clicking on the porch before it bounded off onto the ground. The room gave off a smell that was more than just rot, a fetid animal odor. The goats must have wandered through the house at will, I realized. The strangeness of the place and its stench, more than the man, tempted me to back out, but I feared that might make whoever was in there think that he had frightened me. And I still was not really frightened, for this was only a man in a dark room who wanted me to leave. Besides, the scene was so surreal that being there was a little like watching a picture show, one of those old movies back before talkies, when everything was exaggerated.

“What you want?” the man asked when it was clear that I would stand my ground. He moved toward me. He was an old man, and in the darkness, it was unclear whether he was black or white.

“Who are you?”

“Ezra, Miss Amalia’s old boy. I take care of things. You got no business here.”

“I do”.

He waited for an explanation, and when none came, he asked, “You come looking for treasure? Or maybe you another one of them newspaper peoples, mislaying the truth?”

I shook my head, then realized he couldn’t see the gesture in the dark. “No,” I said.

“Then what?” He took another step or two toward me, and up close, he gave off a smell that was not of goats, but a piney scent.

“This is Avoca, the Bondurant place?”

“You know ’tis.”

I straightened my back. “My name is Nora Bondurant.” I nearly added Tate, which had been my name for ten years but wasn’t anymore.

The man was still for a long time, making me wonder if he had not heard me. But of course he had, so I did not repeat myself.

“You Mr. Winship’s girl.” It was a statement, not a question.

The name seemed wrong. Whenever she spoke of him, which was not often, Mother called my father Wink, which seemed to me now like his given name, Wink Bondurant. But of course it was Winship Bondurant.

“Yes.”

“Your name ain’t Bondurant no more. It something else.”

I was astonished that he knew of my marriage. “It’s Bondurant now—again, that is.”

“What you doing here? Why you come around too late, after all these years?”

“There was a telegram from a lawyer. It said that my aunt Amalia—that is, Miss Amalia Bondurant—was dead, that I was her heiress. There was something in the newspaper at home
about her murder, but I don’t really know what happened, only that a neighbor shot her, then killed himself.” I stopped, a little annoyed at having to explain my presence to a caretaker, who, if he thought about it, worked for me now.

“So you come for the leavings.”

“I came because I was summoned by an attorney.”

Ezra snorted. “Where was you when Miss Amalia have need of you, when you can ease her years?” He came close and looked into my face. His skin was pale, and his nose aquiline; he was a white man. “You thirty-three years old. You should be here long time since.”

I did not remark on the extraordinary fact that he knew my age; instead, I said, “Not that it’s anyone’s business, but I’d never heard of Amalia Bondurant until a few days ago. And I don’t know a thing about her now except for what was in the newspapers.” The stories had caught my eye because the woman and I had the same last name. Of course, there was no reason at the time I read them to think that we were related.

“You never heard of her?” There was sadness in his voice.

“We didn’t know my father came from Natchez or even Mississippi, only that he was born somewhere in the South.” In fact, my mother said, Father really wasn’t southern at all, because he’d gone to boarding school in the North, probably had never lived in the South for more than a few months at a time. “Until the telegram came, we didn’t know he still had family,” I added, annoyed with myself for telling the man something that was none of his affair. “I’m all in and need to find a hotel. It’s clear this place is uninhabitable.”

“Not for Miss Amalia. This her bedroom.”

“That’s fine, but I don’t intend to sleep with goats.” I was a little ashamed of the remark, so I added lamely, “I mean, you weren’t expecting me. I’ll find a place to stay and come back in daylight.”

While it had grown dark outside, there was a little light from the moon now, and as the man followed me out onto the porch, his face became clear. It was devoid of expression. “I’ll come back in a day or so.” Impulsively, I held out my hand. After a moment, he took it. His hand was rough and calloused, moist and warm—and limp. Perhaps women in the South didn’t shake hands with retainers.

“You do that. I be out back, me and Aunt Polly.”

“Aunt
Polly? You mean Aunt Amalia had a sister?”

He laughed, although there did not seem to be humor in the sound. “White folks call old colored ladies ‘aunt.’ You ask them why.”

For some reason, I felt relieved for this unknown Aunt Amalia that a woman had lived nearby. Not that in the end it had helped her.

As I walked back across the bricks to the taxi, the rankness of the house faded, replaced by the scent of some night-blooming flower. The air, so heavy with humidity that I did not know why it had not turned to rain, was oppressive with its sweet smells, different from the clean, dry air of Colorado, which always seemed cleansing. The southern air was like a blanket, heavy around me, slowing me down.

The driver still leaned against the taxi, one foot on the
running board. He had not moved, and he waited until I reached the vehicle before he straightened up, unfolded his arms, and opened the door for me. When he got into the driver’s seat, he said expectantly, “Well now.”

The familiarity was unwelcome, but perhaps he realized that he had me at his mercy. After all, he could leave me there to find my own way back into town. I could wander off the road into the thicket of foliage, perhaps fall and hit my head and die, then decay before anybody came looking for me. Nobody else but Ezra would ever know I’d been here. I was not morbid, however, and the idea of my flesh rotting into the damp Mississippi earth almost amused me.

The more immediate problem was finding a hotel room, since I knew nothing about Natchez. “I won’t be spending the night at Avoca. No sir.” I shook my head. “Is there a place in town to stay?”

“We got two, three hotels and some guest houses, too, nice places where old ladies put out signs saying ‘Rooms to Let.’ ”

The idea of encountering another old house, even one in decent shape, did not appeal to me, so I told the driver to take me to a good hotel. If the accommodations were not to my liking, I would ask the lawyer who had contacted me to recommend a better place.

The driver turned the car around and started back toward town at a leisurely pace. “Look like you got in that house without no mishap,” he said, inviting me to tell him about what had transpired inside.

“Yes.” I did not relate the details.

“You meet old Ezra, I reckon.”

“The caretaker. He was there.”

“Ezra’s always there. He’s full-blooded Natchez ever since he was born on the place in slavery times, stayed on after freedom come, him and Aunt Polly. Now that Miss Amalia’s dead, I guess their last string’s been loosened.”

“Sir?”

“They got no more ties to the place, them two. I wonder where they’ll go, mebbe just stay on. Ain’t nobody going to live in that house now.”

“He was a slave?” Of course there were men and women still living who’d been bought and sold, but the sudden knowledge that my own family had owned them revolted me. “He couldn’t have been a slave. He’s white.” And then I remembered that the newspaper articles about Amalia’s death had mentioned a Negro servant who lived on Avoca. That must have been Ezra, and Aunt Polly was his wife.

“Ezra’s black as me, leastways he is inside. I don’t know where it is you come from, mist’es, but round here, folks say if you got the leastest drop of colored blood in you, you’re a colored.”

That struck me as ludicrous, but then, what constituted a colored man? What if this purply black man in front of me had one drop of white blood? Why wouldn’t that classify him as white? But unfamiliar with the relationships of black and white in the South, I kept my musings on race to myself.

The driver took me to the Eola Hotel, which was new and efficient and clean, and he carried in my suitcase, setting it down in front of the registration desk. A clerk in a rumpled suit, his hair parted in the middle and lying in damp curls about his face,
greeted me in a soft voice. Everybody I’d encountered in Mississippi had a soft voice.

“Welcome to Natchez, Mrs. . . .” He dragged out the words, another Mississippi trait.

He waited for me to state my name, but, hoping to avoid a conversation about the Bondurant family, I simply corrected him. “It’s Miss, and I will be staying one or two nights, maybe three.”

When he looked at me as if I were new money in town, I added quickly, “Price is a consideration. I would like a reasonable room.”

“I think you will find our prices quite satisfactory.” He asked if three dollars would be acceptable, and I nodded my approval, quite pleased, for the rate was cheap.

“With private bath?” I asked.

“Course. All our rooms have private bathrooms.” He picked up a pen and dipped it into an inkwell. “May I inquire if you are vacationing in our city?”

His smile bordered on a smirk, and he seemed overfriendly. Then it hit me that perhaps the man thought that as a female alone, I was a woman of unsavory character, and his job was to spot such creatures and keep them out of the hotel. Or perhaps I was just being thin-skinned.

Still, my appearance was not in my favor. My white gloves, which lay beside my pocketbook on the registration desk, were crushed and filthy. My stockings had runs from where they had caught on the weeds at Avoca, and my shoes were dirty. My navy blue suit, which had looked so smart in Denver when I boarded the train, was as wrinkled as tissue paper and stained from the dust that had blown in through the open window of my
compartment. My hair, stylishly straight at home, had crinkled into a nest in the dampness, and grime covered my face. “I’m here on business. In the morning, perhaps someone will direct me to Mr. Satterfield’s office. He is a lawyer. Do you know him?”

The clerk straightened, his smile slipped a little, and he tore up the card on which he’d written the room rate. “I think you will find our prices quite satisfactory indeed.” He wrote “$2.50” on the second card and turned it around for me to fill in. I took out my own fountain pen, the green marbleized one that David had given me four years ago for my twenty-ninth birthday, and wrote my name and address, then handed the card back to the desk clerk. He took a key from a cubbyhole behind him and summoned the bellboy. “Clyde, take Miss—” He glanced at my name on the card, then turned to me quickly. “Miss Bondurant?”

I nodded.

The clerk looked at the cabdriver, who stared at me as if I were the haunt now. He had been as ignorant of my name as the clerk.

“Well, it is a pleasure to welcome you, Miss Bondurant.” He crossed out the room number on the card and wrote in another, then exchanged the first key for a second. “Take Miss Bondurant to room three twenty-two.” It wasn’t clear if room 322 was a better or poorer room than the first one.

The bellboy didn’t look at me as I followed him into the elevator, and he closed the cage door and took me to the third floor. He left the elevator doors open as he carried my suitcase to the room and set it on a rack. Then he made a great show of opening the window, switching on the ceiling fan, and checking about the room to make sure that everything was in order. “You
got your circulating ice water in here. It’s real nice to drink on a hot day.” He turned on a tap over the bathroom sink and filled a glass with water. Then he gave me a bold look. “The goat lady that was murdered, she your kin?”

The question made me shiver, since I’d never known anyone who’d been the victim of a crime, even robbery. Now I was to be identified by my relationship to a murdered woman. The boy’s nosiness also offended me, and I wondered what Aunt Amalia’s life had been like in this place, which, from my brief acquaintance with it, appeared to have atrophied since the Civil War. The Bondurant name certainly accounted for something, but was it respect or ridicule? The bellboy waited for my answer, one that would be repeated to the desk clerk. “I don’t know any goat lady,” I replied coolly, considering whether to forget his tip as punishment for his cheekiness. Or perhaps I should overtip, I thought, to make up for my disdainful reply. But there was no reason for my tip, too, to become cause for comment, so I gave him a quarter, which was the standard gratuity for carrying one’s suitcase in Denver. He seemed surprised and pleased, flipped the coin into the air, caught it, and closed the door. A dime would have been adequate.