New Species 02 Slade (36 page)

you were afraid? Of what? You’re a foot taller than I am

and outweigh me by a good hundred pounds or so.

What did you have to be afraid of?”

“Being with me puts you in more danger. That was

the main reason I stayed away from you. You nearly

died in the woods, could have died when the SUV

crashed, and I didn’t want to be the cause of more

assholes targeting you.”

She just stared at him, trying to take in his words. It

didn’t matter though because he’d hurt her. She wasn’t

about to allow him to do it again.

“It was more than that though. I’ve had a lot of time

to think. I never dared to allow myself to get attached to

anything or anyone. I saw too many die and too much

pain. I never owned anything, could never count on

anyone being there in the next moment, or even the next

day. They used it against me if those assholes who kept

me prisoner realized I cared about another person at the

testing facility. Hell, they used it against all of us to try to

control us. I know you can’t really understand what a

lifetime of that does to a person but I can tell you that it

messed me up bad. I’m screwed up. I was afraid of what

I wanted from you and that you might not return those

strong emotions. I wanted to give you time but I’m the

one who needed it. I thought if I walked away that I

would stop thinking about you and that you would be

safer without me. I said you’d be better off if I wasn’t a

part of your life. That’s not what happened.”

His honesty surprised her and some of her anger

seeped away. She didn’t know how to respond but her

heart melted a little at the sincere look he gave her, the

obvious pain sounding in his voice, and she had to

concede he’d had a really screwed-up past. He admitted

that readily, acknowledged he had flaws, and it softened

her resolve to remain angry.

“You promised you’d come to me but you didn’t.

You hurt me, Slade. You wouldn’t even talk to me. How

do you expect me to stop being angry and hurt?”

“I planned to come to you straight after I returned to

Homeland but I had to go to a meeting first. Justice

demanded it. I heard them saying how and why you’d

been targeted by humans. I started to think about how I’d

feel if you were killed because we were together. I

freaked out, Doc.”

“Stop calling me that. My name is Trisha. Use it.”

His fingers brushed her cheek. “And I told you that

I’ll only call you Trisha when I’m inside you.” His face

lowered. “And I want inside you in the worst way. I want

to taste you and feel you. There’s so much we’ve never

had the opportunity to do. I want you to moan my name

and I want hear you scream in pleasure. I need to show

you how much you mean to me and how much I’ve

missed you. Please let me.”

“Please, Slade.” She locked her gaze with his. “Don’t

do this to me. You hurt me when you promised you’d

come back for me but you didn’t. I had to kill two men

and I had faith that you’d come help me but you didn’t.

Two other men had to save me yet I still had hope that

you’d show up. I needed you. I was worried sick until

they told me you’d been found alive. I waited for you to

come to me when they said you had arrived back at

Homeland but you blew me off.”

“I did come back to you when you fired at those

assholes. I heard the shots but I realized Flame and

Smiley reached you before I could. I wanted to save you

but you didn’t need me.” He paused. “I also didn’t wish

you to see me the way I was at the time. I’d killed a lot of

men. I was afraid you’d see the blood, that it would

make you rethink being with someone capable of that

much violence, and that you wouldn’t believe that I’d

never lay a finger on you to cause you pain. I’m not fully

human and… ” He paused, a pained expression lining

his handsome face. “It was for the best if you didn’t see

me that way. Just trust me on that. I want to be a male

you’ll want, not one you’ll fear.”

Her resolve softened even more. He’s insecure about

what he is and how I see him. He’s not such a hard-ass after all.

She took a deep breath. “Slade, I know what you are. I

know you’re not fully human but I accepted that. I was

torn up inside over killing those men. I just wanted and

needed you after I killed those men. You just walked

away from me as though I meant nothing. I don’t know

how you could do that if you care about me.”

“You were safe. That’s what mattered most to me. I

was sure I’d scare you in the condition I was in at the

time and I decided to go back into the woods instead to

find the rest of those assholes and make sure they were

no longer a threat to you. I believed it was the right

choice at the time. I made a mistake.”

“You gave me your word and you lied to me.”

“I’m so sorry. It seemed like the right decision at the

time. I was also too out of control to hide my

possessiveness of you. Anyone there would have known

we’d bonded.”

“So you didn’t want anyone to know about what

happened between us?” Anger and pain shot through

her. “Well, guess what? Now some people know. I bet

that just really humiliates you. I know, it’s not PC for

New Species to sleep with a human, is it?”

“What is PC?”

“Politically correct. Some of you guys have sworn to

never touch humans. It’s— Oh hell, get off me. I also hate

to break this to you but your guys took one whiff of me

and knew I’d had sex. At first they thought I’d been

raped. I wouldn’t tell them a thing except I hadn’t been. I

left your name out of it even after I got pregnant but

Justice remembered how I smelled that night I was

brought back to Homeland. At first he thought the father

was Brass but when I told him I’d never touched him

sexually, Justice knew it was you. You were the only

strong scent left on me.”

“Don’t speak words that I did not say or even think.

I’m not ashamed of you, Doc. I don’t care about what is

PC. I was trying to protect your human nature. I know

human women are very private about their sex lives and

being with me put you in greater danger. Ellie and Fury

are proof of that. I was also trying to protect you from

what Ellie and Fury went through when they got

together. Everyone bugged them about their sex life and

hell, every time Fury touched her it seemed as though

someone accused him of hurting her. That’s why I didn’t

want those men to guess what had happened between us

and I wasn’t sure if any humans were involved with the

rescue who would witness us together.”

“I trusted you once and now I know I can’t. I―”

Slade’s mouth came down on hers and his lips

brushed hers. He spoke against her lips. “I’m bad with

words, sweet thing, but trust this.” Then he forced her

mouth open under his.

Trisha tried not to feel but it was Slade kissing her.

She wanted and loved him despite the pain he’d caused

her. She’d always known her attraction to him wouldn’t

be easy, him being New Species, her not being. They

were worlds apart but when he touched her all those

differences seemed to melt away until it was just the two

of them. Her hands splayed on his chest, enjoying the

warm feel of his skin as she started to kiss him back. Her

mouth parted wider, admitting his hungry eagerness to

bend her to his seduction. A moan escaped from the back

of her throat.

Slade’s hands caressed her and his body turned,

shifting hers with his, until they faced each other on their

sides. His mouth never left hers, his tongue coaxing her

passion higher. His hands gripped her nightshirt at the

waist and material tore. He freed her breasts to cup them

with his palms. Strong fingers kneaded her softer flesh.

Trisha broke away from the kiss, breathing hard.

“Slade?”

“Don’t tell me to stop. Please? I need you. You have

no idea how much I want you, Trisha. I have hurt from

how much I’ve missed you. I’m dying for you.”

His head lowered, his tongue rasped over her breast,

and all thought left her when his mouth closed over her

nipple. He sucked in hard tugs that made her stomach

clench, her desire burn brighter, and he nipped her

lightly with his teeth. Trisha’s entire body jerked from

the sharp pinch of pleasure that jolted straight to her

brain as a result. She moaned louder, running her hands

along his chest to his shoulders, and dug her fingernails

into his skin where they curved. Her mind warned to

push him away but instead she pulled him closer.

Slade tore his mouth away from her breast. Trisha

protested with a whimper. She ached from wanting him

and her eyes opened to discover Slade watching her face

closely. The passion in his heated gaze turned her on

more. He appeared a little wild, ruggedly handsome,

and the fangs peeking out between his parted lips did

wonderful things to her.

“You’re so beautiful.” He rose to his knees on the

bed, releasing her, but reached for her again quickly as if

he couldn’t stand not touching her. “I don’t want to hurt

our baby.” He smiled. “I’m happy about us creating one,

by the way.”

Trisha allowed him to pull her up to her knees. Slade

easily turned her body in his strong arms just by lifting

her until she faced away from him and her back pressed

against his chest. He rid her of the destroyed nightshirt,

just throwing it aside. His hands skimmed down over

her breasts, before his mouth nibbled at her neck. His

lips, tongue and teeth teased and taunted the sensitive

skin.

Trisha moaned when his teeth bit down. He wasn’t

breaking the skin or hurting her but the pinch of his bite

felt incredibility erotic. His tongue stroked the skin

trapped between his teeth before he moved to other

spots on her neck, lightly teasing her with soft nips. His

hands slid lower to pause at the curve of her hips.

There was a tug of the material against her skin when

his thumbs hooked into the sides of her panties. Slade

ripped them from her body easily and tossed them away

from the bed. His hands traveled lower and around the

inside of her thighs until he gently gripped them.

“Open more for me, sweet thing. I want to touch

your pussy. I can smell how hot you are and I want to

feel. The memory has tormented me and kept me up

every night I haven’t been with you.” He growled the

words.

She moved her knees farther apart. She sucked in air

and held her breath when Slade’s hands slowly slid up

her inner thighs, wanting him to get to the good part

right away. She’d wanted him far too long for him to

drag it out. She wanted him to touch her, needed it,

ached for him to make love to her. She began to breathe

heavily and wondered if she’d die if he didn’t touch her

soon. His fingers found her vaginal lips. They were slick

with desire and he parted them with two fingers, rubbed

her slit, and homed in on her swollen clit.

Trisha moaned loudly and pressed her head back

against his shoulder. “Yes.”

“Yes,” he growled from behind her, giving

assurances that he didn’t plan to stop. “I’m never letting

you go again, Trisha. Never. You’re mine.”

His fingers parted enough to capture the sensitive

nub between them, rubbing and tugging softly. Trisha

moaned louder, ground her ass back against his thighs,

and could feel his heavy, hard cock pressed against her

lower back. Her nipples tightened until they ached.

“Please? I need you,” she whispered. “Do that but I

want you inside me too.”

“You’ve got it,” he growled, his voice deep and

animalistic.

The need that was clear in his voice just made her

want him more. This was the Slade who turned her on,

the man she wanted and had missed. He backed up a

little, put his knees together between her spread thighs,

and growled at her again.

“I’m going to fuck you, Trisha. I don’t want to hurt

you though. I’m going to sit and I want you to ride me so