Nightwork (7 page)

There was a Grimes buried in the cemetery, an uncle, who had died in 1921 from the effects of a dose of chlorine gas in the Argonne Forest. Myself, I would never be buried in Arlington. I was a veteran of no wars. I had been too young for Korea and by the time Vietnam came around I was set in the job with the airline. I had not been tempted to volunteer. Walking among the graves, I experienced no regret that I finally would not be laid to rest in this company of heroes. I had never been pugnacious—even as a boy I had had only one fistfight at school, and, although I was patriotic enough and saluted the flag gladly, wars had no attraction for me. My patriotism did not run in the direction of bloodshed.

When I went out of the hotel the next morning, I saw there was a long line of people waiting for taxis, so I started to walk, hoping to pick up a taxi along the avenue. It was a mild day, pleasant after the biting cold of New York, and the street I was on gave off an air of grave prosperity, the passersby well-dressed and orderly. For half a block I walked side by side with a dignified, portly gentleman wearing a coat with a mink collar who looked as though he could well be a Senator. I amused myself by imagining what the man’s reaction would be if I went up to him, fixed him, like the Ancient Mariner, who stoppeth one of three, and told him what I had been doing since early Tuesday morning.

I stopped at a traffic light and hailed a cab which was slowing to a stop there. It was only after the cab had come to a halt that I saw that there was a passenger in the back, a woman. But the cabby, a black man with gray hair, leaned over and turned down the window. “Which way you going, mister?” the cabby asked.

“State.”

“Get in,” the cabby said. “The lady is on the way.”

I opened the back door. “Do you mind if I get in with you, ma’am?” I asked.

“I certainly do,” the woman said. She was quite young, no more than thirty, and rather pretty, in a blonde, sharp way, less pretty at the moment than she might ordinarily have been, because of the tight, angry set of her lips.

“I’m sorry,” I said apologetically and closed the door. I was about to step back on the curb when the cabby opened the front door. “Get in, suh,” the cabby said.

Serves the bitch right, I thought, and, without looking at the woman, got in beside the driver. There was a bitter rustle from the back seat, but neither the cabby nor I turned around. We drove in silence. When the cab stopped in front of a pillared government building, the woman leaned forward. “One dollar and forty-five cents?” she said.

“Yes, ma’am,” the cabby said.

The woman yanked open her purse, took out a dollar bill and some change, and put it down on the back seat. “Don’t expect to find a tip,” she said as she got out. She walked toward the big front doors, her back furious. She had nice legs, I noted.

The cabby chuckled as he reached back and scooped up his fare. “Civil servant,” he said.

“Spelled c-u-n-t,” I said.

The cabby chuckled again. “Oh, in this town you learn to take the fat with the lean,” he said.

As he drove, he shook his head, chuckling to himself, over and over again.

At State, I gave the man a dollar tip. “I tell you, suh,” the cabby said, “that little blonde lady done made my day.”

I went into the lobby of the building and up to the information desk.

“I’d like to see Mr. Jeremy Hale, please,” I said to the girl at the desk.

“Do you know what room he’s in?”

“I’m afraid not.”

The girl sighed. Washington, I saw, was full of tight-assed women. While the girl thumbed through a thick alphabetical list for Jeremy Hale I remembered how I had once said to Hale, long ago, With a name like that, Jerry, you
had
to wind up in the State Department. I smiled at the memory.

“Is Mr. Hale expecting you?”

“No.” I hadn’t spoken to Hale or written him in years. Hale certainly wasn’t expecting me. We had been in the same class at Ohio State and had been good friends. After I took the job in Vermont we had skied together several winters, when Hale wasn’t on a post overseas.

“Your name, please?” the girl was saying.

I gave her my name and she dialed a number on the desk telephone.

The girl spoke briefly on the phone, put it down, scribbled out a pass. “Mr. Hale can see you now.” She handed me the pass and I saw she had written on it the number of the room I was to go to.

“Thank you, miss,” I said. Too late, I saw the wedding ring on her finger. I have made another enemy in Washington, I thought.

I went up in the elevator. The elevator was nearly full, but it rose in decorous silence. The secrets of state were being well-guarded.

Hale’s name was on a door that was exactly the same as a long row of identical doors that disappeared in diminishing perspective down a seemingly endless corridor. What can all these people possibly be doing for the United States of America eight hours a day, two hundred days a year? I wondered, as I knocked.

“Come in,” a woman’s voice called.

I pushed the door open and entered a small room where a beautiful young woman was typing. Good old Jeremy Hale.

The beautiful young woman smiled radiantly at me. I wondered how she behaved in taxicabs. “Are you Mr. Grimes?” she said, rising. She was even more beautiful standing up than sitting down, tall and dark, lissome in a tight blue sweater.

“I am indeed,” I said.

“Mr. Hale is delighted you could come. Go right in, please.” She held the door to the inner office open for me.

Hale was seated at a cluttered desk, peering down at a sheaf of papers in front of him. He had put on weight since I had last seen him, and had added statesmanlike solidity to the mild polite face. On the desk in a silver frame was a family group, a woman and two children, a boy and a girl. Everything in moderation. Zero population growth. An example to the heathen. Hale looked up when I came in and stood, smiling widely. “Doug,” he said, “you don’t know how glad I am to see you.”

As we shook hands, I was surprised at how moved I was by my friend’s greeting. For three years now, no one had been genuinely glad to see me.

“Where’ve you been, where’ve you been, man?” Hale said. He waved to a leather sofa along one side of the spacious office and as I sat down pulled a wooden armchair close to the sofa and sat down himself. “I thought you’d disappeared from the face of the earth. I wrote three times and each time the letters came back. Haven’t you learned anything about forwarding addresses yet? And I wrote your girl friend, Pat, asking about you and she wrote back and said she didn’t know where you’d gone.” He scowled at me. He was agreeable-looking, tall, comfortably built, soft-faced, and the scowl was incongruous on him. “And you don’t look so almighty great, either. You look as though you haven’t been out in the open air for years.”

“Okay, okay,” I said, “one thing at a time, Jerry. I just decided I didn’t like flying anymore and I moved on. Here and there.”

“I wanted to ski with you last winter. I had two weeks off and I heard the snow was great. …”

“I haven’t been doing much skiing, to tell the truth,” I said.

Impulsively, Hale touched my shoulder. “All right,” he said. “I won’t ask any questions.” Even as a boy in college he had always been quick and sensitive. “Well, anyway, just one question. Where’re you coming from and what’re you doing in Washington?” He laughed. “I guess that’s two questions.”

“I’m coming from New York,” I said, “and I’m in Washington to ask you to do a little favor for me.”

“The government is at your disposal, lad. Ask and ye shall receive.”

“I need a passport.”

“You mean you never had a passport?”

“No.”

“You’ve never been out of the country?” Hale sounded amazed. Everybody
he
knew was out of the country most of the time.

“I’ve been in Canada,” I said. “That’s all. And you don’t need a passport for Canada.”

“You said you were in New York,” Hale looked puzzled. “Why didn’t you get it there? Not that I’m not delighted you finally had an excuse to visit me,” he added hastily. “But all you had to do was go to the office on Fifth Avenue …”

“I know,” I said. “I just didn’t feel like waiting. I’m in a hurry and I thought I’d come to the fountainhead, from which all good things flow.”

“They
are
swamped there,” Hale said. “Where do you intend to go?”

“I thought Europe, first. I came into a little dough and I thought maybe it was time I ought to get a dose of Old World culture. Those postcards you used to send me from Paris and Athens gave me the itch.” Deception, I found, was coming easily.

“I think I can run the passport through for you in a day,” Hale said. “Just give me your birth certificate. …” He stopped when he saw the frown on my face. “Don’t you have it with you?”

“I didn’t realize I needed it.”

“You sure do,” Hale said. “Where were you born—Scranton, wasn’t it?”

“Yes.”

He made a face.

“What’s the matter?” I asked.

“Pennsylvania’s a bore,” he said. “All the birth certificates are kept in Harrisburg. The state capital. You’d have to write there. It’d take at least two weeks. If you’re lucky.”

“Balls,” I said. I didn’t want to wait
anywhere
for two weeks.

“Didn’t you get your birth certificate when you applied for your first driver’s license?”

“Yes,” I said.

“Where is it now? Have you any idea? Maybe somebody in your family? Stashed away in a trunk somewhere.”

“My brother Henry still lives in Scranton,” I said. I remembered that after my mother died he had taken all the accumulated family junk, old report cards, my high school diploma, my degree from college, old snapshot albums and stored them in his attic. “He might have it.”

“Why don’t you call him and have him look. If he finds it tell him to send it to you special delivery, registered.”

“Even better,” I said. “I’ll go down there myself. I haven’t seen Henry for years and it’s time I put in an appearance, anyway.” I didn’t feel I had to explain to Hale that I preferred not to have Henry know where I was staying in Washington or anywhere else.

“Let’s see,” Hale said. “This is Thursday. There’s a weekend coming up. Even if you find it, you couldn’t get back in time to do anything until Monday.”

“That’s okay,” I said. “Europe’s waited this long, I guess it can wait another couple of days.”

“You’ll need some photographs, too.”

“I have them with me.” I fished the envelope out of a pocket.

He slid one out of the envelope and studied it. “You still look as though you’re just about to graduate from high school.” He shook his head. “How do you manage it?”

“A carefree life,” I said.

“I’m glad to hear they’re still available,” Hale said. “When I look at pictures of myself these days, I seem to be old enough to be my own father. The magic of the cameraman’s art.” He put the photograph back in its envelope, as though the one glimpse of it would do him for a long, long time. “I’ll have the application ready for you to sign Monday morning. Just in case.”

“I’ll be here.”

“Why not come back and spend the weekend here?” Hale said. “Washington is at its best on the weekends. When government grinds to a halt. We have a poker game on Saturday night. You still play poker?”

“A little.”

“Good. One of our regulars is out of town and you can have his place. There’re a couple of eternal pigeons in the game who’ll donate their dough with pathetic generosity.” He smiled. He hadn’t been a bad poker player himself in college. “It’ll be like old times. I’ll arrange everything.”

The phone rang and Hale went over to the desk, picked up the instrument, and listened for a moment. “I’ll be right over, sir,” he said and put the phone down. “I’m sorry, Doug, I have to go. The daily eleven
A.M.
crisis.”

I stood up. “Thanks for everything,” I said, as we walked toward the door.

“Nada,” Hale said. “What’re friends for? Listen, there’s a cocktail party at my house tonight. You busy?”

“Nothing special,” I said.

“Seven o’clock.” We were in the outer office now. “I’ve got to run. Miss Schwartz will give you my address.” He was out of the door, moving fast, but still preserving a statesmanlike decorum.

Miss Schwartz wrote on a card and gave it to me, smiling radiantly, as though she were ennobling me. Her handwriting was as beautiful as she was.

I awoke slowly as the soft hand went lightly up my thigh. We had made love twice already, but the erection was immediate. The lady in bed with me was profiting from my years of abstinence.

“That’s better,” the lady murmured. “That’s much better. Don’t do anything for the moment. Just lie back. Don’t move.”

I lay back. The expert hands, the soft lips, and lascivious tongue made remaining motionless exquisite torture. The lady was very serious, ritualistic almost, in her pleasures, and was not to be hurried. When we had come into her bedroom at midnight, she had made me lie down and had undressed me slowly. The last woman who had undressed me had been my mother, when I was five, and I had the measles.

It was not the way I had expected the evening to end. The cocktail party in the nice Colonial house in Georgetown had been polite and sober. I had arrived early and had been taken upstairs to admire the Hale children. Before the other guests came, I had chatted desultorily with Hale’s wife, Vivian, whom I had never met. She was a pretty, blondish woman with an overworked look about her. It turned out that through the years Hale had told her quite a bit about me. “After Washington,” Mrs. Hale had said, “Jerry said you were like a breath of fresh air. He said he loved skiing with you and your girl—Pat—am I right, was that her name?”

“Yes.”

“He said—and I hope you won’t think it’s condescending—he said that both of you were so transparently decent.”

“That’s not condescending,” I said.

“He was worried about you when he found out that you weren’t, well—together—anymore. And that you’d just vanished.” Mrs. Hale’s eyes searched my face, looking for a reaction, an answer to her unspoken question.

“I knew where I was,” I said.