Nobody Loves a Ginger Baby

Praise
Title Page
Dedication
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Epilogue.
Reading group questions
Why I wrote Nobody Loves a Ginger Baby
About the Author
Acknowledgements
Also by Laura Marney
Copyright

‘No,’ Daphne tells Donnie, ‘stop worrying, I’m not going to chuck you.’

This is what she tells him to calm him down. It’s not always what she thinks.

‘But,’ she says, only half joking, ‘you’d better step up your
antidepressants
. You’ll get arrested if you don’t get a grip on the kleptomania and there’s a good chance you’ll be sacked when they find out who’s putting soap in the sandwiches. You could even get evicted from your flat. I’m pretty sure squirting a piss-filled Super Soaker, even at deserving neds, is an evictable offence. Take your meds,’ she gently encourages him. ‘You don’t want to be forcibly committed, you’ll end up licking the windows in the laughing academy.’

Laughing academy, they both laugh at that one.

On the outside Donnie looks like an ordinary Joe, he isn’t overly tall or handsome or different in any way. He wears his red hair short and tidy. He has two eyes, two ears, a nose and a mouth, all of average dimensions, all precisely in the right place. If he is exceptional it is in his symmetry. The second and fourth fingers of both his hands are exactly the same length.

If you walked past him in the street you wouldn’t notice him, even a street where there were no other passers-by. If, on that same deserted street, Donnie walked past holding a smoking gun and a swag bag filled with pilfered sporting goods and novelty items, you’d be hard pushed to pick him out in any subsequent identity parade. He is very, very careful to be discreet; he is devious. This reticence extends even within his employment, which Donnie
thinks of as his job rather than his career. He’s good enough at it and that’s good enough for him.

Apart from the men he plays football with Donnie has no friends of his own. With Daphne’s friends he is polite, considerate,
charming
. They think he’s a great guy. Little do they know that when, in the privacy of their own homes and after a few drinks amongst friends, they say and do foolish things, it is meat and drink to Donnie.

He keeps Daphne awake in bed by picking apart her friends’ conceits and weaknesses, ascribing ugly motives to their
good-natured
buffoonery, reprising phrases they have used intemperately so often that they become, in Daphne’s mind, her friends’ signature tunes and she has to be careful not to say them out loud. Daphne’s friend, Mark, diffidently recounts what his boss has recorded in his annual appraisal: ‘Mark Leslie is probably the most popular lecturer in the department.’ Donnie calls him ‘Carlsberg’. He asks Daphne with his imitation of the gruff voice-over of the advert, ‘Is Probably The Most Popular Lecturer In The Department coming?’

‘Probably,’ is Daphne’s tired reply.

Donnie relishes inventing cruel nicknames and using them exclusively with Daphne, like a secret code. Joe, who so often
earnestly
affirms his heterosexuality, becomes Nancy Boy. Lucy, who occasionally recounts her once-only experience of magic
mushrooms
, is known, among other things, as ’Shroomhead. Probably worst of all is his name for Colette, shy about the disfiguring scars across her chest, who never talks about the childhood accident when she was peeled from the red-hot bars of an electric fire, her young bosom permanently desiccated. He calls her Char Grilled.

Donnie is high maintenance. He’s not the type of man who can be left to himself at a party. Daphne would like to mingle but she stays by his side to keep him from becoming jealous of all the men who, given the slightest encouragement, would throw her to the floor and ravish her. She also has to guard against him visiting the bathroom and trousering their host’s cute ceramic toothbrush holder.

‘It’s Tigger off
Winnie the Pooh
,’ Donnie later tells her, giggling at his own daring, attempting to justify the theft.

Every time he has a bath he likes Daphne to wash his hair. She kneels at the side of the bath and rubs shampoo into his scalp, scrubbing around his carroty hairline. When she’s ready to rinse she supports the back of his head and lowers him under the water. The kneeling hurts her knees and tires her back but Donnie seems to love this baptismal ritual; he closes his eyes and smiles.

Every few weeks she has to shave the twizzley ginger hairs that grow on the back of his neck. They stand at the bathroom sink and he takes his shirt off. She scooshes a blob of white foam into her hands and rubs it on his neck. Daphne thinks it’s a pointless exercise; she’s the only one who ever sees this secret part of his body.

If ever she wants to make a Spanish omelette she has to make two: one to eat that evening and one for Donnie to take to work the next day. It’s a fiddly job getting the omelette in his plastic sandwich box and the box smells of garlic for days afterwards. How can he be bothered eating the same thing two days in a row? Daphne wonders. Donnie says he wants to make his workmates jealous with his home-made Spanish omelette while they eat their usual cheese, or occasionally, soap, sandwiches.

There are certain places Donnie will not go. He will not go to the theatre; theatre is ‘a pile of wank’ patronised only by poofs. He won’t set foot inside any kind of museum; museums are for eggheads. Nor trendy coffee shops; they are taking the piss charging more than two quid for a tea bag dunked in a plastic cup of hot-ish water. Although he takes a keen interest in Daphne’s
undergarments
he refuses, for fear of being branded a pervert, to enter what he calls a ‘lingeree’ shop. He doesn’t do DIY shops or clothes shops or supermarkets, except of course for Asda. Even then, the Partick branch of Asda is out of bounds because his ex-wife, who he has not seen for six years, might be in there. He can occasionally be persuaded to go to the movies but he will not watch foreign
language
films, costume dramas, political thrillers, chick flicks, rom-coms or weepies, unless there is some kind of football content.

Donnie is obsessed with football. He pays for Daphne to have cable TV installed in her flat so that he can watch matches when he comes round. He takes pride in a comprehensive knowledge of the
game and his team and laughs when Daphne calls him an anorak. He knows off the top of his head when, and by how many goals, his team has ever won a competition. He’s intimately acquainted with players’ details, their backgrounds and future prospects. He compiles databases of team statistics and applies complicated
formulae
to predict the outcome of each game. Sometimes he is right. Whenever he gives Daphne advice, for instance about one of her difficult students, it is always couched in footballing terms,
counselling
her to ‘take control of the dressing room’, or ‘show them your championship medals’. One room of his flat is virtually filled with football memorabilia. Daphne sometimes finds him there, reading from his stack of fanatical fanzines, chuckling away to himself.

But Donnie chuckling is a lot easier than Donnie panicking. With drastically reduced medication his behaviour has been wild and unpredictable over the last few weeks. It is a temporary side effect and will stop when the chemicals settle down, Daphne tells herself, but it’s embarrassing and often inconvenient.

They make arrangements to meet friends for dinner and half an hour before, Donnie decides he doesn’t want to go. Daphne has to call off with a lame excuse that she knows they can hear in her voice. So, she makes a steak pie from scratch, and, just when she is cooling the perfectly golden crusted pie and transferring the buttery mash into an old-fashioned tureen, Donnie throws up and has to go to bed. Daphne brings him tea and he lies quietly sipping, only managing to get up when
Match of the Day
comes on.

They accept an invitation to go paintballing with Daphne’s crowd. In the communal changing room the atmosphere is crazy. Everybody is talking loudly, bumping into each other, struggling into their kit: overall, chest shield and helmet, ammo belt and gun. Donnie is the first one dressed and ready to go. He produces a tube of something and carefully smears two even black lines under his eyes. One of the nicknames Daphne has given Donnie is Semper Apparatus, based on his predilection for being well equipped for every occasion. He is good to himself and spends many hours in sports shops eyeing, buying, and, when the opportunity presents itself, stealing pocket-sized products.

‘Oh yeah!’ says Carlsberg. ‘Give us a shot of your warpaint, Donnie, that looks cool.’

Donnie hands it round and now they all look cool, even Nancy Boy. The battledress transforms Daphne’s harmless pals into fierce warriors, handsome and heroic. Donnie looks especially sexy, Daphne thinks, as she imagines his face inches above hers in bed tonight. She makes a mental note to ask him to bring the warpaint.

As the instructor takes them down to the gate of the battlefield, Lucy starts a whooping rallying call and this is swiftly taken up by all of Green Platoon, as they have become. Their adversaries, Blue Platoon, a stag party of eight hung-over lads, are already at the gate. They have no enthusiasm for an opposing war cry and already Green Platoon have the psychological advantage. Striding forward, Donnie waves his gun in the air the way people do in the Middle East and the platoon follows his initiative.

After going through the tedious safety talk, ‘protective
equipment
must not be removed at any time within the war zone,’ the instructor tells both sides that the object of the game is to obtain the enemy’s flag and plant it on the hill.

Exchange of fire is at first tentative and sporadic but quickly becomes reckless. Within ten minutes Daphne is grabbed from behind and pulled into thick bushes. She believes she has fallen foul of a kidnap attempt by the Blues and struggles as hard as she can, but her captor is Donnie.

She can tell immediately that something is up. He has taken a direct hit, his breastplate is splattered with blue paint but it’s worse than that. The black under his eyes is wet, either with sweat or tears, Daphne is not keen to find out which.

‘I can’t do this, I’m just not …’

‘Oh Donnie don’t, please, not today. C’mon, we can’t let the side down; we’ve just started! So you’ve been hit, it’s okay, we’ve all been hit, I’ve been hit twice, I’m going to have a corker of a bruise tomorrow but we’re winning! I got that big baldy guy a cracker, right on his side…’

‘I’m going home.’

‘What for? What’s wrong with you?’

‘I can’t do this.’

‘Okay, relax; nobody’s making you do it. I’ll come back with you to the changing room. Get a cup of tea or something out of the machine, you can wait for us there.’

‘No. I’m leaving.’

‘But Donnie, what about Mark and Lucy, how will they get home?’

‘I don’t give a shit about Mark and Lucy, I nearly took one in the eye, it missed me by a fraction.’

‘But that’s what the helmet’s for! It’s perfectly safe. D’you think they’d still be in business if their customers’ eyeballs were regularly exploding? They wouldn’t get insurance, the council would shut them down; think about it, be rational, Donnie. Lucy and Mark need a lift, how will they get back if we leave?’

‘I didn’t say you had to leave. Stay. Enjoy yourself.’

‘How are you going to get home? We’re in the middle of nowhere.’

‘I’ll get a taxi, I’ll…’

‘A taxi?’

Everyone is gutted that Daphne has twisted her knee. It takes a few minutes to sort out alternative transport arrangements for Lucy and Mark, vital minutes on the field of battle. They wave them off as Daphne hops to the car with Donnie, who gallantly if a little inelegantly, lifts her poor twisted knee and supports her.

Although no one says it, Daphne feels like a deserter. Her
comrades
say nothing but suffer a humiliating defeat at the hands of the hung-over Blue Platoon. At college Daphne will have to wear an elastic bandage around her knee, and remember to hirple for a few days. Donnie nicknames her Gimpy. That night they have comforting, rather domestic sex. Daphne has forgotten all about the warpaint.

Donnie worries constantly that she will leave him. He talks about it all the time, more and more since he lowered the dose of the antidepressant. He mentions it at least once a day, saying she’s bound to run off with someone else.

Daphne knows she’s no supermodel but neither is she a
toothless
hag. She scrubs up well, her thick dark hair gathering in solid
clumps around her heart-shaped face. With a push-up bra she can muster quite a respectable cleavage and hip length jackets work wonders on her chicken drumstick thighs. She favours pastel shades that don’t try to compete with her high colouring: her cheeks are red and round like Santa’s and with glittering green eyes and a flashing white smile she can be as vibrant or as irritating as a fruit machine. Before she met Donnie she had always suspected, although she would never say so, that she is beautiful.

Donnie says so, he tells her so often that she now accepts it as a given. But she’s acting the innocent, he says, pretending to be unaware that men fancy her. Daphne concedes that she might occasionally encounter members of the opposite sex who are
attracted
to her, but what does he think she is?

He remains unconvinced of this argument and watches her like a hawk around her male friends. She makes an effort to be tactile with him in front of people so they get the message; so he gets the message. After sex he holds her so tight she can hardly breathe. As he kisses her neck and strokes her hair, she says soppy things to reassure him, waiting until he’s asleep before unravelling his arms.

Sometimes she thinks: wouldn’t it be nice to have a nice
ordinary
boyfriend, one who didn’t constantly harp on that he was about to be chucked, instead of one who, if he were to keep up this unrelentingly needy, greedy, craziness, might find himself chucked.

And then he chucks her.