Nobody's Angel (5 page)

I carried the glass to the living room and sat in the dark, my feet resting on the window ledge. In a while the day people would start lining up at the corner bus stop. I

would hear air brakes hiss, and then a Chicago Transit Authority bus would shriek to a stop and they would all climb aboard, and the day would officially begin.

And then, full morning with the rest of the world wide awake, it would be time to pull down the shades and go to sleep.

I'd been a day person once. I'd had a good job, a house on a quiet, tree-lined street, a family. Now I usually managed to sleep through those too-bright hours.

At 5:15 the clock radio went off in Betty Cunningham's apartment. A while later, I could hear her on the other side of our common wall, getting ready for work.

When she'd moved in, three years before, we'd spent about two months as full-time lovers. But we'd been doomed from the start. She worked days, as an assembler in an electronics factory, and I drove nights, and neither one of us thought the other worth changing shifts for.

Betty was a few months older than I was, a Kentucky transplant who wore tons of makeup, chain-smoked Virginia Slims and still managed to be overweight. And, let's be honest, I wasn't any prize.

She'd had a few boyfriends since my time but none had lasted even as long as I had, so I could always console myself that I wasn't the worst of the lot.

Now, when Betty didn't have anything going on, we'd get together Sunday mornings after I got off work.

We'd usually have breakfast, and then spend some time in her bedroom. Irv, my dayman, never worked Sundays, so I had the cab all day. If it was nice we'd take a ride along the lakefront, maybe up through the North Shore to gaze at the homes of the rich. Or we'd see a movie, or have an early dinner somewhere, or just lie around napping and watching TV.

We seldom saw each other during the week. But Betty had the strange knack of knowing when I was awake in the morning. I could be sitting absolutely still at the

window and she'd knock lightly at the door. But she never knocked once I was in the bedroom.

Today, I stopped in the kitchen on the way to the door and added a splash of whiskey.

Betty looked at the glass, took a whiff of the air, then a drag on her cigarette. She blew a long stream of smoke my way. I held the glass up in a toast.

"Christ, what time did you get home?" She leaned against the hallway wall.

"About three," I admitted.

"Slow night?"

I nodded.

"You should have hollered." She smiled.

I shrugged and she rewarded me with another stream of cigarette smoke.

"I really wouldn't mind sometimes." She fluttered her eyelashes and faked a blush and that was more than enough for me.

"Come on," I said, and I tried to pull her inside, but she danced away and wagged a finger at me.

"Time to catch my bus."

It was the same old story. I always wanted her when she was right there in front of me. But I barely thought about her when she wasn't around.

Betty waved and started away, then stopped and turned back. "Eddie, there was something on the radio. They said another cabdriver "

"Some suburban driver." I nodded. "I saw it in the paper."

"See you Sunday." She blew a final stream of smoke my way.

"Sunday," I said, and I watched her walk down the hall. She always looked great in jeans.

I went back to the window and watched her sprint for the bus. I sat there sipping the whiskey and then, hours after the bus had gone, I picked up the phone and dialed.

The line echoed back two thousand miles, then the phone began to ring. This was a call I'd been making every few months for years. I never talked to anybody. Usually an answering machine picked up. It was just a small way of keeping in touch. I sat with my finger on the cradle, ready to hang up at the sound of my ex-wife's voice.

"Hello?" a voice answered the phone. It was a younger voice, a gentle voice.

I didn't say anything.

"Hello," the voice said again, and then I was sure.

"Cookie?"

"I'm sorry," she said pleasantly. "You must have the wrong number." Cookie was a nickname I'd given her when she was two. It didn't surprise me to find that my ex-wife no longer used it.

"Laura?"

"Who's calling please?"

"Laura, it's your dad," I said.

"Daddy?" she said, and all my troubles were gone.

"Oh, baby, you don't know how I've missed you."

"Oh, Daddy, where have you been?"

"Who is that?" a loud voice called from the background.

"Daddy?" the girl said again.

"Baby, I want you to know "

"Who is this?" A familiar voice shouted straight into my ear. How had I ever loved that voice? "Who is this?" she shouted again.

"Who do you think?"

"We have a legal agreement, Mister Miles," she shouted. "If you ever call here again "

"Mother!" my daughter shouted in the background.

"Get her out of here!" the shrill voice commanded, and then switched back to the phone. "You son of a bitch, I thought you were dead for sure."

"She's my daughter!"

"Haven't you caused enough pain?"

"I've got some money now," I said.

"It's a little late for your money," she said, and the line went dead.

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The neighborhood kids woke me on their way home from school. I lay there in bed listening to their laughter and fighting, and fragments of the night flickered through my mind. Relita. The cops. The sweetness of my daughter's voice followed by the nightmare voice of my ex: I thought you were dead for sure. And now she knew I wasn't. Was that good or bad?

I looked out the window. Irv, my dayman, had quit early. The cab was parked at the curb.

I showered and shaved, and went out to another grey day.

My first load was a nurse on her way to Weiss Hospital. $2.80 on the meter; she gave me three and told me to keep the change.

I went south, heading for the business down in the Loop. Two short hops and I was on Michigan Avenue where a woman with a tiny shopping bag waved.

"Thank you so much," she said climbing in. "Union Station, the Adams entrance, please."

I worked my way through the Loop, through early rush hour traffic. Thousands of trench coats were heading the same direction we were, to the commuter railroad stations just west of the river.

There was $4.40 on the meter when I pulled up with a swarm of other cabs. The woman handed me five dollars. "Keep it," she said.

A young black guy hurried over and opened the passenger door. He was clean and healthy looking, wearing a navy pea coat and sporting a thin goatee.

The woman started out, then stopped. "Driver, I'm sorry. Could you let me have one quarter, please."

I handed her a quarter and she dropped it into the guy's waiting hand. "Thank you," he said, and he closed the door behind her and held the same hand out to me. "Help the poor?"

"Whose quarter you think that was?"

I started away but then the black guy slapped the side of the car. "Got one for you," he shouted.

"Do you go south?"

It was an older black woman. She was lugging an old suitcase, one that looked like an oversized doctor's bag.

I waved her towards the cab, and the guy grabbed her suitcase and started around for the trunk.

"Put it in here." I reached back and opened the door.

The woman slid into the back seat. The guy slid the suitcase in behind her. "Thank you so much," she said, and she handed him a dollar.

She gave me an address on South Aberdeen and I pulled away trying to calculate what the guy might make on a good day. If you could make a buck and a quarter every thirty seconds for an hour

"Where you coming from?" I asked, once we were on the highway heading south.

"Mississippi," she said.

"Good trip?"

"A funeral."

"Oh. Sorry."

"Long time coming," she said.

The address was in the heart of Englewood. But most of the neighborhood--like so many other neighborhoods on the South and West Sides--was pretty much gone. Half the buildings had disappeared. There were drug dealers and gangbangers on the corners. But the old woman lived in the middle of the block, in a well-kept six flat, with a sturdy looking gate out front.

Ten dollars on the meter. She gave me thirteen.

"Thanks very much," I said, and started to open my door. "Let me help with your bag."

"No. No. You stay right there." She got out, then reached back for the bag. "Don't pick anybody up out here," she whispered. "Lock your doors. Go straight back to the highway."

I locked the doors, waited until she was through the gate, then I followed the rest of her advice.

I got stuck in a traffic jam on the way back to the Loop, then wandered around for a while, trying to stay away from the worst of the traffic.

I made a short hop from LaSalle Street to Union Station. The black guy was nowhere around.

An older guy in a suit and tie flagged me on Wacker Drive. As we headed for Lincoln Park, he opened a newspaper. "They ought to give you guys shields," he said.

"This job isn't bad enough," I said. "Now you want us to drive around locked up in little cages all day."

"Whatever you say," he decided. $6.20 on the meter, I got $7.00.

On Lincoln Avenue, a familiar-looking guy was standing at a bus stop holding a small gym bag. As I stopped for the light, he stepped off the curb and looked up the street

for a bus, then decided the-hell-with-the-CTA and pointed a finger my way. I waved him over.

"The Three-Six," he said, sliding in.

"You going to work?" I asked.

"Goin' to pick up the fucking cab," he said and he didn't sound very happy about it.

"Maybe I'll get something to eat," I said.

The Three-Six was a restaurant and cabdriver hangout just north of the Loop. There was a big parking lot that was often busier than the restaurant itself. If the dayman lived south and the nightman north, it was the perfect spot to drop the cab.

"You always do nights?" the guy asked.

"Yeah. How about you?"