Now You See Me (11 page)

“I do?” She reached up, scrubbed at the wrong side with her finger. “Did that get it?”

“No, it’s on the other— Stop, you’re making it worse. Here.” He was probably going to hell for giving in to temptation this easily, but he couldn’t stand and watch any longer. If helping her meant he had to touch her, well, he’d suffer the consequences.

He grabbed a towel and ran the corner under water. At his approach she turned off the flame beneath the pot and looked up at him.

He stopped when she was barely within reach, not trusting himself to go closer. He told himself this meant nothing as he raised the towel and dabbed oh so gently at the jam. But even as his fingers brushed her skin, her scent reached out to him—strawberry and vanilla and a hint of sweat, just enough to make his mind jump to other activities that could leave people perspiring.

His hand dropped to his side. “There. Got it.”

She stood very still, eyes wide. She bit down on her lip, quickly, then took a short breath and said, so softly that he could barely hear, “Are you sure you got it all?”

She stepped closer. And lifted her face to his, tilting slightly to reveal the cheek that was still pink from his earlier efforts.

There wasn’t a bit of jam in sight, but damn, he was only human.

“You’re right. Looks like I missed a spot.” He ran his finger gently across her cheekbone, longing to cup her face in his hands and kiss her. One side of his brain whispered a reminder that he should keep his distance until the sale papers were signed. The other side was busy shouting that if he didn’t kiss her, he’d be the world’s biggest idiot.

She lifted her head slightly so his brief touch began to resemble a caress. He saw the pulse leaping at the base of her neck. If he ducked his head he could put his lips to it and feel her pounding through him.

She leaned closer, leading with her breasts. His fingers slipped lower, his thumb flicking against the corner of her mouth. Her eyes closed, but from the way she parted her lips, he didn’t think she was trying to block him out. Anything but.

He might fry for all eternity, but his thumb grazed the edge of her bottom lip. She inched closer. He leaned forward and reached toward her with his other hand—

“You said you weren’t going to hit on her.”

Lyddie yipped and jumped back about two feet. J.T. whirled to face Ben, tense and glowering in the doorway with an expression of supreme revulsion on his face. It seemed that things couldn’t get any worse.

Then a noise from the other side of the room made him turn just in time to see Ruth walking rapidly away from the screen door.

CHAPTER EIGHT

S
HE
COULD
DO
IT
.

Lyddie sat at the kitchen table the next night looking over the list of supplies Ben needed for camp but her mind wasn’t on shorts, windbreakers and binoculars. Even as she made check marks next to the items he already had and highlighted those she would need to buy, all she could think of was the same subject that had occupied her mind for the past twenty-four hours: that moment in the kitchen right before Ben opened his mouth. The moment when she knew J.T. was going to kiss her.

The moment when she knew she wanted more.

She told herself, as she had a hundred times since, that it was good they’d been interrupted. She could still tell Ben that J.T. had merely been cleaning her face. Okay, so neither of them believed it. Ben spent the day avoiding her. Ruth stayed silent, pressing her lips together and appearing on the edge of tears whenever Lyddie came near.

But worse than putting up with their reactions had been the knowledge that if J.T.’s lips had actually brushed hers the way she ached for them to, she would have been all over him like chocolate ice cream on a toddler. They would have needed a chain saw to get her off him.

And all night and all day, a little voice kept whispering in the back of her head that soon, she would be alone. For two glorious weeks. Fourteen days and fourteen long, hot summer nights.

She could do things. Things with J.T., things that would definitely make her feel like anything but the Young Widow Brewster. And nobody would be around to stop them.

The possibilities made her shiver.

Tish glanced up from her puzzle on the other side of the table. “Mommy, are you cold?”

“No, sweetie.”

“Why did you do that quiver thing?”

Because I’m imagining how it would feel to have J. T. Delaney underneath me.
“Oh, you know. Just a chill.”

Tish considered that. At least
she
was still speaking to Lyddie. It was nice to know she wasn’t a total outcast.

“Mommy?”

“Yes, sweetie?”

“When will the teacher letters come?”

“You mean the one that tells who your teacher will be next year? Just before school starts.”

“Oh.” Tish frowned at her puzzle piece, turning it aimlessly in her hand without trying to fit it into the opening in front of her. “I hope I don’t get Miss Lockhart.”

“Why not? She’s supposed to be good.”

“I don’t like her. She makes me feel funny.”

“Funny ha-ha or funny strange?”

But Tish must have decided she’d said too much, because she merely rolled her eyes and shrugged. “I don’t know. Can I call Millie?”

“Who?”

“Millie. From camp.”

“Sure, I guess. Why?”

Tish gave one of her best drama-queen sighs. “So I can talk to her.”

Lyddie laughed and held out her arms. “That makes sense. But it’ll cost you a hug and a kiss.”

Tish consented to a hug and offered her cheek for a kiss. She even allowed a quick tickle before squirming out of Lyddie’s embrace and skipping to the phone. Lyddie coached her through dialing and the welcome, then slipped out of the room when it became obvious that Tish no longer needed her.

She ran upstairs, passing the closed door to Ruth’s room. She considered knocking, then shook her head and moved on. Glenn was dead. She wasn’t. She had done nothing she needed to explain or apologize for.

At least not yet.

On impulse, she ran to her room, dropped the list on the quilt-covered bed and grabbed her wallet off the dresser before rapping sharply on Ruth’s door.

“Ruth, I’m running out for milk. I’ll be back soon.”

There was a moment’s silence, followed by a reproachful admonition to do as she wished. Lyddie shook her head but refused to stop now. She told Tish to head upstairs with her grandmother and flew to the car before anyone could stop her. Her daughter wasn’t the only one who needed to talk to someone.

Five minutes later, she pulled into the parking lot of the library, knowing full well that it was closed at this time of night. She locked the doors, waited for the radio to finish playing “Call Me Maybe”—grinning at the irony even as she sang along—then punched numbers into her phone with a prayer that this was a good time.

“Hello?”

Lyddie breathed a sigh of relief. Prayer number one had been answered.

“Zoë, it’s me. I know things are crazy, but have you got a few minutes?”

“If you don’t mind slurping noises and the occasional burp.”

“Oh, do I remember those days. Not a problem. How’s she doing?”

“She’s perfect, and I slept six hours straight last night, and Sara is a godsend and the boys are actually cooperating. But that’s not why you called. What’s up?”

Lyddie glanced around the deserted parking lot and slumped lower in the seat. “Um, see, there’s this guy....”

“No!” But unlike Ruth, there was nothing but delight in Zoë’s denial. “Really? That’s wonderful! Tell me.”

“Well, he used to live here. He’s home for the summer. And he seems kind of, um, interesting.”

“What’s his name? No, wait, I don’t want to know. I might have met him.”

“You haven’t. But Sara has.”

“Well, then, if you want to talk freely, he should stay anonymous. Mr. X.”

“God, Zo, are you stuck in high school?”

“High school is better than what I’m doing now. This kid has suction that could put vacuum cleaners out of business. So what does he look like?”

“Dark hair. Black with a little gray you only see in sunlight.”

“Forget sunlight. You want moonlight.”

She thought back to the night on the porch and grinned. “Actually, in moonlight it looks raven.”

“Holy crap, you’ve done moonlight already?”

“Is that any way to speak in front of an innocent child?”

“She likes it. Her little eyes are telling me she wants more excitement from Aunt Lyddie. Tell me more.”

“Well, let me think. His eyes crinkle when he smiles. He smiles a lot, at least around me. He has this mouth that makes me remember things I thought I’d forgotten, and wonder about things I thought I’d never wonder again.”

For a moment the only sound was muffled breathing and gulping. Lyddie assumed Zoë was tending to the baby until she heard a sniff.

“Zoë? Are you okay?”

“Yes. I can’t help it, I’m still hormonal.”

“What’s wrong?”

“Nothing. I’m just so damned glad to hear you happy again, you know?”

Lyddie closed her eyes and smiled over the lump forming in her own throat. “Yeah. I know.”

Zoë sniffed again, then blew out a long breath. “Okay. I have to stop bawling, I’m dripping on the baby. So, has he asked you out? What are you going to do?”

“That’s the problem. See, like I said, he’s only here for the summer. Which is good, because it’s not like I need anything permanent. But it turns out I’m going to be alone for a couple of weeks, everyone will be gone and he seems interested, so I keep thinking maybe—”

“Oh, my God. Are you thinking of doing him?”

Lyddie winced as she stared into the darkening lot once again. “Don’t say that. It sounds so trampish.”

Zoë hooted with laughter, then immediately shushed the baby, who had started to wail at the sound. “Shh, Emily, sh. Mommy didn’t mean to scare you. But Aunt Lyddie said something too funny!”

“I’m glad you think it’s cute. I’m dying of mortification.”

“Come on, Lyd. You’ve been alone for four years. You were faithful to Glenn forever. Unless you were the campus slut back in college, I don’t think you have to worry about being a tramp.”

Lyddie ran one finger around the rim of the steering wheel, staring out at the river. It was dark tonight, heavy with the anticipation of approaching rain.

Anticipation. That, she could empathize with.

“So, you gonna jump him?”

She snorted into the phone. “Please. I wouldn’t even know how to start. What do I do, hand him a cup of morning roast and say, ‘Coffee, tea or me?’”

“If you want to do it, you should. It’s not like you’re a high school kid who has to worry about her reputation.”

If only Zoë knew just how much
reputation
was factoring in to this decision.

“You have to, Lyd. It’s perfect. You’ll be alone. You know how to be subtle. The kids will never know their mother is a slut.”

“Geez, Zoë. Like that’s the kind of thing I need to hear right now?”

“I’m in public relations. I know how to use words. And we’re talking the height of tourist season, right? Isn’t that when the gossip network dies way down?”

“Not really, but...” Lyddie spoke slowly, unsure whether to go along with Zoë’s reasoning or not. But she had a point. In tourist season Lyddie could probably have sex in a convertible on Main Street and the main concern would be whether or not it drew a paying crowd.

“So do it.”

“Yeah. Right. I’ll add it to my to-do list. Buy Tish new shorts, get Ben’s health forms for camp and proposition J. T. Delaney.”

Zoë groaned. “So much for keeping it anonymous.”

“Whatever. Look, we both know I’m not that kind of woman. I can’t sleep with a man I barely know. That kind of thing can get a gal killed these days.”

“So here’s what you do. You have about two weeks before everyone leaves, right?”

“Ten days.”

“Not like you’re counting or anything. Anyway, you screw up your courage, you ask him if he’s involved or busy, you ask him to do a test right away. You can buy them over the counter.”

“You’re kidding.”

“Not about that. Go across the bridge into New York. You can get mouth swab tests and blood ones there, though I think you have to mail in the blood ones. You’re a worrywart, so get both. You’ll trust the results more if you do. Do the tests, get the answer and if he’s good to go, heck, you go, girl.”

Phrased like that, it sounded almost possible. Except—

“And then, after sleeping with this man for two weeks, I’m supposed to drop him, just like that?”

“After two weeks, they’re all boring, anyway.”

“Does Kevin know that?”

“Kevin is the exception. So was Glenn. But that’s not the important part.”

“I can’t wait to hear what you think
is
the important part.”

“It’s this, kiddo. You have the time, you have the opportunity and you have the potential partner. You’re an adult woman with adult needs. What would you regret more? Taking the chance on doing something wild and crazy just for you? Or passing up this chance and saying ‘shoulda, woulda, coulda’ for the rest of your life?”

* * *

T
HE
GHOST
OF
almost-kisses haunted J.T. from the moment he walked out of Lyddie’s house, followed him as he walked the streets of town and dogged him now as he slapped a final coat of paint on the last cottage.

He should have kissed her while he had the chance. Shouldn’t have dallied. Should have stayed far away. Should never have asked Ben about her in the first place.

Would regret both missing out and putting her in an awkward position for the rest of his days.

Ben poked his head around the corner from the bedroom where he’d been assigned to work. “I’m done in there.”

It was the first comment other than a grunt that J.T. had heard from the kid since getting caught pre-kiss. He’d let it slide, figuring that some solitary painting would do them both good.

But now, with the bulk of the work behind them, it was time to talk this over, man to kid-trying-desperately-to-be-a-man. He hoped he hadn’t blown things with Ben. The kid was basically all right. A little messed-up in his choice of friends, but it wasn’t like he had much of a selection in the Cove.

“Okay. This wall is almost done. You finish it, and I’ll start cleaning.”

Ben lingered a moment, then slowly peeled himself away from the door and joined J.T. and grabbed the roller and tray.

“Nice to see these places looking decent again.” J.T. eased into conversation over the rhythmic squeak of the roller. “My dad always kept them in good shape when I was a kid. I can’t believe he let them slide like this.”

“Huh.” Ben frowned at the paint.

Okay, that didn’t go so well. At least they were in the same room.

“Of course,” he continued as though this were a normal conversation, “you never can tell if you’re remembering things the way they happened or not. When you’re the kid, you don’t always see things the way adults do.”

Ben’s snort told J.T. his subtle approach had been less than successful. Time for Plan B.

Unfortunately, Plan B was an outright, “So you walked in on something you didn’t like last night.” And while he would use that tactic if he had to, he had the feeling it wasn’t the best way to handle Ben. This was a kid who still bristled at being told what to do. If he could find a way to give Ben the opening, he suspected the going would be a lot smoother.

“Yeah, my dad was a stickler about doing things the right way. Probably just trying to drum something through my thick head, but I remember him telling me how to do things over and over, the same directions until I could practically puke. ’Course, I never forgot them, so maybe he knew what he was doing.”

Shrug. Then, very casually Ben asked, “What happened to him?”

“My dad? I guess he didn’t have as much energy once he got older. It takes a lot to keep all these places up.”

“No. I mean, what
happened
to him.”

Ah, damn.
This was gonna be a hell of a way to get the kid to open up.

“He went out on the river in a storm.”

“Did he go overboard?”

“No. He made it to an island, but then he had a heart attack.” The thought of his father dying alone, slowly, half-drowning in the driving rain, was still enough to make J.T.’s voice falter.

Ben nodded. “Thought that’s what it was. I heard stuff back when it happened, but no one would talk about it in front of me.” He switched to a sarcastic falsetto. “Shhh. The
children
might hear you.”

A-ha. A chink in the armor. Ben resented being kept out of the loop, treated like a little kid. Maybe this conversation could be worth the cost.