Obediently Yours (21 page)

“That’s right! You were disobedient, my naughty little girl. You will take your punishment and cooperate throughout. If you recall, that is one of your rules and I expect you to obey it!” he states.

Spank! Spank! Spank!
He continues to spank me with his hand. God, it hurts. My bottom is hot and stinging. After a minute, he stops and says, “Now, baby girl, go lie on your changing table so I can diaper you and get you ready for bed. Do you have anything to say to me, little one?”

“Y-y-y-yes, Daddy, thank you for punishing me,” I sniffle, remembering my rule to always thank Daddy after a punishment. My ass is on fire.

Daddy gets me all wrapped up snug in a diaper and plastic panties, my rear end still stinging from the harsh but deserved spanking. Then Daddy finishes getting me all zipped up in my footie pajamas, my bottom rubbed with lotion and powdered. “Go back to your naughty corner while I get your dinner, baby girl,” he orders and I obey. After a few minutes, Daddy comes back in and tells me to get into my crib and lay back. I put my head on the pillow and look up at Daddy, trying to convey my apologies through my eyes as he looks down at me disapprovingly.

“Since you are being punished, Daddy will not give you your supper while sitting on my lap, my arms around you, which is what I had planned before I found out how naughty you are, missy! Now, you will lie there and hold your bottles, finish every last drop because that is all you get until breakfast tomorrow.” He hands me two bottles, one filled with water and the other with chocolate milk. I take the baby bottles reluctantly, upset not only at missing out on being held by Daddy, but also disappointed and sad that I won’t get to eat any of the lasagna that Daddy made. I could smell that heavenly scent of good Italian cooking the moment I walked into the house. Now I have nothing but bottles of liquid. Yuck! I drink down the bottles, happy to have something in my tummy. I feel terrible that I misbehaved. There is no question I feel submissive now. Controlled and dominated. A contrite little girl who angered Daddy and lost his approval. It is the worst feeling imaginable. Daddy walks back into the room.

“Did you finish your bottles, baby girl?” he asks.

“Yes, Daddy,” I say, holding the empty bottles out to him.

“Are you still hungry? Do you want some more?” he asks, looking concerned.

“No, thank you, Daddy. I wasn’t that hungry. I’m really sorry I was naughty, Daddy,” I say.

“I know you are, sweetie. Perhaps we can start tomorrow off to be a better day. As bad as it may feel to you, I am being punished just as much as you are,” he chuckles. “Tonight you will sleep here. I will miss having your warm body in bed next to mine, holding you all night, but that is part of the punishment.” He takes the blankets and pulls them up to right under my chin. I turn on my side in a fetal position. “Good night, baby,” he says, kissing my forehead, then pulling the side of the crib up, trapping me in my infantile bed.

“Good night, Daddy,” I respond. Daddy walks out of the room, turning the lights off as he goes.

I feel like crying again as I see him walk away. When I agreed to be Daddy’s girlfriend and baby girl, I did not realize exactly what I was agreeing to. Reading stories about dominant Daddies, punishment, and discipline does not prepare you for the real thing. And this is the real thing. I am lying in an adult nursery, spanked and diapered, punished like a naughty little girl.

Speaking of diapered, I really need to pee now. The thought of peeing in a diaper is humiliating and arousing at the same time. I don’t want to lie in a wet diaper all night though. But I really need to pee. The pressure in my bladder has reached the point where I cannot hold it anymore. I relax and, sure enough, I feel the warmth spread in my diaper. It occurs to me I have to wait to be changed. I feel so dominated and controlled. Kept and conquered. I’m forty years old and yet I am totally regressed to an infant. Being treated like a scolded and punished baby. I have to wait for someone else to help me when I have been doing for myself all of my life. Down below I feel a familiar tingle. It’s unbelievable. I am getting aroused lying in a wet diaper. I think I am horrified at myself. I want to slide my hand down my diaper so badly to relieve that ever-present ache, but I know I am forbidden from doing so. Rules, rules, rules. I usually make the rules. I’m not used to doing what someone else wants.

I also feel guilty that my disobedience led to Daddy’s night being ruined too. Most important and profound, however, is that more than anything I feel completely loved. I crave Daddy’s touch. I miss him. I’ve missed him all week and now I am denied him due to my behavior. I’m going to be completely obedient this weekend. The perfect good girl. This is my last thought as I drift off to sleep.

Chapter Eight

I wake up the next morning to sunlight streaming through the window and feeling a hand sliding down my diaper. I open my eyes and see Daddy. I am so happy to see him. He smiles down at me.

“Ah, I can feel my baby girl used her diaper like a good girl,” he says as he continues to slide his hand down further. I feel his fingers probe and reach my swollen labia. “I guess you are wet in more ways than one, huh, little one?” he asks in his oozing-sex-appeal voice.

A sense of humiliation washes over me. “Yes, Daddy,” I answer in my own small, submissive voice. I start to gyrate on his hand as he continues to stroke me. I simply cannot help it. My need to climax is so close already. “Please, Daddy,” I beg breathlessly as arousal continues to flood me.

“Does my baby girl want to cum? Are you all tingly in your private place? Do you want Daddy to make you cum, sweetie?” he asks as he strokes my clit with more pressure now.

“Oh, Daddy, I’m…I’m…gonna…oh, please!” I plead. Daddy continues to rub my clit more quickly now, applying even more pressure. I feel myself go over the edge. Starbursts of pleasure. It happens so quickly, I barely knew I was close enough to cum.

After taking a shower together, we have breakfast, enjoy a quiet and relaxing morning. Daddy and I talked a lot about how I felt last night. He wanted to know where my thinking was, reiterating the importance of complete communication. It was an emotional experience for both of us, but I think it strengthened our bond, if that is even possible. Our connection is so intense, like two halves making a whole. I learned a very valuable lesson about how seriously he takes this. It has forced me to evaluate what I really want. In the end, despite being punished, it is exactly what I want and need. My dominating, demanding, nurturing, and loving Daddy.

* * *

So goes the next few weekends with the same routine. Happily, the times when Daddy reviewed my journal, he could see that I tried hard to comply with and obey his rules. If I am struggling with something, I just need to tell Daddy, talk it through with him. For example, I had a day at work where I was in meetings back to back. I was unable to follow my potty rules and ended up going to the bathroom when I could, which was not on schedule. That night when we spoke on the phone, I told Daddy what happened. Instead of being angry that I was disobedient, he praised me for being honest and keeping him informed. So it seems there is a balance between following the rules and informing him when the rules become a problem or obstruction to living.

I work during the week and think with anticipation and excitement what the weekend has to offer. My world revolves more and more around Richard…Daddy. Some weekends have been very low-key on the age play, more focused on developing our romantic relationship. Other times, we have played out some of the scenarios that Daddy enjoys. The best part is that we always talk before the scene and he takes my desires into consideration when they play out. After a scene, we talk again. Daddy wants details about how I felt, what I enjoyed and did not enjoy. He is forthcoming with me too. He told me that he loves every facet of our relationship and is totally blissful about our deepening love. He also told me that being my Dom makes him incredibly fulfilled and happy. We are able to meet each other’s needs in a profound way.

Regardless of how deep our age play is at any given time, I am still expected to follow all of my rules when I am with Daddy. It has been difficult getting used to being told when I have to go to bed, which is always earlier than I want to go. I’ve gotten used to asking Daddy for permission to go potty and we both enjoyed a weekend scene that involved Daddy “potty training” me. I spent the weekend in pull-ups instead of panties and Daddy put me on a strict potty schedule so I would stay dry. This was a challenge, given that he kept me very well hydrated.

I expressed my interest to Daddy in playing a scene as the bratty teenager. That was a lot of fun and boy, did my bottom get spanked hard. By far, that scene taught me my level of pain tolerance. I was spanked with several implements, including a ruler, bath brush (ouch!) and, of course, Daddy’s strong hand. Up until that point, Daddy always spanked me over his knees, but as the bratty teenager, Daddy enjoyed making me bend over his desk while he spanked me with a long, wooden ruler. Daddy told me later that he always wanted to play out a spanking scene in his study with me over his desk. Boy, did he make my ass sting that night! I had to safeword “yellow” when the pain reached a point I did not think I could take much longer. Daddy stopped the scene to check in with me. I told him it really hurt and I was reaching my limit. The best part happened next when Daddy scooped me up in his arms and kissed me with such passion. It took my breath away. He told me that he was immensely proud of me for safewording. Nothing makes him as happy as when I am honest about how I feel and what I need. Apparently, telling the truth gets my Daddy hot and bothered! To each his own, I guess. We had very hot, sticky, sweaty sex after that scene and I lost count of the number of orgasms he gave me.

Eventually, each weekend comes to an end and I have to sadly bid farewell to Daddy for another week. Interestingly, the people at work have commented to me that I have seemed happier lately. My administrative assistant asked outright if I was seeing someone. I joyfully told her about my handsome, kind Richard. Even though we keep the age play side of our relationship strictly between the two of us, it does not mean I cannot share details about the relationship I have with Richard, my boyfriend. He is one and the same as my Daddy Dom. Just as I am Siobhan, the girlfriend and baby girl, the submissive. Regardless of who he is and what we are doing at any given time, I find myself growing more and more in love with Richard/Daddy every day.

* * *

This weekend, Daddy wants to show me his romantic side. Daddy surprises me by telling me we are going out for dinner that evening. We go back to Giuseppe’s, which is now our favorite restaurant. It’s funny because I barely remember eating the last time we were here, when we met. It seems like so long ago now. So much has happened. We have a light and easy banter back and forth as we enjoy our meal when my cell phone rings.

“Excuse me, Richard, sorry,” I say as I answer my phone. Before going out in public, Daddy told me that I should use his given name when we go out.

“Hello,” I answer.

“Siobhan, sweetheart, it’s Michael,” my stepfather responds.

“Hi, Michael, what’s going on?” I ask, wondering what he could want. No doubt it is some issue with Elise, my mother.

“Honey, your mom left very upset. I hurt my back and have been homebound for several days. I think your mom reached her stress limit. I just got a call from the bartender at Frank’s Pub.” His voice is so kind.

“Say no more, Michael, I understand,” I say, knowing full well what he is asking of me. “I will go get her and bring her home.”

“Thank you so much, honey. I am sorry to put you out like this, but I just cannot move too well with my back. I hope I am not spoiling your plans this evening,” he says.

If you only knew Michael. “No, it’s fine, I will see you soon, okay? Don’t worry about her. She will be fine,” I say, knowing that Elise is well on her way to being drunk by now. I end the cell phone call and look up at Richard.

“What’s wrong, baby?” he asks, concerned.

“I have to go take care of something with my mom. Can you run me back home so I can get my car, please?” I ask, hoping he will not ask too many questions.

Looking at me rather incredulously, he responds, “Ah, no, I will do no such thing, Siobhan! I will take you wherever you need to go. You can always count on me, baby.”

“Richard, I truly appreciate your kindness and know that you are always there for me, but this issue with my mom, it is ugly and I don’t want you to see it,” I say, hoping he will understand. From the look on his face, I can tell I am out of luck as far as that goes.

“Siobhan, where do we need to go?” he asks as he throws money on the table to cover the check. He reaches for my hand as he stands and leads me out of the restaurant.

“Richard, please, please listen to me. My mom…the situation with her is difficult. Please just drive me home so I can get my car and take care of this. You don’t want to be anywhere near my dysfunctional family crap,” I plead, my voice laced with nervousness.

“Enough, baby girl!” he states in his very dominant voice, opening the door to the car for me. I sit down and Richard leans over me to buckle my seatbelt. When he enters the driver’s side of the car, I turn my head to look at him. His face is stern, his eyes blazing with anger. What do I do? How do I manage this situation? I do not want Richard to see just how fucked up my family is, how fucked up I really am. Crap. He is not going to concede on this at all. I decide to go with total honesty and tell him the sad tale.

“Richard, that phone call was from my stepfather. He hurt his back and is unable to go pick up my mother at the local bar. She is a bipolar alcoholic. Michael said she is upset that he has been hurt and is now royally drunk, I am sure. He needs me to pick her up and bring her home. The relationship with my mother is complicated. I know I have not talked about her too much before. There is a reason. It’s a very ugly situation. I just don’t want you to see it firsthand.”