Obediently Yours (5 page)

Unable to stop the thoughts, I hear James’ voice in my head again, telling me that I am weak and undisciplined. “That is why you are so fat,” his voice booms strongly in my head as if he were right there, looking at me with disgust.
“How can you have no self-control? You are weak, Siobhan. No, you are pathetic and the sight of you makes me sick. Look at those rolls of fat everywhere. Your stomach sticks out like you are pregnant. I don’t know how you can stand to look at yourself. I can’t stand to look at you. Why would I want to touch you?”

My eyes fill with tears as his words play back in my mind over and over again. The feelings of shame and humiliation overwhelm me as I sink further into the memories of James standing over me, his cruel words and mocking tone making me feel ashamed about my size, making me feel weak and unworthy. He said those same words so many times when they were together. It was a pitiful relationship that ended over three years ago, thank goodness. Glancing over at the clock, I realize it is very late and I have to get up early tomorrow. Enough wallowing in self-pity! I head toward my bedroom, leaving the ugly thoughts behind.

Chapter Three

After a miserable day dealing with multiple personnel issues, I could not wait to let the day go and lose myself in the fantasy life I have created with my Daddy. It’s almost like an anonymous therapy session. I don’t have to worry about how I look and I can spill my guts to my heart’s content. Best of all, it doesn’t cost anything! I smile at this thought.

Logging into my inbox, I see a pop-up box, “Daddy Dom has accepted you as a chat friend.” I no sooner finish reading this when I see the following message pop up:

D
ADDY
D
OM:
H
I,
B
ABY
G
IRL.
I
WAS HOPING WE COULD CHAT LIVE.

Clicking on the response box, I type, “Hi, Daddy. I’d love to chat with you,” then hit enter on the keyboard. My response pops up in the dialogue box.

D
ADDY
D
OM:
W
E FINALLY CONNECT LIVE.
F
ANTASTIC.
H
OW ARE YOU?

L
ITTLE
S
IOBHAN:
I
’M GREAT,
D
ADDY, THANKS FOR ASKING.
H
OW ARE YOU?

D
ADDY
D
OM:
I
’M GOOD TOO.
B
ETTER NOW THAT
I
CAN CHAT WITH YOU.
D
O YOU HAVE SOME TIME AND PRIVACY RIGHT NOW?

L
ITTLE
S
IOBHAN:
Y
ES,
I
DO.
J
UST FINISHED REREADING YOUR LAST EMAIL.
G
LAD YOU LIKED MY ANSWERS.

D
ADDY
D
OM:
Y
ES, YOU WERE VERY THOROUGH.
I
’M IMPRESSED.
W
ITH OTHERS
I
HAVE PLAYED WITH, THE ANSWERS WERE ONE OR TWO-WORD PHRASES, NEVER SUCH IN-DEPTH ANALYSIS AND REVELATION LIKE FROM YOU.
Y
OU PLEASE ME, BABY GIRL!
V
ERY MUCH.

L
ITTLE
S
IOBHAN:
T
HANKS,
D
ADDY.
I
LOVE IT WHEN YOU CALL ME BABY GIRL.

D
ADDY
D
OM:
T
HAT IS WHAT YOU ARE, MY BABY GIRL.
T
HIS WILL BE FUN FOR BOTH OF US.
F
EELS LIKE WE ARE IN SYNC WITH WHAT WE ARE LOOKING FOR.

L
ITTLE
S
IOBHAN:
Y
ES,
I
AGREE.
G
REAT MINDS THINK ALIKE.

D
ADDY
D
OM:
LOL
.
Y
ES, YOU ARE RIGHT, BABY GIRL.
W
E DO THINK ALIKE.
A
RE YOU EXCITED ABOUT REALLY ROLE-PLAYING TO THE EXTENT PLANNED?

L
ITTLE
S
IOBHAN:
O
H, YES,
I
CAN’T WAIT.
I
’M BOUNCING UP AND DOWN INSIDE JUST LIKE A LITTLE KID.
H
OW APPROPRIATE!

D
ADDY
D
OM:
Y
ES, YOU ARE EXCITED, LITTLE ONE.
I
’M HAPPY THAT YOU ARE.
I
HAVE SOME MORE QUESTIONS FOR YOU.
R
EADY?

L
ITTLE
S
IOBHAN:
I
’M READY.

D
ADDY
D
OM:
I
’M READY….WHO?

L
ITTLE
S
IOBHAN:
O
H, SORRY,
D
ADDY.
I
’M READY,
D
ADDY.

D
ADDY
D
OM:
G
OOD GIRL.
D
ON’T FORGET TO SHOW RESPECT TO YOUR
D
ADDY AT ALL TIMES.

L
ITTLE
S
IOBHAN:
O
KAY,
D
ADDY.

D
ADDY
D
OM:
I
WAS JUST WONDERING.
Y
OU SEEM TO PREFER PULL-UPS OVER DIAPERS, WHY?

L
ITTLE
S
IOBHAN:
I
THINK PULL-UPS ARE MORE CONFINING.
I
LIKE THAT FEELING.
A
LSO, IT FEELS A LITTLE LESS TABOO.
D
IAPERS ARE EXTREME.
B
UT
I
HAVE WORN DIAPERS TOO.

D
ADDY
D
OM:
I
SEE.
G
OOD TO KNOW.
Y
OU LIKE LOTS OF BULK, RIGHT?

L
ITTLE
S
IOBHAN:
Y
ES,
I
LIKE HAVING THE WADDLE WHEN
I
WALK.

D
ADDY
D
OM:
LOL
.
I
GET IT.
W
HAT ABOUT OTHER ASPECTS OF BEING A BABY GIRL?
Y
OU SAID YOU DO NOT WANT TO DO BABY TALK.
T
HAT’S FINE.
I
’M THINKING MORE OF REGRESSION TO MAKE YOU FEEL LITTLE AND SUBMISSIVE.
T
HIS IS ALL IN RELATION AS ADULTS.
O
NLY ADULT AGE PLAY.
I
WANT TO MAKE SURE YOU UNDERSTAND THAT.

L
ITTLE
S
IOBHAN:
Y
ES,
D
ADDY,
I
UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU ARE SAYING.
I
’M FINE WITH REGRESSION.
I
DON’T MIND EXPANDING MY BOUNDARIES.
I
WILL TELL YOU IF
I
HAVE A CONCERN.

D
ADDY
D
OM:
T
HAT’S EXCELLENT.
W
E MUST HAVE OPEN COMMUNICATION.
Y
OU HAVE TO BE COMFORTABLE AND TELL ME IF YOU ARE NOT.
T
HIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE FUN FOR BOTH OF US.
Y
OU HAVE BEEN HONEST WITH ME.

L
ITTLE
S
IOBHAN:
Y
ES,
D
ADDY,
I
HAVE BEEN TOTALLY HONEST WITH YOU.
B
EING ANONYMOUS HELPS WITH THIS.
Y
OU ARE FINE WITH IT?

D
ADDY
D
OM:
Y
ES, WE DO NOT NEED TO GET TOO PERSONAL.
I
MAGINATION IS KEY.
A
LTHOUGH
I
WOULD LIKE TO KNOW MORE ABOUT YOU AS A PERSON.
O
NLY INFORMATION YOU FEEL COMFORTABLE SHARING.
M
AY
I
ASK YOU A FEW QUESTIONS ALONG THIS LINE?
O
NLY ANSWER AND SHARE WHAT YOU ARE COMFORTABLE WITH.

L
ITTLE
S
IOBHAN:
Y
OU ARE RIGHT ABOUT MY IMAGINATION AND IT IS VERY ACTIVE AND VERY KINKY!
I
’M OKAY WITH ANSWERING SOME QUESTIONS.
S
HOOT.

D
ADDY
D
OM:
T
ELL ME ABOUT SOME OF YOUR INTERESTS OR HOBBIES.
W
HAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO FOR FUN BESIDES CHATTING WITH KINKY MEN WHO LIKES TO DOMINATE HIS ADULT BABY GIRLS?

L
ITTLE
S
IOBHAN:
W
ELL, TO BE PERFECTLY HONEST,
I
DO NOT HAVE A LOT OF INTERESTS OR HOBBIES.
I
WORK LONG HOURS AND WHEN
I
COME HOME
I
AM REALLY TIRED.
I
DO LOVE TO READ, ALTHOUGH LATELY ALL
I
WANT TO READ IS EROTICA.
I
AM ALSO A VERY AVID GARDENER.
I
LOVE TO GROW FLOWERS AND VEGETABLES.
I
DON’T REALLY LIKE VEGETABLES TOO MUCH, SO
I
GROW THEM BUT DON’T EAT THEM!

D
ADDY
D
OM:
I
COULD GO ALL
D
OM ON YOU AND TELL YOU THAT YOU MUST EAT YOUR VEGETABLES LIKE A GOOD GIRL, BUT
I
WILL REFRAIN BECAUSE
I
ENJOY YOU SHARING THIS INFORMATION WITH ME.
G
ARDENING IS VERY THERAPEUTIC FROM WHAT
I
UNDERSTAND.
I
DO NOT GARDEN MYSELF, BUT
I
AM CLOSE TO PEOPLE WHO DO.

D
ADDY
D
OM:
S
O ANOTHER QUESTION, HAVE YOU EVER BEEN MARRIED?
Y
OU SAID IN YOUR ANSWER REGARDING PRIVACY THAT YOU LIVE ALONE.
D
O YOU HAVE ANOTHER MAN IN YOUR LIFE?

L
ITTLE
S
IOBHAN:
Y
OU ARE RIGHT ABOUT GARDENING BEING THERAPEUTIC.
I
N REGARDS TO YOUR QUESTION ABOUT MARRIAGE—
I
HAVE NEVER BEEN MARRIED.
I
CAME CLOSE ONCE BUT IT DID NOT COME TO FRUITION.
I
DO NOT HAVE ANY MAN IN MY LIFE, REAL OR ONLINE, EXCEPT FOR YOU!

D
ADDY
D
OM:
T
HAT IS GOOD NEWS TO HEAR,
S
IOBHAN.
I
DO NOT LIKE TO SHARE AND
I
AM GLAD THAT WE ARE EXCLUSIVE EVEN WITH THIS BEING AN ONLINE RELATIONSHIP.
I
WANT TO PROVIDE YOU WITH EVERYTHING YOU WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS EXPERIENCE.
P
LEASE BE SURE TO TELL ME WHAT YOUR WANTS AND NEEDS ARE AS WE MOVE FORWARD.
G
OOD COMMUNICATION IS CRITICAL, ESPECIALLY BECAUSE
I
CANNOT GAUGE YOUR REACTIONS TO THINGS
I
AM DOING OR SAYING UNLESS YOU TELL ME.
T
HIS IS WHAT MAKES ONLINE ROLE-PLAYING CHALLENGING AND OFTEN TIMES NOT TOO SUCCESSFUL FOR THE LONG TERM.
I
HOPE THAT WE CAN ENGAGE OFTEN AND ONGOING.
I
HAVE WAITED FOR A LONG TIME TO PLAY WITH SOMEONE WHO IS COMPATIBLE TO MY INTERESTS.

L
ITTLE
S
IOBHAN:
I
COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU MEAN,
D
ADDY.
I
T IS AMAZING HOW MUCH WE ARE IN SYNC WITH ONE ANOTHER AND
I
FEEL LIKE
I
CAN BE COMPLETELY HONEST AND UP FRONT WITH YOU.
I
HAVE NO REASON NOT TO.

D
ADDY
D
OM:
G
LAD TO HEAR THIS, LITTLE ONE.
I
WAS SO AMAZED BY YOUR ANSWERS TO MY QUESTIONS.
S
OME OF THEM WERE VERY INVASIVE, OF COURSE, DESIGNED TO BE SO.
I
T IS A MEANS TO LEARN HOW INVESTED A POTENTIAL PLAY PARTNER IS.
Y
OU SEEM VERY GENUINE AND SINCERE IN YOUR ANSWERS.
Y
OU ARE VERY OPEN WITH YOUR THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS.
I
FIND THIS VERY REFRESHING.
I
T ALSO HELPS THAT YOU ARE A VERY KINKY GIRL, WHICH IS PERFECT FOR A KINKY DADDY LIKE ME.