Authors: Derek Walcott
does from a kick. It was the last form of self-defence,
it was the scream of gangrene, and the vine round his heel
with its thorns. Waiters in bow-ties on the terrace
laughed at his anger. They too had been simplified.
They were like Lawrence crossing the sand with his trays.
They laughed at simplicities, the laugh of a wounded race.
Chapter LX
I
He had never seen such strange weather; the surprise
of a tempestuous January that churned
the foreshore brown with remarkable, bursting seas
convinced him that “somewhere people interfering
with the course of nature”; the feathery mare’s tails
were more threateningly frequent, and its sunsets
the roaring ovens of the hurricane season,
while the frigates hung closer inland and the nets
starved on their bamboo poles. The rain lost its reason
and behaved with no sense at all. What had angered
the rain and made the sea foam? Seven Seas would talk
bewilderingly that man was an endangered
species now, a spectre, just like the Aruac
or the egret, or parrots screaming in terror
when men approached, and that once men were satisfied
with destroying men they would move on to Nature.
And those were the omens. He must not be afraid
once he kept his respect; the scarves of the sibyl
were those mare’s tails over the island. Their changing
was beyond his strength and he was responsible
only to himself. The wisdom was enraging.
In fury, he sailed south, away from the trawlers
who were dredging the banks the way others had mined
the archipelago for silver. New silver was
the catch threshing the cavernous hold till each mound
was a pyramid; banks robbed by thirty-mile seines,
their refrigerated scales packed tightly as coins,
and no more lobsters on the seabed. All the signs
of a hidden devastation under the cones
of volcanic gorges. Every dawn made his trade
difficult and empty, sending him farther out
than he wanted to go, until he felt betrayed
by his calling, by a greed that had never banned
the voracious, insatiable nets. Fathoms where
he had seen the marlin buckle and leap were sand
clean at the bottom; the steely blue albacore
no longer leapt to his line, questioning dolphins,
yes, but the shrimp were finished, their bodies were curled
like exhausted Caribs in the deep silver mines;
was he the only fisherman left in the world
using the old ways, who believed his work was prayer,
who caught only enough, since the sea had to live,
because it was life? So he sailed down to Soufrière
along and close to the coast. He might have to leave
the village for good, its hotels and marinas,
the ice-packed shrimps of pink tourists, and find someplace,
some cove he could settle like another Aeneas,
founding not Rome but home, to survive in its peace,
far from the discos, the transports, the greed, the noise.
So he and Philoctete loaded the canoe and went
searching down the coastline, Anse La Raye, Canaries,
past cliffs pinned with birds, past beaches still innocent
where he saw a small boy alone, riding a log
and fishing with a twine, and the memory sent
a spear into his chest; he waved from the pirogue
but the small boy ignored him, just as Achille had
other boats long ago. Lean, supple, stark-naked.
But he found no cove he liked as much as his own
village, whatever the future brought, no inlet
spoke to him quietly, no bay parted its mouth
like Helen under him, so he told Philoctete
that until they found it they would keep going south,
as far as the Grenadines, though supplies were tight.
II
They spent the whole night on the beach in Soufrière,
talking to other fishermen under the horned,
holy peaks, where Achille built up a bonfire
to keep off the mosquitoes, where as the dry palms burned
he felt like the phantom of a vanishing race
of heroes, some toothless, some scarred, many of them turned
drunkards in the empty season, but in each face
by the cracking sparks there was that obvious wound
made from loving the sea over their own country.
Then he and Philoctete spoke till a hooked moon waned
and the twin horns sharpened out of a quiet sea.
They slept in the beached canoe till the sunlit wind
woke them and the other pirogues were setting out.
They washed and shat in the depot; they tried to find
a shop with some coffee, but all the doors were shut.
III
They saw what they thought were reefs wet with the morning
level light, seven miles nearer the Grenadines,
till they began passing the sail, and then a warning
cry from Philoctete, who was hauling in the lines
from the bow, showed him that the reefs were travelling
faster than they were, and begged him to shorten sail.
Exultant with terror, Philo kept ravelling
the line round his fist, and then both gasped as one whale—
“Baleine,”
said Achille—lifted its tapering wedge
as a bouquet of spume hissed from its splitting pod,
as it slowly heightened the island of itself,
then sounded, the tail sliding, till it disappeared
into a white hole whose trough, as it came, lifted
In God We Troust
with its two men high off the shelf
of the open sea, then set it back down under
a swell that swamped them, while the indifferent shoal
foamed northward. He has seen the shut face of thunder,
he has known the frightening trough dividing the soul
from this life and the other, he has seen the pod
burst into spray. The bilge was bailed out, the sail
turned home, their wet, salted faces shining with God.
Chapter LXI
I
She was framed forever in the last century,
as was much of Ireland with its lace-draped parlours,
its shawled pianos, her antique maroon settee
(on auction after the Raj); it was not all hers,
this formal affection for candlelight on the
brass buttons of his Regimental mess-jacket,
those of an R.S.M., not a proper major,
since he loved it when she swirled her hair and packed it
in a bun spiked with a silver pin; when she wore
a frock with frothing collar and, like an oval
cameo, posed with one palm nesting the other
on the maroon couch with its parenthetical,
rhyming armrests—a daguerreotype of Mother—
which he studied as he wiggled one polished pump.
And sometimes she sang
a capella,
to the squeak
of his patent leather on the elephant stump
of the Indian hassock. It was so
fin de siècle!
He often wondered if he’d fought the wrong war in
the wrong century. That swan-bowed, Victorian neck,
made whiter by its black-ribboned medallion,
would make him rise from his armchair and sail her hand
around the lances of the candles where Helen
waited in the shadows in that madras head-tie
that whitened her tolerant and enormous eyes.
It was all a lark. Like something out of Etty
or Alma-Tadema, those gold-framed memories,
stroking the tom in the dark with an ageing hand.
All her county shone in her face when the power
was cut, and the wick in the lamp would leap, as live
as the russet glints of her proud hair when she wore
it long and spread it over the wild grass to give
all that a girl could, with the camouflaged troop-ships
below them in the roadstead, with gulls buzzing the cliff
and screeching above us when she parted both lips
and searched for his soul with her tongue, her wild grey eyes
as flecked with light as the sea; then she was urging
me to go in, port of entry, with my fingers,
and I could not. Angry at being a virgin,
she turned her neck and I brushed the soft downy hair
from her ear’s shelled perfection with archaic respect;
she steered my hand through the froth of her underwear,
sobbing, but with a firmness I didn’t expect
from such a small wrist, but I couldn’t. And then she
sat up and stared at the roots of the grass and smiled
faintly back at me. I said it was unlucky,
that I needed something to wait for, and perhaps
that was the nineteenth-century part, Tom. To be
more like an officer, and not one of those chaps
who knocked up beer-headed barmaids, got them with child,
and I told her that, stroking her huddled shoulders.
I wanted to believe in her more than the war;
it was like an old novel, with shawls and soldiers,
that’s how it was, Tom. She said, “I feel like a whore,”
bending her white neck, stabbing her bun with a pin.
“Trying to trap you.” I said, “We’ll have a son, yes.
But this isn’t the way you want this to happen
either.” She took my fist and rubbed it with her tears.
They lay back on the grass, and after a while, her
tears stopped. He told her of an island he had seen
in an advert. An island where he could retire
if he lived through the war. She would give him a son.
Gnats were rising from the grass, and they watched the path
of the bent lances surrendering to the sun,
and the shining drops of the drizzle’s aftermath
glittered like the letters by which she would be known
from that day forth, on that dragonfly afternoon.
The heat was hellish in the back of the rumshop.
The Major leant forward. The cane-bottom chair creaked.
Sweat clammed his khaki shirt. The sibyl closed her eyes
and removed her cracked lenses. The candle peaked
and the flame bent from one of those cavernous sighs
that came from the bowels of the earth. He waited.
She buried the sprig of croton to the brass bell’s
tinkle in the open Bible, and he hated
the smell of fuming incense and everything else—
the lace doilies, the beads, his doubt.
“I see flat
water, like silver. I see your wife walking there
in a white dress with frills and pressing her white hat
with one hand in the breeze by a lake.”
Glen-da-Lough.
But she could get that from any cheap calendar.
The Major smiled. She didn’t have that far to look.
Close to Maud on the bed’s shambles, he’d imagined
her soul as a small whirring thing that instantly
shot from its crumpled sheath, from its nest of dry vine,
to cross the tin roofs that furrowed into a sea
till, like a curlew lowering in the grey wind,
it saw the knolls and broken castles of Ireland.
Plunkett never thought he would ask the next question.
“Heaven?” He smiled.
“Yes. If heaven is a green place.”
And her shut eyes watered while his own were open.
That moment bound him for good to another race.
Then the Major said, “Tell her something for me, please.”
“She can hear you,” the
gardeuse
said, “Just like in life.”
“Tell her,” said the Major, clearing his throat, “the keys …
that time when I slammed them, I’m sorry that I caused her
all that pain. Tell her”—he stopped—“that no other wife
would have borne so much.” He lifted the small saucer
where the candle had shrunk to a stub, and he edged
a twenty-dollar bill under it, near the Bible.
II
Ma Kilman opened her eyes, took her spectacles
off, and rubbed their cracked lenses. She was no sibyl
without them.
“She happy, sir.” Like you oracles,
so would I be, he thought. A twenty-dollar bill
as an extra. He was rising from her table
of sweaty plastic when a white hand divided
the bamboo-bead curtain, and calm as Glen-da-Lough’s
vision, Maud smiled, to let him through. The wound in his
head froze him in the scorched street. Innumerable flocks
of birds screamed from her guidebook over the shacks
of the village, their shadows like enormous fans,
all those she had sewn to the silken quilt, with tags
pinned to their spurs, and he knew her transparent hands
had unstitched them as he watched them flying over
the grooved roofs till they were simply the shadow of …
of a cloud on the hills. He sat in the Rover
and looked back at the No Pain Café. Maud closed the door
and sat next to him with the bread, beaming with love.
There was the same contentment in her demeanour
as when they had seen the old man with his grey bag
carrying the serpents’ heads. He had not seen the
old labourer emerge from the unrolling flag
of smoke from his charcoal pit. The archangel showed
her how far he lived: in a cleft of green mountains
ridged like an iguana’s spine. Under the old road
with its storm-echoing leaves, steady mountain winds
made the valley churn like wake at a liner’s stern
and bent the green bamboos like archers; the old ones
creaking in their yellow joints. The track snaked through
ferns, wriggling up from the hidden river with the sign