On Fire (12 page)

“You have no reason to trust me,” he said.

“It’s not that. I just don’t know if it’s my place—”

“Sig, a man is dead, murdered. Your grandfather is missing. Even if what you have isn’t directly related, if you think it might help me figure out what’s going on, stop it from escalating, then you should tell me. If not, feel free to keep it to yourself.”

She licked her lips, bit down hard.

“Is it about Sam Cassain?” Straker asked. “He stopped here last week.”

Tears glistened in her eyes, spilled almost immediately onto her cheeks. She flicked them away with her fingertips, as if furious. “I can’t stand it—I cry at the drop of a hat.” She made a valiant attempt at a smile, gave up before it had formed. “My mother and Sam had an affair.”

“Damn.”

“I know. It happened just before she bought her house here. It didn’t last. Sam was never Mom’s type, and vice versa. I guess my parents almost split up—the affair was their wake-up call to make changes, which they did.”

“What happened when he stopped by last week? What did he say? How long was he here?”

She shook her head, eyes lowered. “I don’t know what he said. I stayed in my studio. He left after about twenty minutes.”

“And Riley doesn’t know,” Straker said.

“I’m sure Mom’s telling her now.”

“Who else knew?”

“Everyone,” Sig said bluntly. “My father, Emile, the Grangers. It was a fling, a wake-up call for all of us, herself included, that something was wrong. She moved up here, and things have worked out since. She didn’t want Riley to know about Sam—I guess none of us did.”

“Why?” But Straker could guess.

“It’s hard for any of us to live up to her expectations,” she said. “It’s not that she’s hard on us, it’s that she believes in us so much. I suppose we just want to pretend we’re as good as she thinks we are.”

Straker couldn’t see it, maybe because Riley didn’t think much of him to begin with. “Emile?”

“Emile is her idol. He would want to disappoint her least of all.”

Riley sank into a hot bath sprinkled with a few drops of essential oil of rosemary. It was supposed to revive her. Good. She needed reviving. She had things to do before nightfall, and she couldn’t let her confusion and anger, her total frustration, get the better of her.

Straker and her mother were down in the kitchen. She could hear Straker’s terse laugh, her mother’s
strong, confident voice. They were getting along fine considering she’d warned Riley not fifteen minutes ago to watch out for him, that he wasn’t normal. Her mother and Sig wouldn’t expect him to be charming. Well, no one would.

Her conversation with her mother had been awkward, painful and brief. Riley shut her eyes and breathed out over the steaming water, tried to absorb the unexpected news, tried not to picture the bloated body on the rocks of Labreque Island. Sam Cassain. Her mother.
Good God.

She wasn’t as put out about being the last to know as she might have anticipated. She was often oblivious to personal undercurrents. Rivalries, jealousies, mad crushes, personality conflicts, the occasional illicit affair. It wasn’t that she wasn’t interested—more often than not she just didn’t notice. Through example and edict, Emile had taught her to stay focused on her work.

Yet even he’d known about her mother’s affair with the captain of the
Encounter.

With deliberate effort, Riley concentrated on her breathing. Eventually her mind drifted. Her body relaxed. After a while, she became aware the water had cooled. A knock came at the door. “Riley?” Straker’s voice, like a bucket of boiling water in her tub. Her skin felt as if it were on fire. “You didn’t go down the drain, did you?”

“No, I was just getting out.”

She moved, the water stirring, and she went still as she pictured him out there in the hall, listening. Imagining her in the tub.

“Straker? You still there?”

“I haven’t moved a muscle.”

His voice was deep and low, like liquid heat down her spine. She kept very still. “Could you go down and heat up a can of soup or something? I’m starving.”

“I can do soup,” he said, and she thought she detected a trace of knowing humor in his tone.

She waited until she heard his footsteps on the stairs. Her skin was prune-wrinkled and pink, but she shivered when she stepped out of the tub. She rubbed herself down with one of her mother’s big, soft towels. Like the rest of the house, the bathroom was tasteful, understated and comfortable. It bore little resemblance to the series of functional apartments and houses her parents had rented when she and Sig were growing up.

Riley could remember when her mother had shared Emile’s excitement and vision for their work, for the center. His growing fame and the pressures of his single-mindedness—her husband’s single-mindedness, her own—had put a subtle, ever-present strain on everyone.

Relationships weren’t easy even when you had everything in common, Riley thought, sprinkling herself with powder. She and Straker didn’t have anything in common, and whatever was going on between them, it could hardly be called a relationship. Just because she couldn’t stop thinking about him in the most basic, physical ways didn’t mean a thing. He was a rough, competent, utterly masculine man, and what she was feeling was…simple biology.

So why was she sorry she’d sicced Armistead on him? Why did she want to hear him laugh?

Don’t even think it,
she warned herself, and quickly pulled on her clothes.

Her mother had a bowl of steaming, homemade bean soup on the kitchen table. “John’s back talking to Sig,” she said. “He doesn’t seem as…unbalanced as I expected.”

“He believes in Emile.”

Her mother looked pained. “So do I, Riley.”

“I didn’t mean it that way.” She sat in front of the soup, wished she could stop her mother from being so defensive. “Straker considers himself Emile’s friend, but that doesn’t mean he thinks Emile couldn’t have—” She stopped abruptly.
Couldn’t have killed your ex-lover.
“It doesn’t make any difference to him if Emile’s done something or not.”

“John’s always had his own way of looking at things.” Her mother attempted a small smile, twisted her hands together as she paced in her homey kitchen. “I’m sorry. I’m not trying to put you on the spot. I’m not proud of myself. For Sam, for not telling you when I found out it was his body you’d found.”

“You don’t owe me an apology or an explanation.” Riley tried the soup, but she’d lost her appetite.

Mara leaned against the counter and shut her eyes, her regret, her pain, evident. Her father was missing; Sam Cassain was dead. “I hadn’t seen Sam in ages, not even after the
Encounter
went down. I didn’t want to see him.”

“Why did he stop by?”

She shrugged. “I don’t know, just to say hello, he said. He seemed content, almost smug. I think…” She chose her next words carefully. “I think our affair was
a coup for him. I was a scientist, Emile Labreque’s daughter, Richard St. Joe’s wife—your mother. I saw that last week, and frankly, I didn’t like it. I didn’t like him. I didn’t like myself.”

Riley wanted to crawl under the table. This sort of introspective, heart-to-heart talk with her mother made her squirm. She tried more of her soup, but her stomach rebelled.

“Sam Cassain was a selfish, greedy man,” her mother continued. “His needs always came first, and he wasn’t afraid to ask for what he wanted. I guess I needed that in my life at one time.”

“Mom, I’m not judging you—”

“No.” Her smile reached her eyes. “Of course you’re not. It’s long, long over. I love your father. We worked things out. That’s all that matters.”

Riley nodded. “I guess I’m as thick-headed as Emile. I never suspected a thing. You sure you’re all right?”

“I’m fine.”

“I plan to head up to Schoodic, stay at Emile’s—”

Her mother winced. “I wish you wouldn’t.”

“I’ll be okay. I can’t just sit back, I have to do something. If I can find Emile—”

“You think it’ll make a difference?” Mara asked.

Riley ignored the trace of bitterness in her mother’s voice. “I’ll be careful,” she said. “I’ll go on back and say goodbye to Sig, see what Straker’s up to.”

“You know where I am if you need me.”

When Riley ducked onto the back porch, she found her sister standing next to a packed overnight bag. Straker was nowhere in sight.

“Straker left,” Sig said. “He told me to tell you he needs room to maneuver and you should go find some whales and dolphins to save.”

Riley groaned. “I hate him. I’ve hated him since I was six years old.”

“You’re so full of it. You know, he’s better looking than I remembered. And sexy. My God, don’t tell me you haven’t noticed. I know it’s not just my raging hormones. Well.” She slipped a shawl over her shoulders, further concealing her pregnancy. “I’ve decided to help you look for Emile.”

“What? Sig, you’re pregnant. You can’t.”

“I’m not helpless. And Emile’s my grandfather, too.”

Riley frowned at her sister and searched her face for clues to her real motives. Sig loved Emile. There was no question of that. But that wasn’t why she’d packed up. Sig had always had a laissez-faire attitude toward their grandfather. She wasn’t one to meddle in his decisions and actions, whether he was filming a documentary on whales or having his reputation ripped to shreds by tragedy and reckless accusations. Her policy, from as long as Riley could remember, was to stay out of it.

“It’s Matt,” Riley said. “Isn’t it?”

Sig made a face. “No wonder Straker snuck off on you. He told me you’re a pain in the ass, and you
are.
”

“Sig, you don’t think Matt had anything to do with Sam’s death, do you?”

But her sister went pale, mumbled, “I don’t know,” and hoisted her bag onto her shoulder. She leveled her dark eyes on Riley. “For my sake, and the sake of my babies, I have to find out. He’s in this thing up to his
eyeballs, Riley. I just don’t know how or why or where it’s all going to end.”

“Oh, Sig,” Riley said. “Does Mom know you’re going?”

“I packed while you were in the tub. She’s opposed, but she knows she can’t stop me. That’s why she’s not seeing us off. I’m thirty-four years old. I know what I have to do.” She set her jaw. “If I don’t go with you, Riley, I go alone. It’s that simple. Your choice.”

“Like that’s any choice. All right, but here’s the deal. The
second
I think you’re pushing it, I’m hauling you back here or straight to a hospital. I won’t have you endanger your health on my watch.”

Sig sniffed. “I’m not on your watch. I’m on my own watch. And I have been for some time.” She attempted an encouraging smile. “I know what I’m doing.”

“Good, because I sure as hell don’t.”

“That’s another quarter for my mason jar.” She yawned, not exactly looking up to traipsing after her seventy-six-year-old grandfather. “I’m thinking of exempting hells and damns. What do you think?”

Riley laughed. “I think Straker’d be happy he didn’t stick around. This whole family’s nuts.”

T
hey stopped for lobster rolls and wild-blueberry pie and made it to Emile’s before Riley had to stop a third time for Sig, who constantly sipped water, to go to the bathroom. “You’re going to be impossible in your third trimester,” Riley told her.

“I hope so. I hate suffering in silence.”

The air was cool and still, the tide out, the last of the dark clouds pushing east and exposing a starlit sky. Riley breathed in, feeling herself relax. She could smell the ocean, spruce, pine, and for an instant, she was carefree and six again.

“We should build a bonfire and toast marshmallows,” Sig said beside her, obviously sharing her mood. “Maybe Emile would smell them, wherever he is, and come to his senses.”

“Do you think he’s out here somewhere?”

“I don’t know. I gave up a long time ago trying to figure out how he thinks.”

Riley unlocked the door to their grandfather’s cabin, and they carried their gear inside. The place seemed empty, almost uninhabited. She turned on lights and built a fire in the woodstove while Sig, looking more exhausted than she’d ever admit, flopped onto the couch. “You still believe he can do no wrong, don’t you?”

“You mean Emile.”

“Of
course
I mean Emile.”

Riley opened the dampers on the stove, struck a match and set her kindling ablaze. She watched the flames, remembered the orange glow of Sam’s house last night, the crush of firefighters and police and onlookers, and Matt Granger there at the edges of the crowd. Her brother-in-law. Sig’s husband. Riley hadn’t told her sister about seeing him at Sam’s, about her encounter with him earlier that afternoon. It was obvious Sig wasn’t here because of Emile. She was here because of Matt.

“I was nearly killed last year.” A skinny piece of kindling caught fire, blackened and smoked as the flames ate it up. Riley kept her back to her sister. If she didn’t, she was afraid Sig would guess she was hiding something. “Those hours in the submersible with Emile will haunt me to my dying days. We were hot, couldn’t breathe. We were so sure we were going to die.”

“Even Emile?”

“I think he already knew Bennett was dead—I think he thought we’d all be lost. Everyone aboard the
Encounter.
He never said. He’s so stoic. His only concern was me, what had happened to the crew. He didn’t care about the ship, his mission, his research.” She sighed. “We were cut off from Sam and the crew. We wanted
to believe they got into the lifeboats, but the fire and flooding were so horrific, we just didn’t know.”

“Sam always struck me as self-serving, but you have to admit he never benefited from accusing Emile. His own career went down the tubes this past year.”

But Riley was back in the submersible, hot, gasping for air. “I didn’t panic.” Sig seemed to know what she was talking about. “Maybe it was shock, I don’t know. Emile never said a word about how he thought the ship caught fire.”

“Well, that doesn’t surprise me,” Sig said. “If you’re about to suffocate or drop to the bottom of the ocean, what difference does it make who did what?”

“I suppose. Still, when the Coast Guard picked us up and Sam started flinging accusations, Emile never defended himself. I don’t know if he blamed himself out of a sense of honor because the
Encounter
was his ship, or if he really believed he’d cut safety corners—or if he just didn’t want to credit Sam’s accusations with a response.”

Riley shut her eyes. She thought she’d had all this worked out. That she’d done all her post-trauma work and she would never again feel this crawling sense of panic. Her narrow escape in the submersible, she realized, would be with her forever.

“Riley? Look, if this is too hard for you to talk about—”

“It’s not. I’m fine.” She took a breath, held it, let it out slowly; she couldn’t lose control when Sig had so much more at stake. Twins, a faltering marriage. “The question is, do I believe Sam’s version of what
happened to the
Encounter?
Do I believe Emile’s arrogance and obsession with his work caused it to go down? The engine should have shut off. If the automatic safety features weren’t working properly, if there’d been a crewman posted…” She turned, faced her sister. “I don’t want to blame Emile, but the truth is, I don’t know what happened to the
Encounter.
”

Sig frowned, stretched out on the couch, her shoes off. “It blew up, caught fire and sank for a reason. Five people died, Riley, including my father-in-law.”

“Don’t you think I know that? I was
there.
” She grabbed a small oak log, shoved it on the burning kindling, nearly smothering the flames. “It was an old ship, Sig. Unless we go out and dredge it up, we’ll probably never know for sure what happened.”

Sig was silent.

The fire was throwing off heat now, and Riley turned to her sister, could feel the warmth on her back. “I’m sorry. I don’t mean to upset you—”

“I’m pregnant, I’m not sick. And I’m not fragile. Don’t tiptoe around me, okay? If Sam…” Sig thought a moment, fidgeting, pulling at the fringe on her shawl. “If he was murdered, we have to assume someone would have a motive to kill him. What if he had proof the
Encounter
was sabotaged—or of criminal negligence, something?”

“What, and he brought it to Emile and Emile killed him?”

“I don’t know. Maybe, maybe not. Maybe it was phony proof and Emile cracked, or maybe Sam came after him for revenge and Emile killed him in self-
defense. Maybe Emile didn’t have one damned thing to do with killing him. How the hell would I know?” She paused, eyes narrowed. “And how would you know?”

Riley kept her cool. “I’ve worked side by side with Emile since I turned thirteen. He didn’t kill Sam. Sig, come on. You know he didn’t.”

“All right. Let’s do it your way. For the sake of argument, let’s eliminate Emile as a suspect. Let’s say someone else killed Sam. Let’s say Sam had evidence of neglect or sabotage—proof something went very wrong aboard the
Encounter
and it wasn’t just one of those things, something beyond anyone’s control.”

“He just pinned it on the wrong person?”

“Right. What would he do with that kind of proof?”

Riley didn’t hesitate. “He’d try to make a profit.”

“He wouldn’t go to the police?”

“No. When Sam railed to the Coast Guard and then the rest of the world about Emile, it wasn’t for the sake of justice. It was for revenge, and to keep anyone from blaming him for what happened. I’m not saying he was evil or even particularly bad, he just looked out for himself.”

“Until someone hit him on the head and let him drown.”

Riley shuddered.

Sig pulled her shawl more tightly around her shoulders. “This is scary.”

“Yep. I think I’ll turn on another light.”

She stopped halfway across the living room. “Did you hear that?”

“Hear what?”

Then, from outside, came a muttered curse in a voice that was distinctly male but unidentifiable, followed by heavy footsteps on the front porch.

“Grab the poker,” Sig said, even as Riley reached for Emile’s ancient blackened iron poker by the woodstove.

The door opened. Riley had her poker poised, ready for battle.

Straker walked in and shook his head. “I don’t believe you two. The two of you put together don’t have the sense of one hermit crab.”

“Scare us to death, why don’t you?” Riley didn’t lower her poker. He filled the room with his presence, his broad shoulders and glower and total self-possession. “Why didn’t you knock?”

“Because I was hoping someone had stolen your car and left you in a ditch somewhere.” He bit off another curse, his gray eyes narrowed, unyielding. “Why the hell aren’t you still in Camden?”

“We’re trying to find Emile.”

“I’m sure that’s just what we all need—a pregnant woman and a know-it-all oceanographer out here in the wilderness searching for a man who doesn’t want you to find him.”

Riley lowered her poker a fraction of an inch, just because it was heavy and she was tired. She doubted he was too worried about her taking it to him, but she wanted him to know she wasn’t intimidated. “I wish I’d never gone to your cottage to throw up.”

“You didn’t come there to throw up, you came there for my help and good advice—which right now is to go back to Camden.”

“Obviously I was in shock or just out of my mind.” The poker went down another few inches, in spite of her desire to do something productive with it. This man drove her wild. She didn’t know what it was about him. “You belong on a deserted island, Straker.”

Sig wiggled her toes and leaned back against Emile’s ancient throw pillows. “You two fight it out. I’m beat.”

Her words didn’t break the tension. Straker was clearly in no mood to back down. He thought he had the upper hand. Riley knew she was being obstinate, but his presence had thrown her off balance, made her hyperalert, aware—of him, herself. She noticed the shape of his shoulders, the way his sweater fit over his chest, the thick muscles in his thighs, the set of his jaw and the cool, foglike gray of his eyes.

She couldn’t control her attraction to him, couldn’t bank it down even when he was standing there yelling at her, disgusted and cranky because she wasn’t marching to his tune.

He took three long steps across the room and snatched the poker from her hand. “As if this would do any good.”

“It would if I used it,” she grumbled.

She noticed the tensed muscles in his arms and shoulders as he smacked the poker back by the woodstove. The fire was going nicely now. It filled the room with the smell of burning oak, made the cottage homey, welcoming, less cold and empty. Yet she could feel the sprawling blackness beyond the flames and the glow of Emile’s old lamps, out across the dark bay and the dark acres of the nature preserve. Straker wouldn’t feel it. This was civilization compared to what he was used to.

He turned to her, no sign he was softening. “I take it you two plan to spend the night here.”

“Good work, Straker. I guess they taught you deductive reasoning at Quantico.”

She regretted her sarcasm almost immediately. What was the matter with her? But they must have taught him self-restraint, too, because he didn’t react. “And tomorrow?”

“We don’t know yet.” She grabbed a birch log out of the wood box. “Don’t you worry about us. Feel free to take all the room you need to maneuver. We don’t want to cramp your style.”

“You cramped my style when you paddled your kayak to the island for your damned picnic.” He sighed, glancing around the old cottage. “I planned to stay on the island, but I could camp out here—”

“No!”

Sig sat up on one elbow, her eyebrows raised. “Why not? You know, Riley, if Sam really was murdered—well, I wouldn’t mind having an FBI agent sleeping on the couch.”

Riley shook her head, adamant. “I’ve had Straker under my feet for two nights.
I
need room to maneuver.” She turned back to him, sensed he’d dipped into his last reserves of patience. He needed the island. She needed him on it. For once they were in sync. “Go on. We’ll be fine. All your stuff’s on the island or in my apartment. You don’t even have a toothbrush.”

“I don’t like the idea of you two out here alone.”

“We
like
it out here alone.”

“Riley—”

“It’s okay, Straker. Really. We’ll be fine.” She managed a sincere smile. “Thanks for checking on us.”

He sighed. “All right. But if you need me—”

“We’ll send up flares.”

He clenched his teeth without a word, whipped around and marched back outside. The floor of the old cabin shook when he pounded down the front steps. Riley ran to the door and peeked outside, made sure he wasn’t pitching a tent out on the rocks. She heard his boat, saw its lights, then watched it speed out across the starlit bay.

“Holy shit.” Sig peeled off an afghan from the stack at the end of the couch and pulled it up over her. “You do get under that man’s skin.”

“He’s up to something.”

“Of course he’s up to something. He’s a frigging FBI agent.”

“I hate him,” Riley said, but her heart wasn’t in it.

Sig grinned. “Ha! He’s under your skin, too.” She planted her feet firmly on the floor and stood, rubbing her lower back. “I always thought you’d end up with some expert in clams or porpoises or something, and here it is an FBI agent.” She chuckled to herself. “John Straker no less. A son of the Stone Coast.”

“I’m glad you’re having a good laugh at my expense.”

“It’s not at your expense. If I weren’t here, God knows what you two would be doing right now.”

“Sig!”

“See?” She was smug. “You were thinking the same thing. I’ll bet he was, too.”

“Would it do any good for me to tell you you’re way off track?”

“It would not.”

Riley let her sister enjoy her victory. Arguing would only further convince her she was right. They left a light on downstairs—“for the bogeyman and the bathroom,” Sig said—and collapsed under heaps of quilts in the twin beds in the loft.

But neither fell asleep quickly. Riley stared at the sloped, wood-paneled ceiling and listened to the ocean and the wind, imagined Straker alone on his tiny island and tried not to think about how much she wished she’d asked him to stay. He had her confused, aching with longings she didn’t understand or care to explore.

She could hear Sig’s bed creak as her sister turned onto her side. Riley bit back tears. She wasn’t being fair to Sig, either. She was holding back on her about Matt last night at Sam’s, about this afternoon outside her apartment. It wasn’t right. Sig deserved to know. Riley knew she was being protective—
over
protective, maybe—because of her sister’s pregnancy.
I’m not sick.
But how much could Sig take?

Riley rolled over, facing her sister’s bed in the darkness. “Sig, are you sure you should be here? I can take you back to Camden in the morning. It’s not just that you’re pregnant. You lost your father-in-law, your marriage is under tremendous strain and now you’ve got Sam’s death and Emile.”
And Matt,
Riley thought.
Who knows about him?