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Authors: Andrzej Stasiuk
On the Road to Babadag
Travels in the Other Europe
Andrzej Stasiuk
Table of Contents
Description of a Journey through East Hungary to Ukraine
Ţara Secuilor, Székelyföld, Szeklerland
The Country in Which the War Began
Pitching One's Tent in a New Place
Translated from Polish by Michael Kandel
Houghton Mifflin Harcourt
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Copyright © 2004 by Andrzej Stasiuk
English translation copyright © 2011 by Michael Kandel
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Stasiuk, Andrzej, date.
[Jadac do Babadag. English]
On the road to Babadag : travels in the other Europe / Andrzej Stasiuk ;
translated by Michael Kandel.
p. cm.
Summary: "A collection of travel narratives from Central and Eastern Europe by
award-winning Polish author Andrzej Stasiuk"â Provided by publisher.
ISBN
978-0-15-101271-8 (hardback)
1. Stasiuk, AndrzejâTranslations into English.
2. Stasiuk, AndrzejâTravelâEurope, Eastern. 3. Europe, Easternâ
Description and travel. I. Kandel, Michael. II. Title.
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Map by Jacques Chazaud
Book design by Melissa Lotfy
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Portions of this book have been previously published in slightly different form:"That
Fear" in
The Wall in My Head,
a Words without Borders Anthology, Open Letter Books,
2009; and an excerpt from "Description of a Journey through East Hungary to Ukraine,"
in
Orientations,
edited by Wendy Bracewell and Alex Drace-Francis, Central European
University Press, 2009.
Photo credits: Frontispiece, "Romanians in Warsaw," © Witold Krassowski/ekpictures.
Page 163, Traveling blind violinist, Abony, Hungary, 1921. Kertész, André (1894â1985).
© Ministère de la cultureâMédiathèque du Patrimoine/André Kertész/dist. RMN/Art
Resource, NY.
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This publication has been funded by the Book Institute-
the © POLAND Translation Program.
 
ContentsFor M.
That Fear
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The Slovak Two Hundred
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RÄÅinari
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Our leader
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Description of a Journey through
East Hungary to Ukraine
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Baia Mare
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Ţara Secuilor, Székelyföld, Szeklerland
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The Country in Which the War Began
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Shqiperia
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Moldova
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The Ferry to Galaţi
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Pitching One's Tent in a New Place
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Delta
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On the road to Babadag
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Notes
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that fear, those searchings, tracings, tellings whose purpose is to hide the unreachable horizon. It's night again, and everything departs, disappears, shrouded in black sky. I am alone and must remember events, because the terror of the unending is upon me. The soul dissolves in space like a drop in the sea, and I am too much a coward to have faith in it, too old to accept its loss; I believe it is only through the visible that we can know relief, only in the body of the world that my body can find shelter. I would like to be buried in all those places where I've been before and will be again. My head among the green hills of Zemplén, my heart somewhere in Transylvania, my right hand in Chornohora, my left in SpiÅ¡ská Belá, my sight in Bukovina, my sense of smell in RÄÅinari, my thoughts perhaps in this neighborhood ... This is how I imagine the night when the current roars in the dark and the thaw wipes away the white stains of snow. I recall those days when I took to the road so often, pronouncing the names of far cities like spells: Paris, London, Berlin, New York, Sydney ... places on the map for me, red or black points lost in the expanse of green and sky blue. I never asked for a pure sound. The histories that went with the cities, they were all fictions. They filled the hours and alleviated the boredom. In those distant times, every trip resembled flight. Stank of panic, desperation.
One day in the summer of '83 or '84, I reached SÅubice by foot and saw Frankfurt across the river. It was late afternoon. Humid blue-gray air hung over the water. East German high-rises and factory stacks looked dismal and unreal. The sun was a dull smudge, a flame about to gutter. The other sideâcompletely dead, still, as if after a great fire. Only the river had something human about itâdecay, fish slimeâbut I was sure that over there the smell would be stopped. In any case I turned, and that same evening I headed back, east. Like a dog, I had sniffed an unfamiliar locale, then moved on.
I had no passport then, of course, but it never entered my head to try to get one. The connection between those two words,
freedom
and
passport,
sounded grand enough but was completely unconvincing. The nuts and bolts of
passport
didn't fit
freedom
at all. It's possible that there, outside Gorzów, my mind had fixed on the formula: There's freedom or there isn't, period. My country suited me fine, because its borders didn't concern me. I lived inside it, in the center, and that center went where I went. I made no demands on space and expected nothing from it. I left before dawn to catch the yellow-and-blue train to Żyrardów. It pulled out of East Station, crossed downtown, gold and silver ribbons of light unfurling in the windows. The train filled with men in worn coats. Most got off at the Ursus factory and walked toward its frozen light. Dozens, hundreds, barely visible in the dark; only at the gate did the mercury light hit them, as if they were entering a huge cathedral. I was practically alone. The next passengers got on somewhere in Milanówek, in Grodzisk, more women in the group, because Żyrardów was textiles, fabrics, tailoring, that sort of thing. Black tobacco, the sour smell of plastic lunch bags mixed with the reek of cheap perfume and soap. The night came free of the ground, and in the growing crack of the day you could see the huts of the crossing guards, who held orange caution flags; cows standing belly-deep in mist; the last, forgotten lights in houses. Żyrardów was red, all brick. I got off with everyone else. I was shiftless here, but whatever I did was in tribute to those who had to get up before the sun, for without them the world would have been no more than a play of color or a meteorological drama. I drank strong tea in a station bar and took the train back, to go north in a day or two, or east, without apparent purpose.
One summer I was on the road seventy-two hours nonstop. I spoke with truck drivers. As they drove, their words flowed in ponderous monologue from a vast placeâthe result of fatigue and lack of sleep. The landscape outside the cabin window drew close, pulled away, to freeze at last, as if time had given up. Dawn at a roadside somewhere in Puck, thin clouds stretching over the gulf. Out from under the clouds slipped the bright knife edge of the rising day, and the cold smell of the sea came woven with the screech of gulls. It's entirely possible I reached the beach itself then, it's entirely possible that after a couple of hours of sleep somewhere by the road a delivery van stopped and a guy said he was driving through the country, north to south, which was far more appealing than the tedium of tide in, tide out, so I jumped on the crate and, wrapped in a blanket, dozed beneath the fluttering tarp, and my doze was visited by landscapes of the past mixed with fantasy, as if I were looking at things as an outsider. Warsaw went by as a foreign city, and I felt no tug at my heart. Grit in my teeth: the dust raised from the floorboards. I crossed the country as one crosses an unmapped continent. Between Radom and Sandomierz, terra incognita. The sky, trees, houses, earthâall could be elsewhere. I moved through a space that had no history, nothing worth preserving. I was the first man to reach the foot of the Góry Pieprzowe, Pepper Hills, and with my presence everything began. Time began. Objects and landscapes started their aging only from the moment my eye fell on them. At Tarnobrzeg I rapped on the sheet metal of the driver's cabin; impressed by the size of a sulfur outcrop, I wanted him to stop. Giant power shovels stood at the bottom of a pit. It didn't matter where they came from. From the sky, if you like, to bite into the land, to chew their way into and through the planet and let an ocean surge up the shaft to drown everything here and turn the other side to desert. The stink of inferno rose, and I could not tear my gaze from the monstrous hole that spoke of the grave, piled corpses, the chill of hell. Nothing moved, so this could have been Sunday, assuming there was a calendar in such a place.