Torture. This was pure torture I had to go. Somehow I would force myself out the door. On jelly legs, I turned.
The preacher cleared his throat, but before he could speak, John cried, “Wait.”
I stopped, imagining he was speaking to me, but I did not dare turn back in case he was not.
The entire church went utterly silent.
“Elizabeth,” John said, his voice strong and clear. “I cannot marry you. While you are a wonderful person and I regret causing you pain, I truly love another.”
The congregation let out a collective gasp.
Slowly, I pivoted back to face the front of the church. My heart was pounding so hard I wondered if others could see it beating against my chest.
Elizabeth paled, swayed on her feet, let out a quiet little peep.
“I’m sorry,” John told her. “But it’s better to say it now than enter into a marriage where neither of us would be happy.”
Elizabeth’s eyes were wide as plates. “Who . . . who is this woman you love?”
John stretched out a hand to me. “I love Millie Greenwood.”
The second collective gasp was louder than the first.
In hindsight, I probably should have slipped out the door and let him come find me once the commotion was over, but I simply could not contain myself. I flew down the aisle toward his outstretched arms.
He grabbed me in his arms, spun me around, dropped a hundred kisses on my face in between whispering, “I love you, I love you, I love you.”
“I love you too,” I said, tears streaming down my cheeks, and for a moment I feared it was all a sweet dream.
“No!” a loud female voice called out from the back of the room. “No! This isn’t right.”
John and I broke apart.
Quickly, I cast a glance at Elizabeth, who seemed rather numb. She blinked repeatedly. Her parents went to her side and were patting her hand, but she shook them off. “I’m fine. John’s right. He doesn’t love me and I don’t love him. We were just merging our money and family names.”
I swung my gaze to the congregation, stared into a sea of faces, all with various shades of reaction. Some looked shocked. Some smiled knowingly. Some scowled. One older woman muttered, “This is what comes of women having the right to vote. Utter chaos.”
But the woman who’d shouted was now waving a white envelope in her hand and marching toward the altar. I recognized both the woman and the envelope.
It was Rosalie Smithe and she had my letter.
“
She
doesn’t get to be Cinderella. She doesn’t get to marry the prince. This is all wrong. She’s a
maid.
”
“What’s wrong with that?” someone called out, and I realized it was Beau Bossier. “Rich or poor. You love who you love.”
“But that’s just it.” Rosalie marched up to me, shook the letter underneath my nose. “John doesn’t really love you, does he, Millie?” She spun back to face the congregation. “This maid has bewitched John Fant and I have the proof.”
There was more gasping and rustling of skirts. A cold chill shoved straight down my spine.
Rosalie opened the envelope, unfolded my letter, and began to read it. “Dear Cupid, How heartless of you to make me fall in love with a man who is out of my reach.”
When she finished reading, she added, “Millie Greenwood bewitched him. She wrote a letter to a heathen god asking him to cast a spell on Mr. Fant.”
My knees turned to water. All the air left my body. I couldn’t look at John for fear I’d see betrayal on his face.
Rosalie’s face turned red.
“How do we know Millie wrote that?” Penelope asked. “It’s signed, Forever Hopelessly in Love.”
“It’s her handwriting.” Rosalie passed the letter to Penelope.
Penelope read the letter with an impassive face and passed it to her mother.
“Where did you get the letter?” the preacher asked from behind us.
I startled. Held my breath.
“My boyfriend, Buddy Grass, saw her coming out of the caverns at midnight, night before last. He found it at the base of the Cupid stalagmite.”
“What was Buddy doing up there in the caverns in the middle of the night?” The town sheriff stood up and cast a glance down the aisle at Buddy, who was easing out the back door.
The congregation was muttering about spells and witches and Cupid and blasphemy and all manner of dark things.
“Really,” Elizabeth said. “It’s all right. I think it’s all for the best.”
I was liking her more and more and feeling guilty for the pain I was causing her, but what worried me was how John was taking the reading of my letter to Cupid. I raised my head and met his eyes, terrified to see condemnation there.
But his eyes were soft and kind. “Hush!” he commanded the room. “I have something to say.”
Everyone fell silent. The runaway groom had spoken.
John faced me, took my hand, held it tightly in his. “It’s true. Millie Greenwood has bewitched me.”
That drew more comments, murmurs, and gasps from the crowds.
“But not in the way Rosalie suggests. Millie has bewitched me with not only her beauty, but her kindness, her good nature, and her willingness to help others. She bewitched me with her smart mind and sensible outlook. It does not matter to me that she is a maid. Or that she wrote a letter to Cupid begging for intervention. It only proves how she much loved me if she was desperate enough to write a letter and walk it all the way up to the Cupid stalagmite in the middle of the night.”
“Yes,” I whispered because it was true.
“You’re the one that I love, Millie Greenwood. For better or worse and everything in between.”
“Oh, John!” I whispered, too happy to cry.
He gathered me up into his arms and with everyone watching carried me out of the church as if I were his bride.
I
MARRIED
J
OHN
F
ANT
eighteen months later on the best day of my life. Not in a church with a silver fancy steeple—we were known for bucking convention, after all—but in front of the silver mine where my daddy had died. I saw it as a fitting tribute to my father. A new beginning where a tragic ending had taken place. The mine would reopen the following day after John’s painstaking restoration. He’d taken it beyond the safety standards of even the most secure mineshaft in the country.
Something unexpected had happened in the renovations. They found a new vein of ore no one knew about, and so his kind caring and attention to detail paid off.
My mother moved my sisters and brothers to San Antonio to live near her sister, and while I hated not having them nearby, it was time for my family to begin a new chapter of their lives, just as I was.
And John’s family? They welcomed me into the family with open arms. Ultimately, they just wanted their son to be happy, and it was as clear as the smiles on our faces that we made each other happy.
What happened that day in the First Methodist Church became known all throughout the Trans-Pecos region, and a funny thing happened. People began marking pilgrimages to the Cupid stalagmite and leaving letters asking for his help in affairs of the heart. Side business sprang up to take advantage of this unexpected tourist trade. Inns were built and local business started selling Cupid merchandise. It was a heady time. Times were changing. All the old rules were breaking and people were becoming more accepting of new ideas and new ways of doing things.
By writing that letter to Cupid, I’d started something bigger than myself.
And as John and I sealed our marriage with a heartfelt kiss, a legend was born.
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—
M
ILLIE
G
REENWOOD
Dear Cupid,
The most awesomely awful thing has happened. I have fallen truly, madly, deeply in love.
Awesome because I have never felt anything like this. I’ve heard people talk about love at first sight, but I never believed in it. Then with just one look—bam! I was a goner. The minute we laid eyes on each other we knew we were destined soul mates. Suddenly, our minds are wide open and the world is the most beautiful place. How have I gone so long without knowing magic like this?
But that’s what you do, isn’t it, Cupid? Fling your arrow and make people fall in love at first sight. Drive them crazy. Send them over the edge of reason.
It’s awful because I’ve been accepted into Oxford University with a full scholarship. I can’t bear the thought of leaving my guy behind, and family responsibilities keep him from joining me in England. My head tells me that this is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity and I can’t pass it up, but I ache at the thought of being so far away from him. What’s the point of the finest education in the world if you can’t be with the one you love? Tell me what to do, Cupid. Go or stay? My fate is in your hands.
—Shot Through the Heart
Natalie McCleary folded the well-creased letter and tucked it into the pocket of her Van Gogh yellow sundress. The letter writer’s angst settled in the pit of her stomach. Sometimes, playing Cupid was more difficult than running her bed-and-breakfast, Cupid’s Rest.
It had been over a week since the letter had arrived and she still had no answer for the sender. Her response had the power to change the entire trajectory of Shot Through the Heart’s future, and she did not take her duties lightly.
The trouble was, at twenty-nine, Natalie herself had never been in love. Who was she to give advice to the lovelorn?
You’re Millie Greenwood’s direct descendant, that’s who. It’s your obligation whether you want it or not.
Wasn’t that just the story of her life? Obligation. Responsibility. Tradition.
Natalie shook her head and squared her shoulders.
C’mon, don’t be resentful
. She’d never been a complainer or shirker and she wasn’t about to start now.
The sole of her right yellow Keds made a slight scraping sound as she scuffed over terra-cotta paver stones. She moved toward the large white wooden box situated underneath the cherubic fountain in the botanical gardens, located in the center of downtown Cupid, Texas. It was just after dawn and the gardens weren’t yet open to the public, but in another two hours the place would overflow with tourists.
Mockingbirds called from pink-blossomed desert willows. Over by a prickly pear cactus, a black-crested titmouse gobbled up a fat grub worm. Undisturbed by Natalie’s presence, a long-legged roadrunner strolled over the limestone rock wall surrounding the gardens. Locusts started a low-hummed buzzing, tuning up for the encroaching late June heat. Dragonflies hovered over the fountain, and a toad peeked up at her from blue pebble gravel around the firecracker plants. From La Hacienda Grill down the street, the smell of huevos rancheros wafted on the air and mingled with the perfume of fuchsia rockroses.
The morning seemed to be holding its breath, waiting for something to happen. For what, she didn’t know, but the notion dug in so deeply that she hesitated, caught her breath, and glanced around.
Nope, no one, she was totally alone.
You’re losing it, woman.
She cocked her head, listening, but heard nothing out of the ordinary. Off in the distance an eighteen-wheeler ground its gears as it churned up the mountain. The rhythmic sound of a garbage truck’s backup beeper drifted over from First Street, followed by the mechanized wheeze of the lifting arm and the clattering clang of a Dumpster being emptied. From the stables behind the gardens, a horse whinnied.
Home.
Still the same, but oddly different somehow.
Inexplicably, goose bumps spread over her skin. She rubbed her arms with her palms.
Weird.
Junie Mae Prufrock, who owned the LaDeDa Day Spa and Hair Salon next door to Natalie’s B&B, would claim that someone had walked over her grave.
Shrugging off the unwanted sensation, Natalie twirled the combination lock on the white wooden box marked “Letters to Cupid” in stenciled red block print. The lock popped open and she raised the lid.
As usual, it was stuffed with letters. She pinched up the full skirt of her shirtwaist dress with one hand, forming a sling to hold the letters as she emptied the box. The dewy morning air kissed her knees. After one-handing the padlock closed, she limped over to the bicycle she’d left parked on the pathway and deposited the letters into the wicker basket strapped to the front.
One swoop of her foot released the kickstand. She slung her leg over the cruiser saddle seat and she was off, pedaling through the back of the garden to the dirt-packed alley that ran between the gardens and the stables.
The wind ruffled her hair, brought with it the scent of horses. A long-tailed flycatcher perched on a telephone line, its split tail hanging underneath it like scissors. She smiled as the sun warmed her face, more at ease on a bike than she ever was on her feet. When she rode, no one could see her limp.
She bumped through the alley, turned left on Murkle Street, and waved to Deputy Calvin Greenwood, who was also a cousin. Calvin was coming out of the Divine Bakery with two boxes of doughnuts in his arms and headed for his patrol car.
Smiling, she waved a hand, paused in the middle of the road.
“Morning, Nat,” he called. “Lots of love letters this week?”
“Usual Monday morning. Cupid’s got his hands full.”
“That’s a good thing, right? Keeps our economy rolling.” Cal balanced the doughnut boxes in one hand while he opened his cruiser door with the other.
“You can say that again.”
“Maybe you should write a letter yourself.”
“To Cupid?”
“Yeah.”
“Why would I do that?”
“So you’d have a date to mine and Maria’s wedding next month.”
Natalie snorted good-naturedly. “Cal, there’s no such thing as Cupid.”
“Shh.” He pressed an index finger to his lips. “Don’t let that get out. Maria thinks that’s how she caught me.”
“Any sign of Red?” Natalie asked him about her long-term boarder who’d disappeared four days ago without a word of warning. It wasn’t the first time Red had gone missing, so she was trying not to worry too much, but he’d left all his possessions behind.
“Haven’t seen him, but you know these war vets.” Calvin shrugged. “They ain’t like regular folks. Red can take care of himself.”
“But you’re still keeping an eye out for him?”
“ ’Course.”
“Now you’re just patting me on the head.”
“He’s a drifter at heart, Natty. I warned you about that when he moved in.”
“That’s the issue. He doesn’t have anyone else to worry about him.”
“Your heart’s too big, cousin. It can’t hold the whole world.”
“Doesn’t have to hold the whole world. Just my corner of it.”
“Funny that he disappeared the day the rent was due.”
“If he just left, why didn’t he take his things?”
“Tell you what, I’ll do some more asking around,” Calvin promised. “Now I gotta get to work. Have a good day.”
“Don’t eat too many doughnuts,” she hollered over her shoulder as she took off again, the bike picking up speed on the downhill slope.
She had so much to do that morning—take the letters to the community center for Aunt Carol Ann to sort out, cut fresh flowers for the guest rooms, make sure Zoey got up in time to make it to her anatomy class at Sul Ross, greet the guests at breakfast, order organic multigrain flour before her cook, Pearl, actually followed through on her idle threats to quit, and make a decision about Red. She didn’t want to give his room away, but if he wasn’t coming back, she needed to rent it out.
Natalie had put off the decisions because she kept thinking that Red would pop back up as he usually did, but something felt different this time. Lately, he’d become more reclusive than usual and he’d taken to wearing a John Deere ball cap and dark sunglasses ninety percent of the time, as if he was trying to vanish behind the thin disguise. Maybe he had just walked away, leaving her on the fence about what to do.
After she finished all those morning tasks, she had to head back to the community center for lunch and the tri-weekly meeting of the Cupid committee volunteers, where they gathered to answer the letters written to Cupid. This Monday she wasn’t looking forward to the meeting. The other women were bound to ask why she hadn’t already answered Shot Through the Heart’s letter.
Why? Because she couldn’t think of a single word of useful advice.
Her hand strayed again to the letter in her pocket. She fingered the edges, mentally toying with her reply. She wanted so badly to tell the letter writer that there was really such a thing as love at first sight, but Natalie was having her own crisis of faith.
It was the central conflict she wrestled with every time she answered a love letter. Dishing out advice when she had no clue what she was talking about. She’d expressed her self-doubts to the group, but they’d waved away her concerns.
“Listen to your heart,” they always said. “You know the truth, deep down inside.”
Yeah? Well, her heart was telling her she had no business responding to the letters considering that she’d never been in love. She’d wanted to be in love, had imagined it happening to her a thousand times. How could she not, in a town chockful of romantic legends?
She’d dated six men in her entire life, had kissed four of them but slept with none. She’d been holding out for that one special man.
Except he’d never come.
Waiting had been easy enough when she was younger. She’d been starry-eyed and hopeful. Her limp had made her shy and self-conscious, but she was convinced that the right man would see through all that if she only held out for him.
Then the years rolled away.
She’d gotten swept up in running the B&B and riding herd on her sister, Zoey, but she’d kept the faith. But then as the years kept clicking by, she’d started having doubts. What if it was all bunk? What if there wasn’t one right man for her? What if she’d missed out on some genuinely nice guys simply because she didn’t give them a chance because she’d never felt the magic?
Now, on the precipice of turning thirty, her virginity was an albatross. An embarrassment. How did you bring that up in conversation on a date?
Would you like to be the one to deflower me? Take me for my maiden voyage? Pop my cherry?
But this was the part that really bothered her.
What if she just got on with her life, gave up her shaky belief in love at first sight and all that other romantic stuff, found a decent guy, married him, and then The One finally came along?
Then again, what if The One never showed up? Was she expected to live her entire life without sex, without a husband, without kids while she waited around on a fantasy?
She was of two minds. Her heart desperately wanted to believe, but at her core, she was a pragmatist.
“Just you wait,” Aunt Carol Ann would say. “When it hits, you’ll know. There will be absolutely no doubt.”
Natalie wished she could get her faith back, but the last few years her aunt’s promise sounded as much of a fairy tale as Cupid with his bow and arrow, flying around shooting people through the heart.
“You’re too practical for your own good, Natty,” Junie Mae told her at least once a month. Usually when they sat on Junie Mae’s front porch sipping sweet iced tea spiked with lemon and eating sugar cookies. “You need to brush up against Zoey, see if some of her spontaneity will rub off on you.”
That hurt.
Natalie didn’t particularly enjoy being the sensible sister, but someone had to be the responsible one and since she was the older, she’d been elected by default. Sure, she’d love to be like Zoey, twenty-two and still working on finishing her college degree because she’d flakily changed her major four times. Her sister had dabbled in—and ditched—criminal justice, natural resource management, and musical theater. Now she was hung up on the idea of being an archeologist.
Solid career plan, sis.
Her bike clipped along at twenty-five miles an hour, kept pace with her racing mind, until she slowed to round the corner onto Main, and suddenly there he was, big and unexpected.
A naked man.
No, not naked, her brain corrected, catching up to what her eyes saw, just gloriously shirtless.
Speechless, she stopped pedaling.
He was in the empty Piggly Wiggly parking lot, head down, bending over a big black motorcycle as he tinkered with the engine. His torso was leanly muscled, darkly tanned, and glistening with sweat in the early morning sunlight.
The hair on his head was the color of a raven’s wing, so black it looked almost blue, and curled unkempt around his ears and down the nape of his neck. His powerful biceps flexed as he worked. A sexy dark blue tattoo graced his left upper arm. His abdominal muscles were taut as drum skins. A pair of black jeans hung low on his hips, and he wore well-used cowboy boots.
His masculinity was palpable and she could have sworn she caught a faint whiff of his scent, aftershave and motor oil and something sensually seductive—danger. But that was foolishness. Danger didn’t have a smell, and besides, she was yards away.
His cheekbones, cast in shadows, looked sharp as blades. His chin was pure granite and peppered with stubble. Natalie’s practicality vanished as wild fantasy took her hostage with tumbling images—leather tool belts, muscle cars, Desert Eagle pistols, campfires, and mountain lions.
Honest to Pete, she didn’t know men could look like that outside of movie reels. Her jaw dropped, and all the breath left her lungs. She stared, stunned.
Natalie saw him in a freeze-frame flash of blind clarity. A click-whirl snapshot caught in time. Her mouth went instantly dry and her heart slam-pumped blood through her ears. Oh my. Oh dear. Oh no. He’s here.