Authors: Helen Dunmore
The plum was my parents’ tree,
above them
as I was at my bedroom window
wondering why they chose to walk this way quietly
under the plum tree.
My sisters and I stopped playing
as they reached up and felt for the fruit.
It lay among bunches of leaves,
oval and oozing resin
out into pearls of gum.
They bit into the plums
without once glancing
back at the house.
Some years were thin:
white mildew streaking the trunk,
fruit buckled and green,
but one April
the tree broke from its temperate blossoming
and by late summer the branches
trailed earth, heavy with pound
after pound of bursting Victorias,
and I remember the oblivious steps
my parents took as they went quietly
out of the house one summer evening
to stand under the plum tree.
Tonight I’m eating the past
consuming its traces,
the past is a heap
sparkling with razor blades
where patches of sweetness
deepen to compost,
woodlice fold up their legs
and roll luxuriously,
cold vegetation
rises to blood heat.
The local sea’s bare
running up to the house
tufting its waves
with red seaweed
spread against a Hebridean noon.
Lightly as sandpipers marking the shoreline
boats at the jetty sprang
and rocked upon the green water.
Not much time passes, but suddenly
now when you’re crumpled after a cold
I see how the scale and changes
of few words measure us.
At this time of year I remember a cuckoo’s
erratic notes on a mild morning.
It lay full-fed on a cherry branch
repeating an hour of sweetness
its grey body unstirring
its lustrous eyes turning.
Talk sticks and patches
walls and the kitchen formica
while at the table outlines
seated on a thousand evenings
drain like light going out of a landscape.
The back door closes, swings shut,
drives me to place myself inside it.
In this flickering encampment
fire pours sideways
then once more stands
evenly burning.
I wake with a touch on my face
and turn sideways
butting my head into darkness.
The wind’s banging diminishes. An aircraft
wanders through the upper atmosphere
bee-like, propelled by loneliness.
It searches for a fallen corolla,
its note rising and going
as it crosses the four quarters.
The city turns a seamed cheek upward,
confides itself to the sound and hazardous
construction of a journey by starlight.
I drop back soundlessly,
my lips slackened.
Headache alone is my navigator,
plummeting, shedding its petals.
It’s Christmas Eve.
Against my nightdress a child’s foot, burning,
passes its fever through the cotton,
the tide of bells swings
and the child winces.
The bells are shamelessly
clanging, the voices
hollering churchward.
I’m eating the past tonight
tasting gardenia perfume
licking the child-like socket of an acorn
before each is consumed.
It was not Hardy who stayed there
searching for the air-blue gown.
It was the woman who once more, secretly,
tried the dress on.
O wintry ones, my sad descendants,
with snowdrops in your hands you join me
to celebrate these dark, short
days lacking a thread of sun.
Three is a virtuous number,
each time one fewer to love,
the number of fairy tales,
wishes, labours for love.
My sad descendants
who had no place in the sun,
hope brought you to mid-winter,
never to spring
or to the lazy benches of summer
and old bones.
My sad descendants
whose bones are a network of frost,
I carry your burn and your pallor,
your substance dwindled to drops.
I breathe you another pattern
since no breath warmed you from mine,
on the cold of the night window
I breathe you another pattern,
I make you outlive rosiness
and envied heartbeats.
Cursing softly and letting the matches drop
too close to the firework box,
we light an oblation
to rough-scented autumnal gods,
shaggy as chrysanthemums;
and you, in your pearly maroon
waterproof suit, with your round
baby brows, stare upward and name
chrysanthemum fountain and silver fountain
and Catherine wheel: saints’ names
like yours, Patrick, and you record them.
This morning, climbing up on my pillow,
you list saints’ names guessed at from school.
They go off, one by one on the ritual plank:
jack-in-a-box, high-jump and Roman candle,
searching the currant bushes with gunpowder.
We stand in savoury fumes like pillars,
our coats dark, our slow-burning fuse lit,
and make our little bonfire with spits
for foil-wrapped potatoes and hot-dogs –
by your bedtime
the rough-scented autumnal gods
fuse with the saints and jack-lanterns.
Today in a horse landscape
horses steam in the lee of thorn hedges
on soaking fields. Horses waltz
on iron poles in dank fairgrounds.
A girl in jodhpurs on Sand Bay
leads her pony over and over
jumps made of driftwood and traffic cones,
A TV blares the gabble of photofinishes.
The bookie’s plastic curtain releases
punters onto the hot street
littered with King Cone papers.
In a landscape with clouds and chalk downs
and cream houses, a horse rigid as bone
glares up at kites and hang-gliders.
One eye’s cut from the flowered turf:
a horse skull, whispering secrets
with wind-sighs like tapping on phone wires.
The group leader in beautiful boots
always on horse-back,
the mounted lady squinnying
down at the hunt intruders,
draw blood for their own horse landscape
and scorn horse-trading, letting the beasts mate
on scrubby fields, amongst catkins
and watery ditches.
Here’s a rearing bronze horse
welded to man, letting his hands
stay free for banner and weapon –
mild shadow of Pushkin’s nightmare.
Trained police horses sway on great hooves.
Riders avoid our faces, and gaze
down on our skull crowns
where the bone jigsaw cleaves.
Grooms whistle and urge
the sweaty beasts to endure battle.
We’re always the poor infantry
backing off Mars field,
out of frame for the heroic riders
preserved in their horse landscape.
Thetis, mother of all mothers
who fear the death of their children,
held down her baby Achilles
in the dark Styx
whose waters flow fast
without ripples or wave-break,
bearing little boats of paper
with matchstick masts,
returning not even a sigh
or drenched fibre to life.
Thetis, mother of all mothers
destined to outlive their children,
took Achilles by the heel
and thrust him into the Styx
so that sealed, immortal, dark-eyed,
he’d return to his white cradle
and to his willow rattle.
She might have held him less tightly
and for a while given him
wholly to the trustworthy river
which has no eddies or backwaters
and always carries its burdens onward,
she might have left him to play
on the soft grass of the river-edge.
But through the pressure-marks of her white fingers
the baby found his way forward
towards the wound he knew best.
Even while the arrow was in the wood
and the bow gleaming with leaves
the current of the Styx
faintly suckled and started
in the little flexed ankles
pressed against Thetis’ damp breasts.
Our day off, agreed by the wind
and miry fields and unburied dead,
in the tent with first light filtering
a rosy dawn which masks rain.
The rosiness rests on our damp flesh,
on armour stacked by the tent walls,
on our captain and his lolling companion.
I go down to the sea shore
to find white pebbles for games.
I look for the island, kidding myself
I see it hump through the waves.
Back in the tent it’s warm, wine-smelling,
heavy with breath.
The lamp shines on the bodies
of our captain and his companion.
These are the tented days I remember
more than the battles.
This is the smell of a herbal rub
on great Achilles.
This is the blue soap-scum on the pitcher,
and cold parcels of goat-meat,
the yawning moment
late in the evening, when I step out
and see the stars alight in their same places.
She kept Uncle Will's telegram
between the sheets of her wedding-album.
Her life-long imaginary future
dazzled the moment it came.
He tried the counter-top biro
and asked the post office clerk
to check the time of arrival
for ten words in block capitals.
In the levelled-down churchyard
they posed for the first photographs
while powdery grandmothers
whispered âWe wish you'
and came up with the word âHappiness'.
She stood against laurel-black cherries
while the church dived into silence,
a great maritime creature
leaving without echoes.
At the lych-gate a tide-line
of white flowers remained.
In the Flowers the best man
read Uncle Will's telegram
and the guests lifted their glasses
shouting âIo, Io Hymen!'
Rapunzel
let down your hair,
let your strong hair
wind up the water you wish for.
All your life looking down
on bright tree-tops
your days go by quickly.
You read and you eat
in your white tower top
where sunlight fans through high
windows and far below you
bushes are matted with night.
With soft thumbprints
darkness muddles your pages.
The prince arrives,
whose noisy breathing
and sweat as he vaults your window-sill
draw you like wheat fields
on the enchanted horizontal.
He seeds your body with human fragments,
dandruff, nail-clippings, dust.
The detritus of new pleasures
falls on your waxed boards.
Your witch mother, sweeping them,
sorrowfully banishes the girl
who has let a prince clamber her.
For six years you wander the desert
from level to pale level.
At night you make a bunker to sleep in
near to the coyotes.
The ragged prince plays blind-man’s-buff
to the sound of your voice singing
as you gather desert grasses
in hollows hidden from him.
Daily your wise mother
unpicks the walls of the tower.
Its stones are taken for sheep-folds,
your circle of hair
hidden beneath the brambles.
A skater comes to this blue pond,
his worn Canadian skates
held by the straps.
He sits on the grass
lacing stiff boots
into a wreath of effort and breath.
He tugs at the straps and they sound
as ice does when weight troubles it
and cracks bloom around stones
creaking in quiet mid-winter
mid-afternoons: a fine time for a skater.
He knows it and gauges the sun
to see how long it will be safe to skate.
Now he hisses and spins in jumps
while powder ice clings to the air
but by trade he’s a long-haul skater.
Little villages, stick-like in the cold,
offer a child or a farm-worker
going his round. These watch him
go beating onward between iced alders
seawards, and so they picture him
always smoothly facing forward, foodless and waterless,
mounting the crusted waves on his skates.