Paranormal Summer (Indigo Moon Rising) (21 page)

"I heard it, too. I heard her say it, too," Jillian responded. "Why would Emmy have something that would be so hurtful? What kind of information could she have been hiding?"

"I don't know. How could we answer that question without asking them?" he said, looking to both of them.

"Let's send Sonya in, like it's a covert operation, and she can be the double agent and steal it from them! Let's take a vote," Jillian said, raising her hand as if to nominate Sonya for the job.

Sonya's eyes got all big, "Oh yeah, maybe I'll try flirting with Deryk and see if I can discover some deep, dark secrets."

"Sure, and then we will be there every day to visit you in the hospital after Roberta gets done with you," Ryan said, shaking his head.

"Sonya, I think you had a good idea about talking to Doreen to see what she thinks about the whole situation," Jillian said, draining her pop can.

"I honestly liked the class. I want to keep going, but not if they’re there. I want to talk to that lady, Elise, about Indigo, Crystal and Rainbow Children. And I’d like to get to know Seelie. She feels… well, soft. Like I could trust her, and her being able to talk to all kinds of spirits! She seems pretty interesting," Sonya said as she pulled a flyer out of her pocket. "I got the list of courses and syllabus from Doreen. They have healing, mediumship, psychic abilities, meditation, crystals, herbology, hydroponics, solar power, astrology, tarot cards, Geriatric herbs, and Ryan, the one you will excel in, belly dancing!" Sonya said laughing. She put the flyer under a magnet on the refrigerator. "Doreen said that we will work something out in trade. I will be able to help out at the shop in exchange for classes and things in the store I want. It would almost be like a real job. Maybe she would work something out with you guys, too," Sonya said, thinking it would be neat if all three of them could have jobs there.

"Oh, that would be so cool! It's not like I have anything else to do all summer but hang around with you guys, and I’ll take the belly dancing class if you do," Jillian said, smiling at Sonya.

"I'll mention it to her tonight then. What about you?" she asked, turning to Ryan.

"Yeah, sounds great. Work exchange for all the ice cream I can eat! I'm in!"

When Jillian walked in the back door she heard music playing, and went into the living room. There sat Aunt Jana with a glass of wine in her hand, and Uncle Tim was giving her a foot massage. Tiffany Marie was sitting on her aunt's lap, sleeping as usual. Jillian laughed and took off her sock, plopped next to her aunt and said, "Me next, please! Geesh, I didn't know how exhausting it was to work. But it was fun!" She said taking the glass of wine out of her aunt's hand and throwing back a hefty swig. "Yeecckkk," she said with a sour face, holding her hand in front of her mouth... She got up and went to the kitchen sink and spit it out. "How can you drink that stuff? That's nasty," Jillian said, shaking her head.

She sat back down because she was serious about the foot massage. She picked up Tiffany Marie and held her. "I honestly had a fantastic day. I felt like I was doing something good for Doreen, and it was fun!"

"Yes, you did do an excellent job, and I am extremely proud of you. Oh man, was she was slammed! I sold a lot more of my herbals than I thought I would. Maybe you can help me get some more prepared to take over there? Now, you know that next week she will start staying open later, so people can stop by after work," Aunt Jana said, putting her arm around Jillian.

"Yeah, that is a good idea," Jillian said, "Sonya, Ryan and I took a class from Doreen."

"I saw that. What did you think?"

"It was awesome. I want to keep going. Sonya had a list of about ten other ones. Most of them sounded fascinating, even the belly dancing!" she said laughing.

"I think you’re gonna take that class, right?" Uncle Tim said to Aunt Jana.

"Well, yes, I was thinking about it." She smiled. "But I don't know if I can do it justice. It is an art form."

"You would be terrific! I can just imagine it! "Uncle Tim said as he looked at her lovingly.

"So did you learn anything tonight?" Jana asked Jillian.

"Yeah, most of it all made sense. She talked about what an exciting time this is, and how we can contribute in our own ways to heal ourselves and help others. That we are responsible for all of our actions, how we can fine tune our physical senses so we can quickly tune out the things that don't feel right and tune more into things that do feel good. She talked about the different abilities. Some people are more intuitive, some are more empathic, some have healing gifts. I got the impression that she was saying every single person on earth is connected, and we all have gifts. It just depends on us to learn how to use them effectively," Jillian said, putting her foot on Uncle Tim's knee. He put some oil on his hands and started to work the oil around.

"That's right," her aunt said. "What else?"

"She didn't talk about ghosts and spirits, or demons and hauntings. I wanted to know what she thought about angels and fairies, spirit guides and channeling," Jillian said putting her head on her aunt’s shoulder.

"It was an hour and a half class. She could only fit so much in," her aunt said with a smile.

"I know, but I feel....like I need to know all of this stuff. It's extremely important right now. Maybe it's like the more I learn the more questions I have, the hungrier I get for information. Since I've been here it seems like I have become so much more aware of things." Jillian started thinking about all of the things she had experienced in the last week. The strange dreams, the regression, the healing, Emmy and Elizabeth. Oh yeah, and Amanda. She didn't know if she should say anything, she didn't want to get in trouble. But she did need some answers. Doreen's class made her want more.

Uncle Tim was massaging her foot. In the background, soft Indian flute music was playing. It was so relaxing. After a few minutes, Jillian let her head rest back onto the couch. She felt so at peace and so light as if she had no heavy body to weigh her down. Her consciousness was expanding. It felt infinite, and she was aware of everything around her. Somehow she was such a tiny part of the whole, but she had such a vital role to play in the scheme of the universe.

Why me?

That's what we agreed on.

When?

On the other side, before we came here. You don't remember do you?

No.

I didn't much either at first, but when I was about two and a half, I started remembering.

Remembering what?

How it all works. Well, actually how it all works in terms that we can understand. Even then, most people can't comprehend the complexities and simplicity of it all. It depends on what you believe, compared to what you know. Those beliefs are seeded when you are young, as you are growing up.

So why me?

Okay, we will try this again. There actually is a divine plan for everyone. Some call it fate, or I think free will is a better analogy. Everything you see is made of energy, or a vibration. That includes you and me. Your emotions are an energy that set forth a vibration.

What does that have to do with me?

Everything. Like when you focus on something. You are creating a specific vibration...and since everything is made of vibration, those things that match that vibration will present themselves. It is called entrainment. Like magnets. Even vibrations don't want to be alone, so like magnets they are pulled together. It's that way with your friends, when you are on the same page, or vibration. That feels good. When you are different vibrations, it doesn't feel so good. The greater the difference, the greater the discomfort.

Okay, that makes sense.

It is the same way with the things in your life. What you think about...those types of vibrations will be attracted to you.

Yes, so I have to be careful of what I think.

Oh yes, all the time. If you think, “I am alone,” you are sending out the vibration... I am alone, and so you are.

So why me?

Because we agreed that when you came into this time in your life, you would be given the opportunity to experience things you had chosen before you were born. The possibilities of the challenges might be infinite. It's how you react, or respond to each of the challenges that changes your vibration. And there are some of those challenges people will do over and over and over again. It's not a matter of getting it right, because there is no right or wrong. It’s how you change vibrationally.

So, I thought up all of this in advance? Everyone else did, too? All of the challenges we face? What were we thinking?

There you go; you are on the right track now. So here you are 15 years old. And you are on schedule, in perfect time. We decided that you would have some important opportunities presented to you. Can you tell that they have already started?

Uh, yeah, I think so.

Good. Now just remember that from this moment forward, no matter about the past. It's gone forever, so we only look at the moment you are in. You have a few guidelines you can learn to live by. That will make everything easier.

Seriously?

Yes and no.

Okay, you lost me.

That's pretty easy to do!...What's wrong? Your vibration changed. What are you thinking about?

I am what’s wrong. I feel like I always screw everything up. I just want to belong. I want to feel connected. I feel alone, lost, like Emmy felt without Elizabeth.

Jillian, I promise you that there is never ever any way possible for you not to be connected, totally connected to God and everyone around you. Sometimes you feel feelings that are not yours. How can you do that if you are not connected? Once you begin to allow more, you will feel the connectedness you have.

Try this sometime. When you get up in the morning, go right outside, and walk in the fresh morning dew that is glistening in the grass. Walk in it. Feel it, not just on your skin, but inside of you, too. Then go to a tree and hug it. Tell it out loud your fears, your worries, your sadness. Feel your words traveling down its roots into the ground, down, buried into the earth. The tree will help you. It doesn’t like that energy around, either! Then tell it what you love, what makes you happy. See your vibrations traveling up the trunk and out onto the limbs and branches, out to the leaves and out into the sky, catching a ride on the breeze and out into the universe.