“Hey, Dominic,” Blake grunted as he pulled himself up
off the wall. He wasn’t sure why he tried to be pleasant to
Ethan’s roommate, because he was never nice to him.
“Hey yourself, girlyboy,” Dominic shot back, and Blake
glared at him as he straightened his shirt, the very barest
strap of his binder flashing as he did so. “Oh, what’s that?”
“Nothing,” Blake said, smoothing his shirt out and
crossing his arms over his chest. “None of your fucking
business.”
“A normal guy would’ve said it was an undershirt,
freak
,”
Dominic spat at him, and Blake’s eyes narrowed as he shook
his head.
“Call me a freak all you want,” he shot back, but that was
about the moment Dominic put his hand on Blake’s shoulder
and pushed him hard, sending him sprawling to the ground
again. He fell hard with a grunt and looked up with a look
that was a mix of hurt and pissed off. He glanced over to see
that Ethan was being held back by one of Dominic’s little
buddies, and that just made him even angrier.
“Dominic, would you fucking back off?” came a booming
shout from behind the other man, and he watched big hands
grasp at Dominic and push him out of the way before
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holding his hand out to help Blake to his feet.
Riley was different than the rest of the football team—he
was a frat boy, but he was actually quite nice. Blake didn’t
understand why such a great guy hung out with a bunch of
assholes who didn’t give two shits about him.
“Are you okay?” Riley asked, and Blake just gave a tight
smile.
“Yeah, I’m fine, thanks. Just keep your alpha pup on a
leash next time,” Blake said with a scoff, and Riley laughed,
clapping him on the shoulder.
“I’ll try. It’s hard when he chews through the leash
though,” Riley joked back at him, and Blake just smiled
awkwardly, looking at him intently for a moment as the
other frat boys dragged Dominic away kicking and
screaming.
“Why do you hang with them anyway?” he asked in a
quiet voice, feeling Ethan’s arms wind around his bicep
protectively.
Riley just shrugged. “I only do during school and football
practice so they don’t whine about me abandoning the team
or whatever. I normally stay at home and read when they’re
out partying, but shh, I’ve got a reputation to maintain so
keep that to yourselves,” he said, poking at Blake’s shoulder.
“Anyway, I’ll see you in Bio. I gotta do some diffusing.”
Blake smiled a bit and nodded. “All right, see you,” he
said, watching as Riley weaved his way through the crowd.
“Fuckin’ asshole,” Ethan muttered, and Blake looked at
him. Ethan was looking at him intently, frowning as he
rubbed his shoulder. “Are you okay?”
“Yeah, I’m fine. Just glad Riley stepped in when he did or
Dominic’d have a broken nose,” Blake muttered, deflecting
and changing the subject with a lighter tone before Ethan
could protest or try and talk to him more about it. “Come on,
let’s get to the cafe. I’m starving.”
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hat the fuck is your problem, man?” Riley snapped
“W as he fell back in line with a bunch of other frat
boys. He was seething on the inside—Dominic always
fucked with Blake, no matter what. He wasn’t sure why the
guy had it in for him, but he sure seemed to like messing
with him and just generally making his life hell.
Riley was fucking sick of it.
“Oh, so you’re taking her side?” Dominic sneered, and
Riley gritted his teeth. Rage like nothing else flooded
through his entire body and he clenched his fists, biceps
bulging enough for a couple of the other guys to make loud
oooh
sounds and back away from them.
“His,” he growled dangerously, “and if you call him a girl
one more time you’re gonna have a hell of a black eye.”
“Oh okay, so you’re delusional like she is and think she’s
a guy, too,” Dominic replied in a flippant tone, rolling his
eyes and pushing past Riley unsuccessfully because Riley
grabbed onto his wrist and squeezed it hard. Dominic
scoffed and glared at him. “Let go of me. I’ve read her
records, I know her fuckin’
name
, dude,” he snapped,
tugging at his arm.
“Yeah, I do think he’s a guy, actually.” Riley’s final
syllable was hard, like the crack of a whip. He cocked an
eyebrow and tilted his head at Dominic. He wasn’t letting
go. “Does that glare actually get people to quail in front of
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you and back off?” he spat, a smirk curling onto his lips as
he felt the tingle of rage infusing his body.
“Yes, usually,” Dominic replied, and Riley barked a hard
laugh in his face, blood boiling and he was beginning to lose
all rational thought. He felt like he was losing his mind, but
he really wasn’t.
“Well you’ve got another thing comin’, you arrogant
prick,” was his simple, harsh retort.
Riley wasn’t sure who threw the first punch or who
launched himself at whom first, but all he knew was that his
fist collided with Dominic’s cheek and Dominic’s fist
crashed with his jaw. It knocked Riley back a little as he
heard a low cry from Dominic. He shook his head to clear it
and then tackled Dominic right into the wall with a grunt.
A surge of satisfaction made him stronger as he elbowed
Dominic in the stomach, hearing him groan in pain as he
collapsed against the wall. Riley backed off, wiping a trickle
of blood from his lips and panting hard. They stared each
other down for a few tense moments, ignoring the chants of
fight fight fight!
from around them. It all melded into Riley’s
heartbeat after a second.
Dominic yelled, probably a curse but it was so incoherent,
and sprang up off the wall, pushing Riley into the opposite
side of the hall, slamming him into a door. He grunted and
arched his back as a doorknob nailed him in the back but he
breathed around the pain and punched Dominic square in
the nose to get him off him.
Dominic fell back onto the ground, clutching his nose in
defeat. Riley stood shakily, wincing at the shock of pain that
licked up his back, but he was sickly pleased when blood
started seeping from between Dominic’s fingers. He hated
losing his temper, but liked it when people got what they
deserved.
Dominic tried to stand but stumbled into a wall, knocking
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his head hard on the corner. There was a collective
oooh
sound from bystanders, but despite a slight flicker of
concern, he didn’t pay any attention. Dominic collapsed on
their center, pawing at his shirt gracelessly and smearing
blood all over it. The guy made a face of disgust and
shrugged him off to the wide receiver, who looked
bewildered and lost as to what to do with him.
“Fucking deserved it,” he spat, turning and beginning to
push his way through the congregation, most of whom were
so shocked they didn’t move or speak at all. They were too
busy staring at Dominic kneeling on the floor and stumbling
all over his team like the loser that he was.
Their fallen fucking hero, Riley thought bitterly.
He wasn’t watching where he was walking at all, as
seemed to be a trend today, and slammed hard into someone
else, a full-body slam where their chests connected and not
their shoulders. The momentum knocked the other man flat
on his ass with a surprised grunt. Riley he stumbled back,
looking down at the ground, where his unfortunate collision
partner was currently sitting.
A dark-haired man was scrambling to get up off the floor,
and bright blue eyes nailed him with a curious, open
expression. Riley raised his eyebrows and asked, “Are you
all right?”
The man laughed good-naturedly and nodded. “Yeah, I
take tumbles like that all the time, no big deal,” he replied
with a nod, but then his eyebrows rose as his eyes roved
over his face. “Are
you
okay, is the question?”
Riley laughed sheepishly and rubbed the back of his neck
with his unhurt hand. “Yeah, I’m good. Just got in a fight is
all,” he explained.
“Well, way to go! Would hate to see what the other guy
looks like,” the man said, nudging him with his hand
playfully before clearing his throat and holding it out rather
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more professionally than before. “I’m Devon, by the way.”
Riley gave a dimpled smile and took the offered hand in a
firm grip, replying simply, “Riley.”
“Nice to meet you, Riley,” Devon said with a nod, a grin
spreading across his face as he took his hand back and
rocked back on his heels. “So, um, I’m new here.”
“Oh, are you? Well, welcome,” Riley said in a
good-natured tone. “So are you looking for somewhere in
particular and that’s why you said that?”
Devon laughed sheepishly and nodded in thanks. “You
are very perceptive. Yes, I am so fucking lost. I don’t know
what building ASP is, and I’ve been wandering buildings for
like half an hour trying to find this fucking classroom,” he
explained.
Riley smirked. “Well, for one, you’re definitely in the
wrong building. For two, that building is all the way across
campus, so if you have class in any less than ten minutes,
you’re fucked,” he explained.
“It’s fine, my class started half an hour ago, I’m already
late as shit,” Devon laughed, running his hand through his
wild hair. “I’m not too worried really. Just as long as I find
the fuckin’ place for next time.”
“Well, come on, and I’ll show you where it is,” Riley
offered after letting out a chuckle of pure amusement,
nudging Devon with his shoulder before leading him down
the hall and down the stairs toward the Aspen building.
* * * *
As much as Blake liked spending time in class, what he
cherished most were the times when he and Ethan could just
hang out in their dorms, do homework, watch a movie,
whatever. He loved it, because it reminded him of quiet
nights in high school when everyone else was out partying
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or doing drugs.
Currently, their books were stacked on Ethan’s desk and
they were both lying on the floor in front of a small TV.
Blake was stretched out in front of Ethan, his head resting on
his stomach as Ethan played with his hair idly.
They were both in jeans and hoodies with their shoes still
on, because they didn’t normally bother turning on the heat.
Ethan’s hoodie was Blake’s from a few years back, worn and
grey from how much use it got. Blake’s was a zip-up hoodie
with silver filigree spreading over the chest and down the
stomach—he’d made it himself, painstakingly placing down
all the silvery metallic fabric back during his freshman year
of college.
“This is a weird movie,” Blake mused, looking up
through his lashes, kicking his head back so that he could
see Ethan clearly. He frowned, even though he was well
aware that the expression would look backward to his best
friend and it’d look like a smile. “I don’t even know what’s
going on.”
Ethan just shrugged nonchalantly, moving his small
fingers through the two-toned strands, paying idle but
special attention to the pink strands that he idly noted
needed to be re-dyed. “I dunno, just the first one I picked.
Besides, Donnie Darko’s a classic,” he said, and Blake just
chuckled, shaking his head and settling back down to watch
it.
“Still a weird movie,” he mumbled, but he shifted so that
he could get comfortable, slinging his free arm behind him
over Ethan’s hip, keeping him close as he rested pretty much
completely against him, relaxing and letting the tension that
had been building in his body release.
He always enjoyed the closeness he and Ethan shared. He
was the person Blake could always go to without fear of
being judged because Ethan had already seen him at his
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absolute worst. He’d walked in on his one and only suicide
attempt, the scars from which were effectively tattooed over.
He still saw that terrified concern in Ethan’s face. He’d
evened out and finally started testosterone therapy, finally