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Authors: Antoinette May
"Perhaps, if you believe in her...and if you remember to reach for the thread."
We were not alone, I felt it and turned. Pilate watched from the doorway. How long had he been there? He looked furious, but his voice was soft as he addressed Marcella. "You'll excuse your mother, won't you, sweet one?" He nodded for me to follow him. Once outside, he grabbed my shoulder, pulling me down the corridor to my apartments. "I don't understand," I gasped.
"Keep quiet! Do you want the slaves to hear!"
At last we reached the massive door, inset with ivory and lapis lazuli. Pilate thrust it open and shoved me inside. Slamming it behind him, he turned to face me.
"What's going on here, Claudia?"
My heart thumped wildly. I needed more than Ariadne's thread. "I don't know what you're talking about," I said, backing away.
"Jesus' body is gone--stolen out of his tomb. Now the guard tells me that his woman has been to the palace twice, that she spent part of last night here in this very room. You were so anxious for me to release his body. Why? What is your part in all this?"
"Miriam is my friend. I told you that in Galilee. She came to me hoping that I might persuade you to pardon her husband. Of course, that was impossible. I knew that. She knew it too, but was desperate. Can you not understand simple feelings?"
Pilate shrugged off the question. As though thinking aloud, his voice lowered. "She was one of the women who went to the tomb this morning. How they expected to roll back the stone, I can't imagine. As it turned out they had no need. Someone had already removed it. All that remained inside was Jesus' burial shroud, lying on the ground as though he had just stepped out of it. Now I ask you"--he leveled his eyes suspiciously on me--"how can this be?"
"How should I know? Ask your guards."
"They claim to know nothing."
"You mean they went to sleep! Those disciplined fighting men?" I looked at him, incredulous.
"We shall soon find out," Pilate answered grimly. "They are being questioned now."
We sat in silence for a time. My mind reeled, trying to imagine Miriam's shock at finding an empty tomb. What did it mean? What lay ahead for her? I felt the weight of Pilate's eyes, watching. What lay ahead for me? Finally, not knowing what else to say, I thanked him for giving Jesus' body to Joseph. "You were kind." How absurd that sounded in view of this inexplicable new development.
But Pilate took me seriously. "I believed it was your wish. I
do
want to please you, Claudia."
I smiled at the irony of his words. "Indeed? It was not always so."
"It is now. Surely you have noticed changes...since we came to Judaea?"
"Some changes, perhaps," I allowed, not meeting his eyes.
"Yet you went to Caesarea."
"Yes, I went to Caesarea." I stood still, braced for whatever might follow. When he said nothing, I looked up. "I suppose you know..."
"I know about the plague," Pilate answered.
I took a deep breath, searching his eyes. He knows all of it and has chosen to forgive me.
But it was too late. Unspoken forgiveness was no longer enough, nor was fear sufficient to keep me quiet. A sense of power surged through me as I faced him. "As I know all about you."
"Very well then." Pilate's eyes blazed. "Let's talk about Holtan. Because of him I have endured grievous humiliation. Thanks to Livia, your conduct is the talk of Rome. Anyone would advise me to exile you, Claudia. Had the man lived, he'd have taken you from me. I know as well that the two of you would not have rested until you found a way to steal Marcella."
"I cannot deny that any more than you can deny the countless women you have had throughout our marriage--Titania, for instance. Did you imagine I did not know about her--did not know about the other child born to you on the very same day as our Marcella? Yes, I know about your son, the son who died."
Pilate looked down. "I have hurt you badly. I regret it deeply."
"As I have hurt you, which I do
not
regret." As from a distance I heard myself speaking in a tone I scarcely recognized, saying words that sounded not at all like me.
"I see...but is forgiveness possible?"
"Do you care after all that has happened?"
He hesitated before continuing. "We've both lost much, must we also lose each other?"
I smiled wryly, remembering my sixteenth year and the young centurion with blue eyes and a heartbreaking smile who had come to my father's villa. I recalled the incantation and the spell, could almost smell the perfume rising from the bath. What a frantic, foolish girl I had been. I remembered the soul-searing waves of jealousy that had all but destroyed those early years.
Pilate touched my cheek lightly. "You loved me once, perhaps too much. Can't you...is it not possible for you to love me again?" His hand moved to the sistrum I wore about my throat. "What would your Isis say?"
"That you are a most unlikely Osiris!"
"And your mystagogue...would he not say that
every
marriage is a union of Isis and Osiris? Would he not also say that I am the Osiris the goddess has sent to
you
?"
I laughed. What a politician! Pilate was incredible, yet could it be that he was right? Did Isis mean for me to gather and cherish the remaining pieces of
this
union? Memories crowded in, my life's best and worst...I felt again the horror and humiliation of my sister's funeral. Pilate, the ambitious one, the man who would do anything, sacrifice anyone, had remained loyal, riding in the funeral procession beside me. It was in those troubled times that our Marcella had been conceived.
"Marcella loves you," I answered at last.
"Is there nothing more for us than that?" His eyes, once so cool, searched mine. "So much has happened to us both--we are wiser now. You are safe, you are well, you are here. Say that you will always be here."
He knew everything and yet he had forgiven me. Holtan was dead and I had been left behind. I must go on for Marcella. I had loved Pilate once...It would take time, but perhaps...I did not know.
"Yes," I said, finally meeting his eyes. "I will always be here."
A
fter the trial nothing seemed to go right. Nothing that Pilate did met with the emperor's approval. Eventually we were recalled to Rome. There would be no further appointments. I did not need the sight to tell me that it was time for us to begin a new life somewhere else.
When a pleasant dream placed me again at my childhood home, I took it as a sign from Isis. Why not return to Monokos? Pilate, increasingly despondent, did not care where we went.
When we reached the town, we found it changed, no longer the small garrison where I had grown up. Too many people, too many chariots crowding the steep, narrow streets that hugged the hills. What could I have expected after so many years? The best of Monokos remains. The sea mist cool on my skin, the smell of salt and seaweed, the surf sounds at night. Sweet sensations that awaken ghosts of my loved ones,
Tata
and Mother, my beautiful sister with her laughing eyes, regal Agrippina, restless shades never far away.
What I could never have anticipated was finding Miriam here. I had heard rumors that she had been stoned to death in the streets of Jerusalem. Over the years I often prayed to Isis for her soul as I do for the many others lost to me. What a joy to discover my old friend alive and well.
Miriam has changed, her glorious hair flows white now. Many are drawn to the one they have come to call the Magdalene. She meets with them in the crumbling temple of some forgotten goddess and speaks of Jesus. Even Pilate sometimes attends her gatherings. Ironic as it may seem, he draws solace from their meetings. More surprising, he is accepted and forgiven by the faithful.
Discovering Miriam in Gaul has brought unexpected joy to these past years. Despite her great loss, she remains a lively companion. Miriam tells endless tales, most often about Jesus' resurrection. It seems that she returned again to the open tomb of Jesus, this time alone. A strange man awaited her there. He was a gardener, or perhaps an angel. Miriam is unsure about that as well. Sometimes she believes that it was Jesus himself, but instead of rushing to hold her, he insisted that she remain at a distance. It is hard for me to understand that, much less to believe it. But then, "What is truth?" as Pilate is so fond of asking. She is certain that he lives, that he awaits her in the kingdom of heaven. Where that is, I do not know; and Miriam, though certain of its existence, is vague about the location.
Strange to think of Pilate, Miriam, and me bound together in this far-off land, living out our final years in exile. Pilate is frail now, our fortunes greatly reduced. We will never return to Rome. Why would we? The political turmoil has only grown worse. True, Livia and Tiberius are dead. My old enemy, Caligula, reigned for a time as Caesar, just as my sight once told me he would. But he, too, is dead. Now Agrippina's grandson Nero, a worse tyrant if that is possible, has taken his place.
Nero has begun to persecute the followers of Jesus--Christians, they call themselves. I scarcely know what to make of this new cult. A father who sacrifices his own son? A king who dies a criminal's death? Followers of Peter. Followers of Paul. They fight noisily among themselves, arguing about obscure tenets. The one belief they can agree on is that the world is fast coming to an end. Very soon now Jesus will return to reward the faithful and punish the unbelievers with eternal damnation. That last part doesn't sound at all like the Jesus I remember; yet in anticipation of heaven, his followers give away their belongings. Working hard, pressing forward in the Roman way, has scant appeal to them. Their promised treasures are not of this world. No glory for
Pax Romana
in that!
It is easy to see how Nero is able make scapegoats of them. But his cruelties...Christians are crucified and burned alive, others fed to lions! I fear for Rachel, who has become one of them and lives now in Rome with Marcella and her family, but wonder why she and the others don't avoid those dreadful deaths by paying lip service to Nero while keeping secret their creed. Still, my sight tells me that the world will not forget the Christians' stubborn bravery. I see in them a true marriage of Yahweh and Isis--courage and conviction but also compassion and charity--and pray this sacred union will not be forgotten in later years.
The presence of my oldest granddaughter here in Monokos gives me great pleasure, a beautiful young woman so like her dear namesake, my mother. Selene and I share a special bond; I suspect she too has the sight. The inheritance I dreaded to find in Marcella may have passed instead to her daughter. I pray that it serves her better than it has me.
Selene has been especially kind this summer. I feel her glance often and look up to see her lovely eyes clouded with concern. Who knows, perhaps she sees my death. So be it! My life has been long and I have seen and done much. In these last years I have been a good wife to Pilate. I have no regrets, and if my days are numbered they only bring me that much closer to the one who has waited so long.
--Claudia, wife of Pontius Pilate
MONOKOS, IN THE FIFTH YEAR OF THE
REIGN OF NERO
(65
C.E
.)
F
ortuna was kind, blessing me with the inspiration and support of many. In the Stanford classrooms of Patrick Hunt and David Cherry the spark of a half-remembered sermon caught fire and took form.
Writer friends Kevin Arnold, Marlo Faulkner, Lucy Sanna, Nancy and Harold Farmer, Jim Spencer, Phyllis Butler, and Helen Bonner--most particularly Helen Bonner--read and reread draft after draft. Without their patience and creativity,
Pilate's Wife
would not have been.
Literary agent Irene Webb guided and encouraged me with wisdom and humor. My editors, first Renee Sedliar and then Claire Wachtel, were latter-day Ariadnes leading me through the labyrinth, their perceptive suggestions crucial.
You've achieved creative and financial success as a biographer profiling a wide variety of subjects. Why this sudden plunge into historical fiction?
It really isn't so sudden. A half-remembered sermon I heard as a teenager continues to tug at my imagination. The gist of that Easter homily was Pontius Pilate "washing his hands" of a difficult situation. Well, we've all done that! I was far more intrigued by a random reference to Pilate's visionary wife, Claudia. Who was this seer with a dream so powerful that she sought to change the course of history? Years later, a Stanford class in Roman culture brought it together. The project began in earnest in 1992.
Then why not a straight biography?
Pilate's Wife
began that way. First, six years in the classics department at Stanford studying the first-century worlds of Rome and Judaea. Then, steeped in the history, art, philosophy, literature, architecture, and mythology of the time, I visited the remains of Claudia's world in Rome, Turkey, Egypt, and the Holy Land. But the woman herself eluded me. For the first time, conventional biography felt constraining. Soon Claudia and I were on our own.
Is anything actually known of her?
Only that the name, Claudia, identifies her as a member of the Claudian dynasty--at that time the ruling family of Rome. Frank Slaughter, a historical novelist of the 1950s, wrote briefly of Pontius Pilate's wife. It was his plot device that she was Emperor Augustus's illegitimate granddaughter. Subsequent writers have embroidered on his conjecture, but I find it highly unlikely. If Claudia's connection to royalty were this close, Matthew would have referred to it in his gospel. All we know is that she was of the patrician class, and the ambitious knight, Pontius Pilate, was a social tier below her.
Do you think such a story--a novel of the first century--has relevancy today?
Very much so. This is a time of tremendous religious upheaval. People are either searching for new truths or frantically striving to nail down the old ones. The goddess movement, the extreme popularity of
The Da Vinci Code
, and the sudden "rediscovery" of Mary Magdalene are all indications of a groundswell need to challenge traditional views that are no longer satisfying.Pilate's Wife
is a mosaic of the old-time religion--
really
old time. Interwoven with Claudia's story are the roots of Christianity. I hope readers will feel a strong connection to a cast of characters whose names and stories are so much a part of our culture. The high impact comes from the unexpected newness of the material.
Claudia is virtually your own creation, but many better-known historical figures play prominent roles in your novel: Tiberius, Livia, Germanicus, and--most significantly--Mary Magdalene and Jesus are major players. What about those characters?
The deeds and personalities of the Roman characters are a matter of public record. Social historians recorded their actions in writing literally as they were happening. The lives of Mary Magdalene and Jesus were immortalized initially through oral history and so are subject to interpretation and invariably controversy. A lesser-known but stubbornly persistent tradition maintains that the two had a physical as well as spiritual connection.
Do you believe this?
Yes, I do. Jesus and Mary were real people living in a real time. Evidence of their physical attachment endures today. Somehow their love evaded the warring factions of early Christianity, survived many political cuts, and made it into the Bible as we now know it. All that mouth kissing had to mean something!
Is love then the theme of
Pilate's Wife
?
To some extent. The love between Mary and Jesus is significant, the triangle involving Claudia, Pilate, and the gladiator Holtan central. But more important, I would call
Pilate's Wife
a saga of survival against all odds. The first century was a time of political intrigue, passionate family rivalries and alliances, assassinations, and unmatched social upheaval. Audacious and independent, Claudia is the ultimate survivor.
Isn't she also something of a mystic?
Yes, definitely. Her dreams had an uncanny way of coming true. Often she "saw" things,
real
things, fearful things, before they happened. In a time of goddess worship, when potions were sold to elicit love or death, a mystical thread lead the rebellious Claudia to the temple of Isis in Egypt, to Pompeii's Villa of Mysteries, and to the snake pit at Pergamon, where lost powers were thought to be restored.
Is spiritual feminism then also a theme...and where does that come from?
I'm an avid amateur anthropologist, fascinated by both archaeology and parapsychology. The conviction that spiritual connection comes through intuition rather than merely rational thought evolved in the course of profiling a series of renowned mediums such as Sylvia Browne, Anne Armstrong, and the late Betty Bethards. Like Claudia in
Pilate's Wife,
I'm a dreamer and keep a journal. Mine aren't as dramatic as hers, but they are sometimes prophetic.
Are you saying that this is a book that wrote itself?
Nothing that takes twelve years writes itself! There was a kind of magic, though, the thrill of discovering ancient shards that I could fit together into a grand mosaic of my own design--just like the ancient Romans did. As I slipped into another world, one by one the questions that were my reporter's stock and trade were answered. Slowly, almost shyly, Claudia revealed herself and allowed me to tell her story.
A
NTOINETTE
M
AY
is the author of many books and coauthor of
Adventures of a Psychic: The Fascinating and Inspiring True-Life Story of One of America's Most Successful Clairvoyants
, a biography of contemporary clairvoyant Sylvia Browne, which spent forty-two weeks on the
New York Times
bestseller list. She is a regular contributor to the
San Francisco Chronicle
, and has had articles published in
Cosmopolitan, Country Living Self
, the
San Diego Union-Tribune
, the
Los Angeles Times
, and the
San Jose Mercury News. Pilate's Wife
is her first novel.
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