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Titles by Lydia Michaels

Protégé

The Surrender Trilogy

Falling In

Breaking Out

Coming Home

Protégé

Lydia Michaels

INTERMIX BOOKS, NEW YORK

INTERMIX

Published by Berkley

An imprint of Penguin Random House LLC

375 Hudson Street, New York, New York 10014

Copyright © 2016 by Lydia Michaels.

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ISBN: 97804511487971

First Edition: August 2016

Cover design by Sandra Chiu.

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, business establishments, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

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For Amber M. of the marvelous Naughty Book Club.

The world needs more people like you:

devious, dirty minded, and undeniably hilarious.

Fernweh
/fern-vay/ (German origin; no English translation)

—A deep yearning for the unknown

—The unsettling sense of being called to something not yet understood

Chapter One

“Welcome to Fernweh Industries. Do you prefer water or champagne?”

Breath whooshed into Collette's hollow lungs as she stared, wide-eyed, at the man standing behind the enormous desk. This moment, her being here in this office, was perhaps the most surreal experience of her life. But wasn't the definition of surrealism complete individualism, the unlocking of the unconscious mind necessary to reach one's creative potential?

Her darkest desires had been locked away in those corners of her mind far too long. Believing in this
surreal
place, was the only chance left at feeling alive again. And it was
this man
who could help her unlock her potential.

Having forgotten his question, she looked at him blankly, her eyes widening once more. Dear God, she totally forgot his question. She was having some sort of acute amnesia. Her lips parted as the tiniest squawk escaped her throat—a mediocre apology, if that—and he raised a perfectly arched brow.

Say something!

She couldn't think, couldn't form a single excuse for sitting there like a mute idiot incapable of simple chatter. Sensing he already found her tedious—which her unnecessary silence absolutely was—she lowered her gaze and muttered, “I'm sorry, what did you ask?”

He silently sighed and ignored the iced champagne bottle in the stainless bucket and poured a tall glass of water from the pitcher on his desk. “Have a seat, Ms. Banks.”

Her chest filled with cool air and the masculine scent of the finely appointed office. Hoping not to make an even bigger ass of herself, she quickly took a seat and frowned. He'd used her real last name, not the fake name she'd concocted to register for the interview.

Passing her the glass, he chuckled. “I know everyone's name, Ms. Banks. As the founder of Fernweh, it's my responsibility to be thoroughly familiar with the people I'm endorsing, but have no fear. I also believe in total confidentiality outside these doors. Tell me about yourself.”

Her fingers slid along the heavy crystal she had yet to bring to her lips. Using both hands, she supported the weighted tumbler from slipping through her numb fingers.

Robotically, she chanted facts into the quiet room as if dictating to a machine. Apparently lying was useless.

“My name is Collette Banks. I'm thirty years old. I was born in Savannah, Georgia, where I lived most of my life. I'm currently unemployed, but I have a degree in secondary education . . .”

Her words tapered off as he moved with the patient grace of a jaguar, sliding into the thickly upholstered chair behind the ornate desk. His motions distracted her train of thought; his acute focus appeared undeterred as he observed her without interruption. His stare was so intense; it intersected her speech, as if that single-minded look were somehow louder than her own voice. Yet he was silent. His fingers drummed on the arm of the chair as the knuckles of his right hand curled over his mouth, disguising his expression.

Every word that came to mind seemed clumsy and unsophisticated, a blunt insult to the well-polished man before her. She lowered her gaze to the glass she held—not a single fleck or particle polluting the crystalline liquid.

What am I doing here?

“You've stopped talking, Ms. Banks.”

She nodded but didn't look up. If he asked her to leave, she would. As a matter of fact, she was waiting for his direction to do just that. This was a mistake.

“Tell me about your last job.”

Her shoulders felt bare, naked and exposed, but her sweater safely covered them. Before one entered this office, the establishment looked just like any other upper-class commercial space. No one would assume this was where men and women came to sign their futures away. Perhaps she hadn't given this decision the consideration it deserved.

“Ms. Banks, I'm waiting.”

“I taught French.”

“Yet you're a southerner from Georgia. How . . . charming. Say something in French.”

“Qu'est-ce que vous me tiens à dire?”
What would you like me to say?
She never knew what to say when people asked that.

“Dites-moi quelque chose que je ne vais pas trouver dans votre paperasse.”

Her head lifted and her breath caught in her throat. He was smirking, not with his mouth, but with a slight crease around his green eyes, as if he found her bilingual abilities amusing. His unexpected French response took her so off-guard that she had to switch gears to decipher his words.
Tell me something that isn't on your résumé.

A grin trembled to her lips. She'd only regurgitated facts up until that moment—but now that she learned she wouldn't get away with fibs, she quietly confessed what brought her to the area.
“Je suis venu ici pour cette.”
I came here for this.

“Fernweh?”

“Oui.”

His head tilted, throwing his dark brown hair into the light. It wasn't as dark as her first impression had led her believe. In the natural light it was almost auburn.
“Pourquoi?”

Why had she come all this way to be a part of Fernweh? Even she didn't have the answer to that.
“Je ne sais pas.”

He continued to speak to her in French, her mind now naturally translating. “There must be a reason.”

Speaking to someone, other than students, in French was a rare pleasure. She seldom got to stretch her linguistic muscles in companionable dialogue. His grasp of the language was refreshing, a strange comfort in an awkward situation. “I wanted a change.”

“That's quite a life-altering decision. Tell me how you discovered Fernweh. You aren't a direct relative of any of our clients, which is typically how referrals come to us.”

Her gaze again lowered and she swallowed. “I assume you're familiar with the school that employed me.”

“I am. Small town, generic demographic, rural enough that the lands don't require picket fencing to boast the community's charm, yet everyone knows the bank teller, the librarian, and the mechanic by name.”

Startled by his astute and somewhat symptomatic synopsis, she met his gaze again. “Have you been there?”

“No, but no one walks through my door until I've done my research. Do you find it difficult to breathe there, Ms. Banks, among all that open land with few shadows to hide any secrets?”

Her chest tightened as her heart beat a bit faster. “It can get claustrophobic.”

His eyes creased. “Ironic.” His chair shifted, but he continued to study her. “Do you feel like you're hiding in plain sight sometimes?”

How was he reading her so easily? They'd never met. He'd never been to her town. What sort of research had he done? This man, after only a few minutes of meeting her, seemed to see her deepest secrets, the ones she never whispered or dared to write down.

Her gaze darted to the surface of the desk and held. “I'm not hiding, but sometimes I feel like I'm dying, in front of everyone, but too gradually for anyone to notice.”

“Lost?”

She nodded. “Yes. Lost.” It was something she'd felt since childhood, but lately the adrift sense of meaninglessness overwhelmed her.

“And you're hoping to find an anchor.”

She nodded, sensing that his inference didn't require an answer. A familiar lump built in her throat and she swallowed to force it back, but it didn't budge. Her eyes glazed with unshed tears that she quickly blinked away. There was a soft whisper of fabric, and a silk handkerchief was offered just inside her peripheral vision. He'd moved so quietly she hadn't noticed him stand. “Thank you.” She took the handkerchief and blotted away her inexplicable tears.

“You're welcome.” His voice was low. “Do you cry often?”

With forced calm, she blinked away the dampness at her lashes. “I don't know why I'm crying now.” This was absurd.

“I suspect you're nervous, perhaps a little unsure. Disclosing personal details is a necessary part of the Fernweh process, I'm afraid. The unease you're likely experiencing is your mind's protective instinct to hide all vulnerability. There's no judgment here, Ms. Banks.”

She sniffed and blotted her lashes again, certain her makeup was blemished. “I'm sorry. What were we talking about?”

“No need to apologize. You were informing me how you discovered Fernweh.”

She nodded. The gentle way he coaxed her to continue somehow made it easier to go on. Though she was the one speaking, he seemed to be in control of the conversation.

“Right. Well, with the economy as it is, our school let some employees go. The arts took the largest staff cut, but then the language department felt the pinch. I should have planned for such a thing, but I have a habit of putting too much faith in intangible security.”

He said nothing, so she went on. “At first I kept myself busy, but then I was just . . . hiding, I guess. I watched TV for hours on end, abused my Netflix, stalked social media, but never really commented or interacted with others. My voice mail slowly filled up with messages from concerned friends until it was full. I actually found the silence relieving.”

“You were depressed.”

Such a simple diagnosis, such a complex and insufferable disorder. “Yes.” She finally sipped the water. The pure taste was refreshing, more so than tap. She wondered if he had it shipped in from some exotic place.

Seeing he was waiting, she continued, compelled to give him everything, all the facts. “One day I was online searching for something. I don't recall what. I started on Google, which led to another place, then a blog of sorts. As I was reading an article that caught my attention, some words were highlighted, so I clicked them and I wound up being transplanted to a strange site about people living in D/s relationships, and finding suitable mates within that lifestyle. I'd never heard of such a thing before. It seemed . . . not real. I couldn't imagine people actually living in such a way. But it . . .”

“Spoke to you?”

A soft smile curved her lips as she gazed at him, appreciating his gentle suggestion. “Yes.
Called to me
might be more accurate.”

“Your experience with dominance and submission doesn't accurately align with the information provided, Ms. Banks. You've checked off nearly the entire list of permissible . . . intimacy.” Easing forward, he fingered through the file on his desk. “And you've only listed four hard limits. Either your curiosity is copious or you've forgotten a good part of your listed familiarity.”

She'd guessed at most of that stuff. Blushing, she confessed, “I suppose I'm more interested in the emotional dynamic of relationships like that. I don't think the sexual stuff matters all that much.”

“I'm afraid I disagree. The sexual component of every relationship matters significantly. You've marked an inclination for certain practices you've never attempted. What would happen if you were paired with someone specifically drawn to that practice, perhaps to a fetish level, and after experiencing the act, you discovered it to be something you couldn't abide?”

She swallowed as the compatible conversation drifted into an unfamiliar territory. “Am I in trouble?”

His eyes creased again, but she was coming to recognize the expression as a sort of smirk. “No, but this application is trash.” He dropped the entire file into the leather can beside his desk, and she flinched. That seemed a bit dramatic. “Now, continue with your story. You were flitting from one blog to another, landed upon some interesting D/s forums, and . . .”

It was difficult to determine if his tone was impatient or amused. She detected a dry sense of humor but didn't know him well enough to assume he was teasing. He could very well be annoyed and rushing this meeting to its end.

“Um . . .” She swallowed again, her throat dry, but her hands were too numb to lift her glass. “Well, I guess I just kept reading until someone mentioned Fernweh. I saved the article to my favorites. That's how I came to your site. It doesn't show up when you search it on any of the search engines I've tried.”

“Precisely the way we prefer it. I'd like the link to that article when you have a moment.”

“Sure.” It became clear her application had been accepted only because they wanted to know how she'd discovered their company, which was probably why her paperwork was now in the trash. Disappointment moored her insides, pulling tight until she felt slightly ashamed of her actions, but she was unsure why.

Slowly, she frowned and asked again, “Am I in some sort of trouble?”

His hands now rested on his lap. His fingers entwined, thumbs folding over each other in a slow revolution. “No. I'm merely contemplating how to proceed.”

She glanced around the office, hoping he'd make up his mind sooner rather than later. She had to use the restroom and her meter only had about twenty more minutes.

“You do understand that this is not a sex club.”

Her attention snapped back to him. “That's not what I thought it was at all. Dear Lord, do such things really exist?”

***

Jude chuckled. Her southern accent was an abrupt shift from the throaty French dialect they'd been using. This woman had no business being here. “Indeed they do, but that's not what Fernweh is.”

Her soft pink lips parted, showing white, slightly crooked teeth. There was such innocence in her hazel eyes. Her round cheeks reminded him of a woman from the twenties, but her hair was quite long. He couldn't decide how long, as it was clipped back, but bronze curls sprang with unruly determination to be set free.

There was something so charming and proper about southern women. They possessed an aged eloquence that seemed depleted in East Coast women, replaced by cutthroat drive and grit. West Coast women also lacked this unnamable quality as well. Sometimes there was nothing more appealing than an independent woman, who knew what she wanted and just how to get it, but today he experienced an appreciation for antiquated charm.

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