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“Don’t remind me…”

“Sorry. But this isn’t a big deal… Is it?”

Danica looked at me. She could easily tell from my silence what I was already thinking.

“You’re not in love with this guy, are you?” she asked.

“No. No, it’s nothing like that. You know I don’t fall for guys so easily.”

“So, it’s the sex then.”

“…Danica, you have no idea. He’s
so
good-looking. But it’s not just that. He’s charming. He’s funny. He’s charismatic. He’s intelligent.”

“Alice, are you
sure
you’re not in love with this guy?”

“No, I know it’s not that.”

“So you’re telling me you’re falling for a guy because… what? How big is his dick?”

“It’s more than enough. He’s…”

“Yeah?”

“He’s the best lay I ever had. But he doesn’t want to do it any longer.”

“Is he not interested?”

“No.”

“I still don’t understand what’s going on, Alice. None of this makes any sense.”

I let out a frustrated sigh. I couldn’t spill all of the details out of respect for Rafael. He had a reputation to uphold. When I did have sex with him, he wasn’t the billionaire CEO of the biggest company in the city. He was just some hot guy I was never expecting to see again. And now that I knew more about him, I found myself more attracted to him than to anybody else I’d ever been to in my life. But it wasn’t just for me. I cared for Rafael’s own sake. He was holding back because of me. He treated me like some hook-up because that’s all I was. Now that I was his employee, he had to deny himself.

I ran my hand through my hair and looked around the restaurant as if searching for an answer. It was wrong for me to be thinking this way but I couldn’t get Rafael out of my mind. Everything about him just made me want him even more.

“You don’t want to mess around with some random guy in the club tonight,” Danica said to me. “You want this guy. Whoever the hell he is. He must be
some
guy.”

“He is.”

“But you don’t want anything more.”

“No. Not yet. I don’t know. Maybe. But I’m not thinking that far ahead.”

“Alice, you know what to do. You’ve been doing it your whole life. It’s who you are.”

“What are you talking about?”

“You need to
make
this guy want you.”

“How am I supposed to do that?”

“Just try a little harder. Tell him what you want. Wear a sexy little outfit or something. Give him an offer you can’t refuse.”

“Danica, that’s—”

I began laughing at my friend’s advice. It all sounded so ridiculous. But it was a better idea than anything I could come up with.

“What do you
really
want, Alice?”

“I… I want him.”

“Then tell him.”

Danica’s suggestion began making more sense than it did initially. There was no point in trying to fight it any longer. If I wanted Rafael to see things my way, I was going to have to show it to him exactly.

“Alice?”

“What?”

“You’re okay, right? I mean, it
is
your day off. You should be relaxing and enjoying yourself. You shouldn’t be stressing over anything. Especially a man.”

“Yeah… Yeah, you’re right.”

“Of course, I’m right. I’m always right.”

I let out a sigh of relief then began to laugh along with my friend. I did my best to forget about everything that was on my mind and finally enjoy my time off. Now, I at least had an idea in my head on exactly what to do next.

Chapter 19

Rafael didn’t look any different than he usually did during Monday morning’s board meeting. After spending a week with him, my opinion of him had changed for the better. I didn’t know what he thought about me though. I could only hope that he was thinking the same way I was.

I spoke to his secretary later that day. I asked her to schedule a meeting with him. Of course, his schedule was completely full. Even though I had an excuse to see him, there was still trouble fitting me in. The only time he had available was after my normal shift. He thankfully approved to see me. If I were going to pull this off, I had to do it sooner than later. I couldn’t take it any longer.

I sat there at my desk and did my best to focus on my work. My eyes would linger over toward my clock. The seconds couldn’t pass by fast enough. I was doing everything I could to fight the anxiety building up inside of me. It felt like an eternity before my shift finally ended. The offices emptied and the lights were shut off. Up in his office, I knew Rafael was sitting there and waiting.

All right, Alice. I hope you know what you’re doing…

I stepped inside of the bathroom to change and get ready. I’d stuffed the outfit into my bag and tucked it under my desk until the time was right. After getting changed, I threw my coat over it to conceal everything then took the elevator up toward his office. I tapped my heel against the ground in nervous anticipation. I could feel the sweat on my palm beginning to soak through the manila folder I was holding.

When I stepped into his office, Rafael was hard at work as usual. The sound of Japanese coming from the sound system continued while he scribbled away at something on his desk. My heels clicked against the marble ground. Through the windows, the sun had set and the buildings began to light-up to signal the coming of night. I stood there in front of his desk for a few seconds before he finally turned his head up to look at me.

“Hello, Alice,” he said. “Tina said that you needed to see me. What’s this about?”

“I have the report for you, sir. I was hoping that you could look at it before I presented it to the board. Maybe you could advise me on some things to change or what else to look for. Your insight could help me a lot.”

I placed the folder on his desk in front of him. He picked it up and opened it.

“All right,” he said as he began sorting through the papers. “I’m glad you have something for me. This might take me awhile so you’re free to leave. You’re already prepared to leave, it looks like.”

He didn’t move his eyes up from the papers. I slowly began to walk around his desk and made my way toward him.

“Actually… That report isn’t the only thing I have for you tonight,” I said to him.

“Oh, is that right?”

“Yes, I stopped by Elizabeth’s this weekend. To pick up the credit card I’d left behind. Do you remember?”

“Right. Just leave it on my desk and you can go.”

I was standing on the other side of his desk right next to him but he still hadn’t looked up at me. I placed his card down upon his desk. My fingers lingered upon it as I looked down at him.

“While I was there, I figured I might as well buy something for myself.”

“Is that right?”

“Don’t worry, Rafael. I didn’t charge it to the company credit card. It wasn’t a business expense.”

I placed my hand upon his shoulder. I could feel it pulsing through my body. The emotions and desires were swimming around in my stomach. I was doing everything I could to try and make him feel it with a single touch.

He slowly turned his head up toward me.

“Alice—”

“I was wondering if you might comment on it. After all, you’re
very
adamant about me following the dress code. Whether it’s in the board meetings or at a dinner party.”

I tugged his shoulder and his chair began to roll away from his desk. He dropped the papers down. I took the place between him and his desk. I slowly began to undo the belt of my coat. His eyes were locked upon me. My heart was racing. The belt became undone and I parted the coat off to my sides.

I leaned up against the edge of his desk in nothing but a black shelf bra and a matching garter and stockings. There was no need for anything more. I was completely exposed to him. I had been with him before but he had never seen me like this.

As his eyes examined me up and down, his throat shifted as he swallowed. I stared back at him, trying to fight the grin slowly forming upon my face.

“What do you think?” I asked. “They have some
very
interesting things at Elizabeth’s.”

“Alice, what are you doing?”

“Don’t deny it any longer, Rafael. This is what you want.”

“We’ve already been over this, Alice. We can’t do this.”

“Yes, we can. I don’t care what anybody thinks about me. I don’t care about my reputation.”

“And what about your job? What about your company? What will they say when they find out the company is being run in part by some woman who fucked her way to the top?”

“That’s not true, Rafael. I won’t stop working. Besides, who says they’re going to find out? This will be between you… and me.”

My heart was racing. My mouth hung half-open as my lungs burned. I was failing miserably at trying to catch my breath. Tiny little jolts of electricity were shooting through my body. I was shaking and vibrating with anticipation.

I had never been like this before. I never wanted it so bad. This wasn’t like me. I was always rational. It didn’t make any sense for me to do this. But the feelings and desires were taking over. I was becoming a victim to the instincts I thought I was capable of holding back. Logic had left me a long time ago and I didn’t mind.

I didn’t know what it was about him. But he was unlike anybody I’d ever met. It wasn’t just who he was. None of that mattered to me. I had never met a man that was capable of treating me the way he did.

Is this what I really want? Yes… Yes, this is what you want, Alice.

I pressed my hands down to brace myself on the desk. My legs spread as I ached for him. I was calling out to him without saying a word. The tension in the room was palpable. I could feel it. And I was hoping that he could to. I stared into his eyes and realized this was the worst I had ever been with a man before. I was desperate. It was pathetic and I knew it. I didn’t care though. I wouldn’t leave this room until he took his position between my legs. I wanted him. All of him. And I didn’t care about the consequences.

I raised one of my legs and pushed my heel against the inside of his thigh. He didn’t protest as I pushed my foot up farther until it ran into his thickening cock. He exhaled a deep breath, his eyes still locked upon me. I massaged him with my heel. The sound of his breathing started to increase. Just as I could feel him on the edge of excitement, I lowered my leg.

Before he could do anything else, I reached forward and gripped his tie. I slowly bent down and tugged him toward me. My face close to his, I whispered into his mouth.

“No one will know. This will be our secret. What happens between us will stay between us. You don’t have to look around late night at clubs anymore. You can escape from the pressure you put upon yourself with me. That’s all this is.”

“Alice—”

“Rafael, I don’t want to fuck another man when I know that you’ll do it for me better than any of them. I can do it however you want it. You know I can. Any other woman you’ve been with, they’re not like me. I know that turns you on. I know that I’m the best pussy you’ve ever had. Say it isn’t true, Rafael… Say it…”

He remained silent except for the sound of breath escaping from between his lips. I pressed my face close to his. My eyes were half-closed as I examined him closely. I could feel it pulsing through his body. He couldn’t fight it. Not even a man like him.

“Fuck me, Rafael… Let it all go… Just for a single moment…”

Our lips were grazing against one another. I could feel him fighting a losing battle. He was trying so desperately to pull his head away. I didn’t wait any longer. I rushed my face closer to his. He let go. His tongue found a familiar spot inside of my mouth as he jumped out of his chair. I gasped into his mouth as he pushed me up against the side of his desk.

I melted as he picked me up and sat me up on the edge of the desk. I took my coat off completely and tossed it to the side in a fit of passion. While we kissed one another deeply, the two of us worked together to unbuckle him. I watched his pants drop down around his ankles and his cock glistened before me. I spread my legs and my aching center was waiting for him.

There were no more excuses. No more holding back. No more denying what both of us wanted except for this. The carnal desire inside of each of us was calling out and there was no choice but to respond to it.

He held his length at the tip of my entrance. I looked into his eyes as I braced myself upon his desk. The papers shifted underneath my palms and I swept them out of the way. Rafael raised my legs underneath his arms and shoved himself into me. I let out a groan that echoed through his spacious office. My eyes sealed shut and my head jerked back.

It had felt like so long since we had been like this. It was only a few weeks ago but it felt like ages. He was a perfect fit. Rafael rocked himself into me with perfect rhythm. My breasts heaved on my chest up and down in the same motion. I moaned in ecstasy every single time he filled me up. It wasn’t long before he was banging me just the way I wanted it. He buried himself to the hilt. The base of his cock pressed against me and racked my body with even more pleasure.

I raised my arms up and wrapped them around his neck. I was holding on for dear life. He was grunting and groaning, the sweat beginning to soak through his shirt. I moaned while he pumped himself into me without remorse. My legs were being held high up in the air, my heels up around his shoulders on each side.

For a moment, I opened my eyes and saw everything. The view from the highest floor of the building was amazing. I felt like I was being fucked on top of a cloud. I could look down upon the entire city and view everybody while I experienced the greatest pleasure I’d ever had. Everything was perfect. He wasn’t my boss. He wasn’t Rafael. He was just a man who had exactly what I wanted. And I was doing everything I could to please him.

He pulled out of me and jerked me off of the desk. As soon as I landed back upon my heels, he turned me around. I gasped as he gripped my hair and shoved me down upon his desk. My body pressed up against all of the papers underneath me. I threw my hands to the side to brush them away and brace myself. Rafael didn’t seem to mind. He was too caught-up in the moment like I was.