Authors: RaeAnne Thayne
“Are you angry? Only a year in youth corrections. It must seem far too little to you.”
He was silent as the elevator reached the ground floor and the doors whirred open. “I think Judge Kawa made the right call,” he said and was a little surprised he meant the words.
He didn't want to see Charlie go to adult prison. Justice had to be paid somehow, but along with justice could come a little mercy for a kid who had made stupid mistakes along the way and should have withstood the pressure of his friends.
Evie didn't move from the elevator, only gazed at him with an unguarded expression, soft and warm. That expression gave him hope that maybe the hurdles weren't quite as high as he'd feared. “I think so, too.”
When they didn't move out of the elevator, the doors started to close again and Brodie thrust an arm through to open them again and tugged Evie out of the car to the foyer of the hospital.
“This is lovely,” she said when they reached the garden, full of softly rippling waterfalls, a gurgling steam, overhanging trees and fall-blooming flowers. She inhaled deeply, no doubt breathing in the autumn air, so different from the antiseptic hospital smells.
“Okay, I have to get this out and then we can sit down and you can eat your lunch,” she said, a hint of nervousness in her voice that piqued his curiosity.
He wasn't hungry anymore. Right now he only wanted to drop the lunch she'd brought him into the dirt, wrap her in his arms and hold on tight.
“Get what out?”
She shoved her hands in the pockets of her jacket. “I owe you an apology. Or at least an explanation.”
“For speaking today at Charlie's hearing? I should apologize for being upset about it. I ought to have expected you to do nothing less, Evie. That's the kind of person you are.”
It's one of the reasons I love you with everything inside me.
“No. Not that. Though I am sorry about that, too. It was wrong to blindside you that way. You deserved a little advance warning, at least.”
She drew in a breath and let it out on a sigh. “What I meant is that I'm sorry I freaked out during Taryn's seizure.”
“Did you freak out? As I recall, you were the voice of calm and composure through the whole thing while everyone else was panicking. I don't want to think what would have happened if you hadn't been there, Evie. We would have been a mess.”
“Good. I'm glad you couldn't tell. I guess I was only freaking out on the inside, then.”
“Why? You certainly acted like you've had plenty experience with seizures, as terrifying as they can be.”
She gazed at the stars overhead, then back at him. “I⦠It hit a little close to home, that's all. Cassie stopped breathing in her sleep during a seizure. I was so afraid for Taryn.”
He stared at her, overwhelmed and awed and completely in love with her. Despite what must have been petrifying fear that history would repeat itself, she had stepped up to do everything necessary to care for Taryn during the seizure, to ensure his daughter was as safe as possible.
He couldn't help it. He dropped his lunch on the bench and reached for her. She settled into his arms with a sigh and an easing of her tension, as if she'd been waiting just as he had for this fragile connection between them.
“I thought I was doing so well,” she murmured, her cheek against his chest. “Most of the time I am, but once in a while, it still feels as if somebody came along and swept my legs out from under me. I miss her.”
“I know. I know, sweetheart.” He smoothed a hand down her hair and tucked an errant strand behind her ear. She didn't weep, only shuddered out a breath or two, her arms clasped tightly around his waist.
“You didn't show your fear, Evie. That's the sign of true courage, you know. You feel the fear but you do it anyway. You don't owe me an apology at all. If there's anything in arrears here, it's all on our side. I owe you so much. Everything. Not just for today, for being that calm voice of strength and peace in the middle of the chaos. But for the last month. You gave me hope again, Evie. Do you have any idea what a precious gift that has been?”
She swallowed and gave him a tremulous smile and he gave in to the inevitable. He cupped her face in his hands and lowered his mouth to hers in a slow, easy kiss that shook him to the core.
He loved this woman. Holding her here in this quiet garden while the night air drifted around them and the stars sparkled overhead only reinforced that he loved her and he refused to let her go.
* * *
T
HE
SHEER
SWEETNESS
of Brodie's mouth easing across hers, the tenderness of his hands against her face, took her breath away and she could do nothing but stand there soaking up the sweetness of the moment.
“I needed this.” Brodie's voice was low, rough. “From the moment you walked into Taryn's room, all I've been able to think about is that if I could only hold you again, everything would seem better.”
The tears she had been fighting since walking out into this quiet garden spilled free and one slid down her cheek. It was the perfect thing to say, especially coming from this very serious, sometimes gruff man. She tightened her arms around him, her heart aching with love for him.
She loved this man. Nothing else seemed important, not the differences between them or her fear of pushing him away or the huge, terrifying risk she would have to take to open her heart completely to him and to Taryn.
This was real and right and she loved him with everything inside her. She couldn't go back to her safe and prudent existence before he and his daughter had thrust themselves into her life. She thought she had found tranquility in Hope's Crossing, a place to quiet the roar of pain after Cassie's death, but she suddenly realized with stark clarity she had been fooling herself. She had merely woven a cocoon around herself to keep out anything that might threaten her false peace.
Until that evening a month ago when Brodie had burst into her life, she had been hanging there, suspended and safe but in limbo, unable to truly move on to the next stage of her life until she burst out of her protective layers and reentered the cold, sometimes scary world.
“And I have to tell you,” Brodie said with another of those soul-shattering kisses while she was still trying to deal with that stunning discovery, “you say you fell apart back in the courtroom during the seizure. From my point of view, Evie, you were a sea of calm and serenity. It's one of the things I love most about you.”
Evie blinked, thinking she must have misheard him. Did he really just say the L-word? She opened her eyes and found him watching her with a tenderness that made her catch her breath at the same time it sent heat seeping into every cold place inside of her.
“I know you said you're not interested in a relationship with me.” His voice sounded rough. “Consider this fair warning. I'm not a man who backs down when I find something I want, especially when that something is the one woman in the world who brings me happiness and peace, who quiets the chaos. I love you and I need your laughter and theâ¦the
joy
that surrounds you in my life. I'm telling you right now, I'll do anything I have to in order to change your mind about giving us a chance.”
His arms tightened around her as if he were bracing for her to yank away from him and start spouting arguments and objections. Instead she gave him a tremulous smile, certain tears must be trickling down her cheeks. “Okay.”
He stared and eased away a hairsbreadth. “Okay, what?”
“Okay. You've convinced me.”
Wary confusion clouded the blue of his eyes in the moonlight. “Just like that?”
She laughed, wondering if it sounded as shaky to him as it did to her. She loved this man. He was good and honorable, hardworking and devoted to his daughter's care. Strong and decent. How could she
not
love him?
“The truth is, I was already convinced. My heart has been for a while now, though it took the rest of me some time to catch up. I love you, Brodie. You areâ¦everything to me. You and Taryn. I can't imagine going back to the way things were a month ago without both of you in my life. I don't
want
to go back.”
He stared at her, his eyes stunned, then a fierce joy ignited in his expression.
“Evie,” he said, her name a soft caress, and kissed her again. She settled into it, her heart lighter than it had been inâ¦forever. They kissed for a long time there in the garden, where the busy sounds of a big-city hospital seemed muted and distant.
She couldn't believe the joy bubbling through her after the tumultuous day. It was surreal, almost. Things had seemed so bleak and dark after the ambulance had driven away with Taryn and now here she was, wrapped in the arms of the man she loved and looking at a future that suddenly seemed brighter and more precious than the loveliest beads at String Fever.
“I'd better go check on Taryn,” he finally said, his voice threaded with regret.
“You never ate your sandwich,” she said with a little laugh.
“Funny. Food doesn't seem very important right now.” He smiled and kissed her forehead and everything inside her melted. She thought he had smiled more in the last half hour than she'd seen him smile all month. Because of
her.
She made him happy, and was there any more powerful gift a man could give a woman?
“I'll eat upstairs in Taryn's room.”
“I can stay for a while if you'd like.”
He smiled yet again. “I would love nothing more.”
“Do you think Taryn will be okay withâ¦this?” Evie asked. “Us?”
He laughed. “I think she'll be ecstatic. Stephanie is great and everything and she's doing a good job but Taryn has missed you. I also think there's a certain goofy-looking dog who will be over the moon at the chance to have you back in our lives.”
“I've missed him, too.”
“Speaking of which, I have to tell you, I couldn't believe it when I came home from my business trip and found Jacques happily ensconced in my house.”
She could feel pink heat her cheeks. “Yeah, I probably should have talked to you first before thrusting a big decision like adding an animal companion to your family on you like that. It just seemed right at the moment.”
“That's not what I meant, Evie. You love that dog. How could you give him to Taryn like that?”
She thought of the first few nights without Jacques in her apartment and how she had wanted to curl up into the fetal position and cry herself to sleep. “Her need was greater than mine,” she said simply.
He gazed down at her, his eyes a warm and tender blue. “Is it any wonder I'm crazy about you?” he murmured.
She kissed him, her arms tight around his neck. “It may sound corny and clichéd or like some kind of New Age mumbo jumbo but I've learned the gifts you give away always come back to you somehow. Call it karma or kismet or whatever you want, but they do.”
“So you're saying your dog brought us together?” he said with a laugh.
A dog and a courageous girl and a terrible tragedy that had changed dozens of lives in unexpected ways. Including hers.
“Stranger things have happened,” she said.
“Well, I don't call it karma or kismet or fate,” he said, his mouth warm and sweet on hers. “I just call it perfect.”
She couldn't have agreed more.
EPILOGUE
T
HE SECOND ANNUAL
Giving Hope Day dawned bright and sunny.
Evie finished loading her toolbox and the dozens of paintbrushes and paint trays she had purchased over the past few weeks into the back of the SUV and paused for a moment to gaze up at the pure blue of an early Colorado June morning. Though a few high clouds drifted across the sky, she would keep her fingers crossed that the twenty-percent chance of showers the weather forecasters were predicting would be completely overpowered by the eighty percent chance of sunshine.
After all the work she and the rest of the bead store regulars had put into making the massive town-wide volunteer service effort even more of a success than the first one, Evie didn't want to see storm clouds ruin everything. In another hour, hundreds of Hope's Crossing residents would be gathering at the town community center in town to receive their assignments for the dayâeverything from litter cleanup in the canyon to painting the picnic tables at the park to helping some of the town's senior citizens with early summer yard cleanup. She was going to keep her fingers crossed those clouds stayed high and dry.
They already had twice as many people sign up to participate in this year's Giving Hope Day as the previous event, and donations were still pouring in for the benefit auction and dance later that evening.
Anticipation danced through her and she smiled a little as she watched a mountain bluebird alight in the branches of the big blue spruce near the front door of the sprawling glass-and-cedar place she had called home for the past three months.
A year could make all the difference.
Her world wasn't remotely the same as the one she had inhabited the year before. She had loved her small, solitary apartment above String Fever and would always be grateful for the peace and serenity she had found there, but as she headed up the curving sidewalk toward the front door of Brodie's house, she was still a little astonished at how this house so quickly had become her favorite spot on earth. Sometimes she thought the walls could barely hold all the love and joy inside them.
Before she could reach the door, it opened and Jacques padded through, looking quite pleased with himself.
“Don't tell me you've mastered opening doors now,” she said, stopping to give him a little of that love by scratching between his ears.
“Not yet.” Taryn answered the doorway, dressed in jean shorts, the yellow T-shirt all the volunteers were wearing and tennis shoes. The sunny, flowery bracelet she and Charlie Beaumont had made so long ago flashed brightly at her wrist. “Give him time. I'm sure he'll figure it out eventually.”