Return (Lady of Toryn trilogy) (38 page)

The
electricity was palpable between them, and she gave herself up to it, wriggling her arms up to thread her fingers through his silky air, keeping him close. His body was warm against hers, his fingers a blaze of fire on her skin.

Tears pricked at her eyes, and something welle
d up inside her, an emotion so unbidden that Ashlyn shivered against him. He broke the kiss, cradling her close, burying his face in the crook of her neck as he caught his breath.

“Did you…did you want to tell me
something?” she asked after a moment, trying to keep her voice light.

He paus
ed for a moment, and spoke, in a tone that was equal parts desperate and affectionate. “Yeah. I wanted to tell you to forget about him.”

Ashlyn
’s stomach turned. He had heard what she’d said to Drake. “You were listening,” she said faintly.

“I’m sorry,” he said, sounding more undone than she could ever remember, “
I didn’t mean to eavesdrop- I just wanted to talk to you alone.”

He pulled back t
hen, and touched her face, his thumb catching the tears on her cheeks. As she met his eyes, Ashlyn flinched at the mixed emotions she saw reflected in those emerald depths. Misery was etched clearly in his gaze, but there was something unfamiliar there, too- some deeper emotion that Ashlyn didn’t want to guess at.

“Forget about him, Ash,”
Vargo said, pleading now. “He’s an idiot. Think about me. I’m here- I’m right here. I am what you see. I’m not gonna string you along with pretty words and then walk away when you need me.”

As much as it pained her to admit it, he was right.
Vargo had been there every step of the way. He hadn’t made any secret of his feelings for her, and he certainly hadn’t confused her with conflicting behaviors, plying her heart with poetry one minute and grinding it beneath his heel the next.

What was it supposed to feel like? Ashlyn wasn’t sure. There was chemistry in
Vargo’s touch, a spark that she’d never felt with anyone else, but there was something deeper with Drake. Something that felt like it could last forever.

Something that can never happen,
a nagging voice inside her head reprimanded her snidely. Drake had made that obvious when he’d walked away just moments ago.

Perhaps sensing her ambivalence,
Vargo’s arms tightened around her, and he smiled down at her, shaking his head. “I can see those wheels turning, princess. Don’t talk yourself out of it,” he said, eyes searching hers. “Let me stay with you tonight.”

“No,” Ashlyn said reflexively, and frowned. Would she have said yes to Drake? “Not yet,” she amended.

His gaze was unwavering upon her, an uncharacteristic stillness about him. “Maybe not ever?” he said.

She felt like there was more to the question than the words he’d spoken. It felt rushed, like he was asking about more than just
now
, and more than just spending the night with her.

She didn’t want to give him false hope, but she also
didn’t want to lie to him.

“Maybe,” she agreed, and they stared at each other for a long moment, contemplating.

Finally, he stepped back. “I’ll be here in the morning,” he said.

I won’t be.

Out loud she said, “I know.”

He took her hand in his, pressing a kiss t
o her palm, then released her.

H
e was out the door before she could draw a breath, disappearing once more into the night.

After a moment,
Ashlyn slid the door shut, heart pounding.

She wouldn’t be here when anyone
came in the morning, and she wondered how Vargo would react now, seeing that she’d left after what had just happened.

Would he think that she’d left because of him?

Ashlyn took a deep breath. Her emotions were a complete mess right now, despairing over the situation with her father and the weirdly complex triangle she found herself in with Drake and Vargo. She was furious with the vampire for rejecting her, and confused about what had just happened with Vargo, but also angry at herself for even thinking about her love life at a time like this.

It was time to focus on what was more important- the future of Toryn.

It was with that thought in mind that she slipped out into the night hours later, her shuriken securely strapped to her back, the mark of Toryn emblazoned on her green mask.

She left a note in her bedroom, knowing that FLD would find it in the morning
and send someone after her.

I have to face my father alone.

To be continued…

Read
on for a sneak peek at
Regret,
book two in the Lady of Toryn trilogy!
Regret
is available for purchase now on Amazon Kindle.

Eight years have passed since the events at Kresmir’s North Triangle, where Ashlyn Li and her friends defeated the tyrannical Lord Angelo. Apparently, saving the world is not enough to satisfy the gods, because now Ashlyn finds herself mired between a war in her homeland and accepting leadership of her father’s kingdom. Somewhere along the line, she has managed to fall in love with a coldhearted vampire and garner the attention of a wisecracking, green-eyed assassin.
But at the heart of the matter is a truth that Ashlyn doesn’t want to face- the fact that her father is leading the opposing army, and at some point she will have to challenge him. Torn between the blood of her kin and loyalty to her kingdom, Ashlyn struggles to become the leader she was born to be.

Read an excerpt from
Regret,
the second book in the Lady of Toryn trilogy, available now on Amazon Kindle!

Flowers in the desert.

Could you get any more contradictory than that? It was sort of ironic. Or ma
ybe not, because she didn’t really know what ironic meant, except that people usually said it to explain strange coincidences.

Mostly she just thought flowers in the desert were weirdly appropriate right at that moment because the whole concept was a lot like
her
- a total contradiction. A ditzy girl-woman with an attention span of about five seconds for everything except being a bad-ass ninja, and that was really what she excelled at, wasn’t it? Being
stunningly
shallow and irresponsible, but kicking
serious
butt any time the opportunity presented itself.

Ashlyn Li, Elder Heir of Toryn, sniffled pathetically into her own hands
, tears squeezing out from between her fingers, their initial comforting warmth fading and turning tepid in the chilly night air as they trickled down her wrists.

It was
so unfair.
She’d tried to do everything right, she’d held in her feelings and had avoided her birthright by living like a nomad for eight years straight, and yet- and yet…and yet it all went
wrong
, and this entire mess was her fault. As if the knowledge that she’d inadvertently started a war in her own kingdom wasn’t enough, Drake had rejected her, and…and…Ashlyn didn’t even know what. She’d never felt like this before, because she’d never let anyone close enough to
hurt
her this way.

Eight years ago, she had been sixteen, hotheaded
and sticky-fingered, ready to steal anything she could get her mitts on, and that was initially the only reason why she’d joined Skye Damien on his quest to defeat Lord Angelo. What had begun as a spontaneous adventure had quickly become the turning point for her, the moment in time where she finally grew up and realized that there was more to life than thievery and sarcasm. And by the time Lord Angelo had killed the last Angel, by the time she and Skye and Restlyn and Drake and the rest of FLD had defeated the warlord and saved the sun, Ashlyn had realized two things.

One- she was crazy about Drake Lockhart, a vampire who sometimes displayed less personality than a hunk of driftwood, and someone she had no business being crazy about in the first place, considering he was immortal, angst-ridden, painfully gorgeous, and
entirely
out of her league.

And two- she wasn’t ready to be Lady of Toryn.

But there had been no one to pass the responsibility off to, because she was the Elder Heir. The only heir.

At the time, running away
had seemed like a pretty good option.

Ashlyn
hiccupped, wiping her face with the back of her hand and trying to blink through the tears as she stared at her mother’s headstone. Her chin trembled as sobs threatened to overcome her once more.

Susyn Li’s grave was at the end of a long, lonely canyon, bordered on all sides by steep dirt walls. There were no other graves, but Ashlyn had always liked it that way, preferring the solitude of her mother’s final resting place to the busier location of the public Toryn cemeteries.

It wasn’t technically in the desert, but at this time of year it certainly looked that way. Toryns had always called this place The Barrens, because in the winter it was pretty much desolate, the heavy winds sweeping away dead vegetation in anticipation of the coming spring. After the cold had passed, creeping vines with small blue flowers would cover the cliff walls, turning the empty canyon into a beautiful secret garden.

But right now, there was no hint of color, no reprieve from the droll grayness of the canyon. Autumn was turning its back on Toryn Island, and this area was one of the first to lose its foliage to early freezes, hungry scavengers and
the winds. The artificial cherry blossom branches Ashlyn had brought with her from her home in the city looked out of place in the bare canyon, and it felt even more strange to leave fake flowers instead of real ones, but Ashlyn hadn’t had any time to be picky.

The ch
erry blossoms were pink, but their centers were much darker, almost a deep red, reminiscent of the cloak that Drake Lockhart wore. The cloak he’d put around her as they stood in the rain after the battle against her father’s army. The cloak that had whipped behind him like an angry omen as he turned and left her home, shortly after rejecting her hopeful declaration of…of…

Of what?
Love? Lust? An insane and slightly creepy crush?

“It doesn’t matter anyway,” she whispered as she stood, shaking in the moonlight. “You made your feelings pretty clear,
didn’t you, Drake?”

She didn’t have a right to be angry, but she was.
More than angry. Furious. At herself, at that idiot vampire Drake Lockhart, at Vargo for stepping in at her most vulnerable moment and confusing her with that kiss.

Nothing made sense anymore, and
she didn’t want to think about it.

S
he’d spent more time lingering at the gravesite than she’d intended. Ashlyn quickly retraced her steps back to the canyon’s entrance and set off again on her original path, following the coast towards the southern half of the island. Pulling her mask up to cover the lower half of her face again, she reached into her knapsack and withdrew a gleaming orange gem- the
reveal
stane she’d swiped off Skye when they’d parted ways years earlier.

She lifted the stane, intending to slide it into a space in her
armband, then paused, realizing that there were no empty slots. There were two spaces for stanes in her armband, and she usually kept a
heal
stane in one slot and left the other one empty, but she’d completely forgotten about the
shift
stane she had taken from one of her father’s soldiers during the battle for the pagoda. After some deliberation, Ashlyn unstrapped her hira shuriken from her back, placing the stane into one of the weapon’s empty slots instead.

She whispered a few words, concentrating hard on the tiny orb, and tiny sparks erupted from the stane, spiraling through the air before gently touching down on the sand. As she watched, the swirling little fireflies formed a short path in front of her, extending each time she took a step, and Ashlyn smiled in spite of herself.
Reveal
was one of the strongest and rarest magics in existence. The sparks from the stane led its user directly towards whatever it was they were seeking. There were some drawbacks to the magic- such as the possibility of the sparks alerting your enemy that you were approaching, or the magic’s tendency to take the most direct route, even if said route was off a cliff or through a raging river. But it had proved invaluable during their battle against Lord Angelo.

The moon was pulling itself slowly to the east
, so that Ashlyn’s shadow stretched out to her right, long and thin, as she picked her way along the beach. She tried to stay on the hard-packed dirt further from the water so that her tracks were less visible. Here, on the center stretch of Toryn Island, there were no trees or dense foliage to use as cover, so she had to move quickly. Ashlyn picked up her pace, sprinting after the fireflies as the glittering path unfurled ahead of her.

She didn’t have much time before FLD discovered that she was missing, but she’d made pretty good time moving away from the city of Toryn, heading towards the southern half of the island. Ashlyn wasn’t quite sure how FLD would react to the simple note she’d left behind. She’d scrawled it hastily, her own thoughts and emotions too complicated to convey in words.