Rising from the Ashes (13 page)

“I love you too,” I said between the kisses I was planting all over his face. “God, Jeremy, I love you so much.”

Holding on to Jeremy was the only thing I could think about. Tears ran down my cheeks unchecked as I put my heart and soul into showing how much I had missed him.

He wrapped both arms under my bottom, tearing the fabric even more, and held on to me as tightly as I was holding him. “I’ve missed you so much, Savvy,” he said against my lips as he walked us away from the couch and over to the wall that separated my living room from the kitchen. “You mean everything to me.”

A low moan escaped my throat when he pressed his denim-clad hips into me, hitting just the right spot. I could feel how hard he was through the layers of clothes between us, and I desperately wanted to tear everything away. I needed to feel him, skin against skin. My nipples tightened to almost painful points under my shirt. I was sure that Jeremy could feel them.

Using his body to pin my weight to the wall, Jeremy released one hand to trail it down my side, brushing against my breast with a whisper-light touch, and traveling down to where my now ruined skirt was bunched around my waist.

“Sugar, I need you so bad,” he said as he dragged wet kisses down my neck to the swell of my breasts.

I couldn’t contain the whimper of need that bubbled up. “I need you too, Jer. God, I need you.”

“Say it,” he demanded.

I couldn’t think clearly when he was touching me. “Say what?”

His breath felt hot on my skin.

“You know what I need to hear, sugar.”

I couldn’t deny it anymore. He’d won, hands down.

“We’re a couple,” I whispered against his lips.

“Thank God!” he exclaimed with as much desperation as I was feeling.

I let out a sound of distress when he pulled his hips away, but he quickly slid his hand between my legs, pushing my lace panties to the side and plunged a finger deep inside me.

“Christ, baby, you’re so perfect.”

He brought his lips back to mine as he kept up a quick pace, turning me inside out with just his hand.

“Jeremy, I’m so close.” I craved the release that was building up quicker than I could have anticipated. I needed Jeremy to take me there so badly.

He inserted a second finger, pushing as deep as he could, and curled them in a come-hither motion while pressing his palm harder against my clit. “Give it to me, Savvy. I want to hear you.”

“Oh God!” I cried, throwing my head back against the wall and squeezing my eyes closed. I was so close to falling over the edge.

“Eyes on me, sugar. I want you to see who’s in control of your pleasure.”

I lowered my head and looked at Jeremy through hooded eyes. He was still so beautiful. Everything about him was perfect to me.

“Tell me you’re mine,” he demanded.

“I’m yours, Jeremy.”

“Only mine,” he said, his voice a growl.

“Only yours. Only ever yours.”

“
Fuck
,” he ground out. “I love you so much, Savannah.”

And with that, I flew right over the edge, crying out Jeremy’s name, as he continued to thrust those talented fingers in and out, over and over, coaxing every drop of climax from my body until I wasn’t capable of holding my own head up.

It took me several seconds to catch my breath, but once I did, I was finally able to respond. “I love you too, Jeremy. Only ever you.”

When he flashed me that brilliant dimpled smile that made me fall in love with him all those years ago, he captured my heart completely, all over again.

Somehow, as the night had progressed, we’d finally made our way into the bedroom. After having some of the best sex of my life, Jeremy and I had both passed out.

Unfortunately, I woke up a few hours later, giving myself plenty of time to think about why us getting back together was such an epic mistake. I replayed the reason over and over again until I was filled with so much anxiety that I felt like I couldn’t breathe.

The only light in the room was drifting in from the hallway, illuminating Jeremy’s naked back. He had the best back. I hadn’t even known it was possible for a man to have a sexy back until Jeremy.

I lay there, watching the toned golden skin rise and fall with each breath he took. He seemed so peaceful while sleeping, and the thought of not being able to keep what we’d started just hours before caused my eyes to sting with tears. I rolled to my back and stared at the ceiling, trying to figure out what I was going to do next.

“I can hear those wheels turnin’ in that head of yours from here,” Jeremy mumbled in a sleep-filled voice. Even if I hadn’t been able to see his gorgeous body, the gravelly tenor of his voice was enough to turn me on.

“Hey,” I responded softly, “I didn’t know you were awake.”

He rolled to his side and propped his head in his hand, making the muscles in his bicep and chest stand out even more. I was pretty sure I was starting to drool.

Keep your head in the game, Morgan!

“I know you didn’t,” he responded with a sly smile. “If you had, you’d probably be tryin’ to kick me out the door right about now.”

I shot up into a sitting position, holding the sheet to my naked chest. “No, I wouldn’t!” I replied incredulously.

He might have been totally correct, but that didn’t mean I liked him assuming the worst of me.

He threw his head back in laughter, enhancing his abs. It took everything I had not to jump him.

“Sugar, you’ve never been any good at bullshitting me. I know you better than you think.”

I threw myself back onto the pillows in a huff of defeat. He knew me better than anyone, sometimes better than I knew myself. But that didn’t mean I liked it. It made keeping secrets from him damn near impossible.

“Come here, sugar,” he whispered softly, opening his arms for me to scoot into him.

I buried my face in his chest and breathed deep, inhaling the scent that was inherently Jeremy.

He held me tight and started rubbing a hand over my hair. “I told you that you weren’t getting away again and I meant it. You can try all you want, but it’s me and you from here on out.”

I bit his pec playfully before looking up into those chocolate eyes of his. “What if that’s not what I want?”

He grabbed a handful of my hair and pulled it back, just hard enough to make me gasp, before his head shot down and he sealed his lips to mine in a forceful kiss. It was as if he was taking ownership of me with that kiss.

“You want it, baby. You’re just scared, but that’s okay. I’m not going anywhere, and you’ll eventually get over your fears.”

God, I loved him something fierce.

He nipped my bottom lip with his teeth, causing a pleasurable sting to form, before soothing it with his tongue. He pulled back slightly, and I instinctively followed after him, not ready to stop kissing him yet. The desire I felt for him was consuming me. I couldn’t touch or taste him enough.

Jeremy gently rolled me to my back and pushed himself between my legs. I could feel him growing harder against my lower stomach, and desire pooled deep in my core.

“Mmm, I love how you taste,” he murmured as he ran his tongue along my collarbone. “You smell fuckin’ good too, sugar.”

I’d forgotten Jeremy’s gift of turning me on with just a few words. He could always light me up just by talking.

“Jeremy, I need you,” I pleaded breathlessly.

“I’ll never get enough of hearing you say that, Savvy.”

Jeremy rolled, taking me with him, so that I was straddling his trim waist. I ran my tongue across his lips before kissing my way past his chin and down his neck. I could spend hours licking and kissing every inch of his amazing body.

As I wandered farther and farther down, I couldn’t help but feel invincible when I looked up through my lashes and saw an expression of complete satisfaction and adoration on his face. It was a heady feeling, knowing I could make a man as strong as Jeremy crazy with want.

By the time I made it all the way down, positioned with my chest between his legs, his breath was coming out in rapid pants. I took him in my hand and squeezed slightly, loving the silky yet hard feel of him. When I licked my lips in anticipation, a low growl rumbled from deep within his chest. I ran my tongue from the base, all the way up the underside of his cock, and to the tip where I licked a drop of pre-cum before sealing my lips around the head completely.

“
Fuuuuck,
baby,” he ground out between clenched teeth.

His reaction spurred me on, and I started moving up and down his rigid length, over and over, taking him as deep as I could. I hollowed out my cheeks and sucked harder on my way back up then flicked the tip of my tongue over the sensitive underside.

“Savvy, I’m gonna come if you don’t stop,” he breathed.

The thought of him losing control like that made me moan around his dick, which sent a shiver through him. Grabbing his sac in one hand, I began to massage as I used the other hand at the base, working him faster and faster. I knew Jeremy’s control was slipping when he grabbed a hold of my hair tightly and started thrusting his hips, making me take him even deeper. I wanted him to let go. I thrived on the idea of taking him over the edge, like he had done for me.

I glanced up at his face and saw his eyes squeezed shut and the muscle in his jaw twitching. After releasing him with a pop, I mumbled, “Eyes on me, baby,” repeating his words from earlier. “I want you to see who’s in control of your pleasure.”

“You’re all I’ve ever seen, sugar, even when my eyes are closed.”

The intensity reflected in his look as he spoke caused the breath to rush from my lungs. I didn’t know if I’d ever loved him more than I did right at that moment.

Before I had the opportunity to get back to my task, Jeremy bent at the waist, reached under my arms, and hauled me back up his body, shifting so that I was lying underneath him once again.

“Do you have any clue what you do to me?” he asked.

The sincerity in his voice made me tear up. It took me a few seconds to be able to speak past the lump in my throat. “Yes,” I whispered. “Because you do the same to me.”

Jeremy leaned back down and kissed me with so much passion that the tears I’d been fighting back had no choice but to escape. I was so consumed by it that my brain almost didn’t register when he shifted his hips and started to slide into me.

“Baby…condom,” I said against his lips.

He pushed up on his forearms and looked down at me. “You on the pill, sugar?”

“Yes, but…”

“I’m clean, honey. You’re the only one I’ve ever been with without protection.”

I took a deep breath, and my eyes drifted to the side of his face. I couldn’t look directly at him and ask the question that needed asking. “What about Charlotte?”

Grabbing my chin, he tilted my face, so I had no choice but to look directly at him. “You’re the only one, Savannah, I swear. No one else was worth that risk—ever.”

My mouth dropped open, and all I could do was nod.

“You trust me?” he asked.

Again, all I did was nod. His words,
No one else was worth the risk
, were on repeat in my head, making it impossible for me to form a coherent sentence.

“I need words, sugar. You trust me?”

My mind finally started working. I looked into those deep brown eyes and smiled. “Yeah, Jer, I trust you.”

At my response, Jeremy pushed all the way in with a fast, hard thrust, burying himself completely. I gasped at the initial intrusion, but my body quickly adjusted to his length, and the gasp turned into a deep moan.

“Oh shit, baby. You feel so damn good.”

Jeremy kept up the same brutal pace the entire time and I could feel my orgasm building with each deep, brutal thrust. His amazing stamina might have turned my brain to mush, but my body knew exactly how to respond, and my hips began to rise quickly in an attempt to meet his.

“Oh God, Jer. It’s so good. I’m close,” I said between gasps.

He buried his face in my neck and let out a low moan. My core tightened as I got closer and closer to the edge and I threw my head back against the pillows.

“Don’t stop, Jeremy,” I panted desperately.

Before I could even register his movement, Jeremy sat up on his haunches, pulling me with him so we were both sitting face to face with me straddling his lap. At the new angle, I took Jeremy even deeper inside me. I let out a whimper at the new sensation as I ground down on him. Our movements were becoming erratic, and I was so close that I started losing rhythm with Jeremy. I arched my back, pushing my breasts against his chest and threw my head back as my climax started to take over.

“Look at me, Savannah,” Jeremy said as he wrapped a large chunk of my hair around his hand and pulled my face back to his. “I want your eyes on me the whole time.”

The combination of his words and the sting in my scalp from where he held my hair caused my orgasm to rock through me, and I came with a sharp, loud cry.

“Christ, Savvy. So. Damn. Beautiful.” His words were punctuated with each thrust just before he found his own release seconds later.

I could feel him, hot and hard inside me as he came and the sensation set me off again.