Rocky Mountain Man (Historical) (5 page)

Her heart was breaking, that was it. It was a lost battle from the start, she knew that, but now all her work was nearly undone and fresh blood wet his chest.

The image of him standing tall against the great black bear—no man fought one of those creatures and lived to tell about it—he'd known he was forfeiting his life from the start. From the moment he must have heard her gunshot. And yet he'd come anyway, to save her.

His hand flailed, that's how weak he was. His big fingers were cold as they closed over hers. “T-thank you.” He coughed, blood staining his bottom lip. “For the truth.”

Whatever could he mean? She watched his eyelids flicker. As silence filled the room, it seemed as if his life force was disappearing.

“You're my very own hero,” she whispered in his
ear. “You can't leave me now, when I've only found you.”

But his breath rattled and his fingers went slack.

In the silence, Betsy waited for his chest to rise with his next breath. It didn't, but she kept waiting.

 

“Come away from him now.” Joshua's hand settled on her shoulder, a comforting weight in the darkness broken only by the lantern hung on a nail over Duncan's bed. “You've done all you can.”

“It isn't enough.” It could never be enough. She was banged up and bruised and bandaged, and without her favorite dress, but it was nothing—nothing—at all. The bear attack had been terrifying—beyond terrifying.

Now, safe in the cabin with her brothers at her side, the shock had worn off and horror clawed at her soul. The images of the huge man battling an enemy at least twice his strength tormented her. Images of how the predators gathered, drawn by the scent of spilled blood. Duncan, his life force rushing out of him and pooling on the dusty wheel tracks. Duncan, so still that death hovered in the room above him like an invisible smoke cloud, draining the brightness from the lantern and making the night seem more hopeless.

She could have died, and in terrible pain. She'd seen the damage on Duncan's neck and chest and shoulders. He'd saved her from that fate and chose it for himself. She'd never met a braver man. What did a person do for someone who had not only saved her life, but also sacrificed his?

Thanks was not nearly enough. She'd made a promise that she wouldn't leave him—the very least she
could do was to keep her vow. No man should die alone, without someone to care.

“The doctor will stay with him.” Joshua, her sensible big brother, presented her with his coat. “We need to get you home. You can't stay the night here, Bets. You have to think of your reputation.”

“I'm thinking of my honor.”

“Folks won't understand. You know how some people can get. Quick to judge and quicker to condemn. I don't want you to be hurt, Bets.”

“You are the best brother a girl could have.” She didn't take his coat. She squeezed his hand that remained on her shoulder, a comforting presence.

For as long as she could remember, Joshua had watched over her and protected her, and she loved him for it, but sometimes the right choice wasn't the easiest one. Some folks might hear about her staying the night with a mountain man. Then they would know what Duncan Hennessey did to defend her. They would have to see how noble he was.

It was that simple. How could this be mistaken for anything else?

“Go home, if you have a mind to.” She gently waved away the offer of his coat. “And thank you, for fetching the doctor.”

“I can't leave you here.”

“You have responsibilities to tend to. Go home, get some sleep and see to them. I'll be fine.”

“Mother would box my ears if I did.”

“Mother isn't tall enough to reach your ears.” It was an old familiar joke, grown fond through the years, of how their tiny Irish mother had birthed such
a collection of fine, strapping and tall sons. All of her children had looked down on her since they were eleven years old, including Betsy. “This is something I must do.”

“And how am I supposed to leave you?” Joshua straightened, losing the argument. For all his deep booming voice and big hulking presence, he was really not so fierce at heart. “I can see you owe this man the courtesy, but surely he has family.”

“I don't see any evidence of it, do you?” She gestured at the bare walls and empty tables. Not a single tintype or photograph anywhere. No hints of birthday or Christmas gifts from a mother or sister. “Do you know what would help? Send Liam tomorrow with a change of clothes. I can't ride back to town wearing naught but my drawers and Mr. Hennessey's flannel jacket.”

“You'd cause a scandal, that's for sure.” As if relenting, Joshua ruffled the top of her hair, as he always used to do when she was little. “I'll be back. Let me know if you need anything. You know I'll be ready to help with any…arrangements.” His gaze traveled to the bed.

He meant for the man's burial. Betsy took a shaky breath. Joshua was only being practical, it was his way. But she couldn't give up hope. Not as long as Mr. Hennessey drew one breath and another. It seemed an eternity between them, but her tough savior was still alive and so there was hope.

“You'd best go on with your brother, ma'am,” Doc Haskins told her as he packed his stethoscope into his medical bag. “I'll stay on here until the end. It won't be much longer now.”

“No, I will stay with him.” Sadness choked her. She said nothing more. There was nothing left to do but to hope her presence gave him some comfort. He'd never seemed to like her much. Well—to the point—he'd been extremely clear how much he didn't want to be anywhere near her. But deep down, she didn't believe him. Why would a man who hated her trade his life for hers?

Already grieving him, knowing that even her most fervent, optimistic thought could not spare him from the inevitable. She could feel it, too, how still his big body was, taking up so much room on the bed. And now, the space between breaths seemed a longer eternity. The doctor was packing up the rest of his things. It would not be long now.

She lifted his hand, lying so still at his side, onto her thigh and covered it with her fingers. Felt how cool he'd become. She moved away to find another blanket. She found a lined buffalo robe and added that to the top of his bed, smoothing it with care. When she returned to her chair to sit and took his hand in hers again, she was surprised when his fingers gripped hers. Strong. With need.

Something broke apart deep in her chest, like a shattering pain she'd felt once when she'd broken her wrist when she was eight. It was like that now, sharp and jagged pain centered so deep within her, it hurt to breathe.

There, where it had been as if dark, a small warmth glowed.

I
t was shadow land. Duncan did not know if he dreamed or if he lived, but he could hear a soft sound. Low and bright, like the solemn call of a sweet bell, but it was a woman's voice. His mother's? He knew that wasn't right even as he thought it.

No, his mother's singing was deeper, with a lower note, the rhythmic roll of her native tongue like thunder and wind, rain and rivers running. Those were the sounds of his childhood and those memories returned with a stinging clarity. Rich green grass and hot sunshine and dry and dusty earth between his bare toes, and his mother singing while she worked.

It was the melody he'd woken to in the dark hole of prison, where for an instant he was caught in dream and happiness. Then the dream would break into wisps like smoke, blowing away to the real nightmare of the dank cave of his cell where mice skittered and bugs crawled.

He did not awake there. He could not seem to wake at all. The shadows held him, and there was no pain. But that voice—it was captivating. It held him as if the
cuff and chain were once again tight on his ankle. There were no words, this was not singing, but a humming cheerfulness, and it glittered inside him like sunshine through rain. A melody that rose and fell and lured him back to the darkness of his life.

He did not want to go back. Here, in the shadows, there was no grief. Loneliness didn't stick in his soul like a sharp rock, jabbing deeper and deeper with every step. Here, the bitterness seemed far away and he knew, if he simply let go, he would travel to what his grandfather had called happy hunting grounds, his father heaven, and his mother simply home.

His mother. Would he see her there? Was she waiting beyond the threshold? The thought of seeing her again made joy crackle inside him. Roaring and growing like a fire in dry grass.

But the humming melody called to him, too. Made him yearn with the heart of a man. He knew it was her, the woman and her corkscrew curls and her generous smile and kindness. He would not like her. He would not want her. He no longer believed in the good of any woman, and yet he followed the sound of her voice, innocent and sensual at once.

Pain slammed into him like an avalanche of snow…and he was falling. Then there was her. Standing over him like an angel in morning light, and her clear alto. It was a tune he didn't know, and the brisk dawn's sunshine was suddenly too bright. His eyes stung and he couldn't seem to focus. Maybe it was the pain leaving him breathless, as if he'd been crushed at the bottom of that avalanche.

But it was strangely all right. For she was here, her
hand in his, holding on to him, pulling him back, even as oblivion claimed him, it was only sleep.

 

Betsy knelt at the edge of the hand-dug well. The board frame bit into her knees as she unhooked the bucket. Cool, clear water sloshed over the side of the pail and onto her clothes.

Every inch of her seemed to ache, or maybe that was just sorrow brimming over the rim of her heart. Through the golden streaks of the sun rising at the edge of the forest, she watched the doc's buggy bounce down the road. The stand of evergreens closed around him and she was alone.

The doctor's prognosis echoed in her thoughts.
I've seen this type of lingering before. He'll not awaken. No man loses that much blood and lives. Remember Charlie.

Remember Charlie? She'd never forget. She hurt as if the doctor had reached out and slapped her, and she thought of the injured man still breathing, still living, and refused to give up hope. For without it, what good would life be? Without it, how could any good at all come out of this? He'd tried to awaken earlier, she was certain of it.

Perhaps it was the doctor's job to be so practical, but he'd been drowsing when Hennessey had stirred. It had been slight, but there.

Cool water sloshed over the rim and onto her again as she unhooked the bucket from the rope. Exhaustion made her muscles feel heavy as she stood. Overhead an army of birds twittered and chirped and flitted from tree to tree, and the noise they made was as loud as the
train rumbling through town. A body certainly wouldn't need a clock living out here.

On her way back to the cabin she felt…well, watched. The nape of her neck prickled, but there were no obvious signs of danger. Goodness, how could there be with the breeze pleasant through the drying grasses and the tall trees waltzing with their branches outstretched and the sunshine warm and friendly? The splashes from the water bucket sprinkled across her bare feet and plopped onto the soft earth.

There, in the loose dust in the path, were tracks. As clear as her own footprints heading to the well, but those imprints hadn't been there when she'd gone to fetch water.

She looked around carefully and shivered. Was it her imagination or did the wind have a mean edge to it? Nothing knelt behind the woodpile, not that she could see, or crept through the unmown grasses.

The giant cat tracks ambled along the road, as if the cougar had been heading to town and following the doctor's buggy. Maybe the animal had continued on. Maybe not. Maybe it was watching her from the thicket of the crowded evergreens—and getting hungry.

She certainly had no notion of being any creature's breakfast! Heaven on earth! She'd been out this way on her deliveries once a week for several years now. Before yesterday, the most wildlife she'd seen in these woods had been a few grazing deer. She picked up her pace and sprinted up the porch steps. With the stout wall to her back she felt safer as she looked back, at the fresh tracks—they looked just like her little kitty's paw prints back home except each imprint was as big
as her foot. She didn't feel safe until she shut the door behind her.

“W-water.”

“Mr. Hennessey?” She nearly dropped the bucket in shock. Coming to her senses, she set it on the nearby table and was at his side without remembering crossing the room. His eyes were open and in them she read the agony he was in. “Oh, it's so good to see you.”

His hard mouth curled into a frown. “Water.”

“Oh! Of course. I can't believe it, but I wouldn't give up hope for you. The doctor was less than encouraging, but I knew.” She was babbling, and she couldn't stop the happiness from bubbling up. “You're going to be fine. I know it. I'm so glad. You were so heroic, coming to my rescue as you did.” Her fingertips reached out—she simply couldn't help it.

Emotion overwhelmed her and tears blurred her vision as she stroked the side of his face. Stubbled with prickly whiskers, it felt so good and right just to feel the very manly texture of several days' growth. Her chest clenched tight with an odd longing. It wasn't sexual—she'd tried very hard not to notice the incredibly perfect chest of his and more, much more.

It was something else, something amazing. Her very being seemed to quicken and that warmth new in her chest seemed bigger. It hurt, strangely, and she didn't know what to say. How to tell him she knew he was weak and he would be bedridden for a long while, but she wouldn't let him down.

He'd saved her, and she intended to save him right back.

“W-water,” he snarled.

At least he had the strength to snarl. That had to be a good indication, right? She smiled at him because nothing could dim her gratitude. She raced to the table and stole a tin cup from the shelf overhead. Her fingers were trembling, she spilled water everywhere, but she didn't spill a drop when she eased down beside him on the wide feather bed and held the rim to his cracked lips.

He groaned with pleasure as the cool goodness ran across his bottom lip and over his tongue. He swallowed with difficulty and grimaced in agony at the pain it must have caused.

“Oh, I am so pleased,” she told him, holding the cup to his mouth again. “It is not every day a woman gets her very own hero.”

Hero? Hardly. Duncan growled and, although he'd only swallowed twice, it had exhausted him. He lay panting, eyes tearing, his entire body vibrating with unbearable pain and he remembered her humming. He remembered her at his side and how she'd told the truth.

This morning her eyes were red-rimmed and she was pale with strain. She was wearing his shirt and a pair of his trousers tied with a rope at her waist. The clothes engulfed her, but nothing could dim the sincerity as she eased over him, careful of his wounds and laid her head over his heart.

A sharper pain than he'd ever known bore through his chest. It was an odd thing, to feel tenderness for this strangely emotional woman who'd been honest. And the way she held him seemed just as honest as when the men had come and he'd thought, confusing the present with the past, that he was going to be wrongly accused again.

The sweet scent of honeysuckle filled his head and he wished he could move his arm. Because if he could, he'd lay his hand over her head and wind his fingers through her soft hair. He'd press her close and hold on tight, because she was surely a dream. Surely.

But too soon the outside door swung open and eye-stinging light filled the room. It was more people—he saw the swish of a woman's skirts and heard the low murmur of a man's voice—the same one from before. And she was leaving him, lifting her head and straightening it.

Longing pierced him, but it was impossible because he didn't need or long for anything or anyone. Especially not a pretty and proper town lady who was everything he'd come to distrust. She stood. Her weight lifted from the mattress and he was alone. His chest ached with emotion, but it was impossible to know what emotion he was feeling.

He'd given up on feelings long ago.

“Granny!” It was Betsy's voice, rising with excitement, moving away from him. “What are you doing here? I don't understand. And Mama—”

“What were you thinking? Spending a night all alone with a mountain man. With any man!”

It was a mother's scolding voice and through his foggy vision, he saw two women. One a matronly figure decked out in an enormous hat with a fake flower that bobbed with the movements of her head, which she nodded to emphasize nearly every other word.

Clearly, Betsy's mother. Her ample figure suggested a life of being well fed and her brown dress looked to be of the finest material. He recognized the mother-of-
pearl buttons that marched from her chin to her toes and the disdainful frown that withered her otherwise pleasant face.

She glared at him as if she smelled a skunk. That's all it took and he knew what Betsy's mother saw. She was a lady of means, probably the type that liked everything in its place including people in the slots where they belonged.

And she was right. Her daughter should keep a far distance from him. The stink of prison felt as if it had been ground into his skin and deeper. It had changed him. Tainted him.

Mrs. Prim and Proper shook her head from side to side as she studied him, the flower on her bonnet swaying to and fro.

He focused on that.

It was safer. Easier.

He wished for the strength to let it mean nothing. Nothing at all as the three women—daughter, mother and grandmother—gazed over him. He saw compassion in the elderly woman's eyes and he knew. She knew. Shame rolled over him like a flooding river and the tide of it drowned out everything he'd worked to become. Washing away all the good he'd ever done, and he felt more naked than if he'd worn no clothes at all. And worse, he saw her pity.

“Come, my sweet Bets.” The elderly woman turned her back to him and grabbed hold of Betsy's slender arm and pulled her from his side. “You have worked all night, and I am here now. Go with your mama and your brother, and I will tend the mountain man.”

Yeah, he knew they'd take her from him. They
should. His heart was steel again. His soul impenetrable. Strong again, he let no weak emotion live within him. He watched as her brother took her other arm.

“Come now, Bets,” the brother was saying, not placating, but with real caring. “You have your reputation. The doctor promised me he'd stay with you and he broke his word.”

“Joshua, he had other patients waiting for him. Please, there is no need to be so angry. How could my reputation possibly be damaged? Goodness, anyone would do the same if they were me.”

“Then think of your health, dear.” Granny slipped a thick shawl over Betsy's shoulders, the fine wool wrapped her from chin to ankle. “That will do for now, until we get you home. You've been up all night, haven't you? And with the weather turning, you'll likely catch cold and fall ill. You let your mama take you home and spoil you.”

“Gran, I don't need to be spoiled. I caused this man's injuries.”

“Not you, dear, but the bear.”

“Bears.” It was important that Granny—that everyone—understood. “I have to make this right. I can't leave him. He's too weak to fend for himself, and there are no neighbors close. No one to come if he should need help.”

“There's me.” The gleam in Granny's green eyes said more.

Betsy understood. Mama was so…well, overbearing. She looked at Mr. Hennessey and saw a mountain man who was of no worth. For, as Mama said, what gave a man more worth than a good-paying job and the sense of responsibility to show up for it every day?

All anyone had to do was to glance around the dim one-room cabin to realize Mr. Hennessey wasn't a wealthy man. But he was a worthy one. That was something Granny had to understand.

“I will tend him as well as you would do.” Granny pressed a kiss to Betsy's cheek and secured the shawl pin beneath her chin. “Now, don't worry, my sweet girl. This is for the best.”

“No, I don't think—” She peered over her shoulder at the man who was more shadow than substance, lost in the dark corner where the light did not seem to reach. Her heart wrenched hard, bringing with it a suffocating pain. “He needs me.”

“He needs care, and I will give it to him.” Firmly, although there was no mistaking the love warming her stern ways, Granny turned her around and gave her a shove toward the door.